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(dis·tance)

Sometimes, it's hard to take a risks, to the point that where you can no longer pay attention to the people you love, like your friends.

This is what I'm going through right now and distancing myself seems like the only solution.

Sometimes, it's natural to distance yourself once you feel unwanted, like I do with my friends. It's hard to keep trying when someone seems uncomfortable with your presence.

Distancing myself makes me feel even more unwanted, and it made me realize that no matter what I do, it might not be what they want.

𝓦𝓮 𝓽𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽 𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓱 𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓰𝓵𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓼… 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓱 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻 𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓮𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓯𝓪𝓻 𝓪𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽.

𝓙.𝓐.𝓕𝓲𝓭𝓭𝔂

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I'm always telling myself that I'm fine and healed, but suddenly, I'm not.

Especially when I see our old pictures together, where we were happy, had no problems, and weren't uncomfortable to each other. Now I realize we can't go back to those times because of what has happened between us.

It hurts so much to think that we're both in this situations we never expected, considering we were so happy the day before everything changed. Now, I'm caught up with these memories, just by sitting here alone.

It's just me, looking at our old photo where we were happy, and I wonder what happened. Why did it turn out like this? What did i do? It hurts so badly to see how things have turned out. And it's clear where this is goin'— I'll keep missing you alone. I'm just scared of losing you.

Now I'm afraid to see you, talk to you, or even be near you. I'm scared, and don't understand why I feel this way. I hate it so much. How am I supposed to share updates and stories with you? How can I?

I really miss you so much. 😔

have you ever watched your best friend turn into a stranger?

𝓘𝓽 𝓲𝓼 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝔀𝓮𝓲𝓻𝓭 𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓰𝓸 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓻𝓼, 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼, 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼, 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓹𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓼𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓻𝓼 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷.

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sum·mer the warmest season of the year

Actually, I'm not usually tired in the summer, but this summer has been the worst and most exhausting one I've ever experienced. It's not just because I've been staying at home; I've also discovered something about a friend that has broken my heart into pieces and made me cry for three weeks straight. I'm still trying to make sense of everything, but I think it's better to leave some things unknown.

Despite everything, I want to say thank you for everything you've done for me—the memories, the happy moments, and even the sad ones. I will continue to admire you from afar. Thank you for the joy and the experiences you gave me. I will cherish and hold onto them until the day I die.

Let me admire you from afar even though we're not friends anymore. 🥲

𝒶𝒹𝓂𝒾𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝒶𝒻𝒶𝓇 𝒾𝓈 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇; 𝒷𝑒𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝓉𝑜 𝓁𝑜𝑜𝓀 𝒶𝓉, 𝓎𝑒𝓉 𝓉𝑜𝑜 𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒸𝒽 😔✨

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I'm still waiting for that moment...

— Georgia O'Keeffe

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It is August and I am walking through every door of myself that I can find just to see what is inside.