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we're on the vector train

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marseille i love u

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#mine

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i really let the feeling of loneliness ruin my days, i need to learn how to live with it

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little piece i wrote on my favourite film ever, book coming soon !!!

Fish Tank and the Feminine Consciousness

Andrea Arnold’s 2009, Bafta winning film Fish Tank was an important release for the highly-male dominated, “boys club” of kitchen sink dramas. Arnold portraits the female experience of being trapped within a broken Britain, like swimming in a fish tank, and the unerdlying desperation to escape. Her heroine Mia, a volatile, angry and sharp witted 15-year-old, living on a council estate in Essex with her neglectfully deranged Mother and foul-mouthed little sister, looks to hip-hop dancing as an outlet for her energy. Constantly finding herself in trouble with the authorities, fighting with her friends and falling for her Mum’s boyfriend, Mia becomes trapped in the loneliness of girlhood.

Arnold focuses on women’s struggles for survival in impoverished urban environments and the sheer vulnerability lower-class women and girls are to abuse, by either people or the state. Mia serving as a powerful example of a young girl shaped and often defined by her environment. The presence and actions of women in Mia’s life contribute a sense of entrapment and limited options, the lack of interest and understanding by her Mother signals a sad trajectory for Mia, indicating a generational struggle of finding stability and self-worth.

Caught in a liminal space between childhood and adulthood, we witness how emotional neglect and fleeting social connections have shaped Mia into an outcast. Becoming aware of their femininity, her friends begin to steer towards sexual dancing, exposed skin and a male audience. This shift in their consciousness further alienates Mia, refusing to conform to the developing awareness of gendered norms and what is expected of her as a girl, she violently resists by breaking one of the girls’ noses and shouting “if you want some f**king more you know where I am”. Iconic in its rawness this moment represents the psychological split between belonging and independence, a core aspect of forming a feminine self-awareness under the constraints of patriarchy and class.

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i really need to just let life take lead and stop trying to control everything...whatever is meant for me will be

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good morning

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i wanttttt

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da girlies

shot by me

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back w the school bully

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120 supremacy

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50 rolls of film and a road trip across america is something i can't stop thinking about

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after da clurbbbb

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