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[poyums]

I see sand flowing as we share some wine. Countdown of us, a limit on our time.

We both saw the hourglass, were aware. Together we decided we wouldn't care.

The moments we shared, when our souls took flight. Ineffable emotions in the night.

The beauty of something delicate, fleeting. Something we knew would not be repeating.

We will move on, other people, places. Nothing indicates we shared our spaces.

You didn't change my life, or my worldview. You gave me nothing incredible or new.

It was still worthwhile, now we must part ways. Thank you stranger for incredible days.

it was never gonna work out but i experienced all these seemingly profound unreplicable moments that were romantic and moving and made me feel alive and still none of it actually means anything in the long run. but thats okay. sometimes a beautiful moment is just that. a moment. and you have to leave it alone and just be grateful that it happened. woooow

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I know that here I did my part, and I loved you with my whole heart

But love is not a magic spell, that makes all kinds of ill well

It is a source of strength and song, and a challenge to correct your wrongs

It took me time to understand, what it was that forced my hand

I made the choice to walk away, because I hope, maybe someday

You can return to this hard place, and give us both a bit more grace

My love brought not the calm it should, so without me I hope you would

Perhaps now we are apart, you can find peace within your heart.

I did my part. I hope my absence gives you peace that my love couldn't.

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I don't say 'I love you' because it's too easy to say. Instead I'll show you in another way.

Show me again how to do it, I'll learn.

Where will we go? Tonight it's your turn

I know it's not perfect, but I made this for you.

I bought tickets, do you want to come too?

Today's been tough but I got you your favorite.

I've not seen that, what do you like about it?

Let's try here, I've never been before.

Where would you recommend for...

I caught up with the show you told me about.

I want you to join my friends on our night out.

Random question, which one do you prefer?

You'd enjoy this, from what I've heard

I say these instead because while 'love' rings true, I want to experience life with you.

"I love you" as in "I'm open to adapting the way l've always done things because I want to experience life in new ways with you"

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I feel disconnected from my body, name, face, and home

I'm broken and beaten and nothing can be the same

Something has shattered, many pieces have been lost

I scour the shoreline desperate to see

I wanted to find them as they were but

Maybe this change is not a bad thing

Before I was shiny and whole

But fragile and easily

Scratched, broken, and damaged

Now I am forced to change

Rocks and sand change glass

I follow suit

Broken glass

Frosted

Strong

Sea glass

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As I grew up, they warned me of spinsters

Though they never gave a solid reason

Pointing at elders caring for sisters

"who will care in your last season?"

Talking to elders I found quite a thing

That they know but never will utter

For who would acknowledge the bitter sting

Of children, forsakeing their mother?

Or husbands who when their wife became ill

Had forsaken 'in sickness and in health"

Broken vow yet not given half the hell

As a woman forsaking poor for wealth

I knew I felt unhappy in my life

It had not been an easy few years

But you promised not to add to my strife

You broke trust, inspired many tears

In my heart I knew the truth; it was over

Though my head took too long to come round

And now looking back I'm relieved, and moreover

My tears simply watered the ground

A life now blooms in freedom of thought

And change from what was taught

Yet when I left him I still felt the fears

Of what I will face in my elder years