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i love the idea of living temporarily like. as someone Else

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absolutely cant imagine calling myself a girl

or a woman

or a man

but also god id fit in the box of being a transgirl so much

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take me down to catgirl city where the boys are girls and the girls are kitty.

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oh maybe this kink was born from . never neing pushed much in my life, so i want people to push me now. hm

but im a gnc person and thats oki

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the end result seems boring but the process of transitioning sounds really …

ugh im insensitive saying this

fun

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might kinda be a chaser tbh

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haha anxiety is so funny and quirky and not debilitating at all

definitely

i sure do love when my anxiety makes me literally feel like im gonna puke at the thought of . getting up to do something productive

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maybe im just in denial

the idea that im trans in denial turns me on

yet

i dont wanna be a Woman

though i suppose i dont want to be a Man either

and i dont have a great sense of self

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ive done all the stereotypical egg things, but. im just not??

like i dont know…

whenever a trans person mentions an experience they had that made them realize theyre trans

then

sometimes i realize “oh, ive had that experience too” and yet

im not trans

or at least, i dont see why id want to be. unless im in a freaky mood

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whenever a trans person mentions an experience they had that made them realize theyre trans

then

sometimes i realize “oh, ive had that experience too” and yet

im not trans

or at least, i dont see why id want to be. unless im in a freaky mood

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having different control over my body or different new parts or losing control also does

so

i think playing where i have to like stay in water to breathe

is very gggjfjdishehfjgjualaaajgj C:

so why does the minecraft origins mod turn me on

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lmao i dont wanna be a girl

just wanna be cute

sometimes

just really love cutestuf

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tried readin hdg after hearin about it

but

its somehow too freaky for me! makes me a lil uncomfy

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my mind seeks reassurance. so often. as if anyone else can tell me who i am

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fucked up and weird that i. well. tw weirdo shit

questioning my gender always turns me on. im the weirdo

but when im in reasonable headspace im like

why would i wanna be a girl that

that never comes to mind otherwise. i forget i even could. its just like, idc about my gender. how i express it.

though i do think im happy with parts of being a Man

mostly just dont care

but then when i DO care.. oh its a feeling alright

i dunno ive just, for years… thought on and off about Being Trans

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so why does the minecraft origins mod turn me on

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big into tf