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pillow-letters · 5 days ago
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me when its that time of the day when im under the covers, cozied up, kicking my feet and ready to go town in the smut tag
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pillow-letters · 16 days ago
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pillow-letters · 25 days ago
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How I imagine Geto in fics. Part -4
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pillow-letters · 28 days ago
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Would you be open to making dividers themed off of liminal spaces and analog horror?
I love your stuff so much 🤎 no pressure to do this at all, I'm sure you're getting a lot of requests as it is
you are too kind, thank you so much! 💖 and YES this was such a cool request - I had so fun making these! I really hope they match what you’re looking for!
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pillow-letters · 28 days ago
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Hi, i know this is probably a very general request so feel free to ignore this, but could you make some black and purple moon/space dividers?
I love your work and i know you're probably getting a lot of requests now so take your time. Have a nice day/night ❤️
hi luna, I'd love to make you some purple/black space dividers for you! I think stars were the first styles I did, and they still have such a soft spot in my heart. I hope you like these (and hope you're having a great day as well!) thanks for sending this in!! 💖
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pillow-letters · 28 days ago
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DIE IN YOUR ARMS - Suguru Geto ch.2
pairings: geto suguru x reader; gojo satoru x reader; manami x geto suguru; fem reader
warnings: mdni, 18+, angst, so so much angst, hurt/comfort, you just have to wait for the comfort to come, violence, mentions of blood, smut, p in v, mentions of depression, death, murder, toxic relationships, so much yearning, fem reader, uses of she/her pronouns
wc: 2.1k (let me slow burn this shhhh)
author’s note: we’re staring with a character back story! :p enjoy <333
Manami was never a foolish girl.
She knows her ways around the most important things, learning how to survive while growing up in a small village up on some forgotten mountains, over the countryside of Japan.
Her people weren’t sorcerers.
They weren’t even her people, actually.
Her biological family left her, and she was picked up by a small family of villagers, who were willing to feed one more mouth if that meant having another couple of working hands.
Actually, she’s not even sure that her parents left, that’s just the conclusion she got to, growing older.
At the very start, it wasn’t that bad.
She was a beautiful kid, smarter than the others, more educated, gentler. So she somehow ended up getting better treatment than the other kids. Having to work less than them, staying more in the house and having the opportunity to read some books while knitting with the lady of the house.
She always called her lady, because the word ‘mom’ did not feel right, not to her, the same was for the man of the house. They were never her parents, in her eyes, but for the first years of her life she was grateful. They took her in, and treated her like she was special, and well, she loved feeling special.
As the time went on, she began to learn to actually enjoy what little she had there. A somewhat mother figure, who gave her soft words of advice, coddling her; a father, kind of, who protected her when needed and taught her some basic self defense. Life wasn’t so bad, wasn’t it?
But as she grew up, things changed.
It all started one quiet night.
It wasn’t even actually night, more late afternoon, and god, her mind remembered every single detail.
She was taking a walk, along the river, picking up some cherries from the trees to help the Lady make a homemade cake.
She was 7 years old, at the time.
7 years old should be consider being a kid, right?
So why was there a big monster, pointing at a kid?
She was stunned. Freezed in place, unable to move, and after a couple of seconds, her first instinct was to scream. As loud as possible, hoping that someone would hear her, help her, rescue her. And when two of her ‘brothers’ ran to her, ready to fight whoever dared to try and hurt her, nothing was there. Not to them, at least. They stood there, looking at her crying and pointing to what in their eyes, was just a tree. Nothing else.
The family thought she was sick, at first. Maybe some rare mental illness, or maybe a weird hay fever.
They kept her in a room for some days, treating her like she was just..sick.
But things got worse, and she kept seeing things.
And yes, at first it was passed as a kid who saw imaginary things. Imaginary friends who were monsters, and made a small girl cry.
But when people started dying around her, when she screamed at night pointing to curses, the blame inevitably started to fall on her.
People were dying around the small ‘princess’ of the village. The beautiful baby girl, who was so elegant, gentle, smart, suddenly became a monster in others eyes.
And that’s when they stopped treating her like the princess of the house, or of anything really.
Stopped giving her access to the main house, stopped giving her food, water, access to books, and she did end up in the remotest and dirtiest part of the house, with not even a blanket.
But again, she was never a foolish girl.
So she did what she thought would save her: running away.
And oh, she could never forget that night.
The night when she set herself free, running far away from the place that haunted her throughout basically all her life.
She could’ve chosen to do just that : run. Never come back and start from nothing, create something else, better, meet new people, have her own family and move on from all that trauma.
Just a brand new life.
But wasn’t that..unfair? They hurt her. She needed help, and they hurt her. Starved her. Beat her. Traumatize her in a way that she would probably never recover from.
Why should they keep living? Peacefully? Without any regrets, nor blame? Shame, even?
She started studying then, asking everywhere she could about curses, jujutsu. Spending nights at public libraries, looking for even cults that were considered just a group of weird people from the society.
But eventually, she found out.
And when she did find out her origins, her story, she was thrilled. Knowing that in a world full of weak people, unable to even see the source of the real danger, she could not only see it but fight it. Knowing that when she was a little girl, and the people who surrounded her blamed her, accused her of being crazy, she was not. She had a power others didn’t.
In the end, she chose to do what she thought was fair, bringing herself some justice.
Coming back to that small awful village after some years she spent refining her own cursed technique.
Of course, she ended up killing those who hurt her. Feeling hilariously powerful, hurting them back, watching them beg, cry.
She chose murder, that night. She chose death.
And inevitably, something changed in her, even though she’s not that willing to admit it.
Not too long after that, she moved, feeling ready for the big city: Tokyo.
She heard about all the opportunities that could be waiting for her there, and frankly? all the money she could be making just because she’s a beautiful girl.
At the start, she used her looks to the max. Scamming old men, but never actually giving them anything. She also took up modeling, bringing in even bigger cash.
Tokyo was stupidly crowded, but it gave her something. Money, stability, and she came to a point where she thought she was settled, had it all.
That was until she met him.
It was late, too late for a girl to be wandering the streets, when she turns to an alley, holding a cigarette, hugging herself in her big fur coat.
He was standing there, his back leaned against the wall, both his hands in his pockets, staring ahead of him.
God, she was scared for a second.
That was until he turned, looking at her with a small forced smirk, handing her a lighter.
“I’m not a hooker.” she spoke, crossing her arms over her chest.
“I’m just offering you a lighter. Or do you like to walk while holding a cigarette between your fingers?”
Oh. He sounds so fucking condescending.
So why does she take the lighter?
She gives it back, blowing out the smoke directly towards him.
“You look like shit” she huffed, observing the man in front of her.
“Feel like that too” he shrugged, closing his eyes for a second. He looked tired, big bags under his eyes.
Manami has always been an observer, noticing right away the pink scrunchie on his wrist. She just raised an eyebrow, tilting her head.
“Girlfriend left you?”
He chuckles, looking at the scrunchie himself.
“It’s from one of my girls, actually”
“Mh, so more than one girl?”
“Two actually. Both are 5 years old now, i think.”
That surprised her.
“Oh. You’re a dad?”
He stopped for a second, a small smile plastered on his face.
“Yeah. I am now”
“And the mom?”
he flinched a bit, almost in an imperceptible way, but she caught it
“They have only me”
Silence settled in for some minutes, with her observing him, assessing him. She wasn’t an expert about jujutsu yet, but she could feel that something in him, something that meant he was just like her.
She should’ve shrugged, maybe thanked him for the lighter and walked away. Get home and take a bubble bath. But something was.. different about him. She never went to a jujutsu school, all she knew, she learnt it alone. Reading.. Researching. But this guy had something. Something that tingles all of her senses.
“You can ask” he shrugs, turning to her completely.
He was beautiful. That type of pretty that leaves you stunned.
She hummed, looking at him up and down.
“Are you a sorcerer?”
He chuckles, something dark in his voice.
“Nah”
“I can feel it” she narrows her eyes at him, scoffing.
“I know. I sensed your cursed energy the second you turned in this alley”
“So how can you do that, if you’re not a sorcerer?”
He sighs, leaning back on the wall
“I was one”
“What happened?”
“It’s none of your business”
She rolls her eyes at that. What a prick.
“So what, you decided you’re not one anymore and you want to act as if you’re one of the weaklings who can’t do anything but create curses?”
That, caught his attention. He stared at her for a second, before relaxing a bit.
“Suguru”
She raised an eyebrow, huffing
“Suguru what?”
He offers her his hand, looking at her
“Suguru Geto”
She stared at the hand for a second, before shaking it as firmly as she could
“Manami”
This time, he raised an eyebrow
“Manami what?”
“Manami Suda” she rolled her eyes, using it as an excuse to avoid eye contact for a bit.
Suguru didn’t say anything, he just leaned back on the wall, sighing and closing his eyes for a moment.
He looked tired. Drained. Unhappy. And he looked like problems.
“Come on, lead the way” she spoke before her mind could process what she was saying.
He raises an eyebrow, looking at her
“Excuse me?”
“You look like shit. Tell me you feel like shit too. And you have two kids only god knows where. I can help. Lead the way”
Again, Manami was never a foolish girl.
She didn’t simply fall in love with a strange man in an alley. Frankly, the first time she ended up naked in her bed, it wasn’t about feelings. It was more about convenience. He was hot, stupidly so, so why not?
Then, when he started calling her, looking for her, molding her in his life..that became something. Something she was so afraid of. Something that she couldn’t control,even she tried to. When she started to look for him in the small things, thinking about him whenever she picked up something from a store, she wanted to cry.
He wasn’t available, she knew that.
She knew that from the first time he whispered your name as he’s sinking into her, holding her hips down. How he closes his eyes when he leans down to kiss her, probably picturing you.
No…she was never a foolish girl, but love came. Strong, and undeniable.
So yes, she lets him treat her however he sees fits, because deep down, she just wants him to want her. To crave her, the same way she does. To see how her heart beats in the rhythm of his name.
So when he asks her on a date, saying that he just wants to know her, could someone really blame her excitement? Of course she’s over the moon. All the perseverance, waiting for him to forget about you, all the time she spent waiting for him to see that she was more than a warm body, paid off.
He wants her now, right?
She fixes her dress for what feels like the 100th time, looking in the mirror of her room.
She looks pretty. A not too short lilac dress, just above the knee. Her hair is down completely, freshly straightened, and a not too heavy makeup look on her face.
She can’t help the stupid smile on her lips, practically skipping as she heads out to the entrance of the big estate, checking her watch: 8:09 pm. Fashionably late.
When she reaches the entrance, he’s already standing there, looking so ridiculously hot. His hair is half up half down, and she notices how it’s done perfectly, like he actually tried. He’s wearing a white shirt, the first two buttons open and some black pants.So infuriatingly hot.
She walks up to him, smiling a bit and tilting her head
“You actually tried”
He returns the smile, mirroring her
“Usually i don’t need to”
She scoffs, shaking her head
“So humble. Charming”
He smirks, offering his arm to her
“Should we head out?”
She links her arm with his, trying not to giggle
“Lead the way, Master Geto”
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pillow-letters · 1 month ago
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DIE IN YOUR ARMS - Suguru Geto
pairings: geto suguru x reader; gojo satoru x reader; manami x geto suguru; fem reader
warnings: mdni, 18+, angst, so so much angst, hurt/comfort, you just have to wait for the comfort to come, violence, mentions of blood, smut, p in v, mentions of depression, death, murder, toxic relationships, so much yearning, fem reader, uses of she/her pronouns
wc: 1.9k (a short one just to start)
author's note: hi! first fic kinda nervous. Please be aware that english is not my first language, so bear with me! There may be some grammatical errors.
We're starting from two years after Suguru defected, and boy we're in for a tough ride... enjoy and feel free to give any review, just be respectful! The warnings will be updated as we go on with the story, they are not for this chap only!
Also, you see that I've put also Gojo in the pairings, because he will be here in a few chaps...just wait for it!
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Waking up next to her, was starting to feel right.
Starting to feel like maybe, the choices that led him to this point, were not that unethical, were not that wrong.
Looking at her sleeping form, as she scoots closer in her sleep, humming as she leans her head on his chest.
This feels right, no?
It’s been exactly two years.
Well, maybe not exactly..but around that number.
Who keeps counting the days after he left that shitty society? That hurting scheme?
Who cares how much time has passed?
Who cares about the people he left behind, not bothering to even look for them?
They knew where he was.
Maybe not all of them, but surely one of them knew.
Of course he knew, how could he not?
How could the strongest not know where Suguru was hiding?
Did you knew too?
Suguru moves cautiously, trying to not wake her up as he heads towards the en suite bathroom, closing the door slowly behind him. 
This feels right.
Maybe, this could be the whole point. Finding someone who shares his beliefs, who wouldn’t dare to raise her voice at him, nor disagree. She was warm. Gentle. Sweet, even. She had herr moments, but never left. She was loyal, to him, to his cause.
So if Manami was all of this, all the great things Suguru could look for in a partner, why were you still engraved on his mind? On his heart?
No...you’re not. It’s been 2 years. He’s not thinking about you. Especially not today. On your 26th birthday. Not that he remembers, right? Not that his heart aches at the thought that he won’t be the one waking you up with a special breakfast in bed. Or that he won’t be spending the day with you, making you feel a little more special for the occasion.
So he goes on with his day. Preparing himself for the first few meetings in the morning.
Just one actually, he hates this type of days. Slow days, with barley anything to do, leaving time to his mind to wander to the fucking ‘what if’s’.
He checks his phone, seeing the little reminder on his agenda.
An old lady, who asked to meet him because her daughter is ‘haunted’. He hopes it’s something worthy,at least a grade 2 curse.
He sighs, putting up half of his hair, looking in the mirror.
Was this him? Waking up, dressing in these robes, ready to lie to people?
Lie for curses, lie for money.
Was he really just…this?
Before he could get too much in his head, Manami gently knocks on the bathroom, her sweet voice coming through the door.
“Master Geto?”
God, he hates that. Master of what, lies? Curses?
Can’t he be just fucking Suguru, for once?
“Yes, Manami?” he sounds so condescending. Did he always sound like that?
“I’ll go get your breakfast ready and prepare the meeting room now. I just wanted… to thank you. For the night. Not that.. I mean-”
He sighs. Still fixing his appearance looking at the mirror.
“Do what you have to. I’ll see you throughout the day” so fucking condescending.
He turns to open the door, finding her there, fidgeting with the hem of a shirt too big for her. Probably his shirt. Surely his shirt.
He tilts his head, smiling in the softest way possible, forcing it.
“And Manami please, don’t.. thank me. I’ll see you later, okay?” he moves, cupping her face, swiping his thumb slowly.
This feels right.
Her eyes lighten up at his touch, leaning on it and nodding quickly. She moves, fast, to leave a soft peck on his cheek before walking out of the master bedroom of the big estate.
Suguru turns to the bathroom, fixing himself one last time before heading out as well.
Things have been great. 
That should be the center of his thoughts, things are going great. 
Nanako and Mimiko are growing up so well, so well behaved, educated.
The rest of the cult members are obeying, the money keeps coming in.
So who cares that today is your birthday? Who cares if you woke up smiling or not?
He remembers how you hate this day. You hate the attention, the expectations of having a party, the idea of people you barely talk to coming to you to wish you a ‘happy birthday’ when they probably don’t even know how old you are.
He remembers your 24th, the last you two spent together.
Remember how beautiful you looked when you redden up, embarrassed, for the tulips he bought for you. How gorgeous you looked looking around Okinawa, for the day trip he organized for you. How you thanked him, through whispers, at the end of the day, because that was the first birthday you actually enjoyed. He remembers it all too well.
He shakes his head, as if that motion is going to get you out of his mind, sighing yet again.
He finds it in him to take a deep breath, walking towards the small room where some ‘monkeys’ were probably waiting for him, finding Manami waiting for him outside with a small pack of papers in her hands.
She’s really pretty. Her hair perfectly done, a small hint of makeup on her face, a pink dress making her curves look just right. 
He really wishes he could love her. Wouldn’t that be so much easier? Less painful?
He reaches her, placing a hand on her waist, smiling
“All ready?”
She looks up, smiling and nodding, opening the door for him.
The short meeting goes as planned, getting a grade 3 curse out of it. As he walks out he finds her waiting for him, checking the same paper over and over again; as soon as she notices him, she smiles
“Everything went okay?”
He hums, looking ahead of him
“Smoothly. Nothing worth mentioning. Is everything ready for tomorrow’s attack?”
“Yeah. Miguel is coming with us, we believe that is not necessary to bring too many people, it would put too much attention on us. Also, i have some other new info about it”
He nods, guiding her to his private office, one hand placed on her lower back.
Once they’ve settled in his office, he smiles, playing with her hair as he makes her sit on his lap.
“Tell me about this new info, pretty”
She giggles a bit, leaning more comfortably on him.
“There’s going to be some sorcerers there. From Tokyo Jujutsu Tech. Rumors has it it’s someone classified as a, and i quote, ‘special grade’”
That earns his full attention. He knows how the jujutsu society classifies sorcerers, and surely knows that there are a total of 3 special grade sorcerers in this world, him being one of them. Is Satoru gonna be there? Tsukumo? Is there someone new?
“Do you have a name?”
She shakes her head, sighing.
“I know it’s a girl”
Oh, so Yuki Tsukumo. She won’t fight him, he's pretty sure about that. And if it really has to come to that, he can get out alive of it.
“Nothing we should worry about, trust me”
Manami nods, focused on playing with his fingers, incredibly gentle with it.
The silence stretches, with them just being there, one on another, feeling the moment.
He’s observing her. Assessing her. How her hair falls down her shoulder. How she breathes, seemingly so relaxed in his arms.
If someone asked him how this started, he probably would lie.
He wasn’t proud of any of it frankly, but obviously still remembers it.
When she bluntly told him how she agreed with all of his beliefs, not caring about what other people might say.
Suguru was surely in a dark place when he met her, but she persisted. Helping him with the girls, with making something out of his beliefs. Making a whole fucking cult and never once trying to take credit for it.
So was it really that shocking, when she ended up in his bed? When he ended up calling her, on the sleepless nights, needing some type of release out of all these bad thoughts?
She never asked for more, but she wasn’t that subtle about how she wanted exclusivity.
He notices how whenever a new follower, more precisely a pretty girl, would come around, she started being territorial. Possessive even.
He didn’t care. Never cared to show her more, or less. He just let her think whatever she wanted about their relationship was, about what they actually are.
But as time went by, things started to become more..domestic.
The first time he found her making breakfast with Mimiko and Nanako, he was furious.
Of course he didn’t make a scene in front of them, but he had a pretty strong conversation with her afterwards, saying all types of stuff which was honestly just cruel. Hurtful words to remind her of her place in his life, how she was a warm body and a steady shoulder to rely on in business. Yeah, he fucking called the ‘cult’ business.
The weird part? She still persisted. 
He often thought that the girl had a very very low respect for herself or she was hopelessly in love with him. It’s easier to believe the first one.
And maybe, it was about time to pay her back. For her faith in him. For her patience. 
She was a beautiful girl, with a pretty personality and a capable sorcerer. She was great with his girls, even if they never seemed to actually trust her fully. They were still kids, they would come to like her, love her even, call her ‘mom’ one day.
So maybe,exactly today, was the right day to try this. To just.. see if maybe she could take your place, in his heart.
“If i asked you on a date tonight, what would you say?” Suguru’s voice cut through the silence, his hands playing with hers.
He looks at her, how she turns to look at him, trying (and failing) to stop the smile creeping up her face.
“A date?”
“Yeah. I was thinking about dinner actually. I know a place.”
“Do we need to discuss something? About tomorrow? Or did something happen?”
He chuckles,shaking his head lightly.
“I just..want to get to know you. Better. And with clothes on. At least for a part of the night.. if you let me”
This time, she didn't bother to hide the smile on her lips as she nodded, wrapping her arms around his neck.
“I’ll be ready at 8. Wait for you at the entrance?”
He nods, letting her get up from his lap and just smiling at her while she walks out of his office.
This feels right.
He sighs then, undoing the bun he made in the morning,letting his hair fall down his shoulders.
This doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel like anything.
It feels forced, as if someone is fucking holding a gun to his head. 
She’s not you. God, she could never come close.
Were you having a great birthday? Do you remember your last birthday together? Were you happy? Would you hate him if he called? Do you hate him? Do you even think about him?
He stands up, abruptly, storming out of his own office.
He made a choice that day. He chose this. This life. This place. This woman.
He made a choice the day he looked in his mom’s eyes, trying to make her stop breathing as fast as possible. He made a choice, when even upon hearing his dad’s pleading and begging, he didn’t stop. He made a fucking choice, and he has to live with it.
He walks, actually runs, to the master bedroom, more precisely to his bathroom, not bothering to close the door behind him as he kneels to the toilet, throwing up.
Jesus, what happened to him?
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pillow-letters · 1 month ago
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Me happily reading a nanami fic and then they mention him going to shibuya for a work trip:
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pillow-letters · 1 month ago
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"holy shit they finally confessed, what comes next--"
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pillow-letters · 2 months ago
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then i did hiromi higuruma and got shadowbanned on tiktok for it!
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pillow-letters · 2 months ago
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notes, changed the appearance little bit but hey, your favorite is back!
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★ Roommate!Sukuna who brings you to a drive thru after the devils tango.
The sheets are still tangled, warm from everything you just did. Your hair’s a mess. His lip is a little bitten. The air’s heavy with what just happened, but neither of you says anything for a minute.
You’re curled up next to him, your cheek against his chest, listening to the dull thump of his heart under skin still sticky with sweat.
Sukuna stretches a little, groaning like a man thrice his age. "Shit. I'm starving."
You hum lazily. “You’ve got leftover noodles in the fridge.”
"Yeah, and you’ve got no taste. That crap’s soggy as fuck now."
There’s a pause before he mutters, like it's some great secret:
"...You wanna hit the McDonald’s drive-thru?”
You look up at him, blinking. “Seriously?” He glares down at you. “Don’t make me repeat myself, brat. Get your pants.”
Ten minutes later, you’re in his car — no bra, hoodie stolen from his floor, your legs crisscrossed in the passenger seat. He’s shirtless with a flannel barely buttoned and hair still damp from a too-quick rinse. He pulls into the drive-thru like a menace.
You lean across him to squint at the menu. “Can I get the spicy—” "You're not getting that, you're a fucking lightweight," he cuts in. “Every time, your stomach dies. And guess who deals with it.”
You flip him off, but he’s already rolling the window down.
“Hi, welcome to McDonald’s, can I take your order?”
Sukuna leans halfway out. “Yeah, gimme a double cheeseburger, large fries, uh… the chicken nuggets—ten piece, not that pussy six one—and a Coke.”
You reach over. “And a McFlurry.”
“No. You always eat two bites and hand me the rest like I’m your damn trashcan.”
“I’ll finish it this time!”
“You said that last week, dumbass.”
You both keep bickering until the voice crackles again. “…You guys done ordering?”
A long pause. Then: "Yeah, we’re done,” Sukuna grits out, running a hand over his face. “Just throw in the fuckin' ice cream, whatever."
You’re halfway through your nuggets, bare feet on the dash, when Sukuna tears off a piece of his burger and hands it to you without looking. “Here. You like the way they grill the patties, right?”
You blink at him. “How do you even remember that?”
“Because I listen, dumbass.” He says it like you’re the idiot for not knowing. “Also, you always fucking moan when you eat it. It’s disturbing.”
You laugh, and he finally glances at you — a little sideways, soft for no reason at all.
Later, when your head’s against the window and your fries are tucked in your hoodie pocket for easy snacking, he glances over again. His fingers brush your knee, resting there casually, grounding you both.
“…Don’t fall asleep, idiot. You’re gonna choke on a fry and I’m not giving you mouth-to-mouth.”
But his thumb strokes slow circles on your leg the whole ride home.
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pillow-letters · 2 months ago
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𖦏    /brief:   female reader. fluff. domestic, himbo toji. established relationship. depiction of mild relationship anxiety. excessive cleaning as a coping mechanism
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“you free tomorrow?” you ask, casually. 
too casually. 
the words float out like you’ve just remembered you need eggs and not that tomorrow is the five-year anniversary of your completely baffling but enduring relationship with the man currently kneading your cat like a seasoned baker with carpal tunnel.
toji grunts from the floor, face smushed into the carpet, one hand rhythmically working over cherry bomb’s back while the other scratches behind the cat’s ears. “nah,” he mutters, “gotta work overtime. bigshot’s coming to the hotel. politician type. probably smells like soap and stolen tax money.”
you blink. “so… no dinner?”
he pauses, eyes squinting up at you like you just asked him to recite the periodic table. “baby. i literally just said overtime.”
you nod, pretending it’s fine. 
pretend the stinging in your eyes is from cherry bomb’s ass betraying you both with the force of a gas leak.
“jesus christ, cherry,” toji coughs, fanning the air dramatically. “that’s the third one this morning. what’d you feed him? napalm?”
“chicken and rice,” you say faintly. “he's sensitive to anything else.”
“sensitive,” toji repeats, deadpan. “this dude has no respect for my lungs. or the sanctity of this carpet.”
you look down at your boyfriend – shirtless, slightly sweaty from committing fully to a feline massage session, a grown man with scars and shoulders built like security gates, who is currently trying to coax a burp out of cherry bomb like he’s a newborn.
"you know what tomorrow is, right?"
“uhhh…” toji trails off, eyes flicking to the ceiling like it’s a magic 8-ball. “not my birthday. not your period. not rent day. don’t tell me it’s… dentist?”
your silence is damning. he sits up finally, one palm still on cherry bomb’s back like a devoted chiropractor. “shit. what is it? anniversary?”
you sigh. he perks up like a cat himself.
“wait, how many years?”
“five,” you mutter, wiping at your eye like it’s just itchy and not emotionally leaking.
“FIVE?” he says, scandalized. “like, full five? as in, you’ve tolerated me for half a decade?”
you nod.
“damn. and they say miracles don’t happen.” he whistles low. “look, babe, ’m sorry. i swear i wasn’t being a dick on purpose. you know i’ve got the brain capacity of a houseplant.”
“you’re more like a cactus,” you say. “prickly, weirdly endearing. hard to kill.”
toji grins. “you gonna water me now or what?”
you chuck a throw pillow at him. “you can’t just forget our anniversary and then make cactus jokes, toji.”
he catches the pillow with one hand, smug. “counterpoint – i absolutely can.”
“counter-counterpoint – you’re sleeping on the floor with cherry tomorrow.”
toji shrugs. “he treats me better than you do. massages my back sometimes. we have a system.”
cherry lets out another tiny, sinister bomb.
“traitor,” you mumble, fanning the air.
“listen, i’ll make it up to you,” toji says, scooting closer on his knees like a sinner approaching the altar of your patience. “we can do something the next day. weekend. whole damn day. just you, me, and this flatulent meatloaf.”
“and what, you’ll remember that plan too?” you raise a brow.
he taps his temple. “writing it down. mental note. locking it in.”
“that means nothing. your last mental note was to buy toilet paper and we ended up using napkins for three days.”
“yeah, because they were the fancy kind. don’t act like you didn’t enjoy the quilted experience.”
you sigh again, but this time there’s a smile bleeding through.
“five years,” he says quietly now, hands coming up to rest on your knees as he looks up at you. “you really put up with me that long?”
“i must hate myself,” you murmur dryly.
he smirks. “nah. you just love me so much it makes you stupid.”
“if you finish that sentence i will drown you in the litter box.”
he leans forward anyway, bumping his forehead against yours. “happy almost-anniversary, babe.”
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the apartment smells like lavender disinfectant, lemon pledge, and a hint of desperation.
you’ve already scrubbed the kitchen counters twice. you cleaned the air fryer. you dusted the top of the fridge. the top of the fridge. who even looks there?
cherry bomb is supervising from the couch, loafed up like a judgmental orange bread roll, eyes narrowed as if silently critiquing your vacuuming technique. your shared spotify blend with 98.76% compatibility – a badge of unhealthy codependence if there ever was one – is playing through the battered bose speaker, crooning out a song you both called “your guys’s sex anthem” as a joke, and then promptly kept on every road trip playlist since.
somewhere between aggressive scrubbing and fighting with the vaccum, you decide to reorganize the drawer of old receipts and paper clips. and that’s when you find it.
tucked under a dried-up pen and a crusty cinema ticket stub, there’s a photo. one of those cheap polaroid prints from a vending machine photo booth. 
it’s from one of your first dates. both of you squeezed into the tiny plastic curtain-covered booth, faces pressed close together like two awkward teens despite already being legal adults who could (allegedly) hold conversation.
toji had acne all over his jaw and forehead. his hair was a little too greasy, not from neglect but from that particular phase of “i don’t need conditioner” confidence. he was grinning, eyes scrunched up, throwing a peace sign like a menace.
you looked... flushed. like someone had taken a shade of beetroot and lightly slapped it across your cheeks. that was your blush blindness era – anything he said, did, or breathed would make your face turn the color of a firetruck.
you smile down at the photo, thumb brushing over the glossy print. and then the memory hits you, unprompted but potent.
a year into dating. sitting on the couch with tiktok open. some overly-filtered, soft focus video playing. a woman’s boyfriend getting down on one knee, fireworks in the back.
she’s crying. they’re both crying.
someone’s dog is wearing a tux.
you turned to toji, back then still a little too in love to tease him for his reactions. “would you ever do something like this?”
he had grunted, leaning over you to take a swig of your coke. “not like that. looks expensive. fireworks? dumb. but yeah, i’d work my ass off if it meant doing something good for you on the fifth one.”
“so you’re gonna propose on our fifth?”
he raised a brow. “i didn’t say that.”
“you implied it.”
he grunted again. then: “don’t quote me on shit, woman. i’m tryna be hardworking.”
you’d laughed and saved the video anyway. not because you thought it’d happen, but because some part of you wanted to believe that kind of memory would stick with him.
now, here you are. hours away from midnight. toji at work. the flat quiet aside from music and the low hum of cherry's tail thumping gently on the cushion.
you lie down on the couch next to him, one hand stroking his fur. he doesn’t purr – cherry bomb is a stoic cat, too emotionally distant to lower himself to such basic affection. but he shifts his weight until his back is pressed against your side, and that’s his way of cuddling.
“you think he forgot?” you ask him.
he blinks once. 
“yeah,” you say softly. “me too.”
you close your eyes, letting the song fade into something slower. something you’d both slow danced to once in the middle of the kitchen when it was raining too hard to go out.
cherry bomb’s tail flicks lazily across your stomach. he doesn’t care about anniversaries. but he’s warm, and that’s more than the cold corner of your heart can ask for right now.
still, in the far corner of your mind, you wonder:
did he really forget? or is he planning something stupid?
you hope. god, you hope.
the doorbell rings at exactly 12:55pm.
cherry bomb, who had been deep in his snoring session, jerks his head up with the speed of a tactical unit and trots over to the front door. he sniffs twice, then three times, then dramatically flops onto his side and begins kicking at the bottom of the door like it owes him rent.
you groan from your nest of self-pity and pilled blankets on the couch. “if it’s another zara package i drunkenly ordered, i swear i’m cancelling my debit card.”
cherry bomb responds by farting again, because of course he does. 
your cat, your child, your emotional support food processor.
you drag yourself to the door, still in your pajamas, hoodie zipped halfway over the tank top you wore to bed. your hair’s tied up in a bun that’s doing its own gravity experiment. you open the door half expecting a confused ubereats driver or your elderly neighbor who likes to gossip about everyone’s trash schedules. but instead —
there’s a man in a baseball cap and mask, holding a clipboard and a large brown envelope.
“delivery,” he says.
you squint. “uhm…didn’t order anything.”
“has your name,” he shrugs. “need a signature.”
cherry bomb, behind you, starts doing figure eights around your legs like he knows something you don’t.
or maybe he’s just gassy again. 
you squint harder at the man, at his frame, at the very familiar veins on his forearms.
“…why are you built like that?”
the man tilts his head. “genetics.”
you snatch the clipboard and squiggle your name. “weirdo,” you mutter, then eye the package. “what is this anyway?”
“you should open it,” he says, and pulls down the mask.
it’s toji.
you blink. 
he looks good. annoyingly good. hair a little messy like he ran here, eyes sparkling with a cocky sort of pride. the kind of look he only gets when he wins rock-paper-scissors five times in a row or finds an extra chicken nugget.
“what the hell,” you whisper. “you’re supposed to be at work.”
“i am. i worked through dinner. left some poor intern to watch the cameras. might be fired. worth it though.”
he holds up the envelope, taps it against your forehead. “open this.”
with trembling fingers, you pull the document out of the envelope.
marriage registration form.
your name. his name. partially filled. waiting.
you look up, throat suddenly dry. 
“you remembered,” you say, barely a whisper.
toji smirks, sheepish and proud all at once. “y'kidding? you think i forget the one time i promised something halfway romantic? on tiktok of all places?”
your laugh comes out broken, more of a hiccup. “you made me clean the entire apartment. i stress cried to mitski. cherry’s probably infertile from all the febreze fumes.”
“you thought i forgot?” he teases, stepping closer.
“you said you forgot.”
he shrugs. “i lie sometimes. keeps things spicy.”
“i hate you,” you mutter, already tearing up.
“no you don’t,” he grins, pulling a pen from behind his ear like some domestic delinquent magician. “you love me. five years worth.”
he hands you the pen and doesn’t say anything else. cherry lets out one more celebratory bomb and trots into the bedroom like he knows you’re about to be legally, officially stuck with this man forever.
and honestly? you couldn’t be happier.
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pillow-letters · 3 months ago
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*looks at books* too tired for you *looks at films* too tired for you *looks at art supplies* too tired for you *eyes fall on tumblr* oho ho
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pillow-letters · 3 months ago
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i'm actually very normal if you ignore everything i have ever said and done
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pillow-letters · 3 months ago
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velvet lies
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pairing: gojo x fem reader
synopsis: crippling debt and possible evictions have ruined you. working two jobs with no downtime, and a five-year-old son, you really don't know the meaning of taking a break. after continuous questions about his father, you have decided to finally let your son meet his dad. only thing is, he has no idea said son exists. and to top it off, you have not a single clue about what kinds of things will transpire from this sudden revelation. wc: 15.9k
tags/warnings: 18+ MDNI, smut, fluff, romance, alcohol, classism, mom! reader, lying, abuse, MAJOR angst, slow burn, exes to lovers, (mentions of) cheating, scandals, death, blood, drugs, drama, family drama, miscommunication, blackmail, unhealthy coping mechanisms , depression, manipulation
a/n: was gonna post another sneak peek, but thought the entire chapter would be better :) as always, pls let me know of any typos
series masterlist < previous chapter < next chapter < spotify playlist
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It’s a nice, warm morning. The sun’s out, there’s birds chirping, and a small breeze that feels lovely against the skin. And the best part of it all is that Hana called in sick today. Her now boyfriend, Naoya, reassured her everything would be alright and that he had an entire day planned out for just them two. Being taken care of by another person was a new feeling to Hana, one she hadn’t experienced since her last boyfriend. 
She’s never been with a rich man before. And she’s especially never been to an upscale golf course, wearing a tight, sleeveless top with an even tighter little skirt. Naoya is in his stance a few feet in front of her, club in hand as he readies his shot. She can’t help but feel slightly out of place.  
The brightness of the day feels almost surreal to Hana, like she’s stumbled into someone else’s life. The manicured grass stretches endlessly before her, the trees swaying gently in the breeze. The scent of freshly cut greens, mixed with faint hints of expensive cologne, clings to the air. She fiddles with the hem of her skirt, feeling self-conscious even though Naoya hadn’t once looked at her with anything less than approval since they arrived.
Naoya stands confidently, the sunlight catching the sleek fabric of his polo as he lines up his shot. His form is perfect, practiced—a natural at this, just like everything else in his life. He’s effortless in a way that makes Hana’s chest ache with something she can’t name. Admiration, maybe. Longing. Envy. She doesn’t know.
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She shifts her weight from one foot to the other, trying not to stick out like a sore thumb. The outfit he bought her might make her look the part, but internally, she feels worlds apart from the other women here. Women with polished nails, designer sunglasses, and easy smiles born from years of moving through places like this without a second thought. Hana crosses her arms, squinting against the sun. She watches Naoya swing, sending the ball sailing with a crisp, clean sound that echoes across the open course. He turns back toward her with a wide, satisfied smile, the cockiness in his expression unmistakable.
“You’re up, babe,” he calls out, motioning her forward.
Babe.
The word feels strange, too, curling around her heart like a new pair of shoes she hasn’t broken in yet. It’s sweet, almost nauseatingly so, and it makes her feel dizzy, like maybe she could get used to this if she let herself.
Gathering her nerves, she steps forward, clumsily taking the club he offers her. Their fingers brush, and Naoya chuckles under his breath, stepping closer to adjust her grip. His hands are warm, firm, guiding her in a way that’s both helpful and possessive.
“Relax,” he murmurs near her ear. “You’re too stiff. Golf’s supposed to be fun.”
Easy for you to say. Everything about today, about him, about this life, feels so far out of reach for someone like her. But she forces a smile, tightens her fingers around the club, and lets him guide her swing. Even if she feels completely out of place, there’s a small, stubborn part of her that wants to fit. To belong.
Maybe, if she fakes it long enough, she eventually will.
“Ah, so close,” Naoya sighs, watching the tiny white ball miss its hole, veering way off to the right. “You would think you’d be a little better after watching me all this time.”
“I—sorry.” She scratches the back of her neck. 
“Don’t worry about it.” He waves her off, calling down the cart girl. Hana follows him as they approach the wide selection of cooled drinks, both alcoholic and non-alcoholic.
“Hi, Naoya. What can I get for ‘ya today?” The blonde woman manning the cart asks, a smile on her pink lips. She tilts her head, regarding him with familiarity. 
Naoya barely spares her a glance, his attention more focused on the line of bottles glistening under the sun. “The usual,” he says smoothly, reaching for his wallet without hesitation.
The cart girl giggles, a light, practiced sound that makes Hana’s stomach twist ever so slightly. She’s seen that look before, the way the girl leans just a little closer than necessary, the way her hand lingers when she passes Naoya the drink. It’s casual. Too casual.
Hana steps back instinctively, feeling like she’s intruding on something she wasn’t invited to witness. She folds her arms loosely across her chest, trying not to fidget, trying not to let the sudden sourness in her mouth show on her face.
“You’re looking good today,” the cart girl adds with a wink, handing Naoya a cold can.
He finally looks at her, flashing a charming smirk, the same one Hana had thought was just for her. “Yeah? Must be the company.” He says it without thinking, tossing a glance over his shoulder at Hana, almost like an afterthought.
The cart girl’s eyes follow his, her smile faltering for just a second when she realizes Hana’s standing there. Her gaze flicks back and forth between them, assessing, judging, maybe even pitying. Hana isn’t sure which would be worse.
Naoya tosses some cash onto the cart’s counter, far more than necessary for just a drink, and motions for Hana to follow him again. She does, but the small crack left behind by the encounter digs deep into her chest. As they climb back into his own golf cart, Naoya takes a swig of his drink, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. “Don’t mind her,” he says casually, like he can sense her unease. “She flirts with everyone who’s got money. It’s nothing personal.”
Hana forces a small laugh, nodding like she believes him.
But deep down, a quiet voice whispers:
It’s not nothing to you, though.
And that’s what matters.
Naoya revs the cart up again, speeding toward the next hole, completely unaware—or maybe just uncaring of the way Hana sits a little stiffer beside him now, the sun suddenly feeling a little too hot on her skin.
“So,” he speaks up, causing Hana’s head to turn toward him. “You and bestie still not speaking?”
The mention of you causes her to stiffen, a frown forming on her lips. She scoffs. “No. And I don’t plan on it.”
“Shame, thought you said you guys were good friends.”
“We were, until she started changing when that…that asshole came in her life.” 
Naoya hums, stopping the cart at the next destination. He doesn’t get out immediately, instead letting the engine idle while he leans back lazily against the seat, his hand casually resting on the steering wheel. His eyes, however, are sharp and calculating as he watches Hana’s face carefully.
 “Guess that’s what money and status do to people, huh?” he says, a little too lightheartedly. “Especially when it’s someone like Satoru Gojo.” He taps his fingers against the steering wheel, a slow, rhythmic beat. “Big name. Big wallet. Big ego.”
Hana huffs, crossing her arms and looking away toward the sprawling green of the course. “He ruined her,” she mutters bitterly. “She’s not the same person anymore. Everything’s about him now, about his life, his rules. Like she doesn’t even think for herself anymore.”
Naoya lets her words hang between them for a moment, pretending to be focused on something off in the distance. When he speaks again, his tone is almost lazy, casual almost. “You know…” he starts, drawing out the thought like it just occurred to him, “people like him… they don’t change for anyone. And they don’t really let anyone get close unless there’s something they can use.”
Hana furrows her brows, turning to look at him again.
Naoya catches her glance and shrugs innocently. “Just saying,” he continues. “Wouldn’t be surprised if she’s caught up in something way bigger than she realizes. Maybe even something that could end badly for her if she’s not careful.” He gives a small, knowing smirk, like he’s letting her in on some forbidden secret,  like he’s doing her a favor. “Guess it’s a good thing you’re not mixed up in all that,” he adds smoothly. “But…” He trails off, feigning hesitation before flashing her a boyish grin. “You probably know more about what’s going on with them than anyone else, huh? Even if you’re not talking to her anymore.”
Hana shifts uncomfortably. She does know a lot, or at least, she used to.
And despite the way things ended between you two, there’s a bitter part of her that still wants to talk about it. Wants to air out the injustice she feels. Wants someone—anyone—to understand how wrong it all was. Naoya picks up on her hesitation immediately and presses just a little further, voice dropping to something more coaxing.
“Come on, Hana. You can trust me. You know I’m on your side.” He leans in slightly, eyes locking with hers, that charming smile never once faltering. “I’m just curious,” he murmurs, “about how deep she is with the Gojo group. About what Satoru’s really after. That’s all.”
He says it so sweetly, like it’s harmless. Like it’s just friendly concern. But beneath it all, Hana can’t shake the feeling that there’s a lot more riding on her answer than he’s letting on.
“I…I don’t know.” She admits, shrugging lightly. “I mean, they have a kid. I don’t see why else they’d still need to be close. She used to tell me when I first met her that she’d never go back to her ex, but that was before I knew who he was.”
Naoya listens intently, his expression carefully neutral, but his mind is already calculating the information. He nods slowly, leaning back slightly as if he’s processing her words, but really, he’s already piecing everything together. “Hm.” He hums thoughtfully, tapping his fingers on the cart. “I guess when you throw a kid into the mix, things change. But… I don’t know, Hana. That just sounds a little too clean, don’t you think?” He tilts his head slightly, feigning curiosity. “The way she acted before, all that ‘never going back’ talk… Do you really believe she’d just… forget about him, that easily? People like Satoru, they don’t let things go so easily. Not when they have so much to gain.”
He watches her closely, gauging her reaction to the way he phrases it.
“You sure she’s not just… saying that? Or maybe she’s in deeper than she lets on?”
Hana shifts slightly, clearly torn. She’s not sure if she should give him more, but something about the way Naoya talks makes her feel like he already knows more than she does, as if he’s playing her like a pawn and she’s too distracted by her anger to realize it. “I don’t know,” she says again, voice quieter this time, her uncertainty growing. “I mean, you’re right. I’m not sure. She told me everything was over, but she… she’s always been so secretive about him. Like there’s something she’s hiding. I don’t think it’s just the kid, you know? There’s more. But she wouldn’t talk about it.”
Naoya’s eyes glint with barely-contained satisfaction, his hand moving casually to pick up his drink from the cup holder. He takes a slow sip before speaking again, voice smooth and coaxing. “Right, that makes sense. There’s always something people like her hide. But…” He pauses, letting the words linger. “If you really want to help her—if you care about her at all—you should let me know what’s going on. People like Satoru don’t play fair, and your friend might be in way deeper than she thinks. I’m not trying to pressure you, but if you know anything that could help… It could keep her out of something she can’t get out of.”
The words are wrapped in a thin layer of concern, but the underlying message is clear: if she doesn’t give him more, he might just find another way to get it. Hana feels a slight shiver of unease crawling up her spine, but she doesn’t know why, not completely. Part of her still wants to trust Naoya, but the other part is beginning to feel like there’s something more to this conversation than meets the eye.
“So, what do you think?” Naoya presses, his smile gentle but determined. “Think you could tell me a little more? For her sake, of course.”
She racks her mind, biting at her lip in thought. Scratching her head. Pulled between two sides of wanting to keep her friend’s privacy, but also wanting to please the man who’s been giving her so much and more. Sure, he has his mistakes, but so does she. So does everyone. So do you. 
“I…I don’t know.” She mutters. 
Naoya’s smile falters, assessing her for a few silent seconds before humming and getting out of the cart. He stretches lazily, the sun casting a soft glow over his sharp features as he plants the club into the ground and leans on it. His stance is casual, almost careless, but Hana can feel the shift in his energy, a subtle coolness creeping into the air between them.
“That’s alright.” Naoya shrugs, tossing a look over his shoulder at her. “Take your time. Not like I’m in a rush.”
But his tone says otherwise, the underlying warning barely concealed. He straightens up, walking a few steps to the edge of the green, surveying the course as if the conversation hadn’t just taken a turn. Hana stays seated in the cart, her hands worrying the hem of her little skirt, heart thudding against her chest. She knows better. She knows she shouldn’t be entertaining this. She shouldn’t even be thinking about sharing anything about you. You were her friend first—her best friend.
But then she thinks about the nights Naoya spoils her with expensive dinners. About the shopping trips. The way he says she’s beautiful, special, that he sees something in her that no one else does.
Maybe it’s not so bad to share a little.
Maybe it’s just harmless.
And maybe… just maybe… you deserved a little karma anyway, after abandoning her.
She steps out of the cart, heels clicking lightly on the concrete path as she makes her way toward him. Naoya glances back, smiling a little, patient, expectant. “I…I really think it’s more of a custody thing. That’s just my speculation.”
Naoya lets out a small, amused hum, twirling the golf club between his fingers before planting it back down again, leaning into it with casual grace. “Custody, huh?” he echoes, glancing at her from the corner of his eye. “Interesting.”
His words are light, but Hana can feel the weight behind them. The air shifts again, the easygoing summer breeze suddenly feeling less refreshing and more suffocating.
She nods quickly, as if to justify herself. “Y-Yeah. I mean… it makes sense, doesn’t it? They had a kid young. There’s probably no formal agreement. She hid him for years. She would always vent to me about stuff like her rent, paying for food, and clothes for Koji. Stuff like that.”
Naoya nods thoughtfully, the club tapping lightly against the grass as he watches the horizon. But Hana knows he’s really paying close attention to her every word. “Hm. Sounds like she didn’t have much support,” he muses casually. “Even though she had family money. Or… used to, right?”
Hana shifts uncomfortably, casting her eyes down at her feet. She shouldn’t be saying anything. She knows it. And yet—
“She doesn’t really… talk to her family anymore,” she mutters. “Or, I guess, they don’t talk to her.”
Naoya finally turns fully toward her now, the sun catching in his sharp eyes. He smiles, soft and indulgent, but Hana can sense the calculation behind it. “She sounds like someone who’s good at burning bridges,” he says lightly, almost jokingly. “Even the ones she might need later.”
Hana shrinks a little under the remark, guilt coiling in her stomach. Still, she doesn’t correct him. Maybe because some bitter part of her agrees. Or because it feels easier than defending someone who left her behind.
“You said she hid the kid for years?” Naoya presses, like he’s just casually connecting dots. “Why do you think she finally told him?”
Hana hesitates, nervously twisting her fingers in the fabric of her skirt again. “I don’t know,” she says honestly. “She didn’t tell me how exactly he found out, either. But maybe she needed help? I mean… being a single mom is expensive. Maybe she got desperate. Or maybe he found out and forced her hand. I don’t know.”
Naoya’s smile widens a fraction, so small it’s almost imperceptible. “Right,” he says smoothly. “Makes sense. Desperation’ll make people do funny things.” He straightens, brushing invisible dust off his tailored pants, the polished image of someone who already has everything he wants, or knows exactly how to get it.
Hana looks at him, feeling small and a little stupid under the weight of what she’s just admitted, but Naoya only chuckles, reaching out to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear. “Relax, sweetheart,” he murmurs, voice soft. “You’re not betraying anyone. You’re just telling me what you already know.”
And Hana, desperately wanting to believe it, lets herself relax as Naoya pulls her closer, delivering a soft kiss to her cheek. “C’mon, let’s finish up here. We can get some lunch, hit up the mall, buy something pretty for you. You like that?”
And Hana nods, smiling shyly. “Yeah, I like that.”
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“I don’t know if I trust your parents picking Koji up.” 
Satoru glances at you as he finds a parking spot, brows knitting before he reverses back. “Why not? You’ll be in the interview and I have to run some stuff back ahh the office. They said they’d do it.”
Nerves fill your stomach, anxious about the interview you have with Carlisle & Harlow. Wearing your most sophisticated, fitted black button-up with the same color slacks to go with it. 
You let out a slow breath, trying to calm yourself as you straighten the collar of your shirt. The sharp black fabric feels comforting against your skin, almost like armor, but it doesn’t ease the tightness in your chest. The weight of the interview looming over you is enough to make everything feel more intense. “I know you trust them, but I don’t think I’m ready to put Koji in their care. I don’t trust them, not after everything.” You glance out the window. “What if something happens and I’m not there? What if they treat him differently… like they treated me?” Your voice quivers slightly, betraying the vulnerability you’ve been trying to keep hidden.
He parks the car, turning to look at you. “Hey,” he gently speaks, gaining your attention. “I know it’s hard. You have every right to trust them. Hell, sometimes I don’t. But I’ve talked with them, okay? And I promise you—I promise—that nothing bad will happen to Koji. I’ll protect him and you with all I can. And I’ll be damned if my parents have something to say about it.”
Your breath hitches slightly as you hold his gaze, his eyes a mixture of reassurance and determination. The sincerity in his voice tugs at your heart, but you can’t quite shake the gnawing feeling in your gut. “You say that now, but you’ve never been in my shoes,” you murmur, your fingers tightening around the strap of your bag. “I didn’t have a choice. I didn’t get to choose how they treated me. And if they treat him the same way, I… I can’t handle that. Not again. Not with Koji.”
Satoru sighs, his fingers drumming softly on the steering wheel, his gaze flickering between you and the parking lot outside. “I get it. I do. But you can’t shield him from everything. You’re not alone in this anymore.” He leans in, placing a hand over yours. The warmth of his touch is grounding. “You’ve been carrying this weight by yourself for too long. Let me help you carry it.”
You swallow hard, the uncertainty and fear bubbling up inside you. “It's just…it’s hard. Letting go, trusting people—especially them—it’s not easy for me.”
He nods, his thumb brushing over your knuckles. “I get it. You’ve had a lot of time to build walls around yourself. But this… this is different. Koji deserves a chance at family, at love. And that means we need to trust, even if it’s hard. Not just for us, but for him.”
You look at him again, his expression serious yet tender, and for a moment, the weight of the world feels a little lighter. He’s not asking you to forget what happened or pretend everything’s okay. He’s just asking you to trust him.
“Okay,” you whisper, your voice barely audible as you finally allow yourself to soften just a little. “But if anything goes wrong, I won’t hesitate to step in.”
Satoru’s smile is small but full of warmth. “I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’ve got your back. Always.” He leans in, as if about to press a kiss to your forehead before you turn to the door. 
You awkwardly clear your throat, grab your purse, and ignore the urge to look back at his face. “Right. I—I’m going to go in now. Good luck at work. Your parents have my number, right? They’ll text us if anything happens?”
A hand scrubs over his neck, settling back in his seat. “Um…yeah, yeah. Of course.”
“Great. I’ll take the bus back.”
“Are you su—”
“Thank you for driving me, bye now.”
You close the door before hearing what he has to say next. Forcibly brushing off this weird limbo you two are in, and instead, focusing on the now. This interview. Yourself. Your future. That’s what matters most. It’s a tall building situated within the nicer, more metropolitan area of Tokyo. One you’re still finding yourself getting used to. You don’t miss your shitty neighborhood, you won’t. But there’s still a small voice inside your mind that tells you this kind of environment, just living a city life, is not for you. Maybe one day, you can own a piece of property out in butt-fuck nowhere. Some cows, maybe chickens, and at least one chestnut horse. Ah, the thought is a nice one. If all goes well with this gig, that future may actually be a possibility. 
Entering the lobby, important-looking people pass by. Some on the phone, discussing whatever deals are on the line, others rushing about, seemingly in a hurry to get from one place to the next. It’s a little chaotic, if you’re being honest. But why wouldn’t it be? Everyone’s dressed to impress, you can tell by the pristine, dark fabric of one guy’s suit. There’s a receptionist desk further down; that’s where you head. Straightening up and dusting off the imaginary particles on your shoulder, you make your way over. A subtle confidence is what you try to exude, smiling politely at the younger woman seated behind the desk. “Hi, excuse me?”
“One moment, please.” She holds a single finger up, talking on the phone while simultaneously clicking away at something on her monitor. 
You nod quickly, stepping back just a bit to give her space, hands smoothing down your slacks as you glance around the lobby again—more a reflex than anything else. The walls are glass and concrete, modern and intimidating, and the clean, minimalist aesthetic makes you feel a little out of place no matter how well you dressed today. Still, you keep your chin up.
The receptionist finishes her call a moment later, setting the phone down with a practiced smile. “Hi there, sorry about that. Do you have an appointment?”
“Yes,” you reply, clearing your throat gently. “I’m here for an interview with Ms. Carlisle at eight-thirty.”
“Oh, Ms. Carlisle hasn’t come into the office yet.” The receptionist replies, head tilting. “Are you sure your interview with her was today?”
Your expression dampens slightly, hands fiddling. “Oh, um…yes, I’m sure. She said today.”
“Hmm, well that’s interesting.” Once again, the receptionist clicks and scrolls away on her monitor for a few seconds. You almost begin to think it’s a sign from the universe that it was all too good to be true, that maybe Evelyn even forgot she scheduled a meeting with you today in the first place. You’re about to lose all hope, but the girl speaks up again. “Well, you’re more than welcome to wait for her in her office. She’s up on the last floor. Once you’re out of the elevators, take a right, then another right, then a left, keep walking down, and you’ll see it. It’s not hard to miss.”
You thank her with a polite nod, trying to ignore the tightening in your stomach as you step toward the elevators. Maybe it was just a simple scheduling mix-up, or maybe this is what it’s like working in a place where everyone’s too busy to worry about being on time. Either way, you’re here now—and you’ll wait if you have to. You're not about to let something like this shake you. The elevator dings open with a soft chime, sleek and metallic inside, and you press the button for the top floor, which is the twenty-first. As the doors close, you catch your reflection in the mirrored panel—sharp collar, clean lines, confident-enough face—and you give yourself the smallest of nods. You can do this. 
The ride up is smooth and quiet, faced with the beautiful skyline of a bright Tokyo morning. When the doors finally slide open, you’re met with the hushed luxury of the executive floor. It’s quieter up here—less of the bustling chaos from the lobby. The air feels cooler, more sterile, with plush carpeting and abstract art lining the walls. Probably the higher up you go, the more important the people are, and the more hushed it is. 
Following the receptionist’s directions, you navigate the hallway, counting your turns. Right. Another right. Then left. And just like she said, there it is—Carlisle etched on the frosted glass door in neat serif lettering. It’s large, imposing, and framed by dark wood with a gold handle that gleams faintly in the soft overhead lighting. You pause just before reaching for it, taking another deep breath to center yourself.
This interview could change everything. Not just your job. Not just your income. But your whole future.
You knock twice, then slowly push the door open.
No one is inside, as you expected, but it still felt respectful enough to knock. There’s a dark mahogany desk in the center, a reclining seat behind it, with two chairs on the opposite side. Two monitors with a landline and piles of paperwork stacked on top. To the right is a plush, black leather couch. The walls have some paintings, you could only assume cost way too much for such simplicity. Carefully, you walk inside, plopping down onto one of the two chairs. Hands folded in your lap as the silence envelopes you, head swivelling around as you continue to take in the atmosphere. It’s not too large of an office, but still bigger than your normal supervisor's one. You almost question how similar this one looks to someone like Satoru’s, someone who has a high ranking in such a noteworthy company. Not that you’ve ever seen his. 
Boredom begins to strike as you wait for her to arrive. You check your watch. 8:36. If there’s one thing you hate most in your life, it’s late people. Your finger taps against your knuckles, your foot against the floor as time ticks. When you glance at Evelyn’s desk again, you notice that she has a framed picture. It’s the only thing on her mess of a desk that seems like a personal artifact. You lean closer in your seat, head tilting to the side and just barely nudging the frame so you can have a better look.
One more month until we meet you, Baby Jeanie. 
Evelyn is wearing a white dress, with a very obvious bump beneath it. Beside her stands her late husband, Noah Harlow, his blonde hair reflecting the sunlight. Her head is leaning on his shoulder, and each of their hands is placed on top of the life they’ve created. Genuine smiles painted their faces. He’s wearing a clean, tan button-up, with light slacks to match. The day looks perfect, the picture beautifully representing what it must’ve felt like for the expecting couple. A small twist forms at your heart, lip curving down. 
“Three years today.”
You jolt with a gasp, quickly settling back in your seat, forcing your slouched position away. 
Evelyn’s voice is calm but laced with a grief you recognize immediately. Her heels click softly against the floor as she walks into the office, setting her bag down on the desk with practiced ease. She doesn’t look at the photo—she doesn’t have to. Her gaze is distant, almost unreadable, but you see the heaviness behind her eyes.
“I didn’t mean to—” you start, flustered, guilt blooming in your chest as you sit up straighter, “I wasn’t trying to snoop, I just—”
She lifts a hand, gently waving it off. “It’s alright.” Her voice is quiet, steady. “I keep it there because I want people to see it. It reminds me why I do what I do.” A pause. “And who I’ve done it for.”
You nod, unsure what else to say. Your fingers nervously clutch the edge of your slacks.
Evelyn takes her seat behind the desk and leans back in her chair, studying you with sharp, blue, observant eyes that don’t quite match the soft sorrow of her earlier tone. She taps the edge of her keyboard before finally breaking the silence again. “You’re early. I like that.”
“I—I wasn’t sure about traffic,” you manage, forcing a small, professional smile. “Figured it’s better than being late.”
“Smart. And rare,” she replies, and though her tone is cool, there’s something vaguely warm beneath it. “Let’s not waste time, then.”
She flips open a leather-bound folder, scanning your resume briefly. You can feel the shift—how she seems to pull herself together quickly, brushing her personal grief behind some invisible barrier to focus on the task at hand. “You did bring your resume, correct?”
“Yes, yes, of course.” You nod, reaching down to pull a folder out of your purse. You open it and hand her a straight, white sheet of paper stapled together. “
She takes it, head tilting as she analyzes it quietly. She hums. “Quite a lengthy list of employment.”
“I’ve been working since I was barely a teenager,” you nod. 
Evelyn doesn’t look up at first, eyes scanning the page with the kind of thorough attention that makes your pulse tick faster in your throat. Her fingers rest at the corner of the paper, unmoving, like she’s weighing something much heavier than a resume. Finally, she speaks again.
“And not a single job lasted more than…ten months.” Her gaze lifts, sharp and assessing. “Why is that?”
You hesitate, the air suddenly feeling too thick in your lungs. There it is—that dreaded question. Not unexpected, but still difficult to explain in a way that doesn’t sound like you’re making excuses. You fold your hands in your lap, straighten your spine once more, and meet her eyes. “Most of them were out of necessity,” you say honestly. “Temporary work, short-term contracts, jobs I took to keep a roof over our heads. It wasn’t about building a career at the time. It was survival.”
There’s a pause. Evelyn leans back slightly, arms folding across her chest. She watches you in silence for a moment longer before her tone softens—just a fraction.
“And now?”
Your throat feels tight, but you manage to hold steady. “Now, I’m not just trying to survive anymore. I want something stable. I want something I can grow in, something that’s mine. For me. And for my son. I want us both to have security.”
Evelyn’s brow twitches faintly at the mention of your child, though she doesn’t comment on it. Instead, she sets your resume down and steeples her fingers. The grief you saw earlier remains behind her eyes, like a shadow, but something shifts. “You’re not the most qualified person on paper,” she says bluntly. “But I’ve made decisions from instinct before—and they’ve served me well.”
Another pause.
“Tell me why I should take that chance on you.”
You falter a bit, and a part of you almost blurts out, Well, you came up to me at my job, you sought me out, but you hold it back. “Well, I’m a very…hard worker. I’m passionate, and I’m very dependable. I believe that I have a lot of years' worth of experience, and  I can be a great addition to this company. I’ve never been a personal secretary before, but I’m diligent, I’m…great at conflict management. And I get my work done.”
“You and…many other people, Y/N.” She murmurs, leaning back in her seat, one leg crossing over the other. “Give me more. What makes you stand out?”
God, you hate questions like these. You rack your brain for a bit, coming up with the most generic answer. “I’m a very determined person. I’m adaptable.”
“And that makes you, what?”
You swallow the lump rising in your throat. Her tone isn’t cruel, but it is pointed, like she’s testing you, pushing to see if there’s anything beyond the surface. And maybe she has every right to. This is the kind of job people fight for, the kind you don’t just walk into from a string of restaurant gigs and hourly jobs. But you’ve fought too hard to shrink now. So, you breathe in, let your shoulders settle, and drop the polite, rehearsed version of yourself.
“It makes me someone who doesn’t give up when things get hard,” you say, voice calmer now, more grounded. “Someone who keeps showing up. Even when I’m scared. Even when I’ve got every reason to quit. I’ve worked through grief, through debt, through raising a child by myself. And I still found a way to keep going. I may not have a polished resume, and I might not look perfect on paper, but I learn fast, and I don’t need hand-holding. You won’t have to babysit me. I can take a hit and keep moving.”
Your voice quiets, but your gaze stays steady on hers.
“I know what it means to build from nothing. And I’m not afraid to start again, even here.”
The silence that follows is thicker this time, but not uncomfortable. Not exactly. Evelyn studies you with a different kind of stillness now. Not dismissive. Not uninterested. Just…watching. Measuring. Then, she speaks. “How old is your child?”
“He’s five now.”
“Going to school?”
“He is.”
Evelyn nods slowly, fingers steepled beneath her chin as she regards you with something unreadable—less like an employer sizing up a candidate, and more like a woman pulling apart a story that hits too close to home. “You’ll have to leave early sometimes. Sick days. School closures. Emergencies.” Her voice is even, neutral.
You nod. “I try to plan for those things ahead of time. But yes, sometimes they’re unavoidable.”
Another beat of silence. Then, she leans back slightly, eyes narrowing, but not unkindly, with intent. “Being a personal secretary isn’t just phones and calendars. It’s long hours. Emotional labor. You’ll be expected to run interference, manage people’s moods, anticipate needs before they’re spoken. My assistant before you quit because the pressure bled into her marriage.”
She lets that sink in. Not as a threat, but as a truth.
“I’m not trying to scare you. I’m just telling you—you’ll be expected to carry a lot. Are you ready for that, Y/N? Not just for the job. But for what it takes from you?”
Your lips purse, fingers curling into your palms. Every question from her feels like a test. A reminder that this job, although presented to you, is not one for the weak. Well, luckily for you, you’re not married like the last girl. And, unluckily for Eveleyn, she may wish you were. 
You huff a small breath through your nostrils before speaking with conviction. “I’m ready. I’ve made the necessary steps to get to where I am for my son and for me. I can push and push, and I can take just as much. I…I have more to fight for now.”
Evelyn’s eyes flicker slightly, just a subtle change in the way she regards you, but it’s enough to let you know she heard you. She shifts in her seat, elbows resting on the arms of her chair, hands folding neatly in her lap. There’s a glimmer of something—approval or maybe just curiosity—as she leans forward just enough to study you. “I see,” she murmurs. Her voice is softer now, less challenging. “You’re driven. That’s clear.”
You meet her gaze, holding it steady, feeling the weight of her scrutiny but refusing to flinch. This interview, this moment, it feels like one more battle you’ve got to win, and you’re determined to prove that you're capable of fighting for what you want, even if it’s a battle she doesn't yet fully understand. She taps her pen lightly against her desk, contemplating. “Alright, Y/N. I’ll be honest. I’ve had my doubts about taking on someone with little experience in this specific role. But you’ve shown me something I wasn’t expecting. I’ll need to run this by my team, but you’ll hear back from me soon. If all goes well, I’ll put you through a trial month. That’s all I can promise for now.”
You nod, the tension in your shoulders loosening just slightly. The worst of it is over. Or so you hope. “Thank you,” you say, standing up with a calmness you didn’t feel five minutes ago. You offer her a polite smile. “I’ll look forward to hearing from you.”
Evelyn gives you a small nod, standing as well. “Good luck, Y/N. I think you’ll need it.”
As you leave the office, your heart is still racing, but now it’s not from nerves. It’s from knowing you’ve fought for this. And maybe, just maybe, it’ll be enough. A smile makes its way onto your face. That wasn’t half bad and not nearly as long as you thought it would be. Of course, you would’ve loved to have been hired on the spot, but it makes sense that she needs to consult first. 
Still, it wasn’t rejection. 
You lightly chuckle, turning one of the first corners, when suddenly, you collide with someone. You gasp, stumbling back a little before catching your footing. “Oh, I—I’m so sorry. That was an accident.” 
Locking eyes with the person you’ve just come into contact with, you see it’s an older man. His grey hair is styled sleekly back, with hints of crows feet around the outer edges of his hazel eyes. He’s dressed like every other man here. Nice, fancy, pristine. He dusts off his right shoulder, straightening his blazer out. “Don’t worry, simple mistake.” His voice is clean and smooth, slightly rough at the edges, which makes it obvious he was or still is a smoker.
You quickly step back, feeling a slight wave of embarrassment. The man’s eyes soften as he gives a short hum. “It happens.” He gestures to the hallway behind him with a brief nod. You step aside, offering another apology. His eyes just very briefly scan you up and down, lingering on a couple of features of your face, specifically your nose and eyebrows, before transferring quickly to your ears. 
“Have a nice day,” you mutter awkwardly. 
“Mhm,” is all he says before walking past you. Once he’s gone, your body feels lighter, as if this stranger’s presence made you all wacky from the inside. You cast a small look around the corner, making it just in time to notice Evelyn’s door closing with a click.
You swallow, shaking off the lingering feeling that man left behind. His presence, the way his eyes skimmed over you, there was something strange about it, but you can’t put your finger on what. You chalk it up to nerves from the interview and move on. It’s not like you’ll ever see him again, right? Besides, it’s Evelyn’s opinion that matters now. You keep walking, feeling that mix of relief and uncertainty creeping back into your chest. It’s a good thing the interview went well, but the weight of waiting for a callback still lingers heavily. As you approach the elevator, you check your phone, noticing a message from Satoru.
Satoru: "How’d it go?"
You smile a little, despite everything. You type out a quick reply:
You: "Better than I expected. No decision yet, but I didn’t bomb it."
You hit send, stepping into the elevator, your mind still buzzing. A moment later, the door closes, and the hum of the elevator fills the silence. You rest against the metal wall, letting your thoughts wander back to the interview, to what could come next.
It could be the start of something bigger.
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“My, this…neighborhood,” Akane comments, laced with disgust. Her face wrinkles slightly at the trash that leaks out of the garbage can, obviously not being taken care of, the sketchy-looking liquor stores that seem too close together, but must be an alcoholic’s dream. The car stops at the elementary school, she looks over at her husband. “Are you sure this is the boy’s school?”
“That’s what the damn GPS is telling me. That’s what Satoru said.” Yamato huffs, grabbing his phone, pointer finger jabbing at the bright screen, and pulling down the glasses onto the bridge of his nose. 
Akane sighs, straightening out her dress. 
“C’mon, Satoru said his class should have already been let out, let’s go find the room.” Yamato pushes his hair back, sighing as he gets out his Rolls-Royce Cullinan. Rounding the car to open the passenger door for his wife. They link hands and head toward the front doors of Koji’s school. 
“I hope we don’t get mugged,” Akane mutters under her breath. 
“Oh, quiet. We’re only here for the kid.” Yamato easily replies, eyes rolling. 
The inside of the school isn’t much better. The walls are faded, bulletin boards cluttered with crumpled flyers, hand-drawn posters, and outdated announcements. The linoleum under their feet squeaks with every step, and the fluorescent lights buzz faintly overhead. Akane grimaces as a child runs past them with a juice-stained shirt, followed by another with untied shoes and an uncovered sneeze.
“This place smells like glue and poverty,” she mutters, pulling her handbag closer to her side.
Yamato doesn’t respond this time. He’s focused on the numbers above each door, squinting until they finally stop in front of Room 2B. Children’s laughter and the low hum of a teacher’s voice filter through the door. Akane frowns, eyes narrowing at the chipped paint on the doorframe.
Yamato raises his hand to knock, hesitates for a moment, and then glances at his wife. “Just…behave, alright?”
“I always do,” Akane answers with a sugary edge, smoothing her hair back and lifting her chin as he knocks.
The noise inside dips for a second as a voice— the teacher’s—calls out, “Come in!”
And just like that, the Gojo parents step into a room that’s far too small, far too loud, and far too beneath them—only, they’re not here for any of that.
They’re here for Koji.
Yamato presents a small smile. “Hello, we’re here for our…” grandson? Should he say grandson? Technically, he is, but it doesn’t really feel that way. “Koji. We’re his grandparents.”
“Ah! Right!” The teacher, an older lady with brown hair and a stained apron, nods. “His mother said he would be getting picked up by you two.” She turns her head over her shoulder, and the other kids who haven’t been picked up by their parents yet either. “Koji! Your grandparents are here, come get your backpack and jacket.”
Koji looks up from the little table where he’s been coloring with a few other kids. Crayons clatter as he quickly slides out of his chair, eyes wide and uncertain as he stares at the unfamiliar older couple standing at the door. He doesn’t move right away. His teacher encourages him with a soft pat on the back. “It’s okay, sweetie, go on.”
He walks slowly, dragging his feet just a little as he clutches his drawing in one hand. When he reaches them, he stops just a few feet away, looking up. His face is unreadable—neither shy nor excited, just…quiet. Observing. His blue eyes flick from Yamato’s trimmed goatee to Akane’s sharp heels.
A slightly awkward affair as the three leave the room, his teacher ensuring to tell Yamato to tell Koji’s mother about his homework left in his backpack. He nods, hand hesitantly hovering above the boy’s small shoulder as they walk back down the hallway. Yamato and Akane share a knowing, quiet glance. 
Once they get outside, Akane clears her throat, looking down at Koji. “Koji, do you remember us?”
“Um…only a little bit,” he mumbles, scratching the back of his neck as he mentally recounts the day he first saw the two who call themselves his grandparents. Luckily, you and Satoru were with him that day, but now he’s all alone. 
They get to the car, with Yamato opening the backseat. Koji’s eyes widened slightly in awe at the sleek, black car presented in front of him. “Papa’s car is cool too…” he offhandedly comments. 
Akane arches a brow. “I’m sure it is,” she replies curtly, helping him into the car with a practiced grace that still feels stiff, unfamiliar. Koji slides into his booster seat, hands lightly grazing the armrest before clutching his backpack in his lap. Yamato shuts the door and exchanges another glance with his wife before circling back to the driver’s side. The moment he starts the engine, the car hums to life with silent power, and for a while, none of them speak.
Koji, ever perceptive, clutches his drawing a little tighter.
Akane breaks the silence first. “So… what were you drawing back there?”
Koji hesitates. “Me and Mama. At the park.”
“Hmm,” she hums, gaze forward. “No Papa?”
Koji’s lips press together. “He wasn’t there that day.”
Yamato’s knuckles tighten slightly on the wheel. Akane doesn’t respond, but the weight of her silence is as cutting as her tone. After a few more seconds, Yamato clears his throat, glancing at Koji through the rearview mirror. “We were thinking we could take you out for something to eat. Anywhere you like.”
Koji blinks. “Like… McDonald’s?”
Akane’s lips curl into something halfway between a smile and a wince. “If that’s what you want.”
“Can I get a toy?” Koji asks, almost hopefully now.
“Yes,” Yamato answers, firm but not unkind. “You can get whatever you want.”
There’s a beat of calm. Then, very softly, Koji says, “Mama doesn’t have a car like this.”
Yamato exhales quietly. “I know.”
Akane folds her hands in her lap, casting a sideways glance out the window. “That’s why we’re here.”
The ride to McDonald’s isn’t as painfully quiet. Yamato turns the radio on, volume in the middle. Koji swings his legs back and forth, looking out the tinted window as the streets blur past him. His head tilts when they pass the McDonald’s. “We missed McDonald’s,” he says, looking at the older couple with a confused gaze. 
Yamato meets his eyes through the rear-view mirror momentarily. “There’s another McDonald’s closer to our house.”
“Your house?”
“That’s right.”
“I’m going to your house?”
“Uh-huh.”
“Why not my house?”
God, he forgot just how questioning children are. Akane answers this time. “Because your mother and father will meet us there later. Until then, you’ll stay at our house.”
Koji is silent for a minute, processing the information. He looks down at his drawing, hands smoothing out the paper. “Is your house big?” He questions. 
Akane gives a soft hum, like she’s debating how much to say. “Yes. It’s quite big. There’s a garden and a fountain in the front. We have a piano, too.”
“A piano?” Koji repeats, eyes lighting up just a bit as he looks up from his drawing. “Do you play it?”
“I used to,” she replies, her voice a little softer now. “Maybe I’ll show you.”
Yamato glances at her, surprised by the gentle tone, but doesn’t comment. He switches lanes with ease, and they pass through the quiet, wealthier side of the city. The roads get smoother. Cleaner. Koji notices the change, too.
“Are there kids in your neighborhood?”
“A few,” Yamato answers. “Most are older, though. Teenagers.”
“Oh.” Koji pauses again, then looks back out the window. “Mama says big houses get quiet.”
Akane’s lips press together tightly. “That’s true. But sometimes quiet can be peaceful.”
Koji doesn’t respond. He just tucks his drawing back into his backpack and rests his chin in his hand, blinking slowly at the soft-spoken world outside the window—one that doesn’t look like his. One that doesn’t feel like his. 
Yamato parks in the McDonald’s parking lot, unbuckling. Akane and Koji do the same, waiting for the man to open their doors. Koji hops out as Akane does. Koji, ever excited, begins to briskly walk to the front doors of his favorite place. Yamato and Akane’s eyes widen, quickly following. 
Akane’s hand awkwardly juts out, as if she’s about to grab his hand, before stopping. She instead clears her throat. “Walk slower, now.”
Koji slows down, glancing up at her with wide, innocent eyes. “Sorry,” he mumbles, scuffing his shoes against the concrete as he adjusts his pace. He waits beside her, though there’s a slight fidget in his steps. He’s not used to slowing down for anyone but his mom.
Inside, the McDonald’s smells like fries and melted cheese. A kid screams with glee somewhere near the play area, and Koji visibly relaxes at the familiar chaos. Yamato leads them to the counter, where a bored-looking teenager takes their order. Koji clutches the edge of the counter, peering up as he declares confidently, “I want a Happy Meal. With the dinosaur toy. And apple slices, not fries. And orange soda!”
Yamato raises a brow but doesn’t argue. “Happy Meal. Dinosaur toy. Apple slices. Orange soda,” he repeats to the cashier, who nods with a shrug.
Akane watches Koji from the side, eyes tracing how easily he fits here—how his energy might be too big for their cold, cavernous home. She adjusts the pearl bracelet on her wrist, a little unsettled. 
Once they get the food, they sit at a clean booth near the window. Yamato and Akane both sit across from Koji. Koji munches on his food contentedly, his legs swinging again. He pulls the toy from the box, a green triceratops, and sets it beside his apple slices. “He looks mad,” he says, turning it toward them.
Yamato checks his watch. “Maybe he doesn’t like apple slices.”
Koji giggles slightly at the dry humor of his grandfather. Yamato clears his throat, looking up and leaning back in the booth. The older couple watch in quietness as Koji happily devours his food, occasionally stopping to move his toy dinosaur and mimic a small roar. 
It’s strange for them. They’re grandparents, and yet they know close to nothing about this boy. All that they do is he’s a carbon copy of their son, but his mannerisms closely match yours. 
Akane finds herself watching Koji more than she eats. He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, just like you do when you’re distracted. His laughter comes in bursts, quick and bright, like a firecracker going off in a still room. And when he talks about his toy, he looks up at them with expectant eyes, seeking some kind of shared interest neither of them really knows how to give yet.
Yamato studies him too, arms crossed now, food half-finished. The boy’s smart. He doesn’t fidget aimlessly; he thinks before he speaks. He absorbs everything. Just like Satoru did. Maybe more.
Koji finishes his apple slices, downs the rest of his orange soda, and then sits back and smiles at them. “Do you have toys at your house?”
“No,” Akane answers honestly. “But we can get some.”
“Cool,” he says, simple and trusting. “Papa gets me a lot of toys.”
Akane hums lowly. “Do you like your toys?”
“I do!” He chews on his last chicken nugget. 
“What’s your favorite toy?” She asks, arms on the table as she leans forward. 
Koji doesn’t answer right away. He swallows his food, then looks up at her with that same wide-eyed honesty he always has when asked something serious. His fingers toy with the edge of the Happy Meal box. “I like my robot dog,” he finally says. “Papa gave it to me when I was sick. He said it could bark and dance, but it only spins in circles now. I think I broke it.” He pauses, thoughtful. “But I still like it.”
Akane tilts her head slightly, a quiet softness tugging at her features. “Even though it doesn’t work right?”
Koji shrugs. “Yeah. Because Papa said it’s mine. So it’s special.”
She studies him—how simple his logic is. How unwavering his sense of loyalty already seems to be. Her fingers tighten ever so slightly around the edge of the table. “I see,” she murmurs. “That makes sense.”
Yamato glances at her, then down at his phone.
Koji sits up straighter. “Do you have toys from when you were little?”
Akane chuckles under her breath, caught off guard. “Not anymore. I didn’t keep many things.”
“Why not?”
She hesitates, then smiles faintly. “I guess I didn’t think I’d need them.”
Koji stares at her for a second, then looks at his dinosaur toy. “You can have this one if you want,” he offers, sliding it across the table toward her. “So you have a toy again.”
Akane freezes.
Even Yamato lifts his eyes from his phone, blinking in surprise.
“O-oh, well, um—” she clears her throat, hesitantly taking the toy in her hand. “Well…that’s very…nice. Thank you.”
“You’re welcome. Mama says sharing is caring.” He shrugs, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. 
Akane’s eyebrow lifts. Seems you’ve taught your boy some good manners. At least. 
She turns the toy over in her hands, the little green dinosaur staring back at her with its molded plastic scowl. Something in her expression softens further, an unspoken crack in her perfectly composed exterior. It’s clear she hasn’t been offered something so small yet so sincere in a very long time.
“Well,” she says carefully, “I’ll take very good care of him.”
Koji beams, nodding. “Good. He doesn’t like being alone.”
Akane offers a small, almost reluctant smile. “Neither do I.”
Yamato watches quietly, lips pressed together, a crease forming between his brows—not because of disapproval, but something closer to discomfort. Like watching something unfamiliar begin to unfold in front of him. Just then, Koji reaches for his drink, slurping the last of his orange soda loudly. He sighs, satisfied, then stretches his arms out wide. “When are Mama and Papa coming?”
Akane and Yamato share a quick look. She reaches for her clutch, already checking her phone. 
“They’ll meet us back at the house later,” Yamato says, standing up slowly. “Let’s get going before traffic gets bad.”
Koji jumps to his feet with a little bounce. “Okay!”
Akane hesitates just a moment longer, placing the dinosaur into her purse beside her wallet and keys, treating it more carefully than she expected she would.
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The entire bus ride to your ex’s parents’ house was spent in utter anxiety. You fiddle with your hands, foot tapping, and looking out the window. You haven’t seen them since that one day a couple of months back. You wish things were just easy enough so that you could have at least a semblance of a relationship with them. Especially if this co-parenting works out, it’s going to be inevitable you’ll be seeing them. You sigh, head resting back against your seat, eyes closing. 
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“Satoru not bringing you food anymore?”
You gasp and jolt, whirling around quickly. The kitchen light flips on, caught right in the act of stealing a couple of pastries from the pantry, as well as a carton of orange juice. 
Akane stands in a nightgown, arms crossed, with a strong expression. Her eyes move up and down your figure, scoffing audibly. Her chin tilts up, silently commanding you to explain yourself. 
You swallow the current food in your mouth, wiping it with your hand. “I…um…I—well, I can explain.”
“Explain?” She steps forward. “Explain why my son’s good-for-nothing girlfriend has not only been staying in our guesthouse, but stealing our food? Go on, then. Explain.”
Her belittling tone makes you want to curl up into a ball and disappear. God damn it, Satoru. Where the hell are you?! “I…um…there’s—there’s just some stuff going on at home. Satoru said I could stay here until things clear up.”
“And he didn’t even bother to tell me or his father.”
“I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to over—”
“Why are you here?”
“I—I needed a place to stay. I’m sorry. I won’t be here for long.”
Akane stares at you for a long, unbearable second. Her jaw clenches. You can tell she’s holding back something sharp. Maybe it’s restraint, or maybe it’s just another judgment she wants to hurl your way. “I should’ve known,” she says quietly. “Satoru always did have a soft spot for broken things.”
That one stings more than you’d like to admit. Your throat tightens. You look down, ashamed, both hands still wrapped around the cold carton of juice. “I’m not trying to cause trouble,” you whisper. “I just needed a couple weeks. That’s all.”
Akane stares you down in silence for what feels like a full minute. The ticking clock above the stove echoes between you, and your heart hammers louder with each passing second. Her eyes narrow, not with confusion, but calculation. “Let me guess,” she says finally, her voice quiet but sharp enough to cut glass. “You got into a fight with your mother again. Or maybe Satoru ran his mouth and scared you off?”
You shake your head quickly. “It’s not like that.”
“No? Then tell me. Because all I see is a girl too proud to ask for help and too stupid to leave when she should’ve.” Her arms drop, but her words are no less harsh. “You’ve been sneaking around this house like a rodent. Do you know how humiliating it is to find out from the housekeeper that someone’s been using the shower and leaving dishes in the sink?”
You open your mouth, but nothing comes out. You can feel your throat tighten.
Akane sighs—long, exhausted, and judgmental. “You girls think just because someone like Satoru gives you attention, you’ve made it. But you don’t know the first thing about surviving in this family.”
Your knuckles whiten around the orange juice. The ache in your chest is unbearable, but you force yourself to speak. “I didn’t ask to be here. Satoru said it wouldn’t be permanent. He’s helping me. And I’ve been trying to stay out of everyone’s way.”
“You failed.” Her reply is quick and cutting. “Do you know how hard his father and I work to keep his name clean? To keep distractions away while he was studying, preparing to inherit everything? And now look at him—sneaking you in like a dirty secret.”
The word “distraction” lingers in the air like poison. You blink rapidly, biting your tongue until you taste metal. “I’m not trying to ruin his life.”
Akane steps closer now. She isn’t yelling. She doesn’t need to. “Then leave before you do.”
Akane snatches the food and juice from your arms, giving you a brief jut of her chin. “Go back into the guesthouse. I’m not dealing with you anymore tonight.”
You blink, holding back tears. Wordlessly, you bite your lip, turn on your heel, and exit through the back door into the cool night air. Tears sting your eyes as you enter the guesthouse, closing the door with a shut before making your way to the bed. 
You sit on the edge of the bed for a long while, still in the dark, clutching the hem of your shirt like it’s the only thing tethering you to the ground. The burn in your throat won’t ease, no matter how hard you swallow. You press your palms to your eyes, trying not to let the sob crawl out of you.
She doesn’t know.
She doesn’t know.
You repeat this tiny mantra to yourself, willing your brain not to go into overdrive for what will be the millionth time this week. 
It wasn’t supposed to be like this. Satoru promised. He said they wouldn’t even have to know you were here. Just a few weeks, just until you guys figured out what to do, until you started feeling better, until you could afford that studio apartment in Setagaya. But it’s already been four nights since you found out, and you’re still waking up at three in the morning, stomach twisted in knots, half from nausea and half from sorrow. 
And he still hasn’t answered your texts. 
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You stir awake from your small nap as the bus gets to your stop, rubbing your eyes and getting off. His parents’ place shouldn’t be too far from here, if memory serves you right. You sigh and begin walking, just trying to think about being able to see your little boy in a little bit, not come face to face with them. 
You hug your coat tighter around you as you walk, the cool afternoon air nipping at your cheeks. The streets are too clean here. Too quiet. You hate how familiar it still feels, the ivy-lined walls, the sharp turns of the hedges, the cold elegance of it all. You used to think it was beautiful. Now it just feels heavy.
Your feet move on instinct, carrying you past the old stone wall you remember scraping your knees on one time, the bakery where Satoru used to buy you those strawberry mochi on Fridays. Everything is the same, but so different. 
You pause as you get to the intercom at the gate surrounding the Gojo Estate. Pressing the button. A small buzz sounds out, a man’s voice you recognize coming in. “Hello?”
“Hey, it’s Y/N.”
There’s a tiny silence before you hear another buzz, the wide gates slowly opening. Taking a deep breath, you start up the long driveway, hands shoved in the pockets of your coat. Eyes focused on the two white grand doors. Once you get there, the doors open, revealing Yamato. 
You purse your lips awkwardly. “Um…hi.”
He nods briefly before stepping aside. The moment you enter, a wave of nostalgia washes over your entire being. You force yourself not to book it out of there. 
“Satoru said he’d be here in twenty minutes,” Yamato utters.
You nod, looking around. “And Koji?”
“Come,” he motions with his hand, turning to walk down the hallway towards the large living space. You follow a few steps behind, passing by a few family memorabilia on the way. You stop when he does. You blink, head tilting slightly. 
In front of you, your son and Satoru’s mother with their backs turned to you. They sit on the seat of the piano.
The scene before you feels surreal, like stepping into a memory that doesn’t belong to you, yet it does. Koji, perched on the piano bench, his tiny fingers brushing over the ivory keys, a look of intense concentration on his face. And Akane, beside him, her back straight and her hands poised delicately over the keys as she guides him. The quiet, peaceful moment is almost too perfect.
“She’s been teaching him for the last hour, he’s very curious.” Yamato comments, arms crossing. He side-glances at you, noticing your quietness. 
“Oh, well…that’s good. He’s never seen one in person before,” you mumble, awkwardly shifting on your feet. You can faintly hear Akane mutter a direction to your son, followed by his nod. Your stomach turns, unsure of how to feel about all this. “He’s been behaving?” You decide to ask. 
Yamato nods, meeting your eyes. “Quite so.” He says nothing for a few more seconds before sighing and angling his body towards you. “Look, this is new for all of us. I didn’t expect him to be so open towards us.”
“Because I taught him to be kind to everyone,” you cooly reply, looking up at him. “No matter what.”
Yamato gets the silent message, jaw ticking just barely. “I know you may have resentment towards us, but we’re not your enemy,” he finishes, voice steady, but laced with something heavier.
You blink, swallowing thickly as your fingers curl inside your pockets. Enemy. You weren’t expecting that word, but maybe it fits more than you’d like to admit. Your silence stretches too long, and you know he’s waiting for you to snap, to throw all your pent-up frustration in his face.
But you don’t. Instead, you let out a small exhale, glancing back at Koji and Akane. “I don’t resent anyone,” you say, voice quiet. “I just don’t forget.”
Yamato says nothing, but the pause between you sharpens. Then he gives a small nod, almost as if conceding to something unspoken.
You walk past him.
As your feet carry you toward the piano room, Koji glances over his shoulder again. “Mama!” he beams, hopping off the bench and running into your arms. 
You catch him easily, hugging him tight, letting his little arms wrap around your neck like ivy. “Hey, baby,” you murmur into his hair, inhaling the warm scent of shampoo and sunshine. When you lift your gaze again, Akane is standing. Her expression is cool and composed as always, hands clasped neatly in front of her. She doesn’t say anything, but the look in her eyes says enough.
She sees you. 
“Thank you for teaching him,” you offer, voice strained but civil.
Akane tilts her head slightly. “He’s a fast learner,” she replies. “Takes after his father.”
You don’t comment on that, resisting the urge to say his mother, too. 
“Would you like to hear what he’s learned?” she adds, tone perfectly poised.
You blink in surprise. For a moment, you wonder if this is some sort of trap, but Koji pulls back, eyes shining with excitement. “Can I show her, Grandma?”
Akane gives a small nod. “Of course.”
He runs back to the piano. You follow more slowly, sitting beside him this time. Your eyes flicker to Akane. She doesn’t sit, but she watches, hands folded, body rigid in that ever-disapproving way. Or maybe that’s just what she’s forever used to. 
And still, as Koji presses the keys with tiny, proud fingers, all you can do is wonder:
Is this her trying?
Or is this just her performance?
You never know with these people. 
Koji plays a small, four-key symphony. You smile softly, watching his tiny fingers move around the white keys before looking up at you with an expectant smile. “Oh, you’re so good. That sounded so wonderful,” you kiss his cheek, wrapping an arm around his shoulder to bring him into your side.
He giggles, kissing your cheek back. “Grandma said I’m a puh—poo—umm…a pr—”
“Prodigy,” Akane finishes for him.
Koji nods quickly. “Yeah! That! A prodigy!”
You can’t help the way your lips twitch at the corners, though you keep your tone even. “Is that so?”
Akane finally moves, just enough to step closer. “I wouldn’t say it lightly,” she murmurs. “He has an ear for rhythm. Muscle memory. Coordination. His age group typically struggles with that.”
You glance at her sideways. “He’s always been observant. Picks up things quickly.”
Akane nods once. “Yes. He’s sharp.”
There’s something there—a flicker of approval, rare and unfamiliar. It lands oddly. Not unwelcome, but not quite comforting either. Still, it lingers longer than you expect. And for the first time since arriving, her words feel… not like a dismissal. Not like judgment. More like an assessment.
You exhale slowly. “Well… as long as he’s enjoying it.”
Koji beams between you both. “I wanna be really good. Like the people on Papa’s phone!”
You blink. “What people?”
“He showed me a video of a man playing piano with his eyes closed. Really fast!” Koji’s eyes go wide. “I wanna do that.”
“Sounds ambitious,” you murmur, brushing his hair back gently.
“It’s possible,” Akane says, arms crossing. “With discipline and the right environment.”
Your jaw tightens, but you keep your expression neutral. “He’s five.”
Akane’s gaze doesn’t waver. “So was Satoru when he started.”
The comparison between Koji and Satoru is one you expected, but that doesn’t make you any less frustrated. You look back at Koji, his joy too pure, too focused, to let the weight of that conversation reach him. He starts playing again, a slower, clumsier version of the earlier song, tongue poking out in concentration. “Well, he’s not Satoru. He’s Koji.”
“He can still learn how Satoru did.”
“Or he can learn what he wants, when he wants. And if I allow it,” you calmly reply, standing up from the bench and taking your son into your arms. He’s already growing big enough to the point where picking him up hurts your back even more. However, you still want to cherish whatever strands of dependency you can with your son, even if that means suffering a backache.
Akane’s lips press into a thin line, not quite disapproving—but not agreeing either. You can see the tension in her posture, in the way her hands shift slightly as if she wants to say more but is holding back. “He’s yours,” she finally says. “That much is clear.”
You hold Koji tighter. “He always has been.”
Yamato clears his throat, hoping to die down the growing tension as he stands beside his wife. “Why don’t you two wait for Satoru in the dining room?”
You don’t need to be told twice, turning on your heel and walking out of the room, practically feeling their eyes burn holes in the back of your head. Once you’re gone, Akane sighs heavily, foot tapping against the ground. “That girl hasn’t changed.”
“I’m not in the mood to break up a fight right now, Akane.”
“I’m not fighting,” she snaps, glaring up at Yamato. “I’m observing. Simply. It’s not my fault she dislikes us.”
“It doesn’t matter if she does or does not, I don’t care enough to worry about that. But at least try to act civil in the presence of a child, yes?” Yamato asks in exasperation, eyebrow lifting. 
She scoffs. “I am acting civil. Do you see me raising my voice and throwing a tantrum?”
“No, but it’s your tone.”
“And how is my tone?”
“Jesus Christ, just be nice for one goddamn minute. I’m too old for this crap,” Yamato huffs deeply, hand running through his hair. His lips are set into a creased frown, and he waves his hand up. “Just try to make her feel somewhat comfortable, okay. Got it?” 
Akane opens her mouth. “But she—”
“I said, got it?” He asks again, giving his wife a look she’s familiar with. One that says he won’t tolerate her disobedience any longer.
Akane’s jaw tightens at the silent command, but she doesn’t argue this time. She just presses her lips together, gaze flicking toward the doorway you disappeared through. “…Got it,” she says eventually, her voice clipped.
Yamato sighs through his nose, the tension leaving his shoulders just slightly. He doesn’t say anything else as he steps out, leaving his wife behind in the piano room. She lingers for a moment, her eyes drifting toward the bench where Koji had been sitting—small hands, wide eyes, laughter like Satoru’s when he was little. She swallows something bitter before turning on her heel and following after her husband.
In the dining room, you sit Koji down on the edge of one of the long chairs, pulling his little hoodie off his head and smoothing his hair. He swings his feet as he sits, talking excitedly about the keys, the sounds, how Akane let him press the pedal even though he “wasn’t supposed to.” You smile and nod in all the right places, but your mind is elsewhere, your eyes flicking to the large windows, the too-white walls, the marble floors. It’s like being dropped into someone else’s memory.
You hear their footsteps before you see them. Yamato enters first, his face unreadable as always, though there’s a tiredness behind his eyes. Akane follows after, her posture still regal, but her expression more composed. Less… cutting.
She doesn’t look at you as she sits on the opposite side of the table.
Yamato clears his throat and glances between you both. “Would either of you like tea while we wait?”
“I’m okay,” you mutter.
“Um…juice?” he asks Koji, his voice a tad bit gentler.
“Apple?” Koji grins.
Yamato nods. “Coming right up.”
As he heads to the side kitchen, silence settles between you and Akane again. You keep your attention on Koji, who starts humming some made-up song to himself. 
Then, after a beat, Akane speaks.
“I didn’t mean to undermine you,” she says, tone low and careful, like each word has been weighed a dozen times before being spoken. “I only meant to point out potential.”
You glance at her. Her gaze is steady.
“He’s your son,” she says. “But he’s Satoru’s, too. You can’t expect the world not to notice what’s in his blood.”
You lean forward, resting your arms on the table. “I don’t mind the world noticing. I mind when people try to turn him into someone he’s not.”
She sighs. “All I did was suggest he has greater potential.”
Akane’s words hang between you like an unresolved chord. The flicker in her eye, curiosity, perhaps hope, maybe even defensiveness—doesn’t go unnoticed. 
You tilt your head. “I’m not against potential. I’m against projection.”
Her lips twitch at the corner. “You think I’m trying to mold him or something?”
“I think you don’t realize how easy it is to mistake admiration for control,” you say calmly. “And I’m not going to let him grow up thinking love has conditions attached to it.”
Akane stiffens slightly at that, her hands tightening over her lap. “You assume the worst in us.”
“No,” you reply softly. “I remember the worst. That’s not the same.”
Another pause. This time, it’s her gaze that flickers away, settling on the far end of the table where Koji now softly drums his fingers, looking between you and her. She decides not to push it; the longer the discussion grows, the more curious he might become. She looks up as Yamato holds out a juice box for Koji to take. 
Just as he does so, Satoru walks into the room. His two top buttons unbuttoned, eyes glancing between his mother and you, silently trying to determine the comfort level of the current situation. “Hey,” he says, coming over to stand beside you. A quick look at your expression says everything. 
“Papa!”
“Hey, buddy.” Satoru smiles, welcoming Koji into his arms, adjusting the small boy against his chest. He gives him a small kiss on the top of his head. “How was school?”
“Okay, I’m gonna miss my friends.” He admits, looking down with a small frown. 
“Aw, buddy. I’m sure you are, but you’ll make even more friends at your new school.”
Koji childishly sighs, arms wrapping around his father’s neck and putting his face into the crook of it. 
Satoru pats his back lightly, now focusing on his mother and you. His first question is directed towards you. “Everything good?”
You nod, though it’s a small, half-hearted gesture. “Peachy,” you murmur, not quite sarcastic, but not fully honest either.
His hand remains on Koji’s back, rubbing in slow, thoughtful circles. He glances at Akane, who has returned to her perfect stillness, eyes calmly watching the exchange as if it’s all part of a silent evaluation.
“She was just making observations,” you say before he can ask. “About Koji’s potential. About blood. About you at five.”
Satoru raises a brow, slowly lowering Koji to the chair beside him. “Mom,” he says, voice calm but edged, “We talked about this.”
Akane doesn’t flinch. “And I was careful. I said nothing out of line.”
“You never do,” he replies smoothly. But the look he gives her carries more weight than his tone. It’s the look of a son who’s lived too long parsing praise from performance. Yamato goes to his seat beside Akane with a grunt, muttering something about needing a stronger drink. You focus on Koji again, standing up to wipe juice from the side of his mouth as he slurps through the straw.
Then, Satoru shifts slightly closer to you, brushing your arm. “We don’t have to stay long,” he says low, for your ears only. “We can head out now, yeah?”
You glance at Koji, who’s swinging his legs, and you nod.
But it’s Akane who speaks next.
“You’re always leaving,” she says, tone bitter.
Satoru exhales through his nose. “And you’re always making it easy to.”
“The cooks will be making some shrimp tacos,” she says, standing as well. Her arms cross, looking between the two of you. “Maybe the boy can—”
“Koji is fine,” you cut in, fixing her with a firm gaze. “He’s a picky eater.”
Her lips purse tightly, restrained disapproval lurking behind her eyes. As if she is holding back a sharper comment.  Her posture doesn’t waver, but the chill in the room thickens.
“He’ll learn to adjust,” she finally says, looking at you. “Children do. Especially in families like ours.” 
Families like ours.
The words cling, sticky, and unpleasant. Satoru’s jaw tightens. You don’t miss the way his fingers twitch at his side, the smallest urge to step in, to shield, to lash back. But instead, he smiles, tight, impersonal. “Koji isn’t some soldier in training, Mom.”
Akane lifts her chin. “And he shouldn’t be raised like a normal civilian, either.”
Yamato scoffs again, leaning back in his chair. “Here we go.”
Satoru ignores his father, eyes still on his mother. “He’s five,” he says flatly. “He likes dinosaur nuggets and cartoons that scream too loudly. He doesn’t need to know what it means to be part of this family yet.”
“And he doesn’t need to,” you add on. 
She huffs dryly. “So you both plan on, what? Never allowing him to come over? To stay over?”
“Nobody is saying that, Mom.” Satoru exhales through his nostrils. “That is not at all what we said. Stop putting words in our mouths.”
“But that’s what I’m hearing.” Her voice rises, Koji just barely flinching in Satoru’s arms. You both notice, and your expression darkens. Satoru holds him closer, hand moving to his pearly white strands of hair to weave through in a calming manner. As if noticing the way she snapped, she blinks. For a moment, it looks like she might apologize. 
But neither of you cares enough to stay to hear it. 
“We’re leaving now.” You state, not leaving room for even more of whatever pathetic argument she might try to throw. Satoru and you turn, walking to the door. 
Yamato side glances at Akane. Her eyebrows are furrowed, biting hard on her lip. And if he didn’t know any better, he’d say she looks regretful. 
“Wait,” Koji says, looking over Satoru’s shoulder at the older couple. “Can I say bye to Grandma and Grandpa?” 
Satoru pauses at the door, one hand on the knob, the other under Koji’s legs as the boy leans back slightly in his arms. You glance at him, silent, weighing the moment. Akane straightens. Yamato says nothing.
“Of course you can,” Satoru says finally, setting Koji gently down. “Go ahead.”
Koji pads back into the room, small feet quiet against the polished floor. He stops in front of Akane first, looking up at her with hesitant eyes. She meets them, unsure for once. There’s a flicker of something unfamiliar—a tender softness she doesn’t wear often enough, one she hasn’t had to wear in years. 
“Bye, Grandma,” he says politely, giving a little wave.
Akane stares at him for a beat too long. Then slowly, she lowers herself to one knee, smoothing down her skirt. “Bye, Koji,” she replies, her voice quieter. “Thank you for coming.”
He smiles, just a little. She doesn’t hug him. But she brushes a piece of lint from his sleeve, like it’s the closest she knows how to get.
Next, he turns to Yamato. “Bye, Grandpa.”
Yamato grunts. “Be good, kid.”
Koji nods solemnly, then trots back to Satoru, who scoops him up with practiced ease. The tension hasn’t left the room, but the mood has shifted slightly, a tilt of something that might eventually become understanding. Or not. You don’t count on it.
Satoru looks over his shoulder. “We’ll be in touch.”
Akane nods once, lips pressed tight.
You don’t say anything else. The door closes behind you with a quiet click. As you walk down the hallway, Koji resting his head on Satoru’s shoulder, you murmur, “Thanks for not letting that go on any longer.”
He nods. “You looked like you were about two seconds away from throwing a glass at her.”
You snort, the sound small but real. “I still might.”
He holds open the front door. “Next time, we do neutral territory. Like a park. Or the moon.”
Koji yawns. “Only if there’s nuggets on the moon.”
You smile, despite it all. “We’ll make it happen.”
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Akane sits back quietly in her seat, eyes laser-focused on the door you two just left. Her husband rubs his face. “I swear, if it’s not me one day, it’s you. And you said I’m driving him away.”
Akane doesn’t respond immediately. Her gaze is still fixed on the door, her fingers tense around the armrest of the chair as though she’s trying to steady herself. Her jaw clenches, her silence a loud statement in the room. Yamato shakes his head, muttering under his breath as he leans back in his chair. “I’m getting too old for this.” He exhales heavily, rubbing his face with both hands, a look of both frustration and resignation settling on him. “Every damn time, Akane. Every time.”
Finally, Akane shifts slightly, her posture still stiff, but her eyes now narrowing as she shifts her eyes to her husband. “I don’t need your lectures right now, Yamato.”
“I’m not lecturing you, Akane,” he says, his voice sharp but tired. “I’m trying to understand where the hell we went wrong with him.”
Akane’s lips twist, the muscle in her cheek twitching slightly. “Where we went wrong? What about you? You think I don’t see how you’ve handled him? I’m not the only one pushing him away. He’s a grown man now, and he’s made his choices. Don’t you dare act like it’s all on me.”
Yamato’s eyes flick to the door again, his expression exasperated. “I don’t particularly favor either her or the boy, yes. But at least I can fake it in front of them. You preach how I’m ruining this family and how I care more about our legacy, but you’re the reason our son left our house angry, again.”
Akane’s gaze hardens as her husband’s words sink in, but she doesn’t respond right away. The silence between them thickens, heavy with the weight of old arguments and unspoken truths. Her fingers twitch tighter. Her posture remains rigid, every muscle seemingly on alert, and for a moment, Yamato wonders if she’s just waiting for the right moment to tear into him.
But instead, she takes a slow, deliberate breath, her voice quiet but icy when she finally speaks. “You want to talk about our son’s choices? Fine. But I’m not the one who hid behind his work, his pride, and a hundred excuses to avoid facing the truth.”
Yamato glares at her, the sharp edge of his frustration showing. “And what truth is that? That you’re right? That everything I’ve done to protect this family, to secure our future, was a mistake?”
Akane’s lips curl into a tight, bitter smile. “No. The truth is that we’ve been playing this game for too long, Yamato. For decades. You think Satoru’s leaving this house—this family—is his fault? You’ve built this perfect little empire on the backs of people like him, forcing them to believe they owe you everything. You taught him to put legacy before everything else, before loyalty, before love, before family.”
Her words cut deep, and Yamato feels his chest tighten. He leans forward, staring at his wife for a long, painful moment. “And what? You think you’ve been a perfect mother? You think you’ve done everything right? You think Satoru’s supposed to just bend to your every whim because you said so?” He scoffs bitterly. “You’ve been so busy trying to mold him into something he could never be. You haven’t seen him, Akane. Not really. You’re just as shitty as I am.”
Akane’s eyes flash with something, either anger or regret, or maybe both, but she’s quick to mask it with a calm veneer. “I’ve seen him. I’ve seen exactly who he is, and that’s what I’m trying to protect. This family doesn’t have the luxury of softness, Yamato. Not when it comes to survival.”
Yamato laughs, a hollow, humorless sound. “Survival? Is that what you think this is? You think we’re still fighting to survive?”
For a long moment, there’s nothing but the sound of their breathing filling the silence. It’s as if both are trying to hold on to the shards of a family that, in truth, has already splintered. Yamato’s gaze falls back on the door, his voice softer now, tinged with weariness. “I don’t know anymore, Akane. I don’t know what’s left of this family.” 
Akane’s expression softens, just slightly, but her voice remains firm. “Then maybe it’s time you figured it out.” She gets up and storms out the room. 
Yamato leans back in his chair, finally letting his eyes close for a moment, as though trying to block out the heavy weight of the conversation and everything that’s still left unsaid between them. 
God, can we just be a normal family for once?
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“He barely even let me come over to his parents.” Himari scoffs, teeth gritting. She’s leaned over the middle console from the back, eyes narrowed into slits as she watches the car housing her used-to-be-boyfriend, his annoying wrench of an ex, and some useless kid drive off. 
Haruka sits beside her, wearing a white fur coat and dramatic, huge sunglasses that cover her eyes. She nudges beside Himari’s side, causing the other woman to grumble, in an attempt to get a look herself before the car makes a turn. Emi sits in the passenger seat, while Kenji is in the driver’s seat. The tint of their blacked-out vehicle keeping their presence obscured from outside view. 
Himari huffs again, tapping her fingers impatiently against the window. “I don’t get it. He just let her waltz in and take over, like it was nothing. Like I wasn’t even there.”
Haruka, ever the faux composed figure she is, brushes a strand of hair out of her face and sighs dramatically. “Men are always like that, darling. So quick to give away what doesn’t belong to them.”
Emi leans forward, her voice laced with mild amusement. “It’s not just about what belongs to him. It’s about what she thinks she deserves. And she clearly thinks she deserves him.”
“So, what now?” Himari crosses her arms, looking at her parents, then at Haruka. “I’m confused how this old hag will help.”
“Huh?! What did you—”
“She’s here to reclaim her daughter and drag her out the clutches of Satoru, Himari.” Emi sighs, looking over her shoulder at her daughter. “Just ignore her, she’s only an accessory.” 
“Excuse me!—”
“Approach her again,” Kenji finally speaks, effectively quieting down the car. He lights a cigar. “His father has been sending a representative to meet with me instead of himself. Seems cowards run in the family.”
“And then what? What if she doesn’t help?” Himari argues back. 
“I can help,” Haruka starts, lip curled into a scowl. “I’m not a useless brat like you. God, your generation knows nothing of respect.”
“I respect people who are on my same level. You? You’re like my pair of 2016 Versace pumps.” She flips her hair back. 
“Oh, you little—”
“I have reinforcements. When the time is right,” he lets out a puff of smoke. “They’ll start playing too.”
Himari groans loudly, running her hands through her hair. 
Haruka glares at Himari, her lips tightening into a practiced, poisonous smile. “I see Emi’s been raising her like a spoiled show dog. Pretty enough, but all bark, no bite.”
Emi chuckles softly, her tone dismissive. “And yet she’s the one he was with until your daughter came crawling out of the shadows, looking for scraps.”
“Crawling?” Haruka lets out a bitter laugh, the fur collar of her coat brushing her jaw as she turns to face Emi more fully. “Please. She doesn’t crawl—he has to have come looking. Don’t confuse desperation with effort. If anything, your Himari was the warm-up act.”
Himari scoffs, insulted, but Kenji speaks before she can bite back again. “Enough,” he says, cold and unamused. “This isn’t a fashion spat at a luncheon. This is about leverage. And right now, we don’t have it.”
The silence that follows is tense, thick. Himari bites the inside of her cheek, her nails tapping faster now.
“What do you want me to do then?” she asks, frustrated. “Just wait around while she plays happy family with him? With that child?”
Emi snorts. “If you had done your job properly the first time, we wouldn’t be here. But now…” she tilts her head, a calculating gleam lurking in her eyes, “we take advantage of what she loves.”
“And what’s that?” Himari asks, venom on her tongue.
Kenji answers instead, calm and deliberate. “Her son.”
That shuts everyone up.
The silence hangs for a second too long, and then Emi, always the tactful one, breaks it with a smooth, almost bored, “You don’t touch the boy. You use the boy. It’s simple, really.” Haruka’s lips twist into a knowing smile. “Now that’s strategy.”
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“I’ll accept as low as 730,000 yen,” Mei-Mei cooly states, leaning back leisurely in her chair. Legs crossed with a coy smile. “Last time, you low-balled me a bit. And it ended up causing quite a stir. I’m sure this will be even double that, so the lowest is 730,000.”
Across from the table sits an older man. Tapping his cane against the ground, his wrinkled face set into a constant grim expression. His eyes so dark, they look like hollows in his face. Bushy white brow just barely lifting as he hears her offer. 
“Quite the offer for an audio tape,” Gakuganji expresses grimly. 
Mei Mei’s smile doesn’t falter. In fact, it grows just slightly, thin, polished, dangerous. “It’s not just an audio tape,” she purrs. “It’s leverage. Undeniable. Unedited. The kind of thing that makes people resign overnight, or mysteriously disappear.” She leans forward, fingers lacing together on the table, her voice lowering but still smooth as silk. “730,000 is the price of convenience. Of silence. And I’m being generous.”
Gakuganji’s tapping stops. His cane stills, and his knuckles tighten around the curved handle. “You’re young,” he says, voice dry as gravel. “Too bold for your own good.”
“And you’re old,” she replies sweetly. “Too used to being feared to realize when someone’s already won.”
A long beat passes before Gakuganji chuckles under his breath, no humor in the sound. “You’ll learn the consequences eventually.”
Mei Mei’s eyes narrow, her tone still velvet. “I already have. That’s why I charge before I hand things over. And besides, you’ll learn too, won’t you? Considering I’ve been doing your dirty work for you for a few months now.”
“My hands are not dirty, yours are.”
“And so are my ears.” She easily adds. “Unfortunately for you, I haven’t been able to ear-hustle on much. Other people with higher bids have my attention more than you and your mysterious vendetta against the Gojo Group.”
“It’s not mysterious.”
“Then why them?”
Gakuganji’s eyes glint, though his expression remains carved from stone. “Because they’ve forgotten what it means to answer to someone.”
Mei Mei hums, unimpressed, brushing invisible lint from her lap. “You mean you.”
“I mean structure,” he grits out. “Power has rules. Lineage has purpose. And Satoru Gojo—” he leans in, voice dropping to a growl, “—spits on both. Just like his father before him. Just like his mother did in silence.”
She tilts her head, amused now. “So this is about old grudges? Bloodlines and bruised egos?”
He says nothing. Mei Mei lets out a light, airy laugh, reclining again. “Fascinating. And here I thought it was about money. Or maybe land. You’re boring when it’s personal, Gakuganji.”
His knuckles twitch again around the cane. “When it’s personal, Mei Mei, it’s permanent.”
She smiles again, cold and brilliant. “Then you’ll have to pay extra for permanence. I’m not cheap, and I don’t do charity for bitter old men.”
“This is a necessary execution. They believe they are worth more than everyone else. Especially Yamato’s devil spawn. He disrupts balance itself. Privileged, spoiled rotten, wealthy, and unfortunately…very smooth talking. Everyone bends to his will just because of his name.” Gakuganji gruffs out.
She lets out a quiet, amused hum. “Necessary and personal usually go hand in hand, old man. I just like to know who’s paying for what. There’s always something more beneath the price tag.”
His lips curl in distaste. “And there’s always someone like you, digging for the bones after the war.”
She smiles again, dazzling and cold. “Better than dying in it. So.” She taps her manicured nail against the table. “730,000. Or I hand the audio to someone with less of a vendetta and more imagination.”
Gakuganji’s eye twitches.
“Fine,” he mutters.
Mei Mei holds out her hand. “Pleasure doing business with you. Again.”
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the crazy thing is that i’ll stfu rn if i had some of that fictional sex yall be writing on here
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