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Your ways disgust me.

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My life in a nutshell.

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No one follows this blog anyway (2/2)

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No one follows this blog anyway (1/2)

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A work-in-progress. That's me. That's all of us. Yes that's a headscarf. And yes I tore the page while erasing it. This is below average and I'm not proud of it, but here it is anyway, eh.

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I’m yet to learn so much. For starters I need to learn to have patience. Things will come in their own time. I can’t rush anything and I can’t control everything. I am no God, so I need to stop pretending to be one. I need to relax, breathe, and realize there’s nothing wrong with the way things are, just because they’re not exactly the way I want them to be. It’s okay, fucking get over it and move the fuck on you fucktard, why the fuck are you so hellbent over one thing, how can you be such a fucking idiot, snap the fuck out of it or let life beat you down to the ground once again. Something you’re a bit too familiar with. And do you want that to happen again? No? Then wyd?? Things aren’t half as bad. Be resilient, learn from the past instead of dwelling on it, and get the fuck off the ground. No one and I swear no one gives a shit about what you’re going through. You are alone in this and the only way out of this mess is through you. Don’t hope for anyone to come pick you up. Nobody really cares. So stop making the struggles seem mysterious, stop romanticizing the pain you’re going through, stop giving people chances, and give yourself one instead. Me, the little scared voice inside of you, I love you and I believe that you will get through this, with my help, your own help. I love you even though I say I hate me sometimes, I’m the only one who knows what I’ve been through and how I’m fighting this every single everyday. I’m always there for me and I hope I never let me down. Love u.

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Shut the fucking door

Why do I still find myself sneaking around behind closed doors?

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Breathe

Sometimes waves of sadness wash over me and I let myself drown in them. It’s not because I don’t have the strength to fight, but because I need to feel.

But sometimes they’re simply out of control, I can barely breathe.

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Ever since you

I’m not the person I used to be anymore. I don’t even recognize me anymore. I am going insane and I have no idea how to control it. To control myself. To control the sadness. Something I used to be extremely good at.

Is this you, or am I doing this to myself? It’s probably all in my head, it always is.

For someone who is described as rational, I myself am surprised by the difficulty I have in expressing myself. But you made me realize that there are some emotions that just cannot be expressed in words.

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Evil Snow White makeup inspired by @e_creative1

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Halloween witch makeup.

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Halloween makeup #2

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Clown on the left, Joker x Ronald McDonald to the right. Makeup done by moi 💁🏻

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Halloween outfit #1: Slutty Harry Potter 🤓👄

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Goosebumps themed makeup. Inspired by @vannaaaaxo

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Ugly car doodles, idk. Accurate representation of me tho.