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OK, ok, so like- you know that trope in k-dramas where the its starts raining so the guy takes off his coat so that the girl can be protected from the rain? well, my little hopeless romantic heart ALWAYS wanted that

well, i was walking home from school right? well it started sprinkling a little. then it got stronger and stronger. i didn't have an umbrella so i had to think FAST. so, i unbuttoned my dress shirt (we have uniforms) and put it over my head and started BOOKING it (even tho my fatass was still very slow).

and at that moment. sprinting in the rain, the dress shirt billowing in the wind as drops of rainfall hits its surface. i felt like-- it felt like i was finally doing something for myself. not doing it for someone else, not waiting for someone to save me, i, I, was the k-drama male lead i always wanted. i felt like a damn bird, so free, has zero concept of "k-dramas" and "the male lead", just fish.

(anyways just wanted to share lol it may sound weird but its been a while since i felt like a didnt need another person in my life to validate and help me in every step and breath i take lol)

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im a Taylor Swift fan, of course im gonna like anything red. even if its a flag.

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ok so like- lately i've been thinking that like- yea, sure, maybe I do fall for guys who like giving false hope (paasa in filipino) but also, what if I just don't know how to take a gesture of *fvxcking friendship*, or maybe i'm gaslighting myself again either way i'm still adorable ' U '

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Me: huh, i really wanna lose weight but don't have money for a healthy diet!

Google: oh! well, there are actually many ways to-

My Brain: JUST DONT EAT!!!!!

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ok. listen. i rlly want a bf. like, rlly badly. i don't even know why. tv romanticized love or smth idk. but like- what if. what if I become the bad partner? like- what if all the breakup songs talking about how immature their partner was and how bad they handled the relationship, what if they become about me?

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i guess, i was so used to having control that, not being able to control my feelings for you bothers me

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if i have to be a bitch to move on then im gonna be a bitch to move on <3

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Is it just me or is "My Humps" by Black Eyed Peas kinda like...i don't know how to explain it.

Like, the lyric "They treat me really nicely, They buy me all these iceys" implies that its not all about the money, its also about the attitude, how they treat her. This idea later being reinforced by the lyric "Let's spend time not money"

It also takes a moment to comment on sexual assault. "You can look but you can't touch it. If you touch it, I'ma start some drama"

Like, my standards are probably, definitely just really low but for 2005? this song is kind of progressive. But then again im not a woman so i don't really have the right to talk about this but yk. Im not even a black eyed peas fan, was just thinking about this while I heard the song randomly

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Hello! im Kiel

Im from the Philippines!

I haven't really thought about my pronouns but im comfy with him/they

This account will probably have alot of different stuffs on it whatever I feel at the time. probably mostly just random thoughts of mine or random ideas :D

some random info about me:

-vanilla, but when strawberry is done right, its done right

-i play valorant, league, and roblox

-im an aries sun & rising, and a pisces moon

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Marilyn Monroe riding an elephant in the opening night of the Ringling Brothers Circus at Madison Square Garden, March 31, 1955.

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AM i touch starved or do our knees touching mean he likes me? Does he not minding being around me mean he is in love? In this essay-

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Not to gatekeep but, my crush's girlfriend just quoted Emily from Corpse Bride. Like...girlie...i know you're unaware but ur literally my Victoria

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Bigger Than the Whole Sky: literally one of the saddest songs in Taylor's discography

literally the next song

turnsoutitwasthatguyyouhookedupwithagesagosomewannabezlister-

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my only contribution to society, tree food

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manifesting i don't get any taller than my current height. being tall has many drawbacks and *very* little pros :(