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been thinking about that apocryphal Jung quote re: haterism:

The world is full of people suffering from the effects of their own unlived life. They become bitter, critical, or rigid, not because the world is cruel to them, but because they have betrayed their own inner possibilities. The artist who never makes art becomes cynical about those who do. The lover who never risks loving mocks romance. The thinker who never commits to a philosophy sneers at belief itself. And yet, all of them suffer, because deep down they know: the life they mock is the life they were meant to live.

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Being the victor is so awesome I fucking love writing history. Future generations will remember your valiant and tenacious last stand as a humiliating instant loss

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Touching grass is weird because the literal Proud Boy at my job includes me in conversations and offers to let me borrow tools, listens to me talk better than most of the guys who aren't friggin nazis...while the people I politically/culturally align with are...awful.

It's such an aggravating mindfuck.

Like the 10% of the department that is gals, gays, and theys? I'm biased. I'd go way out of my way for them. I go out of my way to ask them how they're doing. I'd lie for them. But they tend to do all the stereotypical shit everyone is ready to accuse us of. I love them because I see them, I have so much in common with them, I'm rooting for them because there was nobody like us rooting for me when I started. But I'm tired.

Like...cis woman employee falsely accusing a manager and trying to sue? It happened, and she's the only other cis woman who has ever worked in this department with me. Trans woman hitting on cis woman in the bathroom? It happened, only trans woman to ever work here. Co-worker with severe mental illness threatening to sue for discrimination every time they got in trouble for mistakes that cost thousands and could have killed someone? Happened dozens of times in the year I worked with them.

I don't even know how to process that. I'd die for these messy bitches but they won't stop being messy in a way that just...proves the assholes right. I'm gonna scream.

I just want like...ONE corworker who isn't a straight cis guy who shows up on tiiiiime.

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Even if there is such a thing as general intelligence, which I'm not convinced there is, and even if it could be quantized or quantified, which I'm absolutely sure it couldn't, then I would assume the segment of the population with the highest general intelligence would likely self-select to *not* have their intelligence quotient measured by paying a bunch of money to take a test widely known to be flawed in order to get into a smart-people club widely known to be bogus

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Convo I had with a random flight attendant: I compliment the BEST read of a briefing I've ever heard, she talks about her previous career in speech therapy, I talk about my previous career in biology, we laugh about being two redheads with "downgraded" careers we love and learn about eachothers' family food culture.

Convo I have at work training: random non-work posturing about crap I do not care about whatsoever. Listening to dudes try to socially square up in the dumbest ways possible.

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No your honor i would never kill out of anger. I killed that guy for sport

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Charade (1963) dir. Stanley Donen

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i wanna bring back Rake as an insult but like. boys arent conniving enough these days. if you're wearing basketball shorts you're not a rake you're just a fuckboy. rake is just another type of guy i've only seen butches be

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when enkidu dies Gilgamesh covers his face, veiling it “like a bride”. Haha (sudden low voice through gritted teeth) the ancient Mesopotamians are running circles around us. I need you to get your ass on the field and give me your best yaoi or we can kiss these quarter finals goodbye

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tried shifting to a timeline where the ussr won the cold war & within minutes a team of cia telecommandos subdued my astral body & removed my ability to imagine or dream

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Scientists shouldn't have to pretend they're bringing back the dire wolf. Geneticists should be able to say "I want to make wolves larger for no reason", and we should have the resources to say "that sounds cool as hell. Here's a billion dollars"

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david lynch’s notes to a theater tattoo’d on user ginfantasy

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grizzled mercenaries are always being like "I'm sick and tired of being a pawn in someone elses game" like their job isn't literally rent-a-pawn

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its amazing how if you decide not to do something day after day it never gets done. not how i would have things

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