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that kindled her, she lighted up

Lila's love for learning and Lila's love for people in her life are identical and come from the same place. This is rather unusual and she is consistently transformed into something either less or more than human for it. She is made out to be less than human when her love for people more closely resembles love one might have for an idea or a book or a city. She is made out to be more than human when her love for learning more closely resembles love for a person in its intensity, dedication and passion. Both of these things inspire a fascination that turns sour in others who in return want to make this part of Lila dissappear. It's only with Enzo that she gets to be this way, not only without having it be a bad thing, but also having it be something that she can share and enjoy in the presence of the other.

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Diving swans captured by Viktor Lyagushkin 

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it's incredibly transparent that mainstream reviewers of the neapolitan novels (my brilliant friend series by elena ferrante) explain the divide between lila and elena in terms of elena having discipline, yet lila was somehow just too unfocused, pessimistic, or chaotic to be able to achieve her goals. some of them cast lila as a villain that needs to be contained by elena in writing; both a cruel misreading of lila's character but also one that tries to make elena complicit in seeing her friend as the antagonist of their story, something I don't for a second believe.

liberal press seriously can't handle, is unable, to admit, that lila cerullo didn't go on to become a famous writer or else lift herself up by her bootstraps because her family didn't care and couldn't afford her education, so she was forced to stop after elementary school? her father throws her out of a window when she complains. the point wasn't that she wasn't crafty enough, it's that you can be crafty and brilliant and if the opportunities aren't available to you it doesn't matter. lila potentially could have become the big boss of her neighbourhood if she'd seriously wanted to, but she wasn't interested in gaining power by such illegitimate means, she wanted to be better.

elena was dedicated and worked incredibly hard, much harder than those who were more fortunate had to, certainly. but she was also lucky. various things converged for her in such a way that she was able to leave the poverty of her childhood and create a different life for herself, and this wasn't because she was somehow better or more capable than lila, or because lila had deficiencies of character. to seriously read it as though that was the case, as though this was what ferrante was trying to tell us, is a reading so obviously false and cynical that it's bizarre these people wouldn't feel shameful publishing it. fuck the working class, they're mostly just lazy and incapable, right? oh but elena's alright, she has nice manners.

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I wanted to give her back The Blue Fairy, show her my notebooks, page through them together, enjoy the teacher’s comments. But most of all I felt the need to have her sit beside me, to tell her, you see how connected we are, one in two, two in one, and prove to her with the rigor that it seemed to me I had learned in the Normale, with the philological persistence I had learned from Pietro, how her child’s book had put down deep roots in my mind and had, in the course of the years, produced another book, different, adult, mine, and yet inseparable from hers, from the fantasies that we had elaborated together in the courtyard of our games, she and I continuously formed, deformed, reformed. I wanted to embrace her, kiss her, and tell her, Lila, from now on, whatever happens to me or you, we mustn’t lose each other anymore. - The Story of a New Name

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all the funny screenshots I got from better call saul bloopers

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Some bcs screenshots, this show changed my life

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bcs art dump

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Red is like the memory of the setting sun

Leslie Cheung and the colour red

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why the line “yet i am by nature a boy, not a girl” lives rent free in my head

So I watched 霸王别姬/Farewell my Concubine (1993) and the scene that stuck with me the most was a young Douzi finally singing a line from the opera  Dreaming of the World Outside the Nunnery correctly. According to the subs the original line is “Yet I am by nature a girl, not a boy”. He repeatedly gets it wrong by saying “Yet I am by nature a boy, not a girl.” In my opinion. this ‘mistake’ is incredibly significant because when put in context, it shows how Dieyi and others perceive himself and most importantly, sums up his relationship with Duan Xiaolou.

cw: mentions of suicide

Also, spoilers for a 28 year old movie. 

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elena greco is like if im not paired with lila and constantly compared to her and if we aren’t seen as a duo by everyone i will lose all my motivation and drive i need to keep up with her at all costs or i’ll feel like dying i measure every one of my actions and decisions on her i feel there’s a part of her in me. btw im in love with nino sarratore because he knows how to read

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“We mothers stand still so our daughters can look back to see how far they've come”

Barbie (2023) dir. Greta Gerwig X My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante

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Elena Greco from My Brilliant Friend (2011)

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we may not know who Elena Ferrante is

but we can guess that she went through it with leftist fuckboys and is now seeking revenge

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Forgiveness

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Yeah you're right. It WOULD be pretty fucked up if you were a swan but you were raised by ducks and you grew up never seeing another swan or even knowing that such a thing as a swan even existed so you just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.

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ill never win an idgaf war love disarms me completely and im bleeding out