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Incredible English level that I get this year

Incredible French level i improve this year

Girl this year 3 ex boyfriends get in contact again with me, one of them bc I helped him buying bitcoin and now he don’t know who retir it (fuck him) the other 2 because I’m a incredible and amazing person and it’s ridiculous lost me

Bitcoin in 100k, my gosh

Sometimes are people who show me the most affection are the people who I could never imagine

I lived a natural disaster, this is not beautiful, but in the futur I will talk about this at my grandchildren and I will explain them how I salved a baby

I get and increíble job position

Officially I know that I feel empty if I’m not in Valencia, and I prefer rest here knowing that the opportunities are ridiculous

I improve my strength

I’m healthier than ever

I get again dates, and I enjoyed and laughed, after a loooooong time, and I learned don’t give again never an a selfish people opportunity

Sometimes I think that I become so insensitive, but then I remember that I still cry when I listen beautifully and sadness songs

Matcha tea, gosh

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Me hubiese gustado que lo nuestro hubiese sido diferente la verdad.

Al final cuando estas conociendo a alguien donde solo hay sexo, yo tampoco sé hasta q punto quiero conocerla y que me conozca. Abrirme emocionalmente a una persona q no se si al día siguiente me va a dejar, al menos para mi es triste y doloroso.

Al final me conociste en una app de citas, no se me da la sensación de q me tengo q excusar de porque no hago planes. Pues mira no lo sé… supongo q malos pasos q he tomado en mi vida. Pero, haces un juicio de valor contra mi, cuando, repito. No me conoces, no sabes nada de mi, ni de mi vida, y q me juzgues por algo q no sabes… es agotador. También si me conocisteis en una app de citas, creo q puede llegar a ser lógico, que, justamente, estoy utilizando eso, para conocer gente… y en fin, no se, q juzgues algo así.

Al final paso, lo q no quería q pasase. Quedar con un chico durante más de un día o dos, y no saber nada de él. Porque solo tengo una conversación de whatssap donde, no hay nada. Ni conversaciones profundas, ni nada de nosotros. Nada

Y no creo q tú sepas algo de mi. Ese miedo de… me he acostado con este chico pero siento q si ahora le veo por la calle no nos saludaremos, siento q se ha cumplido. Admito mis errores, y desde luego para un futuro no pienso volver a caer. No creo en el vamos fluyendo. Creo en la intensidad y las emociones.

Esto, pues me ha dolido la verdad. Hablar un día, sentir q se ha dejado todo claro y bien. Quedar otro día para ver una peli, y sentir q está mejor la cosa q antes, y luego q se termine. Pero en fin, más vale pronto q tarde. No se q paso entre esos días

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"multiverse of a woman," melancholy galaxies / t. e. talbott

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There is a fabule where explain that two souls that are connected by previous lives, more late or more early they will meet again.

Who will told me that this connection will pass by all the Mediterranean.

This last year I learned about enjoy more my culture, and my roots. And it is you who is helping me in this difficult task.

In enjoying my language and this land with years of history

I can’t wait for live more with you ❤️

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today I passed for my mother’s neighbourhood and a few thoughts came to my mind. Normally I don’t like pass near of my mother’s house bc it remember me a lot of bad moments that I lived there. But today was diferent. Today I walked for one street that it made me feel sad and melancholic. Today I walked for the Turia’s street. In that street there was an Arab restaurant where you took me for our first date out of your home. Was the first time that we meet out of your house. We didn’t feel well about the idea of walk or have a date out for the possibility that someone could see us together. I don’t know how to feel when I think In you. Sadly I think you’re one of the person who I loved more in my life. I’ve never felt the same for no one and… I want to cry for that. What did you have as special? you was ugly, fat and old. why I can’t feel the same for a guy of my age? I would like to sit with you, in front you and made you a lot of questions. How did you feel meeting and dating with a child? I don’t know if you are consciously how bad I feel with the idea that you’re friend with the people that hurt me… I could like that you die tomorrow. Stupid

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Maya Abu Al-Hayyat, from You Can Be the Last Leaf: Selected Poems, trans. Fady Joudah.

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Jenny Slate, Little Weirds

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How should one live without constantly thinking about your oppressions?

How should one live knowing that you don't care about how the government governs or makes the rules, because none of that will influence you?

What do you do with all the free time you have by not thinking about these things? Art? Business? Selfdelovpment?

I wake up and I'm incredulous. I see how an AI is made to create fake naked photos of anybody. I feel anxiety, a normal anxiety, the typical suffocation that you grow up with, being a woman. In a matter of 3 minutes, despair sets in.

How can one watch the news without feeling like, 'Will I have rights today? Will they acknowledge women's rights? Or will they promote hate speech to discredit your struggles?'

How does one live knowing that your only fear in life is perhaps being alone for the rest of it? Do you really not have more fears?... wow... I'm jealous of that...

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I think the worst of being adult is knowing that you will have fewer connections and relationships where you have a big and strong feeling with them.

Do you remember when in you were teenager you had a these special friends and that love where you thought that you will reach at the end of the world. Living and having this special connection to speak about everything, without prejudices and bad comments or judgment.

Then, you grow up, you change, and also your mind and thoughts about your values. Of course you want to advance and be more analytical. What am I doing wrong with myself? How can I feel better, how can I feel stronger with myself, how I can develop…

"You get older, and smarter and these connections disappear. Is something wrong with myself?"

But there arrive a day that you see how these feelings only changed at other fields. It can be the art or the drugs, you can decide.

A piano cover with notes played powerfully, a valuable art piece about Sorolla, a song written, or this book, this sensual political, the explanation of is God out in the universe near of a black hole.

Hold on to this relationships and loves, because there will come a day when it will become harder. And take all the good things of these people, that in the future will have their own way."

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The necessary fact about express my feeling by a anonymous profiles.

How repair it is, and how heals me

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I miss sleep with you

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Venice Sunset  - Fabio Colussi , 2014.

Italian , b. 1957 -

Oil on canvas , 30 x 40 cm.

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