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i wouldn’t wish my worst enemy or bestest friend to have an ed because what if they’re better at it then me

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considered recovery for like 2 minutes last night

but like ana has been part of my identity for 8 years idk who id be if i didn’t have this little secret all the time

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to take a laxative or not to take a laxative… that is the question

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okay being around my bf is lowkey so trigging now

tell me how this man has lost SEVEN POUNDS in like TWO WEEKS and i’ve been gaining and losing the same 4lbs for the past year 😭😭😭

he doesn’t even have ana and he’s still better at it than me 🥲🔪

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great news guys

my bf is going on a cut and is taking it super seriously. which means i can go on a cut with him too

it’s been so hard to stay within my cal limit around him bc we’d go out to eat/get fast food/etc but now we’re like doing this together

and he keeps saying like “you don’t need to lose weight” “your cut doesn’t need to be that low” etc etc which makes me feel good 🥰

and he’s going on a trip for 6 weeks over the summer and i’ll miss him terribly but when he comes back i’ll be super skinny and hot and everything is gonna be perfect

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has anyone here gone from thinks-about-food-24/7 to forgets-to-eat and if so, how did you do it??

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when you're in a normal weight but your bone structure makes u WIDE AF BRO I HATE THIS SHIT GET ME OUT OF THIS FLESH PRISON

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freshman year of college i was rlly fat and broke so i like never ate because i was too anxious to go to the dining hall alone & too broke to buy food and groceries & i also didn’t have a car so i couldn’t drive anywhere without my friends taking me

moral of the story is i lost like 40lbs in a 5 month span so i’m gonna channel my inner freshman and pretend to be broke & physically unable to eat

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i feel like i’m gaining weight bc my pants feel tighter around my thighs than normal

idk why bc i haven’t been eating more than i normally do & im so so so so scared guys wtf help meeee

also anytime i eat ANYTHING my stomach bloats like crazy like i ate like 3 bites of chicken on an empty stomach the other day and it looked like i ate a full fckn meal it’s SO ANNOYING

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i wonder what my life would’ve been like if i was naturally skinny and had a normal relationship with food

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torn between telling my bf my ed is getting rlly bad so he knows why i’m acting crazy and not telling him so i don’t risk him being aware about my eating :(

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monster me@lsp0 combos .⊹˖ᯓ★. ݁₊

(photos from 📌)

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genuinely considering a boob job bc it’s ruining my life. when i eat even a NORMAL meal — like not even a binge — my stomach sticks out more than my tits do and it genuinely makes me suicidal. i don’t want that to be the reason i kms

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i have devised a plan. i need to look snatched on saturday bc i have to wear a croptop around a bunch of pretty skinny fit college girls & my bf & his friends and i don’t want it to be a “if she makes you happy bro” situation

monday(today): i will eat dinner bc i’m going out with my friends tn

tuesday: i will eat nothing unless my mom suggests dinner bc i might go to her house

wednesday: nothing

thursday: smoothie in the morning, granola bar at 12pm

friday: granola bar before 1pm

*SATURDAY*: HOPEFULLY nothing but maybe a granola bar bc drinking on an empty stomach never goes well for me

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STUPID BMI CALCULATOR KEEPS TELLING ME IM HEALTHY

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new new thinspo is the bitch i don’t like. she obvi has some kinda 3d bc i stalked her instagram and 3 years ago she was like skinny but it looked normal compared to now, she looks like unhealthily skinny

ik she sees me and feels superior and like she is but god damnit if she can do it then i can do it too

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i’ve been abt the same weight for 2 years…i can’t tell if i’m just shit at 4n0r3xi4 or if this is the weight my body is supposed to be at. or both