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— A Writer’s Diary, Virginia Woolf (August 31, 1928)

[text ID: This is the last day of August and like almost all of them of extraordinary beauty. Each day is fine enough and hot enough for sitting out; but also full of wandering clouds;]

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life really is so simple when you sit back and realise you don’t actually have to do a lot of things. i don’t have to be on my phone constantly. i don’t have to sit inside all day. i don’t have to reply to peoples messages straight away. i don’t have to have what’s in my fridge. i can go out and get groceries and make things that I’m craving. i can go on a walk. i can turn my phone off for a day or two. i can sit and read for hours on end. i can journal for as long as i want. i can mediate. i can cook. i can clean. i can breathe deeply. i can get myself a tea or a coffee. i can have meaningful conversations with my family. i don’t have to be in a constant state of “online”. i can disconnect. I’m not obliged to be here. my name isn’t being called out on a list. i can leave. i can take time away. i am allowed to live.

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we're going to be at 100 followers soon! i have something special for you beautiful souls ♡

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kumpas : figuring out who's your soulmate; PAC reading <3

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— [♡] hello everyone! it's been more than a week since my last reading since i had to take a little break. today's reading means compass in filipino, and it hints to you figuring out who your soulmate is, and do with this information as you will once. you have met your soulmate or need to figure it out. as always, this is all for entertainment, and your life is still with yours to explore. ♡

also, pics are not mine! they are from tears of themis, howls moving castle & your lie in april (i have not listed the cards in this reading as well since as i'm quite sleepy)

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 1

— [♡] you might have experienced love at first sight with your soulmate, or vice versa. some of you had a profound or special meeting as well. maybe you met on a special day, special event, special moment, where it seems like time stopped. your judgement or intuition seems to have heightened ever since. your soulmate must be really close to. you because they lift the burdens from your heart, and they don't make you beg or ask for the love you deserve. they are there, ready to give you the attention you need with an open heart and mind at any time. it's almost like time slows down (in a good way) when you're with them, and this soulmate makes you open with your emotions, while they seem to keep theirs on the down-low most of the time. and they are more of a domestic person and are very hard-working and skilled at their works. they seem to have been through a lot in the past as well, even though they're such a lovely person, they seem to be a people pleaser. so please, dear reader, show them what love is like without asking for anything back. it would mean the world to them. ♡

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— [♡] your relationship with your soulmate is quite fascinating. it makes you feel everything everywhere all at once (pun not intended) like, they're probably someone that teases you a lot or is a little cold towards you then hits you like a truck when they're warmhearted. but at the same time, their presence relieves you, but it also makes you lose focus. they also make you experience new things and force you to get out of the harmful things for you one way or another. some of them do it unconsciously but they do genuinely care about you and get worried, but would rather take it to their grave than admit it. they can't just stay in one place forever, but would gladly make that exception for you, because they now think of you as your home. also, bonus; they're also the type to do this post

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 3

— [♡] you seem to have known your soulmate for a while. they tend to put yourself before their self and they give, and i mean give a LOT of their time, energy, and self to you. for some of you, your soulmate is also oblivious to their own feelings and just sees their magnetism or attraction to you as normal, but they act like you're their world. you've got a lot of memories with eachother and you may have been wishing for this romance for a really really long time. for those of you who's soulmates who are aware of their feelings or soon will be aware of them, they really see their future with you in it. every plan that they make, every step that they take is all planned with you in mind. they're really careful too, and you might notice their thought patterns as well; remembering that you don't like this or that, this makes you the most comfortable, you're the type of person who likes this— hey wait a second, didn't you mention you liked this that one night 7 months ago? they really, really love to but they don't know how to label it or outright say it. their love for you is so pure, they just see you as a wonderful person, too wonderful for this world. <3

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summon now or later? gacha fortune reading!

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 4 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 5 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 6

— [♡] hi everyone! this is for all of our gacha gamers, you'll see this short reading when you need it. good luck! ♡ as for my usual followers, i have a new reading in store for you tommorow. ♡

DISCLAIMER: ONLY SUMMON IF YOU'RE SURE OF WHAT YOU WANT / YOU ARE FINANCIALLY CAPABLE otherwise, it is not worth it and it is unhealthy.

photos used are from tears of themis, one of my favourite gacha games. ♡ (NOT SPONSORED as much as i would wish it was)

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 1

— [♡] now. you'll get what you want— i'd advise that you walk into it confidently, acting like you already have what you want— or if you like acting a little cute, perhaps say a little threat like "i'll throw out your plushie if you don't come home right now" or "i'll summon on _____'s gacha rate up instead" hehe >< and close your eyes when you press the button. even if you have the smallest amount of summons available, some of you will be lucky enough & get what you want in 1 summon. cheers! ♡

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 2

— [♡] later. wait a little more. if you summon now, you'll get the shorter end of the stick, perhaps what you don't want at the same rarity, or something so common you don't want it. you need to time it; i'd recommend you summon just after you wake up or when you are still a little drowsy, and then strike. then, you'll get what you want, or something that will benefit you in the long run.

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— [♡] now. i think a lot of you have been waiting for this for a long time, no matter how many summons you have available now, you'll get this, dont worry. this will feel like a huge win for you once you get it, and i suggest you already embody or act like you already have that joy before summoning. you may want to think out of the box before summoning and do something you dont usually do or try something new ♡ you all got this, i wish you the best of luck!

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— [♡] now. some of you are REALLY low on summons right now, you might have been constantly wishing once you got enough currencies, but don't worry. just don't think about it too much, and summon with all the confidence you have! and whatever you get will benefit you in the long run, whether or not it's the thing you want. it will work out in your favor. ♡

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— [♡] later. your persistence to get this is really strong but it might not be what you actually want or need right now. keep saving for now and thinking about your options, because you don't know if the next rate up is something you'll want more than what's here now, and you can save for a guarantee. otherwise, you might regret it right now. but it's all up to you, though! if it makes you happy now & it's within your financial capability, go for it.

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— [♡] wheel of fortune. it's up to your judgement when you'll summon, but you'll get what you want either way. though, for some of you, it may take a lot of summons, and if your gut feels that way, don't summon right now. do it when your intuition feels sharpest & you're sure of what you want.

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Try stuff. Put plants in your room even if you aren’t the best at caring for them. Attempt that dessert recipe even if it turns out ugly. Listen to that music you’ve been meaning to try for a while. The world is full of infinite sources of goodness and the best thing to do it to try and find as many as possible.

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“Today I forgive myself. Not just once. Again, and again, and again. As many times as it takes to find peace.”

— Unknown

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How does your inner child currently feel about the environment you're in?

This post was inspired by the 2017 film The Florida Project, directed by Sean Baker. I implore you to watch the film to gain greater context for the themes of the pick a pile. (Research the movie before watching, especially younger viewers.)

Hi there! I’m still working on part two and three of my Welcome to the Dollhouse series. But in the meantime, I wanted to create a pick a pile on one of my favorite movies.

I want to ask a pretty meaningful question: “How does your inner child feel in your current environment?”

Pick one of four piles. Let your intuition guide you.

One: 

Your inner child feels like the creator of their own destiny and copes with hard times by relying on friends. Think Kingdom Hearts or any other friendship story. 

I’m seeing a couple of interpretations for this. You may be a maladaptive daydreamer, creating worlds and dreaming of the life you could have or should have. This life involves romance, friendship, and companionship primarily. You might dream of a large friend group that you go on adventures with. It could be a fully fleshed out world or it could be a few scenes that you revisit over and over. It is your ideal. For some of you, you use the inspiration from this world in your everyday life. You may also feel as if those around you don’t understand why you do this or you use this dream world to escape from your problems. It is preferable for you to dive into this world instead of focusing on reality.

For others, you escape through a friendship, partnership or companion in your life. You two have big dreams and interact with your inner children through your communication. I’m hearing dreams of going to school together or living together. Your inner child benefits from this connection and you’re inspired to create together. Yet another interpretation is that you use pick a piles to dream of running away with the perfect person and you search for them in every connection. You could have also connected with fairytales of princes, princesses, and wizards. Life can be full of challenges for you and you use those ideas to tackle them.

The advice is to reconnect with reality and use these childhood dreams of love. If you’re currently alone, work on connecting with your dreams, aspirations and desires. The right people will find and reach out to you soon enough. You’re on the right path, but don’t give up! And if you already know these people, work through your conflict with them and lean on them for strength if the relationship is healthy. Be careful to not over-depend on others. You are the core of your destiny and your inner child wants you to know you are destined for amazing things in this lifetime. You’re not late or too early, you’re right on time.

Concepts that may be important for you: Divine timing, festivals, knights & storybooks.

Two:

This one seems very specific, so if you don’t resonate with this one, pick another pile.

Your inner child feels very lonely and isolated. You have a family who seems like they don’t care about you and use you for resources. This could also be friends but I’m hearing mothers, aunts, and brothers. You’ve decided to keep to yourself, as you and your inner child are very sensitive and intuitive. Their energy just doesn’t mesh with yours and it makes you feel very uncomfortable to be in this environment. This reminds me a lot of Harry Potter. (I don’t support JKR but the energy is there.) You have big dreams and very unique ideas that you want to go after but you feel like it’s impossible.

I would like to say, however, that there is a silver lining. This is your sign to pursue whatever it is that you’ve been considering, no matter what others or society has to say. You are extremely gifted, talented and resourceful, you can always make something out of nothing. Even if you have no experience, start doing something related to this. It will work out. I’m specifically hearing that the universe is on your side in this matter. Though the end may not seem like it is near, it is. Please continue to push forward and it may seem tough now, but if you keep going, you will make it. There are several people who would help you, including teachers and other professionals around you at school, your university, or work. Remember you are not alone. 

The universe would like to remind you that if you talk with it, it will listen. Meditate, listen to music, sing or do whatever you feel would get your point across. Expressing yourself is a gift and a talent you naturally have. Use your gifts and your natural intuitive connection to the universe to heal your inner child and leave this situation. I’m also hearing that your inner child feels like they are in the dark. Speak to them and comfort them when you’re feeling down. Keep your dreams to yourself for the most part, the people in your environment will discourage you. Tell people who care about you and that you know you can trust. I’m really rooting for you and I’m sending you love and peace.

Three:

If you’ve picked pile three, your inner child really wants to tell you about how happy they are. There's such an overwhelming feeling of gratitude here, it makes me want to cry tears of joy almost. I wasn’t going to mention the cards for any of these piles but you have the 4 of Swords, 10 of Cups, The Star, and the 4 of Wands. They practically flew out excitedly. You’ve cultivated a lifestyle that makes you happy and your dreams are coming to fruition. You’ve probably bought things that you’ve always wanted since childhood. There’s an emphasis on physical and mental beauty. This wasn’t without struggle, however. You’ve been taking better care of yourself lately and your inner child is flourishing. You could even make spontaneous decisions that end up working out because you have a good relationship with your inner child.

Even if your life feels boring currently and like nothing is happening, that’s good for you right now. All your child self has wanted is to be stable and to feel like things are going okay for you. There isn’t much else for me to say, but I would like to remind you to stay peaceful, don’t self sabotage and aim higher. You can do it and you’re definitely in a better place than you were before. Make sure to get adequate rest, don’t push yourself, and take social media breaks often. Your child self thanks you. 

Four:

You’re the older person that your inner child needed. You’ve matured a lot. Whether it’s due to circumstances, or just getting older normally, you’ve come a long way. What I find odd is that your environment doesn’t matter that much. It could be stable, chaotic, boring, or fun but you’re unchanging. You stick up for your child self and attempt to make good decisions for you and those around you. You want to be much better than the adults you’ve seen growing up and you’re careful not to make those mistakes. You’re generous and people may rely on you financially or for advice, even if they’re older than you. You’ve probably struggled with anger and with many dark emotions, but you have decided to turn that into a superpower. I really admire your strength and grit in the face of generational trauma and even poverty, for some of you. You might be the first one in the family to graduate college or highschool, or you’re financially stable at a young age. Whatever it is, I’m proud of you. 

But there’s one thing: your inner child is interested in playing and having fun and they’re a bit sad because you don’t make time for them. You might be so focused on being responsible that you don’t pay attention to your need to enjoy yourself and to explore. Take the time off from work to treat yourself. I would also like to remind you that you are not everyone’s caretaker. While it’s good that you’re able to do so, you should disconnect from giving so much of yourself all the time. It’s not your responsibility and it doesn’t help the people in your life learn to handle themselves. Enjoy the fruits of your labor, relax and stop helping those friends and family that ask you for things constantly.

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[This is an original post, if you see this under any other username, it has been stolen. Always credit filmbythestars.]

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[♡] — hi beautiful souls! i'd just like to pop in and say thanks for all the love you've been giving for my readings! i'll be posting some more soon and progressing with my works as i go. this is sort of a new experience for me, and i'm glad to have taken a step to this journey. ♡

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You will not be ‘hard to love’ for the RIGHT person.

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the most beautiful movie ever seen : PAC reading ♡

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 1 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 2 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 3

— [♡] hello! it's been a few days since my last reading. this reading is about your life as though it was a movie, and it talks about your greatest and positive impacts on your life and other people's lives.

this reading holds a specific sentiment to me, and if there are enough requests for another reading like this, i will be making another one. ♡

note: depending on your life situation or story, "people" could be adjusted to "person" and your reading would make more sense. take what resonates and leave what doesn't, because our lives are so diverse, this can only be a general reading. i'll try to do more piles if enough requests come through for pile 2.

pictures are from howls moving castle!

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 1

back of the deck: v of cups

cards: ace of swords, strength, ace of pentacles, v of swords (reversed), vi of cups, x of swords (reversed), viii of pentacles

— [♡] the protagonist has been through hard times, and has seen what it's like to have the shorter end of the stick multiple, multiple times. they have lived a hard life, whether financially, emotionally, socially lacking— they have seen the darkest corners of the world, and are actively preventing other people to reach the same place each and every day. people see the protagonist as a victor, who has lived through many lives. they look up to them greatly and see them as a symbol of strength, and go to them often for advice, inspiration, or a shoulder to lean on. they see them as an example of what it's like to rise on your own from the ground. the protagonist's actions helps them get over their fears, inspires them, helps them forgive themselves, stand their ground, and not succumb to the things that trouble them.

and the protagonist helps and inspires them to live a happy, normal life, doing what they love, and to no longer look back. this, is the mundane serenity that will be admired for many, many years to come.

[♡] additionally channeled:

people really, really look up to you. you walk into a room and seeing you already soothes the mind, body and heart from the pains and troubles of the world and you try your best all the time to help other people out. most of the people that have chosen this pile are also the eldest siblings/breadwinners of their families. despite what you have been through, i'm really proud that you're still here, and choosing to live with yourself past those painful periods of your life. i hope you realize your impact on other people is so, so heartwarming, and you shouldn't degrade or be ashamed of yourself. treat yourself with the same kindness these people give you. if only they could say how they could look at things you've made and they know how much love and parts of yourself you've put into it, or how your presence lightens up their day, and your style of doing certain things lets them know it's you because it has your charm. there are so many unspoken words from them, even as far as people or strangers you've only met once. thank you for being here. ♡

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 2

back of the deck: the lovers (reversed)

cards: iv of cups (reversed), king of pentacles (reversed), page of wands (reversed), the tower,iii of cups, iv of pentacles

— [♡] the protagonist is a very lonely and closed off person, most especially to strangers. they tend to neglect themselves a lot and cut things short. to this end, the protagonist puts off a lot of their thoughts and appear to have a calm or blank mind all throughout the day. but their ideas, their creations are so beautifully thought out and impactful, people can read a poem from it, or hear a siren sing a song from it. however, their creations are not heard out often, or their luck is quite short on this. they feel that it is their burden most of the time, and this is the reason why they are so closed off. but people try to help them out, and create wonderful memories with the protagonist. they hold the protagonist like an ace in the hole, a jack of all trades, a work of art, because they think the protagonist is one of a kind on their own, and will continue supporting the protagonist no matter what, because they see the passion the protagonist puts into everything, they see the underlying care and love for others that they possess, and that is your beauty. your impact, your strength.

[♡] channeled song: tao(person) by sampaguita

the song talks about not overthinking your worries and living the now, because in the end, it will pass by anyways, and that's life.

english lyrics:

“like a bird, a person also flies,

ambition is the sole goal, to reach and make it come true

the mind gets dizzy, once something new is seen

everything in the world, is a big temptation

why should we cry? why should we suffer?

the things we would not like to happen, cannot be foretold yet

you'll just hurt yourself like that, don't wound the heart

this is just a game, to a world that's full of sinners

water gets dried down, and flowers wither too

the days go by, and head towards the night

you'll just hurt yourself like that, don't wound the heart

this is just a game, to a world that's full of sinners

just like a bird, a person also fades away

their sole ambition is, to see the next life”

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 3

back of the deck: page of cups

cards: knight of wands (reversed), ix of pentacles, knight of cups (WOW), x of wands (reversed), the magician (reversed), king of pentacles, x of cups

— [♡] the protagonist is an elegant and creative character, and is also calm, and thrives in quiet confidence and capability. their aura is homey and at the same time luxurious, and because of this, people relax at the sight of them, and many people see them as "spouse material" or are romantically attracted to them. they almost embody what love is like, they are also skillful at being rational and despite knowing their capabilities, they also know their and other people's limits. this is how people know that they are a sincere and good person, one that mediates, one that helps you rest, and makes your worries go away. the protagonist is abundant, emotionally balanced and very fortunate. they are very, very well aware of what they want for themselves and are very open to change, and that's how you charm so many people. many see you as a romantic interest or simply finds you attractive one way or another whether or not you know about this. for some of you, there is also someone or a lot of people who have genuine love and feelings for you, and one of them could be your soulmate. the song below is what was channeled for you, and since the reading stated the protagonist embodied love, i think you'll get why once you listen to this.

[♡] channeled song: araw-araw by ben&ben

notes: WOW. W-O-W did not expect this pile to be a love reading again but i ♡ this

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“Scared is how you’re feeling; brave is what you’re doing.”

— Emma Donoghue

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“I guarantee your soul is telling you exactly what you should be doing. The question is whether or not you’re listening.”

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Mel Robbins

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the love of your life : PAC reading !

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 1 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 2 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 3

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 4 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 5 ˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 6

— [♡] hello, beautiful souls ♡ today's reading is for romantics & romantics only! this won't directly be your soulmate or future spouse and you may be drawn multiple piles as well, but we are talking about THE love of a lifetime! so buckle up and step right up! take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is all for entertainment, don't worry ♡

this reading was also started on a really special day for me, and i hope you can feel special too ♡

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 1

back of the deck: iv of wands

cards: page of pentacles, iv of cups (reversed), the fool, page of wands, the moon, x of pentacles (reversed)

— this love is something that you have never experienced before until you find it. it makes you question everything you thought you knew, and introduces you to so many new things, places, mindsets, ideas and growth. and everything else you knew beforehand feels so small, almost as though a distant memory. you did not know that there was this much wonder, happiness, peace, discovery, and so, so much bliss out in the world just waiting for you with a bated breath, ready you receive you at any time.

this love might have been completely new to your life, and when they meet you, you are a little bit of an emotional soul, or perhaps you are just a little troubled in the moment? but they meet you, and it's the feeling of the sun on your skin. it's also the same for them. they seem to be super caring and friendly, but perhaps they treat you a little more special than others— maybe a little too much, they say. their existence almost makes the seeds that were planted long ago be taken care of and watered, put under the sunlight and fed well, and you grow into a beautiful new person.

this love really changes you in beautiful ways, almost as though you were reborn. you've fallen for each other head over heels, because you have no other reason to be together but to be with eachother, through thick and thin, rich or poor, in sickness and in health. this love is so pure and loyal, i'm a little emotional :ʼ) it makes you so motivated, and other people that see your dynamic and the way you motivate and inspire each other each and everyday get inspired too. it's so beautiful and it's rich, it's cozy, it's abundant and it just flows in of itself, it's both peace and excitement, and you would choose eachother over and over again.

[♡] additionally channeled:

this love is a long term one, growing old together is really strong here. you match the same beliefs and morals, and you support eachother in everything. you may also go out on a lot of dates, and even years later, you walk around the streets like teenagers in love. i can just see you having your 10th anniversary and you still feel a little shy seeing eachother glammed up and all because wow, they're breathtaking. sometimes you also stare at eachother, and one of you may playfully smile or smirk at the other to fluster the other. this is so adorable <333 you never fail to amaze eachother and make eachother feel special. also, last note since i keep gushing about this pile, one or both of you may have this as your first relationship. either way, enjoy, lovers!

channeled song: paninindigan kita - ben&ben

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 2

back of the deck: ii of swords

cards: vii of pentacles (reversed), iii of pentacles, the moon (reversed), vi of cups (reversed), the lovers (reversed), iv of wands

— this love stands on the middle ground of familial and lovers, and yet it transcends it. there are three groups here: one, wherein you have already separated each other. two, those who are aware of or have feelings for each other but cannot be together (yet, for some of you). and three, those who are aware of each other's feelings but no exact label, and yet theres also those who are together or married already. but this will write down the love these all had generally. either way, this love has made their feelings final in their own way for each group. no matter where this ends, i think this love has a poetic and remarkable story to it.

one of the lovers has a very unstable or anxious history to them as well as a melancholic or restrained lifestyle, and the other has a lonely, peaceful, yet free lifestyle. this love is unsure when exactly the seeds were planted, when it sprouted and only found out gradually once it bloomed. these lovers have always been there for eachother, and they always uplift eachother, almost as though they were puzzle pieces that fit so perfectly together, they could not separate. this love is so safe, and will let eachother's guard down at any time. the first lover i mentioned finds safety in the other's peaceful lifestyle and it also translates into the way they love, and then the second, they seem to have started loving and not expected anything in return anymore, standing their ground to wait for them, or just love them from a distance. initially, this second one noticed their melancholic nature, and gradually helped light the first one's life, and it was never manually given. the more time they spent with eachother, the more they got to know each other, the more they fell.

so many people around them, as well as themselves have been rooting for these lovers to be together, but this story has a peaceful end to it no matter what. they do eventually tell their feelings to each other one day, but they were unsure about the possibility of them being together. however, their feelings were so sincere that they left an eternal mark on eachother. some of them choose to love eachother from a distance, some of them are currently in courtship or approval, some of them chose to remain as friends, are together now long term, or simply had to go their separate ways at one point.

nevertheless, this love taught them a lot about themselves, eachother, and the world. they've been taught so many things from this love, that each time they think about it, they're still very thankful, almost eliciting a similar response to eachother as well. this felt very soulmate-like, and showered eachother with love and kindness everyday, even when they are physically apart.

[♡] additionally channeled:

"i'd do anything for you, and if i was asked, i'd fall in love with you again, and over and over again. thank you for giving me the happiest days of my life, and lighting mine and other's as well. i love you, in every lifetime."

channeled song: pagtingin (perception) by ben&ben

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 3

back of the deck: page of cups (reversed)

cards: queen of wands (reversed), viii of cups (reversed), knight of cups (reversed), queen of pentacles, the star, the sun

— the lover who's side was channeled was very shy about this reading but really eager to get their feelings out too. the latter 3 cards i had to get had been separated from the original deck to just give the rest. they have a shell to them, it seems, hehe. however, they're flowing in a lot of love, that they took the whole reading into something about and for the other ♡ the person being wrote about also seems to have a more feminine energy as well.

[♡] channeled message:

“who would have guessed that the love of my life was right under my nose? i didn't need to look anywhere or at anyone else once i realized i loved you. i try and mask my feelings or look away so it wouldn't be obvious, but no matter what i did, i found myself attached to you; body, mind, and soul. i don't know if its been obvious to you already, but i've fallen in love with you utterly and helplessly. have you as well? it's alright if you're not yet ready. but everytime you walk into a room, it's color becomes more vivid, and you've grabbed everyone's attention. you're hardworking and you pay attention to everyone, even the smallest things about them, you make reminders of it. i've seen how you improve yourself each and every day, and you try your best to give yourself the same kindness and love you do to others. and i know i'm not the only one who looks at you like this, there are many people who would want to be with you, but i pray, each and every night, you choose me. because god knows who else could make me feel this way, you've got me wrapped around your finger and ready to shield you from everything at anytime. a friend joked i would worship the ground you walk on— but they're not way off. you've given me great joy each and every day, and it doesn't matter how long we've known eachother. you still make me feel butterflies, my heart skip a beat, and warmth wash over even into my bones. no one else will ever do this to me, and i hope that i, too, can make you feel like this, and care for you, and be the only one in your heart.

yours, forever”

i think they've already come into terms and processed their feelings for the receiver, and they're alright no matter what the answer is. all that matters to them, is that they still smile brightly and live out their best life, even if they are not together. and if the receiver feels the same way, i can guarantee this person will treat them well and try their best to give them the best life possible. so many ideas are going through their head, and they've spent many days and nights dreaming about them as well, but it's too much for this reading, hehe. some of you may already be together, and i wish you the best forever! ♡

channeled song: hopelessly devoted to you - olivia newton-john

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 4

back of the deck: iv of pentacles (reversed)

cards: queen of wands (reversed), v of pentacles (reversed), viii of pentacles (reversed), the moon, x of wands, judgement, iv of swords (reversed)

— okay! this pile has definitely been through a lot of ups and downs with their lover, i also was really scared to interpret this at first, but it's actually really beautiful <3 this pile does end up long term, for however that defines to you. some of you may also already be engaged or married to this lover. i am really getting a lot of balance in this relationship, it's giving soulmate vibes. in this love, there is balance, blooming, fate, vulnerability. amidst all the chaos, this relationship soothes you, and brings you to rationality. however, this love tends to also bend rationality for eachother, almost as though one or both of you is really new to letting love into your life and how it's changed the way you view your lover and all of the things you knew beforehand. and you're so dedicated to eachother, i think you've also given the other opportunities they have never before. things like receiving gifts or surprises, going out on dinner dates and going to the nearest arcade afterwards, going to big sports events, these things that while they aren't too out there, a lot of people don't get to experience these good things in life, and since they're able to experience now, it's completely different from what they imagined to have with their lover.

they're really looking forward to spending the rest of their life with you, to grow, to listen, to dance, to cry, to love; they'd spend every waking moment— they're saying they want to be in each other's dreams too, just to love you more and more. you make them overcome their rationality and they're really just head over heels in love with you <333 they just cant put it into words anymore. just let them. this love is one of a kind. ♡

additionally channeled:

i think this person is someone youve known for awhile now? if youre not sure, it seems they haven't confessed yet, everything will make sense eventually. they always, always have your back, no matter what.

channeled song: habangbuhay (for life) - zack tabudlo

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 5

back of the deck: death (reversed)

cards: king of swords (reversed), ix of pentacles, iv of pentacles, the lovers, v of swords (reversed), the hierophant, vii of pentacles

— this love is unchanged and cannot be corroded by time. it's carefree, and it's also very fortunate to still have a laid-back lifestyle where the lovers get to do whatever they want, be successful and happy. and they actively keep efforts going to keep the relationship together, i'm hearing "i'm yours, and you are mine" over and over again. the feeling i got when i looked at the cards was almost transported back in time, in a really happy time, with the sun going down and the sunrays touching your skin, it almost felt like an anime scene, hehe. and it's stuck like that. honestly, this pile is really straightforward, your lover is head over heels for you and they are DAMN proud to show it! reading this was really heartfluttering, and their messages were so sweet too. ♡

"you're stuck with me now, how about for life?"

"i'll keep you safe, i'll care for you, and love you till the end of time. can i trust you'll do the same?"

"i want to share a home with you, to plant with you and taking care of the plants, watching them grow, having our favourite songs playing in the background, doing the chores, cooking together, hanging the laundry... i'll support and respect everything you do, but i really, really, just want to spend this lifetime with you, happily, forever."

"the love i have for you, is etched into my bones. it cannot be erased, it cannot be rid of. i have eyes only for you, heart that beats the same as yours, and hands that only belong in yours."

"i let my guard down around you because i find peace in your presence, and i love every moment of it."

"i want to do everything, and i mean everything, with you. you're everywhere in my mind."

[♡] additionally channeled

— slow dancing under the light, taking candid pictures of eachother with cameras, having a photobook and scrapbook, a historical garden grown by two lovers, growing old together, meeting by chance, matching clothes/fashion/colors, painting/doing makeup on eachothers faces, smiling ear to ear in kisses, weekly outdoor dates & mementos, counting down till midnight on monthsarys

channeled song: lover by taylor swift

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˚₊· ͟͟͞➳ pile 6

back of the deck: wheel of fortune

cards: iv of cups (reversed), queen of swords, the fool, the hermit (reversed), temperance, vii of cups, ix of cups

— i got the feeling of my hands tingling in a good way the moment i finished writing all the cards down ♡♡ it's really giving old married couple acting like teenagers in love. you're really protective of eachother, and know when to give eachother space and boundaries to grow, and you also immediately know when the other is feeling down or in trouble, and give them the proper care and comfort, and the support to feel better. and you don't shy away from showing your love of either. i think people also feel happy seeing you together, it makes them smile. i'm hearing that they're really in awe and look up to you, and it's the same case for eachother. you both feel so, so blessed that you met, and you're together now. this is honestly giving more of a divine connection, it's just so loving that it radiates off to other people too. i think you're the type of people that do some really progressive stuff too i'm loving thissss ♡

one or both of you feel like children when you're together, back to simpler times and simple mindsets, and always looking out for eachother, and you're not the kind of couple that allows other people to disrespect the other, instead they either leave the scene or stand their ground. i think you might know this person already for a long, long time, some of you since childhood, actually. i can just see both of you happy to wake up to eachother everyday, see eachother off and giving a goodbye kiss, some of you meeting at lunch, and being eager to see eachother once work is over and you're holding hands and talking a lot about random thoughts that come into your head, how your day was, how you imagine your future to be. and one or both of you make efforts to see that your partner's dreams are fulfilled.

i really don't think i can channel a message for this one, i think there's a lot of love even in silence for you, physical touch may be one of your core love languages together. you're both spending time together at the end of the day, having dinner, watching a movie together and laughing at your favourite scenes, cuddling, stargazing... i could go on and on, but in each scene, your lover stares at you the whole time and you're both holding eachother one way or another.

channeled song: flower garden - howl's moving castle