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there isn't any attack patterns to memorize w biyaya bc she just shoots entropy spells and hopes it lands 💔

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Tch, you're pretty good. But once I've memorized your attack pattern, we're making out sloppy style

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what super expensive indulgence would u get for urself if u suddenly came into a bunch of money?? assume all bills/mortgages paid, all friends helped: what treat are u buying just for u?? for me it would be a quilted lambskin chanel bag in iridescent pink

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idk where the shame came from of doing cliched romance came from especially for me but I love tropes and corny shit and it's something I fight thru always lmao it's why I'm so annoying w corny soft romance On Here it's me fighting shame w a switchblade

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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added bee and amihan to my artfight profile !!!

i have work tomorrow but i'll try to finish up the refs for the rest

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the workday/weekend ratio is so off. like ethically.

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I wanna fill out the profile card for art fight but I wanna add more ocs so I can have more in the featured ocs part fjfjfj

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Please support Nour @noor508/@noor509 and his family if you're able to, he is fundraising to rebuild his family's home and for survival expenses (his paypal link is below)

The organizer of Nour's campaign, Andrea, has documented the ways they have tried to fundraise for Nour and his family over on his blog @roadimusprime. Previously, Andrea ran a GoFundMe for Nour and the GoFundMe was shut down in November of 2024. Afterwards they switched over to fundraising through Paypal. Sending donations through the link below will be accepted to Andrea's bank account which will then be sent to Nour's friend via Western Union and then given to Nour (per @roadimusprime's pinned post here). Any updates can be found on Nour's and Andrea's blogs.

Nour has been previously vetted and evidence of that is here ( this is a webarchive link) and here (this is a tumblr post from @roadimusprime and others). Please support Nour and his family if you're able to.

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while I firmly believe davrin is never ever getting the calling bc he doesn't have the taint anymore :)

BUT IMAGINE

davrin gets the calling and doesn't tell biyaya bc he knows she'd bend herself backward to save him. she just finds a 50 page letter about their love

but ofc biyaya finds him somewhere in the deep roads and desperately tries to use her necromancy so he doesn't turn into a darkspawn :)

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biyaya having woodland fairy aesthetic vibes and also being a necromancer obsessed with beating death is funny to me

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OC as the Solar System

tagged by the wonderful @briannasroger @greypetrel and @viagosbrother ty so much!!

Rules: Bold what applies - italicize sometimes - strike out never. (Bonus): Color the ones that especially fit. Tag some friends to play along!

Biyaya Aldwir

SUN • egotistical • melted wax wings and fingers • stretching sunburnt skin • the most generous soul • blood in the fruit • halos • anger on fire • high vitality • thunderous laughter • is pride really a sin? • halogenic aura

MERCURY • expansion of the mind • silver-tongued • an everlasting wanderer • polyglot • high dexterity • handwritten letters • innately critical • en vogue • eyes in the trees • hidden libraries • there’s always room for improvement

VENUS • in love with strangers • iridescent waters • love potions for your mirror • selfless devotion • shattering crystal • seafoam upon sand • the golden ratio • drowning in your own passion • material value & high principles • luring • plush lips

EARTH • fresh springs • tree hugger • we can start again tomorrow• a blazing rainforest • respects survival of the fittest • nature’s adversity • lazy bones • constantly evolving • flowers sprouting from wounds• a granite altar • fossilized remains

MOON • illusory • silver shimmer off the ocean • secrets and gossip • cycles of reincarnation •a crybaby • physically ethereal • shared glances with a stranger • cat eyes •mistrusting their intuition • fear is a prison • ornate magic wands

MARS • healthy competition • attraction and repulsion • magma and rubies • a blade being forged • wrath wrath wrath • malefic • intense eye contact• cannon fodder & fireworks • blood floods • copper taste on your tongue

JUPITER • red robes and a suit of armor • beacon of stability •leader by birth• thunderbolts and lightning• guilty but can’t stop • secret rich kid• golden touch golden tears •innate optimist • failure isn’t an option •constantly reaching for more • unfinished symphonies

SATURN •traditional• overbearing energy • a sculptor of reality • this existence is a karmic one • has a heart it’s just.. way down deep • law, order & justice • avoid all necessary risk • the sound of shackles clanging• sisyphus’ struggle • grappling with the reality of time • self-governing

URANUS • psychedelic funk music • overflowing cups • a rebellion with skin • looking good in photo id • oblivious but caring • middle fingers in the air • double rainbows •icy diamond exterior • holographic• afraid of their own mediocrity • pearlescent smoke

NEPTUNE • an elegy for the lost • dissolving boundaries • white horses • the burden of mystical conditions• deceptive • escapism is their reality • a polarizing entity • artists soul • paranoia• searching for the unseen • a siren’s swan song

PLUTO • angel statues over graves • power • the cycle of necrosis • transformative • unfathomable depths • an ivory tower toppling over• screaming at the sky• violets and irises • eclipsed darkness • speaks with their shadow • sex, death, rebirth

tagging: @mythals-whore @cute-ellyna @megaeratheefury @grapecaseschoices @feeshies @gaysebastianvael @ordainedstillnessedstillness but no pressure <3

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I'm keeping an eye out for heat stroke in my area and I can't figure out what a full body flush would look like on dark skin since all the pictures are just fake training pictures. Anyone have video/pics of a heat stroke flush on black skin?

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should I add amihan to my art fight ocs

👉🏽👈🏽

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honestly as an arfid haver don't knock out the "tricks" parents use on kids to get them to eat veggies

it's easier for me to eat veggies vs fruits (most of my arfid is texture related) bc u can modify veggies. you can cook or prepare them in a way that can be edible for you

recently made pasta sauce where the carrots and celery got soft and basically mixed in the sauce so eating it w the tortellini was easy

I find I eat a good amount of veggies in hot pot so I've been thinking about blanching them in a nice broth

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also eating disorder cw

I can't go veggie bc I know it'll spiral me into an ed. the concept of limiting food almost always brings me to the brink of one so i have to be careful

the Best way I manage to eat balanced is to add a veggie where I can and eat fruit. like I want chicken nuggets? I make it then make mixed veggies on the side to make it balanced

I don't limit bc it's such a slippery slope for me