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Hi, I don’t know if you’re accepting requests, but you could write something about JK where his girlfriend is accompanying them on tour and he keeps sneaking away without the managers and boys coming to sleep with her or take her to his bunk bed on the tour bus or to his hotel room... smuttt pls

Hi!

Thanks for the request! However, I'm focused on writing the series Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS and for now I am only taking requests for that.

I hope you understand 😔

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It’s 1:15 AM here, and I just finished working 😭

My eyes are burning, and knowing that in less than eight hours I’ll be back at my computer already makes me feel tired for tomorrow 😫

I really wanted to dedicate this week to posts for Chaeri (especially since I received some lovely requests—thank you ❤️), but lately work has been draining all my free time and energy.

I wish I could go back to high school, I loved studying and going to school🥲

Anyway, just a little rant… How are you all doing?

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Oh my god, I don't know how I only just noticed this comment 😭 I'm so sorry.

Thank you so much ❤️

Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI'S MASTERLIST

The relationship between Chaeri and her mother

No one will know the violence it took to become this gentle

❒ warnings: Dysfunctional family, food deprivation, bullying

7 years old Chaeri

"It hurts!" Chaeri whined.

She hated that time of that day, in those classes where your whole body is stretched to its limits and then pulled back tight. The pain always made her feel sick before she came home.

Her teacher kept her knee between her thighs and held both of them pressed flat to the floor. She had said that flexibility training were necessary, but the pressure was terrible.

"It will get better" her teacher insisted "You have to push through the pain, otherwise you'll never get good at this" 

Chaeri gritted her teeth, trying not to cry. She hated how her tears always made the pain worse.

"I don't want to be good at this" 

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9 years old Chaeri

"What happened?!"

Kim Eun's eyes were wide with anger as she looked at her daughter. Chaeri knew that look, she had seen it a million times before. It was the look of disappointment and anger and resentment, all rolled into one.

"I'm sorry" Chaeri cried "It just...slipped"

She tried her hardest, she had practiced over and over the choreography for weeks before going on that stage, to compete with other girls from all parts of France.

She worked hard in the hopes of winning, putting in long hours, catching every nuance of what she wanted to accentuate with her body language alone. But who would have expected a mishap like that?

The hat needed for the continuation of the choreography had slipped off the stage.

Chaeri had been trying to grab it, but she was too late. It had fallen to the ground and she had tripped over it.

"I didn't deserve such an untalented daughter"

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10 years old Chaeri

Chaeri was in her room. Her face was still adorned with the sparkling glitter she had used in the competition earlier that evening.

She had prepared so much for this contest, to the point of exhaustion.

Months of rehearsing the same choreography over and over again, perfecting every move, every expression, every breath.

She had come home with a beautiful, shiny silver trophy, just big enough to sit proudly on the shelf above her desk.

The walls were painted a light purple, and the trophy she had just received stood out in its bright tones.

“What did the first-place winner do that you did not?” Chaeri, who had not heard the woman's footsteps stopping at the door frame to her room, jumped in fright at Eun's low, stiff voice.

The look on her face was one of disappointment, but not surprise. 

There was a minute of silence before the girl found the right words. She knew that it would only lead to more unpleasant consequences if she gave an answer that the woman would find stupid.

“She… she was perfect,” Chaeri admitted, the admittance a shard of glass in her throat.

“Perfection is what we strive for” her mother stated  “Anything less is simply rehearsal.”

Chaeri’s fingers curled into the fabric of her skirt, the trophy’s shine now seemed to have suddenly become dulled, taking the form of a pale witness to failing. “I thought you would be proud…just a little maybe”

“To be proud, Chaeri, one must first be satisfied” Kim Eun said, holding back a bitter laugh. She could not believe what she was hearing. “And satisfaction is earned, not given for mediocrity. Second place is just the first loser.”

“I’ll do better next time.”

“Do better?” Kim Eun scoffed, stepping into the room, her presence overwhelming. “Doing better is not enough. You must be the best. Anything less is a waste of my investment in you.”

Chaeri’s hands clenched into fists, her nails digging into her palms. “Your investment” she echoed. Feeling more than ever like an object and not a daughter.

"Yes, my investment,” she affirmed, disgusted to have to repeat herself. Ashamed to have received such a response  “I’ve given you everything— the best teachers, the best opportunities. And yet, you consistently fall short.”

The room felt smaller, the air thicker. Chaeri’s breaths came in short gasps, as if the very act of breathing was a challenge. She wanted to scream, to lash out, to tell her mother that she was more than an investment, more than a project to be perfected.

She opened her mouth to speak. Her eyes burned with anger and rebellion, not at her mother, but at her tormentor. For all of her life.

But she had no time to do so, as the woman turned and told her  “I expect you to practice until you can’t stand,” she said, her voice devoid of warmth. “Maybe then, you’ll have a chance at being worthy of this family”

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11 years old Chaeri

"Mom!"

Still in her bun and the warm baby pink jumpsuit, Chaeri wandered through the many rooms of her huge mansion looking for her mother.

It was almost sunset, and by that time, Chaeri was usually never home.

The ballet classes she took would occupy her entire day, giving her free time only after dinner and on weekends.

Hence, hearing the young girl's voice around the house disturbed her mom.

"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be in class?"

Chaeri followed her mother's voice that led her to the woman's bedroom.

She was rarely allowed to enter that room. As her mother said, a woman's bedroom is a sanctuary that must not be violated.

Bullshit, Chaeri thought. Her mother thought she was stupid enough to believe that shit just because she was only 11 years old, but she knew perfectly well the real reason: Her mother was sleeping with her dance teacher and didn't want her children to see the evidence of it.

But she honestly didn't care. Her mother's private life was none of her business. 

Kim Eun, who never seemed to have a hair out of place and always looked like she just stepped off the pages of a magazine, was there. Even though her makeup was usually so subtle that it did not even seem real, today, without wearing any makeup at all, she was more beautiful than a normal woman could ever hope to be. Her skin looked as if the sun had kissed her whole face, giving her smooth cheeks and an ivory complexion. 

"I'm home" Chaeri greeted her softly, remembering all the times her mother had scolded her for being too loud and clumsy

"I can tell you're home, I asked you why" Her mother crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow, a sure sign she was already annoyed by the conversation, but Chaeri ignored it, she knew that what she was going to say would change her mood.

"I got the role of Columbine in the Nutcracker!"

"Well, I'm not surprised" Kim Eun said and Chaeri's face lit up, thinking she was about to receive congratulations from her mother "You have an innate talent for earning good-for-nothing roles"

"But this is the role I've been waiting for" Chaeri protested "All my classmates wanted to be 'Clara'. I think Columbine is a much more fun character and then, the duet with Harlequin is very difficult, just because I dance less doesn't mean I'm-"

"Stop it" In a sudden outburst, her mother's voice was louder than usual and Chaeri stopped midsentence.

The usually graceful Kim Eun, who towered over her daughter with her imposing height, looked like a mad woman. She only revealed this side of herself within the walls of her home

"Stop talking nonsense" she hissed "Did you even try to get the role of 'Clara'?"

Dropping her head, Chaeri turned to look at the tips of her shoes. They were beautiful; shiny white so bright you could see yourself reflected in them. There was no occasion when her mother did not remind her how all those 'beautiful' things she got them because of her and no one else.

"I tried, even though it wasn't the role I wanted"

"And you couldn't get it"

"No"

"Obviously, you tried not hard enough," she snapped back "You are a disappointment. Why can't you be as good as your brother? You will bring shame upon my reputation"

"No matter what you expected of me, I wanted the role of Columbine anyway" Chaeri said, trying to keep the hurt out of her voice "So I'm not interested in what you have to say"

"You little- " Before her mother could finish, Chaeri turned around and ran out of the room, not wanting to be hit by her.

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12 years old Chaeri

The kitchen was quiet, the only sound was the soft ticking of the clock on the wall. Chaeri sat at the table, staring at the plate in front of her. It was almost empty, just a few slices of apple and a handful of almonds. This was her dinner, the same as it had been for the past few weeks.

Her mother believed that a ballerina’s figure was paramount, that it was the key to grace and beauty on stage. “You must be light as a feather, my dear” she would say, her voice as cold as the untouched food on Chaeri’s plate. “No one wants to see a heavy dancer.”

Chaeri knew better than to argue. The last time she had asked for more food, her mother had looked at her as if she had asked for the moon. “You want to be a dancer, don’t you?” she had said, her tone implying that hunger was a small price to pay for success.

But Chaeri was tired. Tired of being hungry, tired of the constant ache in her stomach that no amount of water could quell. She missed the warmth of a full meal, the satisfaction of eating something meaty.

All because she'd been found to be one pound over her classmates during the monthly body check at dance school. That damned pound, her teacher had pointed out, was too much for a dancer whose job is to be lifted into the air by others. "Don't be selfish" the teacher had told her, "you'll make anyone who does a pas de deux with you lose their breath at that weight."

Never before had she felt so humiliated, never before had she been so ashamed of the chocolate chip cookies in her backpack that she had brought with her as a snack.

She pushed the plate away, frustrated with that dinner that could not be called 'dinner'.

Her mother smiled at her when she saw that she got up from the table without touching a single almond. Her stomach turned and she felt nauseous.

How perverse was it that she had to treat her body unnaturally in order to gain the approval of the woman who had given her life?

She caught a glimpse of herself in the reflection of the window. The moonlight cast a pale glow on her face, highlighting the sharpness of her cheekbones, the hollowness of her eyes. She was the picture of a perfect ballerina, and yet, she had never felt more imperfect. 

She turned away from the window, from the ghostly reflection that seemed to mock her. She would go to bed hungry again tonight, but in her dreams, she would feast like a queen.

taglist: @alixnsuperstxr | @bts-dream | @enchantingbrowneyedgirl | @ycuvi | @cosmicwintr

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Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI’S MASTERLIST

Check CHAERI'S LOVE LIFE'S TIMELINE to discover when this event takes place

[10042018] Instagram update

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liked by private.jin, private.jimin, private.hobi and others.

private.chaeri not pictured: him whining for head pats before this 🫣

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private.jk don’t expose me like this, you’re making me look bad in front of the hyungs 😫

private.chaeri you’re doing a fine job of that on your own, I’m just here to document it 😌

private.v he whines for fried chicken too

private.chaeri honestly, I can’t tell if he loves me or the chicken more at this point

private.hobi next time spare a head pat for your Hobi oppa 🥺

private.chaeri oppa, you can have both head pats AND hugs. Jungkookie will learn to share

private.jk I don’t know the meaning of the word ‘share’

private.jin finally someone else is babysitting him. My job here is done

private.chaeri it’s a full-time job. How did you survive this long?

private.jk you didn’t even babysit me. You just yelled whenever I got too loud!

private.jin and look how great you turned out. You’re welcome

private.chaeri great? He whines for head pats. Your methods were questionable at best

private.jin I was not charging for it. I did the best that a free service could offer

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Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI’S MASTERLIST

Check CHAERI'S LOVE LIFE'S TIMELINE to discover when this event takes place

[15112022] Instagram update

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liked by _starhwa_, choi3an, imfinalho_ and 2,486,133 others.

no1likeme8_8 she lights up the night ✨🌌

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wooyounggg__ she’s way cooler than you. Just saying 🥰

chaeri he knows 🥰🤭

no1likeme8_8 Betrayed by my own girl and my teammate… it hurts

user_1 protect this couple at all costs 🥹

user_2 you’re one lucky guy Hongjoong

choi3an now everyone knows you’re a simp

imfinalho_ pfff everyone already knew that

user_3 the soft boyfriend agenda is REAL 👀🩷

user_4 Hongjoong being the biggest fan of his girlfriend

user_5 you’re not special we’re in love with her too 😭

im_ovation this is not the hyung I know 👀 Who is this impostor?

fixon_n_on emergency meeting 🚨

user_6 Among us inside joke? LOVE IT

taglist: @alixnsuperstxr | @bts-dream | @enchantingbrowneyedgirl | @ycuvi | @cosmicwintr

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Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI'S MASTERLIST

❒ warnings: descriptions of trauma; panic attacks; anxiety; effects of post-traumatic stress; fear; psychological distress; emotional vulnerability.

THE TRAUMA

Imagine waking up with your heart pounding so loudly it echoes in your ears, in a dense, oppressive silence. As soon as you open your eyes, the room is cloaked in shadow, and what should be your bedroom—a safe place—suddenly transforms into an alien space, filled with invisible threats. 

For Chaeri, this is the beginning of a crisis that traps her, a sensation that unfolds in mere moments as she wakes, when her mind is not yet fully conscious and fear takes shape as a tangible danger. These episodes stem from a profound trauma, an event that altered the way Chaeri perceives the world. To her, people, spaces, even the night itself, have lost their neutrality. 

It’s as if a part of her is always on high alert, constantly ready to defend against an invisible but persistent threat. Her mind and body treat every noise, every shadow, as though it were a lurking trap. During these nightmares—or more accurately, these moments of post-waking paranoia—Chaeri is convinced that someone could genuinely harm her. 

Rationally, she knows she’s alone and safe, but it’s as if her body refuses to accept it. Her mind knows there’s no one in the room, but her body reacts as if there is, as if every shadow is a threat.

This is a typical effect of trauma, and for those who experience it, it’s exhausting: it breaks your sense of control and makes you feel as though you’re always at the mercy of a danger you can’t see. When she experiences these moments, her breathing becomes shallow and labored. 

You might picture her curled up, wide-eyed, as if desperately trying to see something in the darkness. She tries to tell herself that no one is there, repeating it like a mantra: “It’s just in my head.” But that awareness isn’t enough. It’s as if her mind can’t command her body. 

Even though she knows there’s no real danger, her body continues to respond as if there is. It’s a paradox, a mental trap that’s nearly impossible to escape from easily. There’s a term for this kind of fear that manifests even when we’re awake: body memory. Trauma is like a poison that doesn’t dissolve; it continues to course through her body in the form of instincts, of reactions. 

Even after opening her eyes, after realizing it’s all an illusion, Chaeri remains trapped in that feeling of danger, as if every fiber of her being refuses to forget. Even when her mind is clear, her body cannot let go of the terror that reminds her of the past experience.

It is difficult to explain what it is like to wake up in an empty room and, at the same instant, feel as if there is someone next to your bed, ready to do harm. For those who have not experienced it, it is almost impossible to comprehend the feeling of being hostage to your body, of feeling that your own mind is against you, trapped in a series of fears that you cannot rationalize.

If Chaeri could speak openly about her problem, she would admit that she hadn't been the same for years. She would admit that she had been living with the sensation of wearing glasses with the wrong lenses, distorting everything around her. She would admit that the transition from girl to teenager scared her more than it does most girls, because she feared that the impact of her past experience would shape her into a person she didn't want to become.

The early days with the rest of the members were scary and problematic for Chaeri, when she realized that from then on she would share everything with those seven boys for a long time. There were different reasons for this, but the main ones were that she would have to live with strangers, all men, and that she wouldn't be able to hide her vulnerability for long, given the dormitory conditions that included a shared bedroom, one bathroom, and a kitchen.

Once she overcame the initial hurdle and realized they were all extremely kind and reliable, and that they had no intention of harming her, the challenge remained to build relationships with all of them and try not to let them notice her problem.

At first, it seemed like a good idea to force her eyes to stay open and her mind alert until everyone else had fallen asleep. This way, she could sneak out of the bedroom and sit as comfortably as possible on a lounge chair in the kitchen/living room, and fall asleep there. She didn't want to offend the others or make them think she was hiding something.

And at first, it worked: no one noticed she wasn't sleeping in her bed, and when the episodes began, she faced them alone, waiting for them to pass. However, the routine of being a trainee and soon-to-be idol became increasingly tough, and staying awake to carry out her little escape became more difficult. Plus, as she got to know the boys better and felt more comfortable with them, falling asleep as soon as her back touched the mattress became inevitable.

It wasn’t long before she realized that her attempts to mask her episodes, to keep them hidden from the others, would be a futile effort. There would always be nights when the fear overtook her, when the echoes of her past crept into her present, leaving her trembling and panicked. And there was no way the others wouldn’t notice. There was no place to hide. No way to conceal the nights she woke up gasping for air, clutching her chest as if to hold her heart together.

At first, she was terrified of their reactions. What would they think of her? Would they pity her? Would they think she was broken? These thoughts swirled in her head constantly in the early weeks, amplifying her anxiety and making it harder to connect with the others on a deeper level.

The first time it happened, she wished the earth would swallow her whole. One night, Taehyung had found her sitting on the floor of the bathroom, her knees pulled to her chest, her breathing shallow and erratic. She had been convinced that she heard someone moving in the apartment, despite knowing all the doors were locked. Taehyung, groggy but concerned, had crouched down beside her, his voice soft and hesitant as he asked what was wrong. She couldn’t answer him; words were stuck in her throat. All she could do was shake her head, hoping he’d leave. He didn’t. Instead, he fetched Namjoon, who knelt beside her, speaking soothing words that barely registered through the fog of her panic.

The morning after, they didn’t press her. They gave her space, but their kindness only made her feel worse. She hated that they’d seen her like that, hated that they were now burdened with the knowledge of her weakness.

It was inevitable that the more time they spent together, the more frequent the nights became when she was seized by that post-nightmare terror. Eventually, every member of the group, some more aware of the details than others, came to know what Chaeri had experienced and how she couldn’t free herself from the pain it had caused her.

It wasn’t as though she wanted them to know—each revelation felt like a tiny fracture in the armor she had so carefully constructed—but the dorm left little room for secrets.

Jin was the next to find her during an episode. It had been a particularly grueling day of training, and she had gone to bed more exhausted than usual. Sleep came quickly, but so did the nightmare. This time, the suffocating fear was so overwhelming that she had stumbled out of her bed, trying to shake the sensation of hands gripping her wrists, of whispered threats echoing in her ears.

She had collapsed onto the kitchen floor, knees pressed to the cold tiles, her breath coming in rapid gasps. That’s where Jin found her, his sleepy confusion quickly giving way to concern. He didn’t say much—just crouched beside her, his large hand resting lightly on her shoulder.

She couldn’t look at him, tears streaming down her face. He stayed there with her for what felt like an eternity, quietly humming a tune she recognized from one of their early practices. It wasn’t until her breathing evened out that he spoke.

“Do you want me to stay, or should I give you some space?”

The choice made her stomach twist; both options felt unbearable. Finally, she whispered “Space, please.” Jin nodded, giving her shoulder a reassuring squeeze before leaving. The next morning, he made her favorite breakfast, wordlessly sliding the plate in front of her at the table.

Slowly but surely, the boys began to understand that whatever Chaeri was going through was far bigger than anything they could fix on their own. It was Yoongi who first broached the idea of professional help, after watching her struggle through another restless night. “Sometimes, we need help to untangle the things we can’t face alone. You can’t keep carrying this by yourself. It’s eating you alive.”

She didn’t want to disappoint them. She agreed to try, hoping that maybe they were right, that maybe someone out there could fix her. But stepping into that small, sterile room with its overstuffed armchair and soft lighting felt wrong from the start.

The therapist had kind eyes and a soothing voice, but none of it mattered. Chaeri couldn’t bring herself to say the words. She sat there, stiff and guarded, giving vague answers to every question, terrified of being truly seen. Each session became a battlefield between her need to heal and her unwillingness to face the monster lurking in her past.

It wasn’t that she didn’t want to get better. She did. But something about talking felt like peeling off a scab that hadn’t even begun to heal. Every word felt like it might split her open, leaving her vulnerable and raw. And so, after a few weeks, she stopped going, telling them that it “just wasn’t helping.” She could see the sadness in their eyes, though they tried to hide it. That made it worse.

Since therapy didn’t work, Chaeri began to lean into small, self-made rituals to regain some control over her nights.

Her rituals started out simple, born out of desperation. They were little routines meant to anchor her, to remind her that she was safe. Before bed, she would triple-check every lock in the dorm—front door, balcony door, and even the windows. She would glance under the beds and inside the closets, even though she knew rationally that there was nothing there.

As the years went by, the episodes came less frequently, though they never disappeared entirely. At their peak, the episodes had occurred nearly every night, leaving her physically and emotionally drained. But slowly, as time passed, they began to fade.

Now, months or even years might pass without a single one. She didn’t know whether this was because time had dulled the sharp edges of her fear or because she was learning to cope. Maybe it was both.

What she was sure of, however, was that the constant help from the members had significantly affected her gradual recovery of her sleep, happiness and peace. Even when the shadows in her mind came back to visit her, there was always someone ready to support her in getting the light back. It was a realization that allowed her to look at the future with new eyes, without the burden of a past she could never erase, but could learn to live with it.

taglist: @alixnsuperstxr | @bts-dream | @enchantingbrowneyedgirl | @ycuvi | @cosmicwintr

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Heyyy, I've updated the masterlist with a new layout. I like this one much more than the previous one 🍒🥹

Kang Chaeri's Masterlist

🍒 About Chaeri

profile | before the fame

🍒 Relationships

𝘉𝘛𝘚 ᥫ᭡ hyung line | maknae line

𝘏𝘺𝘣𝘦 ᥫ᭡ staff

𝘍𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 ᥫ᭡ her mother

𝘊𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴 ᥫ᭡ the weeknd | new jeans | blackpink | harry styles

🍒 Love Life

ᥫ᭡ In chronological order, Chaeri's love life moments

ᥫ᭡ 𝘋𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘴, 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 ● Pics and videos of Jk inside Chaeri's phone ● Hongjoong's favourite hairstyle ● Chaejoong types of kisses

🍒 Appearance and Aura

𝘉𝘰𝘥𝘺 ᥫ᭡ ● hairstyles and which one is the member's favourite ● body and which part of it Jk's likes the most ● tattoos

𝘗𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺 ᥫ᭡ ● dark feminine energy

𝘚𝘵𝘺𝘭𝘦 ᥫ᭡ ● BTS - World Tour 'Love Yourself: Speak Yourself' Japan 2019.07.14 ● BTS - Fake Love - Music Video

🍒 Career

𝘔𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘤 ᥫ᭡ first mini album

𝘈𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 ᥫ᭡ her debut as actress

𝘗𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱 ᥫ᭡ apple ambassador

🍒 Mini Stories

𝘈 𝘗𝘪𝘤 𝘈 𝘚𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘰 ᥫ᭡ one | two | three | four | five | six | seven

🍒 Headcanons

𝙾𝚃𝟽 ᥫ᭡ ● Bedtime habits ● Mockingbird ● Gentlemen for Chaeri ● Fall in the snow

𝘑𝘪𝘯 ᥫ᭡ ● Jin came back home

𝘠𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘪 ᥫ᭡ ● The mattress and the necklace

𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘦𝘳𝘪 ᥫ᭡ ● Trends that went viral thanks to Chaeri

🍒 Drabbles

𝘔𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘪𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘔𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘴 ᥫ᭡

● Valentine's Day

OT7 | 1.3K words | slice of life | In which Chaeri decides to spend her savings on a treat for her newly found "brothers" | february 2013

● Dior Fashion Show

Jimin; Hosek | 2.3k words | fluff | In which Dior's fashion show becomes just an excuse to forget about the hiatus | january 2023

● PTD On Stage in LA | Day 3

OT7 | 972 words | slice of life | In which Chaeri uses Tae's beauty to her benefit | december 2021

● J-Hope's Enlistment

Hoseok; Namjoon | 1.3k words | In which Hobi spends the night before enlisting with Chaeri and Namjoon | april 2023

● Sasaeng

OT7 | 5k words | hurt-comfort | In which Chaeri realizes that she took the wrong choice | 2020, pandemic period

𝘑𝘪𝘯 ᥫ᭡

● Fix you

1.1k words | fluff | In which Jin takes Chaeri to Coldplay concert | april 2017

𝘠𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘪 ᥫ᭡

● Ginger Tea

1k words | fluff; hurt-comfort | In which Chaeri can't sleep due to stomach ache | april 2013

𝘕𝘢𝘮𝘫𝘰𝘰𝘯 ᥫ᭡

● Take it too far

1.1k words | angst; hurt-comfort | In which Namjoon is concerned about Chaeri's health | early 2021

𝘛𝘢𝘦𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘯𝘨 ᥫ᭡

● I've got my eye on you

2k words | angst; emotional | In which Chaeri realised that she missed the warmth of a hug more than she expected and that family may not always be a matter of blood | 2013; before their debut

𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘦𝘳𝘪 ᥫ᭡

● Dragon boy

1.6k words | fluff; slice of life | In which a little fan steals Chaeri's heart | september 2019 to april 2023

𝘈𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘻 ᥫ᭡

● Wooyoung's birthday

Wooyoung; Jimin | 1.k words | slice of life | In which Wooyoung asks Chaeri to introduce him to Jimin | november 2022

🍒 Digital Impact

● A look through Chaeri's popularity on international social media ●

𝘐𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘮 ᥫ᭡ ● Calvins or nothing [15042023] ● Coachella girlies [16042023] ● Hanging out with Namjoon [30042023] ● Calvin Klein Event in may ● Maknae line at Agust D concert ● Namjoon's birthday [12092024]

𝘖𝘧𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘣𝘦 𝘊𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵 ᥫ᭡

● 2022 BTS FESTA

Chaeri standing up for Jimin and him getting emotional

● Hide & Seek w/ BTS & Ashton Kutcher

𝘍𝘢𝘯𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘰𝘴 ᥫ᭡

● Chaeri and Jungkook caught on camera

Chaekooknation, a popular YouTube channel dedicated to the Jungkook x Chaeri ship, recently posted a compilation of moments featuring the two that, according to the channel, hint at their secret relationship

● Chaeri and Hongjoong parenting their demon children

A compilation of moments where Chaeri and Hongjoong act like mom and dad of Ateez

𝘖𝘧𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘛𝘪𝘬𝘵𝘰𝘬 𝘊𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵 ᥫ᭡ ● Tinittus ● Better than me

𝘍𝘢𝘯𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘛𝘪𝘬𝘵𝘰𝘬 ᥫ᭡ ● The 'flirt' line ● The way Namjoon looks at Chaeri ● Chaeri Airport Fashion ● Jimin and Chaeri attending Yoongi's concert ● Puberty ● Chaejoong | Heartless ● Videos of Chaeri that went viral

𝘛𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 / 𝘟 ᥫ᭡ ● Calvin Klein Fall 2023 ● JK's reaction to Chaeri's photo folio ● JK and his habit to remove in-ears when Chaeri sings

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omg did hongjoong and cha actually broke up? 😔😔😔 im rooting so hard for them

We don’t know yet 😭😭😭😭

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I watched the first episode of Mr. Plankton, and I already have the feeling that it’s going to be another K-trauma 😭

To add, it only took me five minutes to develop a massive crush on this man 🥹

Woo Do-Hwan the man that you are 🥰

WOO DO-HWAN as HAE-JO in MR. PLANKTON 1.01

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@littlestatesman missed you too 😭

Me coming back like I didn’t just disappear for six months 👉👈

Me whenever I see a mutual I haven’t seen post in a long while:

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Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI'S MASTERLIST

[12092024] Instagram update

ORIGINAL POST

내가 항상 원하던, 인생이 나에게 선물해 준 형에게. 항상 내게 기댈 수 있는 어깨가 되어 준 너에게, 너무 피곤하거나 너무 슬프거나 그냥 웃음에 휘말려서 멈추고 숨 쉴 수 없을 때마다 나를 지탱해 준 너에게. 나에게 예술가로서뿐만 아니라 사람으로서 성장하는 법을 가르쳐 준 너에게, 옳고 그름을 구별하는 힘을 보여 주고, 항상 나 자신과 나의 꿈에 충실할 수 있도록 도와 준 너에게. 너의 지혜와 인내로 내가 진정으로 가족이란 무엇인지, 그리고 아름다운 것에 속하는 것이 무엇인지 알게 해 준 너에게. 너 없는 세상은 상상할 수 없어, 너의 미소가 항상 거기 있어 나에게 힘을 주고, 사랑받고 이해받고 있다는 느낌을 주는 너에게. 오늘, 그리고 매일, 너에게 행복과 건강, 그리고 매일 너가 주변 사람들에게 전하는 그 에너지가 가득한 삶을 기원해. 너무나 고마운 내 Joonie, 항상 있어줘서 고마워.

진심을 담아,

너의 영원한 작은 Chaeri ❤️

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Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI'S MASTERLIST

Check CHAERI'S LOVE LIFE'S TIMELINE to discover when this event takes place

Web article

August, 2023

Anyone who loves and follow KPOP, which has become a global phenomenon, cannot ignore the increasingly persistent rumors about a possible breakup between Chaeri, the only female member of BTS, and Hongjoong, the leader of ATEEZ. The two, long considered one of the most iconic couples in the music industry, seem to have taken separate paths: no more sightings together, absence of interactions on social media, and now a new very personal song by Hongjoong that has raised many suspicions.

Signs of a possible crisis are not lacking. Recently, Chaeri ended her contract as the choreographer of ATEEZ, a role in which she was considered the creative mind behind many of their breathtaking choreographies. A choice that many interpret as a signal of the young artist's desire to distance herself not only professionally but also personally. Even though Chaeri explained in a recent live broadcast that the collaboration with ATEEZ was always intended to be temporary and that she now wishes to focus on new projects with girl groups, fans remain puzzled and find it hard to fully believe her. The timing of the contract's end and the alleged distancing between her and Hongjoong appears to many as too strong a signal to be ignored.

As if that were not enough, Hongjoong has released a new song that seems to be an open confession, and perhaps an implicit accusation. The lyrics of the song, titled “Why Do You Love?”, enigmatically address someone who seems to have “replaced” or “forgotten” him. With intense phrases like “You can’t be with anyone else, only me” fans are hypothesizing that the ATEEZ leader is expressing his pain over the possible end of his relationship with Chaeri.

In the most dramatic lines of the song, Hongjoong sings: “You said you couldn’t imagine yourself with anyone else but me… I hope this is just a misunderstanding.” Words that leave no doubt about the artist's suffering and confusion, as if he is struggling to accept the reality of a lost love that he perhaps believed was to last.

Fans on social media have been very active about the matter, with many wondering if there really is another love in Chaeri's life, if the song is a desperate call from Hongjoong to win her back, or if the two things are not related at all.

For now, neither of them has made any official statements. The uncertainty about the truth behind these signals is splitting the fandom: some hope for a return to the spotlight for the couple, others ardently wish that their relationship is really over.

If confirmed, the end of Chaeri and Hongjoong's relationship would leave a bitter taste in the mouths of many fans, who considered them to be THE couple of K-pop, among the first to expose themselves so much and so naturally to the public. Are these just rumors or are they really going through a difficult time? While awaiting an answer, we advise fans, for those who haven't already done so, to listen to “Why Do You Love?” by Hongjoong.

Not only could the song offer some more clues about his emotions, but it is also an incredibly well-produced track. The song has already won the hearts of many listeners for the artistic skill with which Hongjoong has voiced his (alleged) feelings.

Twitter / X after the article:

💭 If Chaeri really started a relationship with someone else, I am sorry for Hongjoong. He doesn't deserve this

💭 Chaeri always seems too focused on herself, and now Hongjoong loses out. It's a shame

💭 Hongjoong, atinys are here to support you, whatever is going on. No one should see you like this.

💭 I hope Hongjoong is not hurting too much, honestly don't know what he found in her. I hope he finds someone who really appreciates him!

💭 I've listened to 'Why Do You Love?' a thousand times, and there are details that suggest it's really dedicated to her…

💭 Ok, maybe Hongjoong is really suffering and has dedicated an entire song to her, but am I the only one annoyed by this? I mean, it's already enough to have had their relationship thrown in our faces all this time, and now we fans are also forced to listen to music written for her?

💭 No matter what happens in his personal life, Hongjoong is an extraordinary artist and his music is always powerful.

💭 He so beautiful even without makeup and completely au naturel, if Chaeri doesn't want him I will volunteer very gladly.

💭 I don't understand all the hate for Chaeri. Being a female idol is hard enough; criticizing her for something we don't know is unfair

💭 They are human, and couples break up all the time on a daily basis. If they did, I don't understand why we should care so much about it. It's their own business

💭 Leave Chaeri alone.

💭 As a BTS fan for years, I knew that the relationship with him for Chaeri would only be a problem. He clearly never lived up to her standards and if she realized this now, all the better!!!

💭 This song makes me realize more and more that I am probably a child of divorce 🥺 Chaejoong, you were THE couple.

Last conversation on Chaeri's phone

**I know that Hongjoong's song was released this August, but for storyline reasons, I indicated the release date as August 2023

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Can u do please the members reaction to Cheari and Hongjoong's relationship and what do they think about him and thank u

Hi!!

Thank you so much for your question 🫶 Just click here to find a post about this topic

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when will u update chaeri's story 🥹

I just did it! 🫶🏼🥹

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Just saw your post about the members reaction to Chaeri and JK, and I wanna know what they thought about Hongjoong and Chaeri? Hell, I even wanna know what ATEEZ thought about their relationship too!

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Hi!! 🫶🏼

I’m so embarrassed by how much time has passed since I got your message—I'm so sorry for the wait! It’s been such a busy and stressful time for me 🥹

Thank you for your question!

Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

BTS

The members quickly learned to consider themselves as a family. Living together and sharing everything since their teenage years, their bond has always been similar to that of siblings. This, for better or worse, includes constantly meddling in each other’s lives, both for fun and to take care of one another. This extends to almost every aspect of their lives, including romantic relationships.

It was impossible – and, in reality, Chaeri didn’t even try – to hide the growing bond between her and Hongjoong from the other members of the group. On the night of the party where they met, Taehyung and Jungkook noticed them, which inevitably led also to the last member of the 'maknae line' finding out about the news. They were the first three to know:

Taehyung was very surprised. Being Chaeri’s best friend and never having heard her talk about Hongjoong before, their union initially seemed a bit strange and rushed to him. Only later, when she confessed to him that at the party, she had approached Hongjoong with the intention of annoying him and Jungkook - who had followed her without her consent - and only later did that situation turn into something more significant, including the desire to normalize relationships among K-pop idols, Taehyung realized that such behavior was typical of Chaeri.

From the moment the relationship between Chaeri and Hongjoong became something more serious than just an excuse to create a scandal in the industry, V showed his support. However, he frequently asked her questions designed to make her reflect on her relationship, asking if it was really what she wanted or if she had just been swept up in a situation that made her feel good but that she didn’t truly desire.

The way Chaeri proudly showed off her relationship to everyone, without fear of judgment, inspired him and made him proud. It even led him to decide to be braver himself, giving the public clear hints about his own relationship, though in a less obvious way.

The first time he met Hongjoong as Chaeri's official boyfriend, one might have expected him to say the classic line, "If you hurt her, you'll have to deal with me." Instead, he said, "If she scares you to death, don't come looking for me. She scares me to death too. But I guess that's her way of showing love”.

Jimin was taken aback. He knew that the situation between Chaeri and Jungkook had reached an even more critical point than before, but he did not expect that the two would actually try to date other people. Their constant fighting, more or less hidden from the eyes of others, was causing stress and sadness for the group, which felt helpless in the face of that dramatic situation. Therefore, he tried to understand and support Chaeri's decision to date Hongjoong as much as possible.

Jimin had always been very reserved about his relationships with the media, aware of how much the K-pop scene could destroy even the most beautiful and genuine connections. Seeing Chaeri, on the other hand, not hide and proudly show the world her sentimental commitment filled him with pride. He knew that she was fighting to normalize the situation for all idols, giving them back their freedom to be human in the eyes of the public.

And while he was initially unsure about Hongjoong, Jimin warmed to him at some point. He liked how Hongjoong carried himself, and with being the leader of his group, he could guess what kind of person he was: responsible, serious, dedicated. Three qualities he believed were essential to be able to romantically connect with someone like his female teammate.

However, what impressed Jimin most was Hongjoong's approach to Chaeri's strong and overwhelming personality and the way he respected her boldness rather than trying to suppress it as many other men would have done.

Although he had never said it out loud, he was grateful to Hongjoong for standing by Chaeri's side at a time when few others could have done so, which was when she ended up on forced hiatus from the BTS.

As the oldest member of BTS, Jin had always seen himself as the “big brother” of the group, ready to offer advice or tease anyone who found themselves in a new relationship. To him, Chaeri was like a little sister, and he wanted to make sure that anyone she dated was worthy of her, which is why he began to “investigate” Hongjoong. He asked around and read articles about him and his group, eager to determine whether he was truly interested in her and not just looking for personal gain.

However, no article or information was more helpful than observing them together and hearing Chaeri talk about him. In the end, this led him to deliver his “verdict”: he approved of the relationship.

True to his style, Jin expressed his approval with a touch of humor. “So, he’s not scared off yet?” he joked with Chaeri, smiling. “Good for him! I barely lasted an hour when we met because of your bratty attitude.”

But beyond his playful nature, he also found moments to talk to her seriously. “I can see he cares about you. So just make sure he keeps caring about you as much as you care about him”

For Jin, Chaeri’s happiness was the most important thing. He was proud to see her openly embracing her happiness, knowing how much she had suffered in the past from having to keep her previous relationship hidden.

Yoongi, when he knew about her relationship with Hongjoong, didn’t comment immediately and took a step back, preferring to observe and let Chaeri share as much—or as little—as she wanted. To him, relationships were personal, and he respected her decision to make her relationship public, understanding how it could be both liberating and daunting in their world. He had always been the type to keep his thoughts on love and relationships close to the chest, so seeing her put herself out there made him feel both proud and slightly worried for her.

One evening, some time after the news broke, noticing how serious their relationship was becoming, he decided to give Chaeri a single piece of advice: “Just make sure you’re doing this for yourself. Don’t get caught up in proving something to anyone. If it makes you happy, that’s what matters.” 

Yoongi just wanted to make sure she hadn’t made the decision because she was angry or disappointed about her past with Jungkook, aware of how such emotions could lead to choices she might regret. He wanted her to approach this relationship with a clear mind and an open heart, unclouded by past wounds.

He knew Chaeri well enough to trust her judgment, and he trusted that Hongjoong would take care of her the way she deserved. But still, he kept a watchful eye, not to interfere but to be there, if she ever needed him. 

While he didn’t express it often, he deeply hoped that this relationship would give her the peace and happiness she deserved.

Ever since they’d started working together, Hoseok’d come to see her as his little sister—a role he took seriously, complete with protective instincts and a healthy dose of skepticism about any guy who showed interest in her. He’d seen her grow, struggle and evolve, so the idea of someone else now playing such a significant role in her life brought out his big-brother side in full force. In the beginning, Hoseok wasn’t entirely sure about Hongjoong. He hadn’t heard much about him before and wasn’t quick to trust anyone who’d suddenly become so close to Chaeri. 

Honestly, he didn’t like the situation at all. Chaeri was vulnerable because of what had happened with Jungkook—a relationship that had ended disastrously not long before—and all the signs, at least on the surface, seemed to point in one direction: Hongjoong was taking advantage of her to gain more fame and visibility for himself and his group. Or, at least, that was what his brain had convinced itself of the moment the “overprotective brother” alarm bells in his head went off as soon as he heard the news.

He would only come to realize, gradually, just how wrong he’d been as all the “evidence” he thought he’d gathered to support his theory started to crumble, one piece at a time. It had been Chaeri who approached Hongjoong first, and she was the one who decided to make the relationship public; moreover, Hongjoong genuinely seemed to care about her.

It took meeting Hongjoong in person to get some answers, though that first meeting felt more like an interrogation. Hongjoong would probably describe it as intense, maybe even intimidating. Despite the polite smile, Hoseok’s questions cut straight to the point: what were his intentions with Chaeri? Did he understand the level of scrutiny that came with dating her? And, in no uncertain terms, was he ready to treat her with the respect she deserved?

Namjoon, as the leader of BTS, felt a natural sense of responsibility for all the group members, but with Chaeri, it was different. Over the years, he had become particularly protective of her, looking out for her in a way that came entirely naturally—like an older brother with a younger sister. Although he wasn’t as openly intense as Hoseok, he, too, felt some skepticism and concern. He wasn’t used to Chaeri dating anyone (outside of Jungkook), and he had the sweet but misguided notion that no one was quite good enough for her.

“You know how much pressure comes with going public. Once things are out there, there’s no taking them back. I just want you to be sure this is what you really want—not just for yourself, but for the two of you together.” Living a life like theirs meant that any information shared with the public would be engraved forever, and he felt it was his duty to remind her that, once that choice was made, there would be no turning back.

He would never dare to question Chaeri's emotional intelligence by suggesting that she was choosing the wrong person to start a romantic relationship with; it was simply his instinct to protect her that compelled him to keep a watchful eye on the two whenever they were together. Deep down, he recognized her ability to make her own decisions, but the protective instincts of an older brother lingered, making it difficult for him to let go completely.

He felt better, however, knowing that Chaeri would have someone by her side while they would all be away due to the mandatory military service that, by now, was getting closer and closer.

Jungkook's reaction to Chaeri's relationship with Hongjoong was complicated, to say the least.

He knew she was a mischievous type, and when he first saw them together at that party, he became convinced—albeit annoyed—that she had set up that little act just to get back at him and Taehyung for following her to the party, despite her not wanting them there. But discovering that their connection had instead grown so serious that she had decided to make it public threw him completely off balance.

Jungkook couldn’t help but think back on all the wrong choices he had made during his relationship with Chaeri, choices that, forced or not, had led him to that moment: having to watch the love of his life fall for someone else.

The truth is that he’s never fully accepted it—and he never will. He won’t ever choose to be in the same room as Hongjoong unless circumstances force him to be there, and he certainly won’t ever choose to have even the smallest interaction with him. To Jungkook, Hongjoong would always be a reminder of everything he had lost, a constant presence of the love he let slip away. Even if he knew, deep down, that he couldn’t turn back time, a part of him stubbornly refused to accept the reality of Chaeri’s new relationship. It wasn’t that he wished her unhappiness, but he couldn’t bring himself to accept Hongjoong as a part of her life—or, by extension, his own.

Jungkook’s feeling of bitterness only grew stronger as the weeks went by. He saw Chaeri almost daily, whether at rehearsals or during group events, and every time he saw her smile because of him, it was like a quiet punch to the gut.

It didn’t help that the others had slowly begun to accept Hongjoong. While Hoseok still kept an eye on him and Namjoon was ever-cautious, they’d grown used to the idea. And to Jungkook, it felt like they were all moving forward without him. He’d find himself spacing out during conversations, lost in memories of the past, back when he and Chaeri were inseparable. It was all so bittersweet���he wanted to support her, he truly did, but he was haunted by the constant, nagging feeling that he was supposed to be the one by her side, not some stranger.

Whenever he saw Hongjoong, though, he managed a polite nod, maintaining a veneer of professionalism. But his politeness was brittle. Every interaction with him felt like stepping on thin ice, a forced act that concealed the simmering resentment he couldn’t quite shake. It was painful, and he felt as if he were trapped in a story where he’d once been a main character, only to be slowly written out. 

Everyone claimed that true love meant letting someone find happiness with another person. He was convinced he genuinely loved her.  So why was it so hard for him to accept it?

ATEEZ

Before Hongjoong decided to talk to their managers about dating Chaeri, he knew he had to discuss it with his members first. This made him particularly nervous, but he knew he couldn't delay it any longer, mainly since Chaeri had expressed her desire to make their relationship public. For example, when he went to New York to see her, Chaeri and Hongjoong posted photos from an identical location, causing the internet to be filled with theories and suspicions about whether they were dating, trolling the fans, or soft-launching a relationship.

He wasn't nervous because the boys didn't know, quite the contrary. Since the night of the '98 liners idol party, a gathering of idols born in 1998, when he and Seonghwa had returned from, and the latter had not waited more than a second to tell the others about him and Chaeri, the younger ones had not stopped teasing him, also knowing the little crush he had on her ever since she found some time to go up to them in 2019 at MAMAs and tell them how much she had enjoyed the cover of the song they had brought to the stage.

Fortunately, his fears were unfounded. The boys didn't react negatively to the dating news when he shared it, and their managers reassured them that they could handle any potential scandal. 'Having Chaeri linked to one of you would surely increase attention and, consequently, your turnover' they emphasized. Fortunately, KQ loved the media exposure this would bring.

And, what to say? The boys couldn't be anything but happy about that, could they? Their leader seemed pleased with that relationship, and their reputation would greatly benefit from Chaeri’s impact. However, Ateez would soon learn that Chaeri in their lives would become more than simply 'Hongjoong's girl who benefits his mood and our career.' 

Each member reacted differently based on their personalities and relationships with Hongjoong and Chaeri. 

Seonghwa and Hongjoong had always shared everything since they were just trainees. Being the same age and both feeling some sort of responsibility to the members had bound them together more than with the others. Because of this, Seonghwa couldn't have been unaware of the 'little' crush his best friend had toward the only female member of BTS. A crush that grew exponentially over the years, peaking in 2019.

Seonghwa teased him about it since pre-debut and never stopped, even when the two became a couple, leaving him hugely surprised. It’s a tale as old as time to have a crush on a public figure, and usually, people never end up dating them unless they get a once-in-a-lifetime chance, and for Hongjoong to get that chance? Seonghwa could think of nothing else but the fact that life always shows you something you would never expect.

Despite initial disbelief, he was proud of his member for being the first to have a public relationship, as he showed a nerve many idols did not have.

The guy also likes to tease Chaeri about how soft she can get with Hongjoong since she always tries to pass herself off as someone who is not particularly sweet or romantic. That makes her and Joong very similar, in his opinion.

Yunho was thrilled. His reaction was, perhaps, the purest and most genuinely enthusiastic of all. 

From the moment Hongjoong had confirmed his connection with Chaeri, he couldn’t hide his smile and a bit of surprise at the thought that their leader, his hyung, had won the heart of Chaeri and felt a bit bewildered at the thought that she was now a constant presence in their lives.

His excitement about the news, however, wasn’t simply about Chaeri’s fame. His happiness came from a much more genuine place. He knew how much Hongjoong’s intense work schedule demanded of him, and knowing he’d found someone who could make him smile and offer a bit of comfort was something that gave Yunho happiness.

As the main dancer of ATEEZ, Yunho felt an irresistible and inexplicable urge to talk for hours with Chaeri, who held the same role in BTS, about the dance icons they admired, favorite styles, the best methods for learning choreography, and so on. 

When it came to dance, Yunho found a new source of motivation and inspiration in Chaeri. Having the opportunity to work with her as ATEEZ’s choreographer, even if only for a limited time, made him genuinely happy; he greatly appreciated how Chaeri took each of his suggestions into account, making him feel fully included in the creative process of their performances.

While most of the others reacted loudly, swept away by enthusiasm or curiosity, Yeosang received the news of their relationship calmly and silently, as he had not yet formed an opinion about the situation; speaking without having thought it through first was not his style. Not that he was indifferent; on the contrary, the idea that Hongjoong had started a relationship with someone so significant in the music scene, fascinated him more than he let on. Yet, as was typical of him, he preferred to think deeply before saying anything.

In fact, Yeosang felt happy for Hongjoong. He knew well how much their leader had sacrificed for the sake of ATEEZ and how he had always acted as an emotional shield for the others. The thought that someone could finally take care of him, just as he did for his members, gave him a sense of peace. If Chaeri could provide that kind of balance for Hongjoong, that was already enough for Yeosang.

However, despite his reserved demeanor, Yeosang couldn't shake the thought that this relationship might somehow influence the dynamics of the group. It wasn’t jealousy or envy, but rather a healthy concern for their equilibrium. At a time when ATEEZ was growing and reaching new milestones, he feared that the notoriety of such a public relationship could distract Hongjoong or even create tensions with Chaeri's international fame.

For this reason, he spoke privately with Hongjoong to tell him that he would support whatever made him happy, but that he needed to make sure that he found the right equilibrium, for himself, for ATEEZ, and for BTS.

The ice between him and Chaeri finally broke when, noticing his somewhat distant and thoughtful demeanor, she decided to "test him" with jokes and playful remarks, trying to make him laugh and lift his spirits whenever she was around.

When San was told the news, he decided to become one of the most welcoming people Chaeri would ever meet. If Hongjoong put so much trust in her that he made their relationship public and made her an official part of their routine, it meant that he could trust her, too, and that she was certainly a special person, an idea that was later solidified as he began to get to know her more.

For him, it was new to see his captain, always so focused and dedicated to work, let loose whenever Chaeri was around. He was the first to realize that Joong didn’t just have a simple crush or attraction toward her—he was completely smitten. This realization filled San with joy, both because he could see how happy his hyung was and because teasing him about it was going to be even more fun. And oh, he never missed an opportunity to do so, knowing he’d succeeded with his jokes whenever Hongjoong threatened to beat him up.

San was among those who didn’t worry at all about the potential repercussions this might have on their group. He had complete faith in Hongjoong and their agency, and if they believed the situation could only benefit them, then he firmly believed it too.

From the start, San took it upon himself to make their dorm a bit more “girl-friendly” in subtle ways, often reminding the other guys not to leave laundry outside their rooms and occasionally bringing an air freshener or candles with softer fragrances.

Chaeri, along with Hongjoong, had started taking care of all of them through small gestures: giving them decorative items for the dorm, bringing food almost every time they met, and listening to them in moments of difficulty. For San, it was only right to make her feel like a true member of their family.

Mingi was less worried about the implications of dating someone as high-profile as Chaeri and more curious about what she was like behind the scenes. He'd seen her charisma on stage, of course, but knowing she had somehow captured the heart of their hyper-focused captain made her all the more interesting.

When she started hanging out with them more, Mingi was pleasantly surprised by how easy it was to talk to her. He found himself chatting about everything. She laughed at his quirky jokes, and her genuine reactions made him feel instantly comfortable. Chaeri was even surprisingly willing to listen to his ramblings, which most people couldn’t keep up with for long.

What Mingi appreciated most was that she seemed to care about all of them, not just Hongjoong. It didn’t take long for him to open up to her the way he would to a friend, even showing her some of his scribbled lyrics and ideas—something he rarely did with people outside the group. She encouraged him to pursue his creative ideas with enthusiasm, which meant a lot to him, especially coming from someone with so much experience.

Mingi noticed little things about her and Hongjoong’s dynamic that the others might miss. Like the way Chaeri would glance at Hongjoong to see if he needed anything or how Hongjoong’s shoulders relaxed just a bit more when she was around. While he didn’t tease his leader as much as San or Wooyoung did in front of Chaeri, he made sure to join in whenever she wasn’t around.

Wooyoung was the most excited. It was almost too good to be true— despite his hectic schedule, his beloved captain had found love. And not just anyone, but Chaeri of BTS. And oh, if he wasn't a BTS fan.

His fanboy heart was thrilled, enough to make him almost obnoxious with his numerous questions towards his Hyung that went from 'Do you think she will introduce me to Jimin sunbaenim?' to 'If, technically, BTS are like siblings and we, technically, are like siblings, does that mean that if you and her are together, she is my sister-in-law and us and them will become one family?' It is unsurprising that, to most of these questions, Hongjoong simply answered with a somewhat annoyed 'I don't know.'

The vague and rather bored response to Wooyoung’s questions made the members wrinkle their noses, perhaps too eager to pry into their hyung's relationship and then into the dynamics of such a famous group as BTS. After all, he was dating an idol in one of the most prominent groups ever. He felt their captain needed to give them a few details to satisfy their innocent curiosity.

Wooyoung was the first to break the ice with her and treat her like one of the family rather than an unexpected addition to their already large group. It took only a few days before he started referring to her as 'Noona,' and he is known to blush, in an innocent and non-romantic way, at most of the things she says to him.

Jongho is a private person who, unlike many other group members, highly values his privacy and, therefore, deeply respects others' boundaries. So, he didn't seem particularly interested in the news of his hyung's relationship. After all, it was normal for them to have partners, right? The only difference was that the girl was one of the country's most famous and influential figures. At first, Jongho thought that it might have been better for the group's well-being and harmony if Hongjoong had found love in someone who wasn't always in the spotlight, but in the end, he was indifferent to their relationship as it was their business.

For this reason, at first, he couldn’t understand the cheerful atmosphere with which almost everyone else had welcomed the news. It wasn’t the first time one of them had started dating someone (obviously keeping everything strategically out of the spotlight), and to him, the fact that Hongjoong was with a famous person rather than an ordinary one didn’t make any difference. That’s why he didn’t seem particularly enthusiastic.

However, as time passed and as Chaeri became more and more embedded in their group dynamic, Jongho could not help but get to know her better. He noticed that despite her fame, she approached everyone with humility, a quality that many celebrities in their circles display only when they are in the spotlight. Although he was less experienced than her, who had debuted five years earlier, it happened more than once that Chaeri asked him for advice on how to keep her voice so steady during performances, which amazed him and filled him with pride.

His respect for her began to change drastically for the better when, after a movie night organized by the group, she stayed behind to help tidy up, despite the fact that it was late and she had a busy schedule the next day. When Jongho told her she did not need to, she replied that it was nice to contribute, since she now considered them a second family.

I wanted to thank @littlestatesman for helping me a few months ago by giving me more information about Ateez than I had, and especially my Boo, @alixnsuperstxr who helped me with the entire drafting of everything written. Thank you so much for your friendship and support ❤️

taglist: @alixnsuperstxr | @bts-dream | @enchantingbrowneyedgirl | @ycuvi | @cosmicwintr

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I've seen other authors answer questions sent to their characters. Do you? If so, I have a question for Hongjoong: which BTS member was the most "terrifying" to meet as Chaeri's boyfriend?

Hi! 🫶🏼

This is the first time I've received a question like this, they're fun to receive, so thank you! 🩷

Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

Hongjoong: Uhm.. I'd like to say that no one was terrifying but the truth is that Namjoon and Hoseok sunbaenim gave off a pretty intimidating aura, hehehe 🥲 but if I had to choose between the two, I would definitely say J-hope. From someone so friendly and smiling like him, you wouldn't expect so much brotherly protectiveness. But he has a lot. A whole lot.

CHAERI'S MASTERLIST

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i would sell my soul to read a spicy chapters for Chaeri written by you because I love the way you write💗💗

Thank you so much 🥰🫶🏼

Should I? 👀 Honestly I don't know if I have the talent, and I don't know if it would be appreciated for Chaeri. I've been writing for her for a while now, but I've never pushed myself this much 🙈

Should I try? 👀