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How’d you get this video of me bff?

(I’m neither Jiwoong nor Seobin)

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I can't stop thinking about Jeno's arms

And neither can Jeno himself!

He thinks about the strength difference you guys have at least twice a day.

You know that and hence riling him gets you exactly what you want during sexy times.

“Come on, is that all you got? I can barely feel you” you’d mock, though you were hardly containing your loud moans.

Jeno would practically growl as he wraps both his arms around your stomach to hoist you up during sex.

He’d grunt in your ear urgently, “Can you fucking feel me now?”

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OOMF ARE YOU ALIVE AND WELL

Hi bestie…yes i am still alive (as of yet). Lmao jk. Thanks for asking.

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I love your blog

aw thank you so much! 💕

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𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘻 𝘪'𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 | tbz x m!r

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"no kevin"

"yes kevin"

these two phrases pretty much sum up all the times you and i quarreled over your questionable doings. i used to pout then, but trust me, your playful demeanor was so endearing to me.

as was the way your lips were so plush and pink, they had me wondering what they'd feel like against mine. but, back then, i was a coward.

you were so open with your feelings for me, yet i could never reciprocate. when i was with you, my mouth always hurt from being stretched too wide. no, not the dirty way, though i wish that was the case so bad. my mouth hurt because you made me laugh constantly.

i didn't let you in when you first approached me as the new neighbor. you were a ball of sunshine, so the dark clouds in me distanced my conscience from you as much as they could.

but weirdly, you didn't give a single fuck about the subtle hints to stay away. i guessed the neighborhood did not tell you i was a newly ruined widower. someone who had been killed several times over and resurrected, only to be bestowed with unbearable heartache again the next day.

the cheerful 'good morning's, and 'hey, you wanna watch a movie together?'  never ceased from your end. you were persistent. and i, despite knowing better, prone to charms like yours.

and so it began, the most chaotic, teenage dream relationship i've had so far. you were the perfect friend to gossip and vent to, the perfect bestie to go shopping with and the cutest dork to have around.

when you came into my life, i was in the dark. so dark i couldn't see.

if only i had put a label on us. if only i wasn't so adamant about staying alone forever and had agreed to call you mine. then i wouldn't have had to watch someone else fill the spot i had the chance to.

i was too scared to take another love dive, afraid that if anything went wrong, i would surely not make it back to shore this time.

but can you blame me? the wounds of my heart were still fresh, and i could never see another man in the same light i saw my husband. at least not then.

but you brought me back to life,  moon hyung-seo,  i will tell you that. and for that alone, i wish upon you nothing but utter happiness.

when you left, i couldn't see again. but this time, only because it was so bright.

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𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘻 𝘪'𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 | tbz x m!r

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to, my dearest, my love, i hope you're doing well.

you've always been so hard on yourself.

i'm sorry that i didn't notice sooner, when we could've worked on it together. but i know, i know that you are not the monster you see yourself as. yes, you've made mistakes, just like all of us.

but you weren't given the same amount of love that everyone else was, and that's the only reason you did not know any better. you've worked so hard, and i hope you are working on accepting the love that is shown to you. your family loves you, your friends love you, your fans love you, but most of all, i love you.

i have always loved you. ever since the very first day. the first time we met, the first time i saw your eyes. those beautiful brown eyes. and even though you may not know it, your eyes told me a story.

a story about a young boy, a young boy who was so afraid, but so ready to take on the world, so ready to fulfill his dreams. i know you hated me initially for sending you away, far away from me. but i did that only because i saw your talent more than anyone else did. more than you did yourself. so it was only fair of me as your partner to make sure you shined bright.

you were always meant for the entertainment industry. so i sure hope you realized the drive behind my actions eventually. i hope you know it hurt me more than anything to let you go. but you had amazing things in life waiting for you. things way greater than what i could offer you. my only real regret is our last conversation being a fight. i hope i'd told you why i was encouraging you to leave me. that the opportunity was too good to let go. i wish my last words to you were "i adore you, so much". i wish i'd done a better job of letting you know you were loved. but i couldn't, and it doesn't matter anymore.

you know you're loved now. the entire world ensures you do. you know, every once in a while, i see you. on my television screen, on the cover of magazines at book stores, even in my phone gallery. you seem so close, but i know you're so far. throughout the course of my life, i have learned better than to delude myself into thinking i have a happy ending. and though we no longer stay in touch, allow me to say it once and for all.

hur hyunjoon, you made it! you are an amazing actor. a stunning model. a smooth, ferocious rapper. but most of all, you are my most precious dongsaeng. and i'm so incredibly proud of you.

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In your opinion, which K-pop idols do you think are for real PACKING if y'know what I'm saying🍆

Okay bear with me, I ended up making quite a long list, and had to stop myself from making it even longer actually.

The numbers in front of the idols' name DO NOT represent my opinion or ranking on them. I simply wanted to count the number of idols I included here.

Anyway, some of the idols that crossed my mind:

Heeseung

2. Kai

3. Mark

4. Juyeon, 5. Johnny

6. Hendery

(whoever disagrees can argue with the wall)

7. Jake, 8. Lay

9. Hwiyoung

10. Jackson, 11. Wyatt

12. Leedo

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𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦'𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑖𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑖𝑡? 𝑤𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑒?

𝑖 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟. 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑘, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑑𝑠. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑒𝑠𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚, 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑜𝑐𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑗𝑜𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑐𝑢𝑡𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡, '𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟.'

𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑎𝑔𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑑, "𝑙𝑒𝑡'𝑠 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑, 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑤𝑒?" 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓, 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑, 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑏𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑙, 𝑖 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑡. "𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑤𝑒'𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑚𝑖𝑛." 𝑖 𝑟𝑒𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑑, 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑓𝑢𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑣𝑜𝑖𝑐𝑒.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑, 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝑙𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑓𝑖𝑒𝑑. "𝑖 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑡, 𝑙𝑒𝑡'𝑠 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑦𝑒𝑎ℎ? 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒." 𝑖 𝑠𝑎𝑤 𝑎 𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑒𝑘𝑠 𝑎𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝑖 𝑛𝑜𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑, "𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦, 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑚𝑖𝑛. 𝑙𝑒𝑡'𝑠."

𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑑 𝑚𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑙𝑦, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑, "𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦, 𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑦. 𝑖'𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑠𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑖𝑡 𝑎 𝑏𝑒𝑎𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑢𝑠 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ. 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖'𝑙𝑙 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑢𝑚𝑏."

"𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑔𝑜 𝑛𝑢𝑚𝑏, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑖𝑟𝑑𝑜? 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑠𝑜 𝑤𝑒𝑖𝑟𝑑" 𝑖 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑑, ℎ𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑙𝑦. "𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑠𝑒𝑒. 𝑖'𝑙𝑙 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ, 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑛𝑢𝑚𝑏. 𝑖 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒."

𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑠. 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒?

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑎𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑔𝑟𝑜𝑜𝑚 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑛. 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑣𝑜𝑤𝑠 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑑. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑡, 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒. 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑚𝑎𝑧𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.

𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛, 𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑎 𝑐𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑. 𝑖'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦. 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑖 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝑎𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑡.

𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑡𝑒, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑟, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑦. 𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝. 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒. 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜. 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛. 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛, 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑛 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒.

𝑓𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑒𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑢𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑, 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑏𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑖'𝑚 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑢𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑦. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑘 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠. 𝑜ℎ, ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑠𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑐𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑠. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑝𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙𝑦, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑣𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑙𝑦, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑏𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑣𝑖𝑔𝑜𝑟.

𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑒- 𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡. 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑠. 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑚𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑙𝑦. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑡𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑎 𝑑𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑠 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑠𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑑, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑤𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑛, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒, 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑙𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡, 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑒𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑡𝑒𝑐𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚. 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑎 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑚𝑎𝑛, 𝑖 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑖𝑠. 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑖 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ. 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑖 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑.

wℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑓𝑒𝑤 𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑘𝑠 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑖 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑚𝑒. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑒𝑠𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡. 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑔𝑢𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠, 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑙𝑦. 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑦 𝑐𝑎𝑝𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑤. 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤.

𝑖 𝑠𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟 𝑠ℎ𝑢𝑡. 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑢𝑡. 𝑖 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝑐𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑛 ��𝑛𝑠𝑢𝑙𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑦, 𝑡𝑜 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑑 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑦, 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒. 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒.

𝑠𝑜 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒, 𝑖 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑢𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙, 𝑖 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑑. 𝑖 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑠, 𝑎𝑡 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚, 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑒'𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑𝑏𝑦𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ 𝑜𝑛𝑒. 𝑖 𝑡𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑚𝑎𝑧𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒.

𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑑, 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑌𝑂𝑈𝑅 𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑜𝑛-𝑑𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑟 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒. 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑢𝑠𝑏𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟. 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑜. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡, 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒. 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒. 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛. 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑎 𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟.

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UPDATE: to all the boyz

Hey guys!

I wanted to share with everyone that I finally have the last chapter of “To All The Boyz I’ve Fucked Before” mapped out.

I know it’s not a very detailed story, at all, or a mind blowing one, for that matter, but I’ve stayed consistent on the idea of completing it since it’s somewhat special to me. [some chapters may or may not be inspired by the author’s real life…] ANYWAY, my point is,

I will be posting weekly updates (starting this thursday) until we reach the final chapter so anyone interested can look forward to the coming few weeks.

Meanwhile you can read the chapters posted so far, here.

Thank you for all the love on this blog btw! <3

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𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠, ℎ𝑢ℎ?

𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑒'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑒𝑑.

𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑒'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑜𝑢𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑.

𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑒'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑.

𝑖 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒, 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒, 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ.

𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦, 𝐻𝑂𝑊 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒.

𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠.

𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑟 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡.

𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ.

𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦.

𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦,

𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑛 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒.

𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑦 𝑒𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑛𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡.

𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑢𝑛, 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔,

𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑖'𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑘.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑢𝑛𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑦 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒. 𝑖 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑢𝑒𝑠, 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑝 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑐𝑒𝑏𝑒𝑟𝑔. 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑠, 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝ℎ𝑦𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙, 𝑟𝑎𝑛 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑜𝑜 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝.

𝑦𝑜𝑢, ℎ𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑠𝑎𝑤 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑜𝑜 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑠𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠, 𝑖 𝑎𝑙𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑟.

𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡. 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑠, 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒.

𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑖 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑟𝑛𝑠. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑒 𝑖 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑜.

𝑜ℎ, 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑙 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑖𝑓𝑖𝑒𝑑. 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑒. 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑦, 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑖𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑑.

𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑒, 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡. 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡. 𝑖 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑙 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛, 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑖𝑛 𝑜𝑛𝑒.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒, 𝑡𝑜𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ. 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑖 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑑. 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑖 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑙𝑒. 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑜𝑏𝑠𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑏𝑟𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑏𝑒𝑎𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒, 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑢𝑐𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑠.

𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑖𝑛 𝑛𝑜 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑠𝑘 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠, 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒, 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔, ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑-𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑛 𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡ℎ, 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦.

𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑠𝑘 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡, 𝑘𝑖𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑔ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑛, 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓.

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fever dream | nakamoto yuta

nsfw, mdni

pair: yuta x male reader

desc: Being an avid NCTzen for a while now, you can't believe the events that transpire once you finally get to attend the NCT concert in your country, and meet your biggest bias.

warnings: dirty talk, oral, anal s*x

It was most definitely a fever dream. Korean fans are truly lucky with how often they get opportunities to see their favorite artists perform live. The rest of us, on the other hand, check whether the name of our country has been included in the artist's list for the latest world tour, while we happily cheer them on from the confines of our homes. But as they say, good things shall come to those who wait. You never thought such a day would actually come but it has, and here you are, standing at the entrance of the stadium that NCT was set to perform at today!

For obvious reasons, your nerves were all over the place. You couldn't get rid of the giddiness no matter how much you tried to normalize the day mentally. In fact, the idea of soothing your nerves was what brought you here, at the venue.....four hours in advance. The entry gates were closed and security had barely begun overseeing the arrangements. As you took in the surroundings, two or three vans came to a halt in front of the gate. It didn't take much of a genius to guess the Neos had arrived. Your heart started ringing in your eardrums. You were about to see them in the flesh.

They were surrounded by bodyguards from all directions but you could see a comparatively relaxed formation of their security since no fans were here yet. You were admiring the boys from a distance as they came out of the vans in sweats, not wishing to misuse this opportunity and get in their personal space. Then you saw him, and your heart stopped for a second. Your bias, Nakamoto Yuta. He was absolutely ethereal. You almost missed his brief glance at you, chalking it up to your delusions. But it was hard not to faint when he asked the security guard something, pointing discreetly in your direction before he went in, trailing the other members.

The guard gestured you over but you were still somewhat confused. "Hey, you! You're here for the concert, aren't you? Mr. Yuta said you can wait backstage if you want to." Your eyes widened comically. Did you hear that right? You were afraid you were going to need CPR, this was a little too surreal for a random Saturday.

"um, but can I ask why?" you managed to croak out.

"Kid, do I look like I know that? Get in if you want to, or keep standing in the heat. I have work to do." he replied gruffly and you quickly entered the premises.

Finding the green rooms wasn't much of a hassle, with the halls being void of anyone and a door reading 'NCT 127' in ginormous font. The rooms must be divided based on subunits, you figured. The door made a creaking noise as you you shakily opened it and peeked inside.

Only one person was present, you couldn't see their face since they had their back towards you but it was easy to confirm by their hair color. It was Yuta. He seemed to be busy, either doing vocal warm ups or texting, but you had to clear this misunderstanding. "Hi? Um, I'm sorry if I'm interrupting but-"

"No, it's fine. You can come in." he turned around, smiling at you. He had a smile so radiant, you wondered how many hearts he had already captured with that smile alone. "I told the security to let you in."

"Uh, thanks? I think there has been a huge misunderstanding, I don't know you personally but you're free to correct me if I'm wrong." you replied, slightly more nervous now. He raised his eyebrow at that and motioned you to go on. "But, you're like a celebrity and I'm a nobody. I just want to make sure you're not mistaking me for someone else and you aren't in trouble or anything. It's okay if you need me to leave."

"Well, I've never met a 'nobody' before." he grinned, "You are very attractive, if I'm being honest. And you're welcome to stay as long as you want."

"T-thank you"

He was sitting on the sofa, the one closest to the door and he patted the space beside him, motioning you to sit down. You were unsure if that was appropriate, considering you had met the guy not even five minutes ago but it didn't feel right to deny.

"What's your name, cutie?"

"Uh, it's y/n"

"That's cute. Do you have any social media?"

"Y-yes."

"Let me follow you then, I don't really post but I'd like seeing pictures of you."

"Um, okay. If you want to, I mean." you were a stuttering mess, you couldn't believe this was happening. He followed your instagram handle, liking a few posts before following and you had never felt more self conscious in your life. You wanted to hide, you knew the pictures he was liking were all your cringey photos and selfies from your rare confidence boosts.

"Hey, are you shy around me?"

"Y-yes...sorry, this is really overwhelming. I've just been such a big fan for the longest-"

"A fan, huh? Tell me, is it a big turn off if I kissed you right now?"

You stared at him incredulously. "Um, well...I'm not sure if you're asking for my opinion."

"Oh, but I am." he smirked, moving closer. He had a hand placed on your thigh and his face was mere inches away. "What's the verdict?"

"No, not a turn off. Not at all." you said, barely above a whisper.

"Great. You're a sweet little thing if I've ever seen one." he said before closing the gap and capturing your lips in a gentle kiss. It was slow and sensual. He tasted like strawberry, probably because of the lip balm you thought.

Your hands went up to caress his face, and he placed his hands on your waist, bringing you even closer. You couldn't tell how much time had passed, the two of you were completely engrossed in each other. His hand trailed down to your ass and gave it a squeeze, eliciting a surprised gasp. You didn't want to, but you broke the kiss and stared at him.

"I'm not going to push you if you don't want this, I'd like to have your consent."

"I want it."

"Are you sure? We're complete strangers, you have no reason to trust me."

"I know, but I've had a crush on you for a long time. You can do whatever you want, honestly"

"Fuck, that's hot. I don't know how I'm gonna control myself, but I'm willing to try."

With that, he went back to kissing you. He started getting a little more aggressive with his movements, sucking your lower lip. He slowly trailed his tongue on your bottom lip, asking for entrance and you opened your mouth slightly, letting his tongue in. He was so experienced, you could only melt in his arms. You tried your best to keep up but were mostly overwhelmed. It was..your first steamy encounter, after all.

You broke the kiss, a string of saliva still connecting your mouths. Yuta stared at you with lust filled eyes, a smirk plastered on his face. "You're doing so good for me, kitten."

"I am?"

"Yeah, I'm going to make you feel good, so good." He got up and locked the door, turning back towards you and you realized that this was happening. He went back to sit next to you, bringing his lips back onto yours, his hands going under your shirt. You moaned softly as his fingers grazed your nipple. "You're so sensitive."

You broke the kiss. "Yuta, I'm a virgin."

He groaned and kissed your neck. "I can't believe I get to pop your cherry." He continued trailing kisses down your neck, his hands squeezing your nipples. Your hands roamed his back and shoulders, enjoying the way his muscles rippled under your touch.

"Take your shirt off, baby." He removed his own shirt, exposing his well built upper body. You felt yourself grow wetter just by looking at him. His body was truly godlike, his toned muscles glistening. You couldn't help but stare.

"You're so beautiful" he whispered. "You're going to look even more beautiful once I'm done with you." He started unbuttoning your shirt, taking it off completely and throwing it away. Your breath hitched, your body was exposed and Yuta was staring at it like a starved animal. He bent his head down and captured a nipple between his lips, licking and sucking, his fingers teasing the other. You were a moaning mess, the feeling was too much.

"Does it feel good?"

"Yes, god yes"

"Good. Tell me, have you ever touched yourself, baby?"

"Y-yes"

"And what were you thinking about when you did it?"

"You"

He groaned at that and pulled down your pants, along with your underwear. He kissed his way down from your chest to your thighs. His mouth was hovering over your dick and he looked up at you with a devilish smirk, "I'm going to suck you off, is that alright?"

"Please, I've never felt anyone's mouth down there"

"Good." He started by giving a tentative lick and you whimpered. He smirked and licked the underside, swirling his tongue around the tip. He slowly took the whole thing in his mouth and you threw your head back, moaning.

"F-fuck, feels so good"

He was bobbing his head, his tongue swirling around your dick, his cheeks hollowed. The feeling was incredible, you had never felt anything like it. You were bucking your hips and gripping his hair, trying not to cum.

"Cum in my mouth, baby"

And you were a goner. This was the craziest day ever. Yuta just said that to you. You wished you could replay the sound of that a hundred times over.

You came in his mouth, and he swallowed it all, moaning. He stood up and licked his lips. You were a panting mess, coming down from your high.

"You're such a good boy for me"

"M-more"

"Don't worry, we're not done yet"

He started undoing his belt, taking his pants off and throwing them aside. He was wearing a pair of black boxers, and his erection was evident. He pulled them down, his dick springing free and you were in awe. It was big, and thick, and you couldn't help but stare. He chuckled, "Like what you see?"

"Yes, it's so big"

"And it's all yours, baby." He stroked himself a few times, his precum leaking. "Are you ready, kitten?"

"Yes"

"Get on your knees." You obediently got down on your knees, facing away from him. He lined his dick with your entrance, rubbing it against your hole. You nodded. He slowly pushed the tip in, and it felt like your whole body was on fire.

"Fuck, you're so tight"

He grabbed your hips, and started thrusting, slowly. You were moaning and whimpering, the feeling was so intense. You had never felt anything like it. You were being stretched open, your hole being filled to the brim.

"Y-Yuta, faster"

"You like that, huh? You like my cock?"

"Y-yes, I love it"

He picked up the pace, his thrusts becoming faster. "Thought you were innocent, baby. Who would have guessed you'd turn out to be such a slut."

"Fuck, Yuta!"

"That's right, say my name."

You were being pounded into the floor, and you were loving every second of it. He was fucking you so good, his cock hitting your sweet spot. You were moaning and whimpering, unable to hold back.

"Fuck, you're so sexy. I'm close."

He chuckled. "My sweet little angel, you can't get enough of me."

You were close to climaxing, the pleasure was so intense, you could barely think straight. You were a moaning mess, Yuta was grunting and breathing heavily. He was pounding into you, his thrusts becoming more erratic.

"After today, I'll make sure you keep coming back for more. Make you feel good, just like this. Gonna ruin you for anyone else. You'll be begging for my cock, and only my cock."

"Fuck, Yuta!" You cried out, nearing your orgasm, his dirty talk sending you over the edge. You could tell you wouldn't last much longer.

"I'll turn you into a dumb cock slut. I'll train you to take my dick in your ass every day. I'll fuck you so hard, you won't be able to walk."

"Please, fuck me harder. Make me yours."

"You'll be walking to the concert ground funny. You'll be so fucked out, you won't be able to function. I'll make sure of that."

"F-fuck, Yuta!"

With that, you were both pushed over the edge, and you came, hard. Your vision went white, and your body was wracked with pleasure. You could feel him filling you up, his warm seed filling your ass as he pulled your head back towards him, neck straining as he sloppily kissed you.

You were both panting and spent. You had just had sex with the man of your dreams. He was still inside of you, and he was still kissing you. It was a passionate kiss, and you could feel his adoration for you. You were so lucky.

"You did so good for me, baby." He whispered. "Such a good boy for me."

You were too blissed out to reply. Your brain was not cooperating with the rest of your body, still in a state of euphoria.

"Let's get you cleaned up."

Yuta picked you up bridal style, taking you to the bathroom, your head resting on his chest. You had never felt so loved.

"Give me your number? I promise we can sneak off to a date whenever I'm off schedules. It won't be that easy, I know."

"I'd like that."

"It's a date then. I hope I didn't disappoint" he smirked.

"I should be asking that. I was a virgin."

"Baby, I'm happy you chose me. And if I may add, you were amazing. If not for the security standing outside, I'd have kept fucking you throughout the night."

"Oh god, please don't make me blush"

"I'll make it up to you."

And he did. The next concert stop, you found yourself on his bed, naked, being ravaged by him. And the day after that, and the day after that. Soon the two of you were something more, and neither person could have asked for more.

Maybe reaching the concert venue too early wasn't as stupid as you'd thought.

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Hi there can I request a dom like top Yuta with a sub naive bottom male reader where the reader went to a nct concert but came early to miss the long lines only to run into yuta also can yuta in way corrupt the reader

Hi! Sorry it took me a while. I tried to cater to the plotline you suggested.

Read the fic here!

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Thinking of a nerdy bottom taeyeong who is obsessed with "studying" his boyfriend's massive cock but in reality he's just a slut who wants to get pounded by his boyfriend dick until he's fucked dumb https://x.com/taeyongpictures/status/1806103392822898833

'Nerd' Taeyong, who has a passive-compulsive need to know all facts about any subject of his study. And his boyfriend's abnormally large cock seems to be the latest one.

It's like clockwork. Taeyong on his knees after classes, looking up at you with doe eyes, face next to his boyfriend's dick.

"Baby, this is torture, you know. I get unbelievably hard at this look of yours. You're just begging for it at this point." you say, softly stroking his cheek as he nuzzles into your touch.

Taeyong takes out your member, running manicured hands along the length, 'taking measurements', he assures. "It's so big...I love it."

After an eternity of your endurance test, he lolls out his tongue sinfully, licking and sucking on the skin of your member all over, all while his eyes maintain contact with yours.

"S' delicious" he approves. "Let's check how it feels inside me next, kay?" he says nonchalantly, as if you are a real study subject. But you know better than anyone how much your boyfriend loves roleplay.

"Don't stop until I ask. I need to find out how long it can go on for." You choke on a breath, Taeyong has an affinity for saying lewd things matter of fact-ly.

You nod your head quickly, desperate to please him, "Whatever you say, baby. My cock is all yours."

[poweringthroughthis]

Your…your writing is just-

Thank you sm!🥹

Btw I just noticed it’s you! (I read your reggie mantle fic even before i started posting regularly here on tumblr. Love that one!)

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Bang chan's arms and armpitss 😫😫

Chan is the type of man that is unaware of his own hotness. Which is why he's initially confused about your obsession with his arms.

But when you're pleading with him to let you put your nose in his pits after he finishes performing, he's slowly starting to understand the depth of his own impact.

You can't help but nuzzle your face in his sweaty armpits, sniffing and sometimes licking. He is happy to indulge you once he gets it though, slowly wrapping his arms around your nape as you inhale his musk.

Your hands caress the expanse of his muscly arms, the smooth skin making you feel content.

After a few days of your shenanigans, though, he starts looking forward to your ritual. Engulfing you in his arms after a performance, throwing his head back and humming once you begin your ministrations.

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Minhyuk from btob and that big dick energy of his my legs could never

Your chest heaved heavily as you panted from the high of your 4th orgasm tonight. Your body was covered in sweat and your legs felt like jelly. "M-minhyuk, too much".

He chuckled lightly as his muscles gleamed in shiny sweat and mouth open to catch his breath. "Don't be silly baby boy, you aren't shooting blanks yet".

He manhandles you into a new position, full nelson to be precise.

"If you're tired, lean on me. I'll do everything" he coos, as his strong palms lift your knees high and your back is on top of his sweaty chest, the two of you laying down on the bed.

"You can give me a few more, yeah? Come on baby, do it for hyung. please".

Let's just say you won't feel like getting out of bed tomorrow.