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He doesn’t consider my feelings

He doesn’t see or feel me

I don’t mean anything

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He’s started to be

The first thing I think about in the morning

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I want my love to kiss my marshmallow lips

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Relax breathe, no doors

Your love is not a whore

There is no scoreboard

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Succumb to none ?

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I am walking away from cynical in every way

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I can’t fight a machine that I’m hooked up too as part of me?? Dependent on without choice

I can’t fight succeeding / failing technology or worry

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Love that is true and real creates a respite from death

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And again it’s like highschool

When you had to be so cool

I’ll kiss you in The back seat

With my eyes closed

Because if I look at you

I’ll explode

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I love being the best wing women ever

All my girls can get what they want

I understand being nervous better than anyone

But cupids arrow doesn’t just strike twice

Encouraging positive energy around is priceless really.

Jessie is so sweet to me

She deserves everything she’s meant for

And more

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Unnoticed a few men checking me out tonight trying to size up what I’m about

Two sets of eyes were on me repeatedly

With questioning and avoidance

Only one I chose to entertain

Can I smile back when they seem just like anybody ?

Can I flirt back if they don’t strike a chord in me?

I smiled sweetly because there didn’t seem to be anything wrong with he

But idk, idc

It doesn’t mean anything to me

Pleasantries

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I will love my person endlessly

Vast and open

So expansive

They can’t do anything else

But breathe easy

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Six point star in my tea leafs

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I can sing

I can dance (I want to get in your pants)

I can love you correctly

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I’m feeling so all wrong

I can’t help the want

And so I keep saying

Hello why are you here

And there is no answer just

I’m here

It’s warm but bewildering

A certain sensation

“Hold my hand you muppet, so we don’t look like chavs”

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I’m the unconditional type

I’ve got loyalty

I kind of hate it about me

Everybody shouting at me

Put deadlines on everything!

But I’m already living, I can wait and see

I won’t force myself to have specific feelings

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I have something wrong with me

A trauma response, misprograming

I can go very dark, sad, unbelieving

hearts been hurting so much lately

And I am both the baby and the fawn

When I really need to be so so

Strong