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Question

is ouroboros sad?

is he meant to be a cautionary tale

or is he utterly content eating himself

joining self with self

self absorbing self

being self absorbed gets a bad wrap

no one ever thinks of ouroboros

being more one than any one one could be

should i feel guilty for eating my own tail?

foolish?

i want to indulge in myself until my self has absorbed into formlessness

shapelessness selflessness oneness

is this the cautionary tale?

or tail…

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i love you more than your lovers

past and future

i love you more when you tie your hair up in those two long braids and i love you even more when you wear it down

i wish i could be it as it lays softly on your shoulders, curling up against your skin like a loving, docile creature

beautiful and powerful but tamed only by you

i wish i could be a physical part of you

so i would always have an excuse to be in your presence

attached to you

an extension of you

to be deeply rooted inside of you yet still able to reach out and caress…

those eyebrows,

that powerful beautiful nose,

your lips, your throat, your chest

im wrapping around your skull, slowly creeping down your back…

down towards your waist

down

down

down

i love it when you wear me down.

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She grow tired

slips between the margins

surely she’ll go home with me

maybe that’s all she needed

to feel included

maybe that’s all she needed

somebody give her a pen

i want to be that somebody who listens

all she ever needed.

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Count the seconds as I take my hands off the steering wheel

that’s how it feels to be with you

i’m in your arms, our lives in my hands

i could die from the pressure

maybe even crush under it

especially with the weight of everything i’ve ever done wrong weighing down the weight of the entire world

we’re all sinking now

falling through space

if only i could stand to be in yours

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are you like this when you’re with them? this buoyancy barely keeping my head above sea

this light that shines through the places where i am hollow

do you shine for them

and will you love them more because their ship is not sinking and with you,

your buoyancy, and your levity they will do so much more than not drown

together

you will sail

i

will learn to swim

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i lay on my bed

the ghost of my bed with the ghost of my past

she would argue that she is very much alive but i feel different

a change only death could emit

nobody has died but afraid i am so..

i continue to sleep with a ghost.

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always been a beaver/something like a jack kerouac/walk on by jim beam/don’t tread on me/probably shouldn’t say anything/old uncle sam can’t keep secrets/neither can i/ but promises?//lets see.

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May.02.2025

gnarly blackout after this set

i remember…

getting fuzzy at the edges on the floor after the bar

human figures towering&stepping over me

naked.

cold hard bathroom floor

fetal position in the corner

fresh clothes

reprieve

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draft 2

i’m at the ends of my trip as i stare into darkness and see numbers and letters  running down, running down i’m half way through this horrible yet splendid acid trip  the Mexican girl laughs sardonically at the corner of my bed and explains to me the extents of her abilities and i realize that this is my master piece and now i know i am not alone the Mexican girl  leaves an eerie taste of love in my mouth and she begins to remind me of night in her elegant yet mysterious ways she guides me through the night keeping me safe  her love her love that she leaves in my mouth has a fleeting sense  but do not worry my child for this feeling is fleeting like night because in night there is comfort  comfort that she will come again

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Beautiful sky in morning or night …I don't know

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It's been a long day,time to relax and renew.Play time later.