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“If every time you were picked, and thought you would be loved only to be left, would you not develop thorns too?”-petra amoako #succitup #emocactus #succulents (Not going through anything. I just think the quote is perfect for the pic. Hahaha!) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoEKfedB-2b/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1rcotmuf3ffrb

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I don’t know what I was thinking, dipped my toes and, now I’m sinking.

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STORY TIME!!!

So this was my blog before I forgot my password to my old tumblr account. Ugh. Major update: The boy is now engaged to the girl he was courting. They will be married in two years time. His friend, another boy basically like him but leaning more to the bad boy side in the bad-boy-meter acts the same way he did with me. To be continued in another post as I am currently swamped with review stuff for my upcoming exam. This has another level of love-hate relationship to it considering that I am now 27. 😊

So there's this boy I wanna punch on the face! ლ(｀ー´ლ)

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So there’s this boy. 

He teases me every time, makes me laugh with his jokes, annoys me every now and then, bullies me until my patience drains out, but after that, he would also be the one to make me smile.

We got lots of inside jokes and weird names for each other. So when we talk, we got our friends puzzled. They never understood why we could just laugh and talk about random things and we can go on forever. It’s like everyone else don’t matter, like we have a world of our own.

Our friends often wonder if there’s something going on between us. But every time, it would always be a “we’re just friends!!!” answer from me.

We like the same band, same kind of music–country, alternative rock and the likes. He often sends me songs, love songs. They’re cute actually. He tells me to listen to this artist, listen to this and that, memorize this song., listen to them and let him know what I feel about them.

With him, I can be carefree and happy. It’s always been that easy until more and more people around us were saying “ You look perfect together. There’s gotta be something, right?” But we just laugh it all off.

A friend of his once told me that the reason why he treats me that way is that he has a crush on me but of course i wouldn’t believe that. How was that even possible? I’m the “T-shirt, blue jeans, sneakers” kind of girl, girl-next-door, plain and simple.

But I do remember one time during a class presentation, when I had to play a princess role, of course I had to put make up on and dress appropriately and all that. That was the MOST AWKWARD FEELING I had in the world! He was sitting in the front row together with his group while our group’s in the second row. He was on a seat directly in front of me and all the while he was staring at me. He told me he’s never seen me like that.

Just like what it’s always been, I thought he was acting all silly and bullying me once again. I was punching his arm like I always do when I know he’s joking about me. But that day, he just kept on telling me that I’m beautiful. Nothing else. He kept on smiling and that made it all more awkward. (｡◕‿◕｡)

Sometimes i do think about what other people say and about the possibilities but i never really thought about it seriously. Then just one day i knew, he’s been courting this girl, and when i saw them together, it hit me. I had feelings for him all along. (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

Despite that, nothing has changed. He still treats me the same, being funny and silly to me, even if the girl he now likes is around. Sometimes, he’s even hanging out more with me than he does with her. Though they’re not yet together, it’s kinda awkward to still be that close to him. I don’t want these feelings to grow. I wanna forget about him. Totally seclude my self from him ‘cause I know now,    me-and-him is never going to happen. (╬ ಠ_ಠ)

Until now, our friends would tell me how obvious it is that he likes me. But I would never be able to tell it’s true with the way things are turning out, with the way he’s acting.

Like all this time, he leads me on when actually he has already this girl who’s perfect for him. If I tell him how I feel, it would just complicate things more. Now I don’t know where my place is!

I tried to stop talking to him, always avoiding him in class but he would always be there to bug me. I don’t know what to do.

Whenever I see him with her, I just smile, ʘ‿ʘ 

but the truth is

I wanna cry and punch him on the face!!! ლ(｀ー´ლ)

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Rant#1

Catching feelings should be on 1000 ways to die.