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Tomfoolery actually transitioned and only does she-nanigans now

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As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

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what's my favorite little detail about wyll ravengard? i'm glad you asked

he keeps this big stand-up abacus at camp. its much nicer than the ones they have at the counting house.

when you bunk down at the elfsong tavern, he has another, smaller abacus that he brings with him!

he's got an analytical mind; he's a tactician. does he do complex calculations to pass the time? does he run through sums to wind down after a hard day? i don't know! but it's fun to think about!

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Rook.. you are impossible

My first post gotta be Lucanis sketch from awhile back. I’m still trying to figure out this app.

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hear me out cake, but instead of ppl i want to fuck it’s songs that kind of fit The Character if you squint and tilt your head just right and have a beautiful mind

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when people like your OCs it is truly one of the best feelings ever. but when they also UNDERSTAND your OCs??? When they say or do something that just makes you go "oh they get it." UNBEATABLE.

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i let him hit cause. uh. well i’m gonna be honest it’s cause i fucked up my parry timing

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Pick Your Tropes

Thanks for the tag @wolfsong-the-bloody-beast ! This looks fun!

coffee shop or flower girl | au or fix-it | enemies to lovers or childhood friends | angst or fluff | love at first sight or pining | modern au or historical au | break up & make up or proposal & wedding | get together or established relationship | soulmates or unrequited | fake dating or secret dating | obvious pining or domestic fluff | hurt/comfort or crack | meet the parents or meet cute

Some of these may become VERY obvious as I post more of my writing, but a lot were hard to choose from! Both is good!

Tagging: @basedonconjecture @ceremorph0sis @phillypumpkin @priya-san @themontess

Have fun!

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I have many feelings about the fact that the Lighthouse conjures up Lucanis' favourite childhood book right after the disaster with Zara and Illario, as if trying to cheer him up.

Has Lucanis perhaps thought about it more often at that point? Something that used to bring him comfort. A distant memory of his parent reading this cheerful story to him when he was a little boy. Probably the reason why he loves wyverns so much. The note would suggest that he looked for a copy of the book at some point when he was older - unsuccessfully. Or has the Lighthouse pulled at an old, rusty, but comforting memory somewhere deep inside Lucanis that he barely remembers?

Either way, if you'll excuse me, I'll go lie down while clutching my chest for a while.

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Tfw you ask your newly undead teammate to please keep his skin on, and he immediately takes his skin off.

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Dear Diary,

Today I have acquired a new blorbo. It is, of course, a wretched little man with a somewhat twisted sense of honour. I put him in my blorbo basket and carried him home. Tomorrow I shall display him on the mantel when my friend comes for tea.

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pavelyan kiss while someone watches 👀

32. a kiss while someone watches

i just imagined this sillie in my silly little head and was like okay i need to draw this asap. 😭🙏

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"i miss him" says girl about the fictional guy she thinks about every hour of every day

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This time I will never let you go

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i think im just not worth getting close to

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God I love this man so much.. but WHAT 🤣🤣🤣

I loaded up one of my House of Hope saves last night to grab some pics and I know I’m probably late to this, but I’ve never heard him say this line 😭😂