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💟 Hobonichi Weeks spread - 2024 Week 40

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6 pm, making a collage for the new year :v)

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lingering december

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new year planning @ my desk

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12/19/24

Posting this hella late, but the semester wrapped up so fast!

I'm preparing for 2025 by getting a planner! I ordered the Leuchtturm1917 weekly planner and notebook in apricot. I think it's dotted instead of ruled, but I won't really know until I pick it when I go back to campus. I'm super excited about using a planner, and I hope it helps me be a better student.

I had to pack everything up and fly home today, but I had a project for my study abroad program due on top of that. I did my laundry, washed up my dishes, and threw out or froze my perishable food before heading to the airport early. I did some work on my project at the airport and planned on working on it on the plane, but I got a headache, so I just slept on the plane. The airline I take always has good coffee or tea and these nice little Biscoff cookies. I like to get tea with sugar and dip the cookies in the tea. However, they only had coffee and water today. The coffee was really good, and it was nice to relax on the plane after finals week.

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12/18/24

Oh, today was so sleepy!

I woke up and had breakfast before rushing late to my appointment. Funny enough, the appointment was about being tested for ADHD. After spending 5 months on a waitlist I'm going through my university to see if I can have an expedited testing. I hope everything turns out well and I'm able to get the resources and support I need to thrive!

After that I got a Snickers in the student union because I was craving chocolate, and I sat down for a while. I made a few calls, which was good, but after that I didn't do much. I got back to my apartment in time to scarf down a bagel before a sleepy 70 minute Zoom meeting.

After that I went to Target with my roommate, had a scrappy little dinner, and researched planners. I took a take-home final exam for one of my courses before going back to looking at planners. I ended up ordering an orange a5 Leuchtturm one from my university bookstore. I'm so excited to pick it up and use it in 2025! I'm trying to become more organized and mindful. It's just as much about learning to enjoy my life as it is about staying on top of my tasks.

Today was a lot of loafing around, but that's bound to happen sometimes. I just have to make sure I meet my deadlines so I don't freak out.

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Good morning, guess who is going to have to study during the weekend because she procrastinated too close to the sun?

But first, book and breakfast

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12/17/24

And just like that, I’m done learning French.

I had a my French final today, meaning I’ve done all the work needed to fulfill my language requirement. It’s kind of bittersweet because I hated French classes, but I loved learning the language. I wish it was possible for me to take group French classes outside of a formal academic setting. But I don’t think that’s possible for me, so I’m just going to gradually forget everything I’ve learned about the language now, I guess. It’s actually quite sad when you think about it.

The rest of the day wasn’t very productive. I hung out around my apartment before heading to the student union to use the last of my university dining dollars on a coffee and try to maybe get some work done (I didn’t get any work done).

I FaceTimed my little cousin for a little bit, which was nice. She’s young and has a pretty short attention span, so it wasn’t a long call, but I still enjoyed seeing her. Before I headed back to my apartment someone asked me for directions to a specific room in the student union. I always love giving people directions, it feels nice to be able to help a stranger. I was in a good mood on my walk back after that.

I wrote a poem while eating dinner (leftover Japanese curry) and edited it afterwards. I sent it to the creative director of the magazine I work for, so hopefully it gets published. I acted like I don’t care if it’s published, but I really do!

I frittered away the rest of the night, but now I’m drinking tea in my bed while reading some of Rudy Francisco’s poetry. Always a good end to a day!

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12/16/24

Today was just an honest rest day!

I woke up late and stayed in bed until noon because I'm a college student, damn it! Lol, I didn't have anything to do until my telehealth therapy session at 4 p.m, and no assignments were due today, so I just kind of hung out. I think I needed this, considering what a mess everything's been lately.

Therapy was really good today. I feel like I've just been talking about more substantial stuff with my therapist lately, which has been kind of tough, but also important. After that appointment I signed up for one at my university's mental health clinic so I can begin looking to be tested for ADHD. I've been on a waiting list for 5 months now, so I'm looking at being added to the list for another testing center.

I spent the rest of the day wrapping Christmas gifts, cooking gyoza (frozen from TJ's, but I added the crispy skirt!), and doing a bunch of dishes. I'm ending the day by drinking some sleepytime tea in my bed. This is a ritual I started in the past week, and I've really been enjoying it. I boil the water really hot, prepare the cup of tea, and then take a shower. By the time I'm out of the shower, the tea is strong and at a reasonable temperature. I've learned that I usually waste time on my phone before bed, so it's not like having a cup of tea takes away from time I would be sleeping. I feel like it's a better use of my time, since it actually keeps me off of my phone. I highly recommend doing something like this, it's a relaxing habit and a nice way to end a night!

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12/15/24

Another day another... I don't even know.

I was in oddly high spirits today as I aggressively procrastinated a single, easy assignment. I did laundry (still needs to be folded), grabbed a coffee (the barista was super sweet!), and danced to The Cars. As has become standard, though, I pushed my assignment to the last minute and turned in something that didn't quite reflect my abilities. It's starting to weigh on me a bit, to be completely honest. It's hard not to lose yourself in the self blame when it comes to this kind of stuff, though. I'm going to keep pushing to the end of the semester and hope spring goes better. That's all I can do at this point!

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visiting this beautiful place called Earth where you can make a grilled cheese with sourdough bread and two types of aged sharp cheddar and garlic power and ground mustard seed and italian blend herbs and eat it with a giant bowl of tomato basil soup. 🍅 and it’s chilly outside.

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12/13/24

In classic me fashion, I fucked everything up.

Got 1 out of 3 assignments completed finished today. The largest one was turned in unfinished, which is a million flavors of suck because I already have a 73% in that course. At this point all I can hope for is that I pass the class.

I was wholly unproductive this morning, which is becoming a disturbing—but not surprising—routine. I originally wanted to get my French project done before 11:30 a.m today so I could dedicate the entire second half of the day to my journalism things, but that obviously didn’t happen. At around 2 p.m I packed my stuff up (including a cute little snack bag) and headed to the student union to get going on my work. I was so optimistic, it disgusts me.

I didn’t finish my French until 5 p.m(?), giving me roughly 7 hours to do write a lengthy feature article. At maybe around 9 I relocated to the library, which is now open 24 hours a day for finals week. I then proceeded to not finish the project.

When it hit 11:59 p.m I turned in my unfinished project, stood up, and just stared off into space. I must’ve looked crazy. Then I went to the main floor of the library, where I sobbed on a bench before texting my twin brother. He called me, we talked for a little bit, and he assured me everything would be ok. After that I went outside and lay in the snowy grass for about ten minutes before walking home.

There’s no way next semester can be worse than this

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12/12/24

I didn't have very many assignments due today, so I thought I'd use it to get a jump on some of the projects due tomorrow night. I guess I thought wrong! I spent most of the day just kind of... I don't even know what. I guess I did a lot of dishes? Regardless, I was so wiped out from yesterday that I didn't really have the motivation to get a lot done. I made lemon cupcakes, but I don't think that really counts, since all it did was use up the lemons I had in the fridge. I wanted to get my French final project done before midnight so I could go to sleep at a decent time, but I got caught up talking with my roommates in the kitchen and didn't finish cleaning up from the cupcakes until 11. I procrastinated for a little bit, took a shower, and tried to do some work while having some tea, but I decided it would be best if I just did it in the morning. I have three projects due tomorrow, one of which I haven't started yet. It's safe to say that I'm scared to see how everything turns out.

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12/11/24

It's always a good start to the day when your morning alarm goes off for ~2 hours while you fade in and out of consciousness just enough to keep pressing snooze, finally waking up one minute before your first class starts. And by that I mean today did not get off to a good start--I suppose it's not off to a good end either, considering the fact I'm writing this at 5 am.

Today was the last day of classes, and I only had two, since I had already finished up French class. I had therapy after class, and it was really nice. I hadn't seen my therapist in maybe a month? It was actually a really productive session, though. After that, I interviewed a friend for my journalism project, came back home, made dinner (it took FOREVER!), and sat down to finish up some projects. As is usual now, I just couldn't get started on my work. I hate it! I ended up starting working around 10:40, and turned in a half-finished copy of the project before midnight. After several hours of procrastination I finished up the project and submitted the completed project as a new attempt.

I can't help but feel like a loser for struggling academically this semester, but my therapist says I should work on unlearning the power structures I grew up with. That means I can't look down on myself for academic floundering anymore. Oof, I'm so tired right now, I'll be lucky to get up at a decent time tomorrow. I might have to bribe myself with coffee or something, who knows.

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12/10/24

Woke up at 4 a.m to get rolling on my final project for my Justice in Latin America class, and got a modest amount done before hustling to campus to take a French exam. I feel like I did alright on it--good enough, but not fantastic. Hung out with a friend at the student union while looking over some of my work and then continued to attempt to trundle through my project while eating lunch.

After my second class I ran an errand, went back to my apartment for dinner, and spent the night trying to do more work. I completed a French assignment, but I don't know why productivity has been so hard lately! I'm hoping the rest of the week goes better.

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12/9/24

Ugh, I couldn't get ANYTHING done today!

Sometimes I just have days where all I feel like doing is catching up on emails and communications. Unfortunately, today was not the kind of day where I can just let that happen. The semester is ending and I have several projects that must be done this week. I parked myself in one of my favorite coffee shops to really try to get to work, but I wasn't able to do much. After heading back home I ate dinner, got so worked up I booked a therapy session for this week, and then resumed trying to work. ...No luck. I went to sleep at 2 am at to try to catch a single z before having to wake up at 4 am. Let's hope the coming days are much more productive. I don't know what I'll do if they aren't.

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