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When going through autism screening tests with my therapist there were so many moments where she'd read out a question and I would go "in what circumstance??"

Stupid stuff like "I prefer to do things alone. Agree or disagree?"

And I'm thinking: well when I'm at home I like to be alone 100% of the time so my brain can calm down. I like taking walks alone. But as soon as it's a situation like going to the movies or going to the mall or going shopping at all really, I need to have someone else with me so I don't feel anxious because of the people and the noise and the decisions and the Being Perceived By Others. But there are a total of maybe three people that I would want to come with me. It can't be a stranger, it has to be a friend I've known since I was a baby or it has to be my twin brother. So I told my therapist that I don't prefer to do things alone and explained why, and she paused and went "these screening tests are pretty bad, sometimes".

Because autism is SO individual. And questions that mean "I like patterns and categories" are phrased like "I'm a math genius who is obsessed with numbers". And I read that and go "that doesn't apply to me", meanwhile I have a sizable insect collection organized by order and family and have memorized the approximate number of species in each order of insect. I LOVE patterns and categories. However I hate math. So it's Not Helpful when questions focused on patterns and categories decide to generalize about math.

When I was younger and researching the autism diagnosis criteria and symptoms, I thought “oh I couldn’t POSSIBLY be autistic.” Because when I read “takes everything literally” I thought it literally meant EVERYTHING and I was like “I don’t take EVERYTHING literally, just most things!” And I just realized the other day that it didn’t actually mean EVERYTHING and that was an overstatement.

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"what does a TARDIS malfunction sound like?"

"idk just dump the entire goofy sound effects library in the span of 10 seconds. That should do it"

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never let being a girl stop you from being a boy

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having my evening cucumber

I offered a portion to this large and mannerly horse

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IG : @emperorofmischief

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the thing about the x files is that if you havent seen the x files and youre like "i dont get it" literally all you have to do is watch the pilot episode and then you will Get It. you will Understand. you may choose not to watch any more bc it's not for you and that is all well and good. but you WILL get it

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sorry about the blood loss. do you uh. want it back *holds out my red dripping hands awkwardly*

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shirt that says ive been rejected from literary magazines you've never heard of

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Tonker and Lofty on the brain again.

I like to think they’re off committing crimes together.

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ill keep writing about surviving because i don't know what else there is

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if the truman show came out in 2020 trumans life would be livestreamed 24/7 and the twitch chat would be absolutely wildin. poggers

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you think people actually have sex? naked and everything? I have to laugh.

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(after getting attacked by a one-episode creature) whatever that was, it's gone now...

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