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To an old friend

I told you I'd never contact you again but I'm not sorry for writing this and saying it's for me. It's for you too. Most importantly this is for God.. Everything that happened in the past for either of us, together and separate, was for a good reason. You weren't just a lesson, you were and still are a person. Of course, I am too. I made the decisions I made and I'm not here to apologize. I'm not here to ask you talk to me(but if you ever do need to contact me, get my number from Oliver). I just want to say thank you for the role you played in me getting closer to God because I learned how to be a good boyfriend when I saw the damage from being a bad one to you. My girlfriend and I have been together for almost five months and I love her the right way. We struggle like every couple but we overcome it together and with Jesus. You took a notebook and put it in the lake. It was symbolic of leaving behind your past. So I have a box containing every sad poem I've ever written, every shirt that I used to wear in my junkie days, a hat I wore in rehab, notes and letters I wrote and received in jail, the box cutter I tried to kill myself with twice, an empty bottle of Canadian whiskey, an empty pack of cigarettes, empty cans of chew, a baggie with a little resin in it, a pipe I smoked out of, a couple unsmoked cigs, a set of keys to a place I used to live at, an old driver's license I got from the DMV in your town, my written order of probation (that I completed), a book I refuse to read again, and most importantly this phone. Rip my pictures from your wall Tear them down and burn them all Light the fire and walk away There's nothing left to say So take the ashes from the floor Bury them to just make sure That nothing more is left of me Just bittersweet memories That was our song years ago but now I listen to it to remind me never to look back on anything. Nomatter how much I look at the past, it doesn't get prettier and I can't change it. All I can do is walk through the doors the Lord opens for me. I have to keep the faith and keep moving forward. I don't love you like I used to. I love you as a person who I hope has found Jesus. And if you haven't, you can contact me about that. If you have, you can still contact me about Jesus. Maybe we can be friends one day. Or maybe it's not meant to be that we ever speak again. That's up to God, not me. Like I said, this isn't an apology. It's a thank you and I hope youre doing well. Youre strong and I know you stay strong. Jesus loves you. Peace.

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If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.

Nikita Gill (via alittlebitoflace)

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God is not consulting people or your past when He decides to use or bless you. Focus on Jesus!

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@yourbeautifulmess19

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We don’t take one step forward, but two steps forward because we do it together.

Poets Love Her (via poetsloveher) @yourbeautifulmess19

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@yourbeautifulmess19 hmm I wonder who (;

Reblog if you've formed a meaningful relationship with someone you met online.

@qin-heartfly *stares intently at you*

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you: excessive and incorrect use of commas

me—an intellectual: excessive and incorrect use of m dashes

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Nordseter by Sondre Eriksen

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I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.

John 16:33 (via godmoves)

Amen..

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You never outgrow your need to preach to yourself the gospel.

John Piper (via kissthewave)