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Me: I need to lose weight

Anyone:

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When you join a tumblr community to be an edgy 16 year old but now you’re an adult with an eating disorder

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Fucking goals

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F A I L U R E

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maybe this is as good as it gets

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Miley Cyrus Thinspo

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being cold all the time, hair falling out, extreme self hatred, shitting my brains out, lying to everyone i love, having no energy, battling suicidal thoughts 24/7, sobbing when i eat over 2500 cals, worrying what’s in the food my friends gave me, secretly looking up cals, paranoia about food, purging in secret, nausea from foods i’ve previously purged 

eating disorders are not p r e t t y 

eating disorders are painful and traumatic

if i see one more “pro ana” thinspo bitch i will SCREAM because I haven’t suffered for this long to see this shit romanticized p e r i o d

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Collarbone/shoulder check at work. 15/12-19.

Why does my hand look like that lmfao

Anyway

I feel like shit

Had porridge for breakfast today so I ain’t eating for the rest of it :-)

Thanks for checking in!

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More!

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Logic

Me: “Hehe! I love food!”

Anorexia: “Yeah, they can tell.”

Depression: “They don’t care enough to notice you’re faking it.”

Anxiety: “What if they see you throw it away?”

Logic: “Do you think maybe you’d feel better if you were actually honest about this and tried to get professional help?”

Me: “SkInNi”

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Reblog if you stay awake at night and think of all the ways you fucked up your life.

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@beaconvibbe

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