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REBLOG IF YOU HAVE STRETCHMARKS

This way people can see they’re not alone. I have them and this would help me see that.

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Ever been so sad and broken that you can’t move. So you just sit there, frozen, paralyzed by your pain and suffer. Because that’s all you can do.

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When you’re growing up in abusive family, you don’t feel like “oh, I’m being abused, this is wrong.” You don’t even think about that. Instead, you feel guilty all the time. You feel like a horrible person. You feel useless and wrong, like something is fundamentally wrong with you, and you deserve every bit of harm coming your way.

For every time your parents hurt you, you feel it was justified and you deserved and provoked it. You keep feeling horrible and guilty about everything you’ve done to cause it. Even when something extreme happens, you dismiss it with “they didn’t mean that” or “it was just once, in anger, so it doesn’t count.”

You feel like a burden, because you know these people don’t want you in their house, and you don’t feel capable of being independent, and it’s on you that you keep bothering them with your existence, and don’t seem to be capable of getting out of there. You don’t feel like you deserve food, shelter, clothes, or anything. You feel like a burden no matter what you do. You don’t feel welcome anywhere, you don’t feel like you have a home, like there’s a place on this planet where you could be loved and cared for. You doubt yourself so badly, you struggle to see any value in your existence and it becomes hard. You break down and feel weak and lost and like everyone else is leaving you behind. You don’t feel like a part of anything. You feel guilty for existing the way you are.

If you felt this, you’ve been thru abuse. There is no one on this world who is useless, unworthy of love, or deserves to feel so guilty and to be hurt all the time. These ideas didn’t come from you, but from how horribly you were treated. Feeling this way is not normal. You did not deserve to feel this way.

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I don’t feel human anymore. All I feel is numb. And broken. And empty. And so fucking tired of fighting this thing.

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yo does anyone else feel CONSTANTLY guilty? like you’ve always done something wrong but you don’t know what it is?

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This is a sincere, worrisome question

Reblog if you would date a trans person. I’m honestly so scared that no one will ever love me because I’m trans. It’s a scary thought

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Henry:

Me:

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I normally don't post these kind of things but someone I know is 18, Transgender & soon out of Foster Care. So once out the System they will be on street & I can't see them being on street because with all the things going on I'm afraid they would get hurt. So if you can help by re-blogging this that would be great.

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Every once in a while I think “why do I have all these mental disorders, surely my childhood wasn’t that bad” and then I have an interaction with my mother and I understand.

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Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I’m trying to prove something.

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Someone: wow you’re really mature for your age

Me: thanks, it’s the childhood of abuse and neglect that forced me to grow up and learn how to care for myself and protect myself long before a child should have had to

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"It just breaks my heart that most of my friends know I have depression/suicidal tendencies yet they never check up on me."

- I just want to feel like I matter to someone

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Random breakdowns at 2am while you thought you were doing well.

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You always say I can talk to you but it's getting bad again and it just feels like I've been bothering you

Confession #39

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"People don't like you when you're sad. People don't like when you're breaking down and asking for help. People don't like it when you cry and say you've had enough. People don't want to be around people that are sad and I guess that's just the nature of people. So if you ever find someone that cares about you enough to stay during the bad times, keep them. They're rare, and a lot of us are searching for these kind of people right now."

— A reminder to appreciate those who stuck by you during your lowest moments.

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hit that nasty rb if you:

are an gay

are play minecraft