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psst

former mutuals/pals/followers/whatever who might still be following here for whatever reason and would like to reconnect.... i’m perhaps coming back to this site, feel free to dm me and i’ll hook you up with new url once i iron it out?

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hey anon! good news. you don’t have to send me any more weak insults or attempts at triggering me (new low, btw, even for you that was particularly nasty) 

figured it was about time i reported and blocked your pathetic piece of shit michigan ass :)

i kept hoping you might grow some self awareness and knock it off on your own bc this is seriously embarrassing and pathetic, but c’est la vie. i genuinely hope you manage to grow the fuck up someday bc the world could really use less people like you in it, but hey, you do you i guess

other people who aren’t tremendous assholes and would like my new url are still welcome to request it

anon is also going off permanently, being as i know no one ever has the guts to come out face to face to shit on people for no goddamn reason and risk people’s opinions of them actually reflecting the worthless garbage that they really are, and i would really like to only get notifs for people actually requesting the new url at this point before i abandon this place completely

oh, and one last thing. the fact that you apparently spent some time in my face tag to fuel your ire for that lacklustre attempt at literally triggering me is super, super creepy dude

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youre the best mir

u know what i actually am going to post one of the nice ones too bc this is why i keep anon on. for the nice anons i do sometimes get. i get the comfort of anonymity and i wish people used it to be nice or helpful more than to be raging assholes and it fuckin bums me out that i had to disable anon at my new blog to feel comfortable starting it up. maybe i’ll enable it at some point but. ugh.

anyway

u go anon, you’re a sweetheart and i appreciate you (ps, this is directed also at the other two nice anons and handful of not anons i’m not publishing bc i. am leaving. this blog. and just as i’m not posting all the bs hate anons i don’t feel the need to clog ppls dashes or the last pages of this blog w endless ask replies lmao)

also just. in general. shoutout to all the people who follow me who have been very lovely to me over the years on a regular basis, sorry that some bullshit in my personal life and one or two very devoted assholes ruined it for the rest of us as far as this blog is considered

pls feel free to message me for the new url, i’m not trying to dump all of you who have stuck around and Not been tremendous assholes to me, i just really need a clean start and maybe a blog w a follower count that doesnt make my anxiety spike through the roof to the point where i’m terrified of ever making even the vaguest of personal posts lmao

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you keep engaging so obviously youre getting something out of this. i feel like we've really connected, shitty person to shitty person

i keep trying to defend myself and hope that maybe you’ll realise what a ridiculous asshole you’re being and just fuck off already??? i’ve said multiple times that i haven’t been checking this blog more than once or twice a week, and now am only checking it to respond to people who are requesting my new url. 

like what the fuck do you want from me

i’m engaging because you’re attacking me and i’m not the kind of person who just lets that shit go, especially given there has been so fucking much of it, all while i very publicly had stated i was 1) in a bad mental place and 2) not even fucking Here bc i was on hiatus

the amount of anon bullshit i’ve published is less than half of what i’ve gotten, i’m not responding to every single time someone sent me an ask that just said “you’re disgusting” or “fuck you” lmao bc wow you are just. super creative aren’t you. like how fucking pathetic is it that you have the time to apparently check my blog every goddamn day to harrass me, but you don’t seem invested enough to take the time to insult me in any meaningful way

like i fucking insult myself better than you do goddamn daily

or. wait. is that? what you want? do you Want a Connection with me? bc that’s just. really messed up? seriously just. the reason i keep replying for the most part is that i am Utterly Baffled by your rude bullshit like. why are you wasting your time on this, genuinely dude, what the fuck are you doing with your life and what are you trying to get out of it

if you really don’t like me, don’t waste your time on me?? 

please for the love of god just grow the fuck up

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kinda sad how someone sending u anon hate is good for ur self esteem... like is ur life rly that bad that u get a kick out of being morally superior to someone who sends anon hate

what do you want to hear dude

does it make you feel better if i say yes

are you really that shitty a person

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also it was super easy to find your new blog and i can see you dont have anon on that blog so...

1) don’t care, not really trying to hide it lmao

2) gee i fucking wonder why

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debated abt this for a while, but hey, why not

i remade. message me if you want to follow the new blog. i’m not on it anywhere near as often as i used to be, but yeah

it’s been real but i just can’t have this blog anymore, between the anon hate and some weird associations i just need a fresh start 

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youre the worst

oh my fucking gd get a goddamn life already holy shit dude do you seriously think your three word basic ass anon hate messages once or twice a week are going to affect me in literally any way

literally even ryan was better at anon hate and he once sent me one in the form of responding to a “which character do you think i’m most like” les mis ask meme with “you are thenardier because you’re the worst” 

like do you see how pathetic you are that you are a step down from a sixteen year old that i got to stop harrassing me by putting floating glittertexts on my blog layout for a few weeks until he presumably got too embarrassed to go to my askbox anymore??

anyway you’ll be happy to hear that i’m not coming off hiatus here any time soon, and you’re welcome to get a damn life any time you find something better to do with your time then check to see if i’ve posted anything, see that i haven’t, and then send me really banal anon hate anyway

although on the other hand, it actually has been cheering me up bc like, knowing there’s someone like you out there is a great self esteem booster honestly, so knock yourself out i guess

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oh also while i'm here

whoever keeps sending me extremely brief but very vitriolic anon asks is welcome to fuck off and rethink their life any time they want

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WELCOME TO THE FIRE EMBLEM FEMSLASH WEEK!

this event - a fandom-wide celebration of f/f relationships and fanworks - lasts from august 29 until september 4. during this time, everyone who wishes to participate can create any sort of fanwork (fic, art, graphic, etc.) for any ship and submit it to the event tag, #fefemslashweek2016. this way, we can easily find your

the prompts, which you are free to interpret as you wish, are as follows:

august 29: armour

august 30: endings

august 31: family

september 1: legend

september 2: sunshine

september 3: secret

september 4: free-for-all

please take a moment to look over the rules, and if you have any questions, send us an ask!

we hope you have fun!

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"whats this anons deal" im literally a survivor myself and also turning 18 isn't some magical process that automatically grants someone as much power as older people instantaneously, i'm over 18 but still in an age range where i'm seriously skeeved out by the thought of someone 6 years my senior

ok straight up im shutting this down before i go to bed dude i know age doesn’t ~magically~ grant someone power but here’s the thing. nothing does. power balance or imbalance in a relationship is based on trust, communication, and individual maturity. i’ve experienced both sides of bad power/maturity imbalances in relationships and i can tell u it has fuck all nothing to do with age. you may be personally skeeved out by that specific thing but i, who am also a survivor of some pretty traumatizing shit, am not specifically skeeved out by this relationship, and find it comforting, because in my perception it is a healthy relationship based on mutual trust and affection. if you don’t see it that way, both tumblr blacklist and the unfollow button are right there. 

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so apparently this one drawing is the only drawing i can do now, just the same pic of shiro and keith tenderly touching hands and faces in very slightly different positions and colour palettes, this is my life now, just, this drawing, over and over again,

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 “idk if you knew but shiro and keith's canon ages are 25 and 19 so...”

25 and 19 is a 6 year gap but like, whats this anons deal theyre both adults here, go after the pidge shippers instead

1) LMAO IM SO BAD AT MATH

2) my parents are twelve years apart so... i..... like if ppl r both legally and functionally consenting adults idk what the issue is Ever

3) canon ages r still crap as far as i’m concerned it makes literally no sense for them to not be All Roughly College Aged bc if it’s not space college then what the fuck is it. seriously do they go there right after middle school i don’t fuckin think so

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idk if you knew but shiro and keith's canon ages are 25 and 19 so maybe don't ship em

1) that’s not canon that’s still heresay afaik

2) 25 and 19 are??? perfectly acceptable ages for people to date?????????? that’s?? like? a six year age difference but w both of them comfortably legally and functionally adults???? i’m lost w what ur issue is here my dude

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all things fade fast, the best that you get is a good look at the things you have left so i’ll keep you close you are the last of your kind

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apparently soft scribbly sheiths is all i can draw now??? o k

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sum warm messy shirokeith sketches