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I hate how they demonized attention-seeking behavior, as if it somehow makes you bad to need attention, especially as a child.

I’ve had fantasies of bad things happening to me and those closest to me, and getting attention, pity, and love because of it, for most of my life. Is this normal? No. Does it mean I am a bad person who actually wants bad things to happen to the people I love? No. Does it make me self-absorbed to crave attention that badly? No.

There’s always a reason that people do things “just for attention”. And it is rarely what people think it is.

I grew up feeling so guilty for doing things for attention, and ended up not getting the attention and help I needed because of that guilt.

Self harm is a good example of something that is often said to be done “just for attention”. And you know what? Yes, I have hurt myself for attention. And nobody understood why I would do something like that to myself.

But when you are so desperate for someone to see you, to hear you, to help you, that you would literally die to get someone to show they care, it makes a lot more sense.

Let’s try to be more understanding about attention-seeking behavior. Let’s see it for what it is: a legitimate call for help. Not a sign of self-centeredness.

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I am so so tired of having the compassion for everyone else that they don't have for me

You're having a bad day? Let me pause my whole life so I can help you with that. Let me give you that book that is so so special to me knowing I won't be getting it back. Let me play along with your cruel jokes, tend to your wounds and carry you across the finish line

I'm having a bad day and I must apologize for feeling feelings in your direction I guess I should have tried harder but I'll see you next time you need something

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Sorry to break yall's hearts but this is too well written of a post to not include in here.

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All break up songs can be about your family if you're damaged enough

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shoutout to all the kids with good people as bad parents. the parents who were sympathetic, honest and kind to everyone until you were the next in line. the parents who loved the entire family except you. the parents who preached about acceptance, warmth and kindness, but never offered it to you. the parents who were understanding to friends, cousins or siblings, but not to their own children. the cognitive dissonance is surreal, but i promise it is not a reflection of your own worth. you deserve more.

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I've been emotionally slutty (shown someone I am capable of human feelings) lately, I fear.

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Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

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Colin helping Penelope find a husband only to realize he's in love with her is a GOD TIER TROPE and everybody who disagrees is wrong idc

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I'm actually completely NORMAL about Maxwell Beaumont

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The way this could be both adam or hoffman for me-

Get off dating apps. The love of your life is in the saw bathroom.

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no i will not make separate blogs for my fandoms, everyone who follows me must experience ALL my insanity

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so sad that in america the only options after a terminal cancer diagnosis is either to make meth or make saw traps

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the modern equivalent of “he’s actually frankestein’s monster not frankenstein” is “that’s not jigsaw that’s billy the puppet”

(i’m both of these people)

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