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Since there are 3600 seconds in an hour, and most people make less than $36.00/hr, their time is worth less than a penny per second. It’s literally worth your time to pick up a penny from the ground.

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You can help future generations in a zombie apocalypse by getting your remains cremated.

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Pick one favorite? But how!?

Pick Your Favorite Findings From Fermi’s First Decade

The Fermi Gamma-ray Space Telescope has been observing some of the most extreme objects and events in the universe — from supermassive black holes to merging neutron stars and thunderstorms — for 10 years. Fermi studies the cosmos using gamma rays, the highest-energy form of light, and has discovered thousands of new phenomena for scientists.

Here are a few of our favorite Fermi discoveries, pick your favorite in the first round of our “Fermi Science Playoff.” 

Colliding Neutron Stars

In 2017, Fermi detected a gamma ray burst at nearly the same moment ground observatories detected gravitational waves from two merging neutron stars. This was the first time light and ripples in space-time were detected from the same source.

The Sun and Moon in Gamma Rays

In 2016, Fermi showed the Moon is brighter in gamma rays than the Sun. Because the Moon doesn’t have a magnetic field, the surface is constantly pelted from all directions by cosmic rays. These produce gamma rays when they run into other particles, causing a full-Moon gamma-ray glow.

Record Rare from a Blazar

The supermassive black hole at the center of the galaxy 3C 279 weighs a billion times the mass of our Sun. In June 2015, this blazar became the brightest gamma-ray source in the sky due to a record-setting flare.

The First Gamma-Ray Pulsar in Another Galaxy

In 2015, for the first time, Fermi discovered a gamma-ray pulsar, a kind of rapidly spinning superdense star, in a galaxy outside our own. The object, located on the outskirts of the Tarantula Nebula, also set the record for the most luminous gamma-ray pulsar we’ve seen so far.

A Gamma-Ray Cycle in Another Galaxy

Many galaxies, including our own, have black holes at their centers. In active galaxies, dust and gas fall into and “feed” the black hole, releasing light and heat. In 2015 for the first time, scientists using Fermi data found hints that a galaxy called PG 1553+113 has a years-long gamma-ray emission cycle. They’re not sure what causes this cycle, but one exciting possibility is that the galaxy has a second supermassive black hole that causes periodic changes in what the first is eating.

Gamma Rays from Novae

A nova is a fairly common, short-lived kind of explosion on the surface of a white dwarf, a type of compact star not much larger than Earth. In 2014, Fermi observed several novae and found that they almost always produce gamma-rays, giving scientists a new type of source to explore further with the telescope.

A Record-Setting Cosmic Blast

Gamma-ray bursts are the most luminous explosions in the universe. In 2013, Fermi spotted the brightest burst it’s seen so far in the constellation Leo. In the first three seconds alone, the burst, called GRB 130427A, was brighter than any other burst seen before it. This record has yet to be shattered.

Cosmic Rays from Supernova Leftovers

Cosmic rays are particles that travel across the cosmos at nearly the speed of light. They are hard to track back to their source because they veer off course every time they encounter a magnetic field. In 2013, Fermi showed that these particles reach their incredible speed in the shockwaves of supernova remains — a theory proposed in 1949 by the satellite’s namesake, the Italian-American physicist Enrico Fermi.

Discovery of a Transformer Pulsar

In 2013, the pulsar in a binary star system called AY Sextanis switched from radio emissions to high-energy gamma rays. Scientists think the change reflects erratic interaction between the two stars in the binary.

Gamma-Ray Measurement of a Gravitational Lens

A gravitational lens is a kind of natural cosmic telescope that occurs when a massive object in space bends and amplifies light from another, more distant object. In 2012, Fermi used gamma rays to observe a spiral galaxy 4.03 billion light-years away bending light coming from a source 4.35 billion light-years away.

New Limits on Dark Matter

We can directly observe only 20 percent of the matter in the universe. The rest is invisible to telescopes and is called dark matter — and we’re not quite sure what it is. In 2012, Fermi helped place new limits on the properties of dark matter, essentially narrowing the field of possible particles that can describe what dark matter is.

‘Superflares’ in the Crab Nebula

The Crab Nebula supernova remnant is one of the most-studied targets in the sky — we’ve been looking at it for almost a thousand years! In 2011, Fermi saw it erupt in a flare five times more powerful than any previously seen from the object. Scientists calculate the electrons in this eruption are 100 times more energetic than what we can achieve with particle accelerators on Earth.

Thunderstorms Hurling Antimatter into Space

Terrestrial gamma-ray flashes are created by thunderstorms. In 2011, Fermi scientists announced the satellite had detected beams of antimatter above thunderstorms, which they think are a byproduct of gamma-ray flashes.

Giant Gamma-Ray Bubbles in the Milky Way

Using data from Fermi in 2010, scientists discovered a pair of “bubbles” emerging from above and below the Milky Way. These enormous bubbles are half the length of the Milky Way and were probably created by our galaxy’s supermassive black hole only a few million years ago.

Hint of Starquakes in a Magnetar

Neutron stars have magnetic fields trillions of times stronger than Earth’s. Magnetars are neutron stars with magnetic fields 1,000 times stronger still. In 2009, Fermi saw a storm of gamma-ray bursts from a magnetar called SGR J1550-5418, which scientists think were related to seismic waves rippling across its surface.

A Dark Pulsar

We observe many pulsars using radio waves, visible light or X-rays. In 2008, Fermi found the first gamma-ray only pulsar in a supernova remnant called CTA 1. We think that the “beam” of gamma rays we see from CTA 1 is much wider than the beam of other types of light from that pulsar. Those other beams never sweep across our vision — only the gamma-rays.

Have a favorite Fermi discovery or want to learn more? Cast your vote in the first of four rounds of the Fermi Science Playoff to help rank Fermi’s findings. Or follow along as we celebrate the mission all year.

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The fact that our organs which work 24/7 have such low failure rate is underappreciated.

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Choice

I can’t even choose myself But I want you to choose me.

And it fucking sucks, because I know you won’t. Its okay.

But I am not okay

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The various poles of some of our solar system’s planets.

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(Hardly) A lady in waiting

I'm so quick to help others. I wonder when I will finally help myself.

Help myself find me. Find what I want. Find what I need. Find what I need to get to what I want. Find some sort of purpose.

I think I'm here to help. I get joy and satisfaction out of it. But after that, what is there? No desire to take care of myself. No desire to take care of my surroundings. No desire. I want to find something that inspires me to take care of myself and the things I surround myself with.

I want a reason to be.

And everyone says, "Oh but you'll find that within yourself." Bullshit! There is nothing! Don't you think I've looked?

Happiness is supposed to be a state of being, not a fleeing sensation. I want to be happy. I don't want to enjoy a sparse moment here, maybe a few hours there, or even a few days in a row. I want to be genuinely happy. I want satisfaction.

I'm tired of wondering and questioning. I need to reach conclusion with confidence.

I don't need strict scheduling. I need a little more structure than calamity provides.

It's always easier to identify what I don't want, or what I don't like, or what I think I don't need.

Maybe I just need to know more about myself. But how do I learn about myself if there's nothing there to learn about? Fuck, there's always a catch!

I guess I'll keep waiting for something to come along. But I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

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How Does Ni work?

This is how I experience Ni, and how I observed it in Ni users I know.  Listening is hard I will often stop listening because the subject made me think about something else (something more interesting), then this new idea will lead me to another one, then another… In a few seconds, I’ll be far away in my head and will sometimes say things that’ll look totally random. I can also get enthusiastic and jump to a new subject, middle-sentence, because I got a new (better) idea to talk about (which can be annoying to other people). And having to pay attention to uninteresting things is intellectually painful because I have to make the effort to not drift away in my mind. Thinking about everything, all the time Our thought process is not straightforward unless we’re working on it to be that way (with Te’s help, for example, to get something done). We’re not thinking about a few things: we’re thinking about everything at once. Picture a black hole: no idea can escape; we think them all. It might seem to other people that we only have good ideas, or that we can’t have many ideas, because we’ll express only the best of them. We can’t trust an idea unless we’re sure we can’t think a better one. Paralysis How do you know you made the best choice? How can you be sure your idea is the best? You can’t. You don’t know. This can get us stuck. Sometimes, we miss opportunities by hesitating too long. We have to rely on our other functions to move, to do something. And we have to trust ourselves.  Hello, intensity, my old friend. Ni is deep. Sometimes, a bit heavy. It makes us drawn to intellectual things, art with a great meaning, talking about what moves people (love, their interests, hard things they experienced, things that changed them…), books on various topics… I often won’t think someone is my friend if we don’t share something special. If you’re just a body to spend time with and have fun, that’s nice, but I won’t be your friend unless I’m sure I deeply know you. Turn it off, please! Ni is all about wisdom, blah blah… I wish I could turn my brain off sometimes. I try to, mostly through my inferior Se: eating, drinking, singing (I sing so much)… I’ll watch stupid movies to give myself a break and laugh about silly things. I often avoid so-called intelligent movies because most of them fail to both amaze me and amuse me. And I’ll almost never miss a chance at watching something creative or weird. Creativity Ni needs to find the best ideas, or the best plans. The way to get to that is through creativity. Sometimes, the perfect way to go is an old, overused one, and it’s ok. I won’t try something for the sake of it being new if there is a less fun but more intelligent way. Most Ni-people I know are into arts or writing, or both. Personal arts and writing projects give Ni all the freedom it needs to fully bloom and it feels so nice.

Dedication and precision for the right things If something is not interesting, I can’t go on for a long time unless I think it’s worth the effort. I also noticed, from me and also from Ni-aux users, that for a thing to be considered as done, it doesn’t have to be flawlessly done if it’s not important (chores, meaningless work…) but some other things won’t be remotely okay to us unless they are perfectly done.

Humor I’ve been told by many people I should think about pursuing a career as a stand-up comic, but many people also don’t get my jokes at all. My INTJ friends told me that they often get taken seriously when joking, and that people can’t tell when they’re being sarcastic (so they just look like they are pretty mean or especially stupid). Both of them amaze me with how they can push the smallest thing into the most epic long-lasting joke, making fun links between things. (And watch up for self-depreciating humor from INTJs. We love that.)

Strange memory I absorb information all the time. Ni collects knowledge and, later, fishes out what is useful. Sometimes, I don’t even know how I know something. I just do - because I read about it years ago or because I made links from another bit of knowledge. I’m also the kind of person to forget whole days or conversations if they were not meaningful. I often refer to my memory as impressionist. I have many blurry memories from which I keep the overall feeling and no detail.

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Recent reoccurring thoughts

Tired of feeling like every decision I make is a mistake. I know I can't make everyone happy. I want to make myself happy. Is that too much? I just want to be enough.

Enough for myself.

Enough for myself would be more than enough for anyone else.

What is like to live a life that without questioning or second-guessing everything you say, do, feel, and think?

I have so little confidence in myself and my ability to function properly.

Where did I go? How do I come back?

Is it worth it to come back? Is it worth it to try?

Am I worth it(anything)? That should be something I can answer for myself. I don't enjoy looking to others for validation.

I want to feel that happiness is not a fleeting moment but a constant.

I can't fake anything forever.

How many more "down" days do I have to get through before I reach those "up" days?

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Duality

In the same breath, I am both the fool and the intellect. In the same body, I am both the masculine and the feminine. In the same heart, I am both the malignant and benign. In the same mind, I am both the impulsive child and the cautious adult. I am all. I am none. I am both.

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I'm right here

You can always ask me. More often than not I'm going to say yes. But you never ask me, so how would you know? I'm right here. I always have been. But I might not always be.

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I have a great bitterness towards Father’s Day. I do my best to remain silent over social media and oblivious in person. I try not to rain on anyone’s parade. A lot people I went to high school with are celebrating their firsts this year.

But while everyone is busy praising the picture-perfect father, the dad that “isn’t perfect, but is perfect for me,” or the daddy that has long since passed away and is now well missed, I can’t keep my mind from wondering. I wonder things like, “Do I miss my dad?” More often as of late my thoughts probe the emotional outcome of discovering the passing of my dad. Will I care? Will I be moved to tears? Will those tears be tinged with sadness or maybe bitterness? Or will they somehow be sweetened with happiness?

Terrible, right? That I should think about the death of a parent and wonder if I should feel relief or happiness. 

Given the option, my dad chose someone else’s family over his. He chose another family with a woman who had no business around young children or those entering their pre-teenage years. He chose another family with kids that were already grown and on their own. A family that had already been through the tough growing stuff. One that didn’t require him to parent. One that didn’t require comfort in the middle of the night from a bad dream. One never meant dealing with a sick child. One that never had stumble through “the talk”. One that never needed help learning how to tie shoes, or help with that math homework that only he could do. He chose the easy way out.

He got to pass go, skip the hardship, and go straight to awful family Christmas photos with matching sweaters and dogs I was never allowed to have during my limited time with him.

And it hurt me. I still remember putting everything together in the bottom bunk of my bed. And how I tried to find the piece I was missing because surely my daddy doesn’t not love me.

But he confirmed the hurt. He told me that it was my fault that I had a hard time with his wife. Phones work both way. He’s a busy man, so I need to call him if I want something. I can attract more flies with honey than vinegar, he’d tell me. I was informed that if I wanted time, attention, birthday calls or cards, then I should be offering them first.

I never figured out how to get across to him that I didn’t want to attract flies. I just wanted a little of his attention and the smallest bit of genuine affection.  I tried to understand. I tried to be patient. I felt that I shouldn’t have to work so damn hard to get the time and attention I wanted from my parent. 

So, my last half-hearted (but fully sarcastic, as by this time I was bitterly aware that I would not get what I knew I needed) ploy for anything from him was a Father’s Day gift. “What do I get for the man that has everything?” He was well off; I was too young to have a job. That meant my mom would be the one actually purchasing a gift for the man that she watched willfully neglect what he helped create. I settled on dish towels. He had a million ties already and never wore the ones I picked anyway. I figured a dish towel was something that everyone needed. You see, he and his wife were settling into their new home. The home my family began with was being packed up and left behind, just like me. But a dish towel is always useful for one thing or another.

The towels I found were in a pack of four. They were beige with brown trim. I found them at JC Penny. I was genuinely excited for some reason. I guess I thought that maybe if I got him something useful for every day life then perhaps I wouldn’t be so easily forgotten? When he opened his gift, he scoffed. The tone he used betrayed his lack of amusement as he pulled the still attached dish towels from the bag, “Dish towels?”

 “Well yeah, I figure everyone needs them, you have plenty of ties, and I thought these could maybe match your new kitchen.”

That was it. After that we only spoke when it was absolutely unavoidable.

I try very hard not to be outwardly bitter. I have tried for many years to convince myself that I was better off without. I was overly optimistic and tried very hard to make sure no one knew how much I hurt. But the hurt was there. The hurt is still there. I don’t know what to do with it anymore. So I just let it be in the back part of my mind. Aloof in all of the memories and information in my mind there is always this remnant of a much larger pain. Every Father’s Day it gets brought to the forefront of my mind and I find myself frantically trying to relive memories and think of what I could have done to make things better.

I know wallowing in the past doesn’t help your present or future self. I get angry with myself when the flood of memories flashes through the theater of my mind. My anger manifests itself into hot tears. Through the tears the anger brings me to the sad and hurt little girl I was when I realized that the love I had for my father was not, in any way, returned for me.

Just once a year, I try very hard to be oblivious to myself. I try very hard to forget the struggle to encompass and understand what I experienced in the development of youth. I never forget, and I have yet to get through this day of appreciation without the bitterness raging through me.

So when I find myself wondering about whether or not I miss my dad, there’s usually a resounding “NO WAY!” This is the stubborn wall of prideful protection I built in his wake talking, of course. I miss the idea of what my dad should have been. I cannot deny that. But when I think about what I will feel when I find out he has died, I can’t help but think that it might offer me some relief in that I could properly grieve someone that left my life too soon.

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You can’t force people to appreciate you.

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I don't see why I should be sorry because you chose to get your feelings hurt. You asked; I answered. I didn't utter a word with the purpose to harm. You decided to receive it that way. And I am still not sorry.

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This has made my day. I never knew this was a thing and I am so glad it is!

Hey sis! Speaking of Sailor Moon music, my favourite is absolutely "Triple Dreams '98" and I am SO MAD it was never in the anime ;___; (Although I'm not sure how they would fit it in?) Do you like that one?

That song is still fire to this day.

Sadly, there are a lot of amazing Sailor Moon songs that were never in the anime and because of that a lot of Sailor Moon fans don’t know about them.

If you haven’t you need to check out the SeraMyu (Sailor Moon musicals) because they’re epic and have some iconic bops.

Forever bopping to La Soldier until I pass out.

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*sings full house intro* we're all in this togetherrrr :)

Mental Health: The Data

Hey, Tumblr! We hope the week two prompts for Mental Health Month are treating you well. In the spirit of the theme, posting it for each other, we wanted to celebrate one of the most helpful communities out there: yours. You’ve helped shape Tumblr into an incredible community for support. To take a look into exactly how it’s flourished over the years, we teamed up with Fandometrics (@thefandometrics) to bring you some sweet, sweet data.

How you talk about mental health

Discussion around #mental health has steadily grown year over year since 2013, with a 248% uptick of original posts and reblogs made between 2013 and 2016. In that same time span, original posts and reblogs about #therapy increased 29%. Much of that conversation was rooted in real people sharing real stories. Emotional and honest stories, like how therapy can help you better understand your life, how to say good-bye to the wrong therapist, or the difficulty of making the sometimes daunting decision to begin therapy for the first time.

There has also been a significant rise in people seeking ways to take care of themselves. The self-care movement has seen huge increases in searches (733%) and original posts (567%) between 2013 and 2016. Over the past six months, we’ve seen total engagement (searches, original posts, reblogs, and likes) around the #self-care tag spike with correlations to holidays and events in the news:

240% increase the day after the US Presidential Election

321% in the days following Christmas and Hanukkah

561% in the days leading up to the Inauguration, and

342% in the days following Valentine’s Day.

Anatomy of a post

To get a better understanding of what the public-facing conversations consist of, we looked at the top posts for the #mental health, #positivity, and #self-care tags from the past few years. We noticed a few trends that continued to appear over and over again:

Masterposts, a one-stop shop of information on topics like learning new hobbies, treating yourself on a budget, and resources for different mental health issues continually pop up in these tags.

Doodles like @thelatestkate’s positive messages illustrated with cats or @gemmacorrell’s Self Care Reward Stickers are a Tumblr favorite. There’s also been a neato collaborative trend where someone doodles a text post made by someone else,  like this art of living by cat principles, by @bisexualpiratequeen and @skunkaru.

Text Art like @sexioto’s reminder to take your meds and @peytonfulford’s message of more self love turn the text itself into art. In the mental health space, text art most frequently comes in the form of reminders, like to stay hydrated and to make yourself a priority.

Make your dash more positive

Because this is all about posting it for each other, here are a few great blogs to make your Tumblr experience more positive and healthy:

Positive Vibes (@posiviibes) provides positive and friendly text art in soothing colors.

LGBT+ Positivity (@goodpositivitylgbt) focuses on messages of positivity and validation for the LGBT+/MOGAI community.

Why Did You Feel Proud Today? (@todayifeltproud), a space to submit your accomplishments, big and small.

For more follow inspiration, check out our roundup from last week. We’ll be posting more each Friday this month. Keep sharing your stories, Tumblr, this month and every month.