prettyboygod

[prettyboygod]

i am literally just a cute little angel why do i have to work retail

[prettyboygod]

The fact that I cannot physically shape shift should honestly be illegal

[prettyboygod]

the core

[prettyboygod]

Remembering being nine years old and watching that Scooby Doo movie with the werecats and just... feeling that itch, that desire to be something more than human.

No. Not more. Just darker.

[prettyboygod]

don't you recognize this vacant stare

[prettyboygod]

Life for this god has been so stagnant lately that flowers - pretty ones, I might add - are beginning to bloom out of my porcelain pale skin. It hurts.

[prettyboygod]

The best part of Thanksgiving is that for the next three days I can devour a jar of green olives and it's slightly less weird than when I do it any other time

[prettyboygod]

You know there's something... different... about you when you watch that movie Spaceman and you think the spider-alien-named-Hanus would make a good roommate/therapist like what is wrong with me -

[prettyboygod]

If I can travel back in time, I'd give my past self some advice.

If you are questioning something, write everything down. Even if you think the details are minor or unimportant. Document exactly what you're feeling and experiencing, even if the identity doesn't stick, or if you think you might be wrong. It doesn't even have to be shared with other people. What you don't find important in the moment might become valuable in the future.

Don't do what I did. Due to internalized cringe and my own anxiety, I decided to not write anything down during this time of questioning. Now, I find myself asking certain questions, curious about what exactly went through my mind at the time that I now will never have the exact answers to.

[prettyboygod]

Born too late to be executed for being a werewolf, Born too early to find some way to technologically shapeshift, born right on time to get yelled at online for existing ❤️

[prettyboygod]

Thanksgiving agenda: disappear into my quarters and read Walter Tevis' "The Man Who Fell to Earth" until this all blows over.

[prettyboygod]

Time for the pretty boy two-faced god of chaos and light to sequester himself in his bedroom and only emerge to procure occasional offerings of green olives until it is time to devour the sacrificial turkey -

[prettyboygod]

That dark and surreal confusion of, "Am I possessed or am I just a demon?"

[prettyboygod]

Species dysphoria isn't real, people like you are the reason actual trans people don't get taken seriously

Species dysphoria is in fact a real thing lmao

[prettyboygod]

In-between all my nightmares last night was a very nice subplot in which I discovered my identity as a blue jay. That was cool, I guess.

[prettyboygod]

the from-another-dimension experience of having weird taste in food. like. don't blame me for liking pickle chips sprinkled with seasoned salt and dunked in buffalo sauce. i'm just a tourist.

[prettyboygod]

You ever look at a person and you just know they're not human? Because when I look at Trent Reznor all I can see is a vengeful angel.