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biting back my tongue very hard right now, i want to growl with FOAM.

paranoia about something thats all :3

paranoria is going so bad because di think something is ABOUT me, i cant stop thinking about it. i habe never interacted with this creature, but they have with me. my post is / was my source for finding something to help me find myself to find a grounding space to get better defintions because its so hard to actually navigate and educate yourself without overwhelming/freaking iut, and i feel like i t ws used/twitsed it was me/my port they’re tefercing im just going to be off for the rest of the nihht because im not doing good mentally, the loss of housing is taking a lot and now me overthknking something isnt helping :,( i will see tumblr in the great tomoorrow

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this is stunning

ETERNAL SOUL ✨

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fern gives me such species boost,,, everytime she’s on screen in arthur :D, i wish it wasnt so frowned upon to connect with anthro characters as we indentify as animal ourselves theres nothing wrong with it in my eyes.. if we see ourselves in animals why cant we see ourselves in the characters we watch a smidge? :3

you can tell im watching arthur while getting ready this morning for my classes - i had a really rough night qwq so im trying to stay as pawsitive as i can, i cant stay in my room until further notice due to a bug infestation and change is really hard, and my autism makes change even harder(i dont talk about my autism a lot because i feel like it isnt relevant) ,, heres to a good day 🔆

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Dogkin culture is getting really sad every time a family member/partner leaves the house

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WEBKINZ SPOTTED ! /pos

i wanna ride a bike, go swimming, play at the park, dig in dirt, pick flowers, and climb trees and rocks. i crave the outdoors.

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i am a lot more calmer now, i sat outside for a bit and it started to drizzle again :p i dont want to risk getting sick but i was feeling myself starting to panic and knew it was best to go outside and ground for a bit :3

thank you everypuppy for interacting with that post, it truly helped me find someone that gave me good advice /srs … the world had good intentions despite the one moment of confusion within myself 🐾

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my partner is not understanding me, its making me want to freak out, and be more confused; i dont know how to communicate with him. he’s just like.. ‘you’re a dog you dont need this trans dog title’ I CANT JUST SAY IM A DOG, IM IN A HUMAN BODY SADLY, I HAVE THESE GOD AWFUL HANDS WHERE THERE ISNT PAWS? I LOOK AT MY BODY WITH BECAUSE I SEE SKIN AND NOW MY FUR? WHAT.. WHAT AM I? I DONT.. I DONT KNOW. ITS MAKING ME SO LOST? I KNOW IM NOT A THERIAN. THATS.. SOME SPIRITUAL THING, IT KEPT BEING PUSHED TO ME THAT I HAD TO SHIFT, I GOT CALLED FAKE CONSTANTLY BECAUSE I WASNT SHIFTING CORRECTLY OR WHATEVER… I AM A DOG.. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A DOG??? IM… Help.. me. please. please helo me figure out myself, WHAT label is this? Therian? Otherkin? Otherhearted? Because this is making me BREAK down and i dont NEED to go back to the hospital JUST PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME UNDERSTAND BETTER! INSTEAD OF JUST ME TRYING TO NAVIGATE WITH PEOPLE THAT DONT UNDERSTAND /SRS — i dont know what to do, i dont know where to go anymore the carrds arent helping me, the tags i go to try and educate myself are just discourse, arguing, or drama. I WANT TO EDUCATE MYSELF TO LOVE MYSELF. is.. is that too hard? my paranoria kicks in badly so i most likely will delete this ramblebark.. i have no friends anymore, this is my way of.. venting to my ‘friends’ now in days asking for advice, i have no one to go to ask for if i truly act like this this and this,, if my characteristics line up.. im shut out, i know i did it to myself, i had to, you have to protect your peace in order to be safe right? i dont know

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"youre a human"

actually im a dog in the same way a tomato is a fruit

everyone may say its something else but that doesnt make it true, the inside defines the classification not how it looks or what it does

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using "pack" instead of "chat". pack is this real.

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HEAVY ON CAPTION!!!

we should normalize wearing dog collars in public

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Weird species dysphoria stuff is looking down and seeing "footprints" rather than paw prints and feeling so confused and disgusted.

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I love the random relationships therians/alterhumans/nonhuman/ect get into

Im a deer whose life partner is a freshwater fish

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What am i doing? Oh nothing, just imagining my ears flopping and my tail wagging as i trot down the road on a sunny day

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a lot of the posts on the top of the tag seem to be discourse but i hope i see positivity heh, im trying to accept and be more social about this? im very.. closeted you could say? my therapist and partner are the only one who know.. of course some x-friendships ^^’ ,,

i thought i’d share some PAWSITIVE ways i help out my uhm species dysphoria.. even though this is probably… redundant and probably posted thousands of times but. it doesnt help to see maybe a reminder? (this is my way of also trying to be social and meet people so hiiiii :3)

NOW.. im a dog, a canine if you must be technical, golden retriever if you wanna pull out my documents

ive been struggling with figuring out my identity and with my dysphoria for… years. i first really doggifying stuff probably when i was 13/14 but i TRAUMA is lovely so a lot of it is static memory, so i will suggest the best tips and tricks that get me through my days now :3 (some then)

WEAR THE SAME COLORS AS YOUR COAT/FUR - I cannot express how much this helps just looking down and seeing my sleeves are blonde, especially if im having a moment where im lost in my head.

DECORATING FOOTWEAR TO LOOK LIKE YOUR SPECIES- Now this may be a bit more difficult for different.. species of course but im sure it could work im thinking of it right now, tentacles could have some cool ones coming up on the side if you’re a squid, or maybe hoof like eva could be glued on for any hooved-creatures :3

EATING SIMILAR FOOD TO YOUR SPECIES - I eat so much food SHAPED like dog treats its not kidding, if you dont think you can do it because of health reasoning you can do the shape route? get some cookie cutters and mold out some fishies or some little cubes to make it look like feed or kibble? theres an amazing tumblr on here who makes recipes that do truly look like animal food, i will rebark this when im done with who im talking about, i followed dorian(i believe) on a past blog.

PHYSICALLY LOOKING LIKE YOUR SPECIES - This could be growing your nails out, doing your nails(painting, getting them done at a salon), DYING YOUR FUR TO MATCH YOUR FUR COLOR, OR.. GETTING TATTOOS IN REFERENCE TO YOUR SPECIES!!!! I didnt want put that in a separate thing because you could link it together, if you have markings on your face per say, maybe you could mark them on your face permanently?? THIS IS FOR YOU, TO HELP YOU FEEL LIKE YOU. I wear collars because im domesticated, i also have HIGHLIGHTS (blonde) in my hair to help me remind myself that I AM a golden retriever not some BRUNETTE chick :3

im sure i’ll come up with more after i spend my day out with my folks :3

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i feel this, i am not looking to transition my gender, i produce too much T already and it gives me health issues, im working on myself so my T levels are actively going down in the opposite way kind of. im heavily interested in half-snouts; i know they are commonly ‘therian’ gear but i am not a therian, i am trans-species, trans-dog. i ah grr. imma talk more -

i use different shampoos/conditioners often, i switch them out to change my hair/fur so it feels like FUR for me, i dont shave, i grow my nails out and i do those gel x ones myself to help me feel like i have proper… claws. the surgery aspects do intrigue me truly, the gear just is less scary and feels that dysphoria enough that i.. dont need surgery sometimes. THINGS I DEFINITELY WANT,, paws on my hands are a must!

i was ramblebarking. moral of the bark- i feel my gear helps my species dysphoria to the poiint i dont need my surgeries, my little bubble is filled for the moment.

I've seen alot of opinions on this matter but I wanna share my own and my reasoning.

Wearing gear of your type counts as transspecies if wanted to be. Say a transgender person wore a packer and you said that doesn't count as transgender...fucked up right? In my opinion transspecies is just like transgender but with your species. Transgender people can call themselves transgender without transitioning and transspecies creatures can aswell. I have future plans to transition gender and species and im not too open about the transspecies part but just because im not transitioned now doesn't mean im any less transspecies. Take for example if a person doesn't have enough money to actually species transition and only has gear to ease their mind and someone tells them that its technically not transspecies..that would hurt, right?

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Antler queen

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lottie is so kind <3