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thinking about. how merlin brings out the best in arthur and on the other hand arthur brings out the darkest parts of merlin. how arthur always tries to be better and do the right thing because merlin believes in him and he wouldn't want to disappoint him. because he believes merlin is good and he wants to be good for him. how merlin always ends up making the worst decision in his desire to protect arthur, doing things he never thought he'd do. how from saving arthur's life because that's a right thing to do, he goes to putting his life above any of his own morals.

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I’m thinking that the conversation on the wall as the humans made their way away from Eden was a major formative moment for Crowley.

When Crowley says “You’re an angel, I don’t think you CAN do the wrong thing,” he is absolutely yanking Aziraphale’s chain. The book explicitly says it’s sarcasm and in the show, David Tennant’s delivery makes that clear with his smirk and sneery tone.

But when Aziraphale innocently takes the comment at face value, Crowley lets him think it was sincere. It’s his first act of kindness toward Aziraphale. My reading is that Crowley is happily surprised that an angel would allow himself to be comforted by his words and it takes away his desire to tease. He got his first little taste of doing good AND HE LIKED IT!

That interaction is perhaps the first time Crowley realized that he’s not necessarily cut out for sowing misery.

Also, consider his shock at Aziraphale’s admission.

Crowley was told to come to Eden and make trouble so he did. He doesn’t seem to have thought about it at all, just got an order and executed it. What if learning that Aziraphale has given his sword away is the thing that makes Crowley realize that he, too, can make his own unexpected decisions.

It was Crowley that gave free will to the humans, but maybe it was Aziraphale that made Crowley realize that he could also have free will. Even though Aziraphale hasn’t embraced his free will, he has perhaps just given Crowley the impetus he needed to do so.

And later, Crowley returned the favor when he explained about going along as much as you can. That was painful for Aziraphale but helped him to be more himself. It was a moment when he realized, like Crowley on the wall, that if doing good means breaking the rules sometimes, then sometimes that’s what must be done. In his guilt and fear, he didn’t put that together in Eden, but Crowley showed him at Uz.

Anyway, I’m rambling, but these two have made each other better, and happier, since the world existed and that’s just lovely.

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You know if (when) David wins he's gonna bring Michael on stage with him and I can't fucking wait

Michael Sheen seeing the BAFTA TV nominations today

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Sometimes I wonder what it must be like to listen to music without always envisioning it to be all about the forbidden love of two celestial beings spanning all of time and space

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From the wonderful S2 promos! :) <3

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I AM SOFT! 🥰❤

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what a great year to be a fan of these two wonderful men

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But at the same time I also need Crowley to be a little bitch about Azi leaving and make him do the apology dance non-stop for a week and never let him forget about it, like several centuries later while living happily in the south downs cottage basically any time Azi does literally anything Crowley drops the "I forgive you" with the bitchiest little look on his face

I cannot put into words how much I NEED Crowley to say "I forgive you" to Azi in S3 when he comes back from Heaven like not at all in a mean way but in a really genuine "I understand why you had to leave and as much as it hurt me, I know you did the right thing and I could never hate you for trying to make the world a better place" kinda way

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"do it again."

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Happy Zack and Cody dinner reservation day to everyone who celebrates! 🍝🍝🍝

#I hope they feel like Italian today

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I cannot put into words how much I NEED Crowley to say "I forgive you" to Azi in S3 when he comes back from Heaven like not at all in a mean way but in a really genuine "I understand why you had to leave and as much as it hurt me, I know you did the right thing and I could never hate you for trying to make the world a better place" kinda way

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it's them

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Stacia Napierkowska in Les Vampires (1915)

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Before, during, after

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Is Crowley and Aziraphale's central issue truly miscommunication? Because it really sounded like Aziraphale genuinely thought Crowley would jump at the chance to be an angel again, and that indicates such a fundamental misjudgment of who Crowley is as a person that I don't know how they get past it?

In so many ships, the characters just need to get trapped in an elevator for long enough to actually have an honest conversation, and it would solve all their problems (looking at you, Destiel). But for Aziraphale and Crowley, this breakdown means something more than a simple conversation could correct. It means something about how Aziraphale makes sense of their shared history, how he perceives Crowley's worth as a demon in comparison to his own as an angel, and what he understands to be the roadblock standing in the way of them being truly together.

Crowley named that roadblock as he sees it - the structures of heaven and hell themselves ("We don't need heaven, we don't need hell, they're toxic!"). But for Aziraphale, that roadblock appears to be Crowley's demon-ness, which he sees as extricable from Crowley himself (which it isn't). His roadblock is Crowley himself. And if that's the case, that's not a miscommunication, that's a tragedy.

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i hate the theory that crowley and aziraphale are going to be made human at the end of s3 and i really don't think Neil would choose that ending but that doesn't stop my brain projecting the image of a/c being granted mortal lives with 'who wants to live forever' playing in the background and now everything hurts