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Doctor Who Femslash February @doctorwho-femslashfeb - (Day 5) Clara -> Clara/Missy

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"Zelds... I've always asked you to stop killing me... but I've never asked why. So... why? Why do you do it?"

Zelda remained silent, unconvincingly stone-faced, as Hilda lowered the letter, its orange and cream notepaper still fresh after nearly a century. 

Hilda blinked the gathering sheen away from her eyes. “That’s the last one. It’s... strange that I never threw them away, innit? Not like I haven’t figured out, you know, a lot of the answers myself, I just, well, before I leave I thought maybe you should know.”

Zelda’s voice was no rougher than usual, at least to the untrained ear, but Hilda’s were far from untrained. “You never sent me a single one. Why, sister? You knew where I was every step of the way.”

Hilda tilted her head, gave Zelda an affectionate look grown out of her own private pain. “I didn’t really, though, did I? Anyway...” She shut the tin box, fastened the flimsy clasp, and stood. “You can do what you want with them, really. And the poppets. I just don’t want to take things like that with me now. Moving in with Richard, I... I just want to start fresh. I don’t want to be afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing anymore. And I don’t want to accidentally react to something he says--”

“As if he were me,” came the thin croak, quickly subsumed by a drag on her cigarette.

Hilda’s answer was quiet, but resolute. “Yes. Zelda, I, I really love him.” A smile of guileless glee was there suddenly, and a light in her eyes. “I want to be able to love someone without fearing them. You understand. I know you do.”

Eyes averted, Zelda only nodded.

“I’m sorry, Zelds. I hope you’ll find it again, I really do. But I’m... I’m not going to risk missing this chance. I don’t know how long we have together, but I’m going to enjoy it as much as I can.”

Zelda cleared her throat then, a guttural sound full of regret. “I hope that you do, Hilda. I pray to Hecate and our ancestors that you do. And I hope that... the things I’ve done...” the quiver in her lip quickly vanished into the cigarette, and within moments she had recovered, “that they don’t hold you back. I hope you know that I, I’ve always...”

Hilda leaned down and patted her sister’s knee, where it sat tightly crossed, just like her spirit clearly was. “I know, Zelds. But... it doesn’t really change anything. Does it?”

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(or whatever happens apparently...)

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She lost her in a nightmare (but she isn't going to say)

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KIERNAN SHIPKA ► TOTALLY KILLER (2023)

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This is a reminder to do your daily clicks. It takes one a step away from the paralytic helplessness.

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They planned the Rafah invasion to run during Eurovision.

Can we please stop being distracted by Capital shaking its stupid spangled keys??

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Oh did you think you weren't getting Marith today?

Lilith said something that she didn't think was *that* funny, but Mary found it hilarious -- so hilarious that she keeps starting to laugh over again, every time she looks at Lilith's perplexed (and somewhat doting) face. And yes, the evening's red wine certainly didn't hurt the gaiety.

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I wouldn’t necessarily call myself a big fan of lettuce (honestly more of a spinach girl) but have you ever had a sandwich without lettuce? Awful. Lettuce is 100% required on a classic sandwich #tome

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Reblog to let your followers know that they’re safe from jumpscares/screamers/etc from you on April 1st but they are NOT safe from getting boop’d like an idiot amen

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@confessions-of-ailu commissioned me to draw the Bunwells having a warm, festive time. (^w^) Thank you so very much!

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Forever bitter that there weren’t any (non sexual) Missy/Doctor fics from that time he was blind.

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The last 24 hours have been extremely rough, and sketching Mary has been one of the things getting me through while so many things in the outside world are terrifying. She gets it.

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My piece for the History Between Us Zine @77yearsteam !✨

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『Not so resurrected now, are you?』

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Ey yo, remember when I used to do this all the time? You're about to get some tasty tasty suffering, because I got a request to brighten up this scene. As you can tell, it sure was a doozy. There's a ton of blocky artefacts in the background, but tbh you can so easily get lost in the micro-expressions, I think you'll be fine (not fine).