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kill the imposter syndrome in your head because not only is there someone out there doing it worse than you, they’re also using chat gpt to do it

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that chef in The Menu must have had the most fucked up little rat controlling him

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lol i tricked you i actually have no soul or interiority. my actions are merely a hollow imitation of a complete being. and you totally fell for it too

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girl i don’t know how to say this. that’s not a found family that’s a platoon of child soldiers.

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when u like a character for their potential to be interesting and complex more than how they’re actually written

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very busy. i have to pace in circles for 6 hours. you understand

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[said very pleasantly] i see you have mischaracterised my blorbo. that's okay. that's fine. everyone interprets things differently. i'm exploding you in my mind with the power of 9754685 suns btw

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Okay, now that I've sat on 5.3 for a few days, I've changed my mind about Mauvika. ✨ Spoilers! ✨

So, admittedly, I wasn't that into Mauvika as a character. Sure she's cool and I adore the fire hair design and voice acting but I found her rather dull. It doesn't help we meet her after she's already gotten the acclaim and respect as the Archon. So much of her is wrapped up in the Pyro Archon role, and being very good at it and that's kind of it.

But maybe that's the point.

As seen before she almost hands herself over to Ronova, she fully states she can't afford to care about her wants as Mauvika the person. She's so intertwined with the Pyro Archon role and the responsibility of that carries to the point she's willing to sacrifice her life twice.

And then we all remember Il Capitano negating that but now what?

The ley lines are saved. Natlan is saved. Their people retain themselves without the heavy costs of the other options. A sacrifice was made and Mauvika is still alive.

What must that be like? To never consider a future for herself but only the inevitable end and sacrifice? To get that peaceful Natlan she resigned herself to never see but was fully willing to die for? Will she feel lost in that quiet way? Will she try to bury herself back into the Pyro Archon role for as long as she can until the next one comes along?

Finally, Mauvika's future is open to her.

Will Mauvika finally allow herself to want? To dream?

Also, someone hit me, I'm suffering over the Mauvika and Il Capitano parallels because LOOK, THEY'RE BOTH TWO PEOPLE WHO SUFFERED AND ENDURED UNDER THEIR RESPECTIVE DUTIES WILLINGLY AND NOW SHE GETS TO BE A PERSON AGAIN. SHE GETS THE CHANCE HE NEVER DID.

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i'll do it for sam

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I have One (1) fear and it's playable Skirk being utterly demeaning in her treatment of Childe.

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manipulating him monday torturing him tuesday psychologically abusing him wednesday feeding into his addictions thursday killing him friday

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i wonder what it's like to be emotionally stable. anyways [thinks about fictional character to survive] i am fine

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sometimes the best writing advice is "just let it be bad." revolutionary. terrifying. but it works.

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"undoing this character's death would take away his sacrifice and character arc" girl I don't give a shit. I'm bringing him back through the power of ao3 fix-it fics and there's nothing you can do to stop me x

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reading my own fics as a reference for a new wip and squinting at it like "how the hell did I do that"