crazy that sam’s otherness was so integral to the plot in the early seasons. sammy’s a freak. sammy’s a little off. There’s Something A Bit Different about sammy. nondescript guy w blueberry shot. but then in the later seasons, dean is so fundamentally Othered and they just straight up. don’t go into it. dean doesn’t have a female soulmate in heaven bc reasons. dean wants to experience people & feelings Differently than he has before but we won’t go into it. dean’s own subconscious asks him ‘how come you only want what you can’t have?’: dean as a character is aware of his own otherness, but the narrative itself bends to ignore it. dean has to die on the rusty nail bc sam is the normal one now and dean wouldn’t fit the mold of 1 wife and 2.5 kids: that’s intrinsically not who he is anymore. dean winchester constantly toes the line of this spoken/unspoken Difference and the story ties itself into knots with this dichotomy of introducing and acknowledging it, but simultaneously avoiding its resolution. (the resolution being of course, that dean is queer and loves cas back). just. so interesting that we have this direct comparison of sam (otherness by design) vs dean (otherness by mistake). spn truly did the Most to avoid following the natural path of the narrative huh
dean would do soooooo well on riverdale he would fit right in. veronica would say something insane referencing an obscure hollywood actor from the forties in a sentence that loops back around twice and dean would go Finally. people who speak english
personally if i accidentally came out via gay joke at the fan convention i would not keep doing gay jokes at the fan convention. but misha foot in mouths georg who lives at the convention and makes over 10000 gay jokes a day....
please make sure that wherever you’re at in life, you don’t treat it like a transitory period. don’t waste your college years wishing to already be graduated & have a job. don’t waste your single years wishing for someone to be in love with. if/when those things come, they will come in due time and they will be good. but there is nothing like looking back and feeling empty because you wasted literal years ignoring what you had because you were hoping for something better. while it’s important to better yourself and reach for your goals, don’t neglect the present because that’s where you are now and it’s your now that determines your future.