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being bad at painting but doing it anyways cause it keeps you busy n happy also trying not to freak out cause you cant paint the things u see in ur hed

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you smelled like sweet honey on a tree dripping next to me

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a love letter of sorts

does it get easier, this giant cloud in my head. sometimes i think it will settle down into a whisper, but it constantly grows louder. is it fair to have it all and want more still. is it wrong to long for things that need time. have my expectations suddenly left the room completely. do they vanish with your apparition. I can suddenly forgive anything, do anything, be anything. i have no free will left (was there any to begin with). completely stripped my insides naked with no secrets left to hold. susceptible are my organs (to disease) after i’ve given them to you. everything was yours i never expected anything in return, still i do not. yet you continue to give and give and give, it warms my empty shell of a corpse.

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i had a dream that i asked you if you were going to fuck her and you said ill probably get too drunk and just fumble. you showed me pictures of her wearing weird lacy bras. i threw a hot coffee an your face and freaked the fuck out. we both walked out. i walked through the thrift store and you were in there i avoided you like the plague and ran back to you to make sure you two wouldnt see each other. there was a large crowd outside and you were in the middle of it, they were throwing kinder surprises and i caught one with my eye. i walked up to you in the midst of chaos and said im sorry, i love you. 

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go through the list in my head of event that lead me here panic cry in the washroom 2 minutes or less put on that sunshine dress/hide that mess i see you constantly i scream outloud but i remember when i didnt i scream to you last words whatever did you think of me i feel heavy with regret and everytime i go through the list i cant save you

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sometimes you let the bad things stay longer than they should the pain is mostly ok your words god gave you strength to walk away youll live to love another day i think about you everyday

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i dont mind i know it hurts / i dont mind i know it hurts / i dont mind i know it hurts / i dont mind i know it hurts

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last night we had our habbo house christmas party. jody and i poured water on our heads for fun and i hit my bridge of my nose on a beam cause flopping on the floor and we got pho.

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@prayinghands this photo of your phone case makes me burst 

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stuck in bed with never ending anxiety

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