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sun-dried linens park sunghoon

fluff word count: 657 works

as warmth started welcoming the beginning of a new season and the pressure of finals got away with the start of school break; the lively sounds of music and carefreeness were starting to appear in the apartment.

with all this free time, it was only natural to seize the day. your morning started pretty early on, waking up sunghoon, who slept soundly next to you, to help you wash the sheets after you saw the harsh sun creeping through the window. and after the second load of laundry of the day and a simple breakfast, you started a summer deep clean of your whole apartment with the help of sunghoon who reluctantly accepted after you refused to lay with him into late morning.

the sound of the vacuum was accompanying you while you finished washing the dishes, and even when that noise was strong you could still hear sunghoon complain; about how ´weekends are meant to be relaxing´ and ´I just finished with work why are we doing this right now?´ making you laugh because even though he was doing his part he still found time to complain.

it wasn't until you came back with the last load of clean laundry ready to hang it to dry, did you realized that the only noise you heard was the white noise of the fan and sunghoon being out of your line of sight.

"hoon?" you said looking around for him. "I´m so tired," he groaned while raising his hand, and there he was, lying on the floor in front of the couch. as you walked near him you laughed over his dramatic act. "we are almost done, after we hang these clothes to dry and organize the living room we are done. and we´ll have all the evening to ourselves," you said while looking down into his eyes.

He sighed, "Let´s take a break," he said while throwing a tantrum. You held the clothes basket in one arm while you handed out your hand to him to help him up. "We can rest later," you said, and when you thought he would finally finish helping, he grabbed your hand and dragged you down with him.

"let's just stay here for a little bit," he said holding you down, a gust of wind ran throughout the apartment, he patted your hair trying to distract you and convince you to stay, there, in the silence and calm of his arms on a sunny weekend morning. you looked at him with a small smile as you tried getting up. while he did look cozy in his white shirt and black shorts you were almost done with the cleaning and the earlier you finished the more time you would have to do nothing with him.

But as you tried sitting up, he chased after you and kissed you softly, holding your waist from under the shirt of his you were wearing. He kissed you like he hadn't kissed you in a long time, which for him—it was, and who were you to refuse him after he had been so cute? You laughed softly in between his kisses as you ran your hands through his hair, and after you felt out of air, you tried getting back to what you were doing before.

"c´mon, we are almost done," you said quietly as you pulled away, "you can finish hanging the clothes up while I clean around here okay?" you said trying to get up.

he held you while he asked, "what is my compensation for all of this hard work?" as he chased your lips. "what do you want hoon?" you asked him entertaining his question.

"another kiss," he said simply while you nodded "and choosing the movie we´ll watch later" he answered firmly making you laugh again as he joined you. you leaned down and kissed his cheek lightly. "okay, we have a deal, you said finally handing him the laundry basket.

note: hi hi! im trying to get back to writing after a huge writers block, comments and reblogs are highly appreciated, I truly hope to get back to constant updates of new and ongoing works, lysm! <3

tagging: @k-nets @k-films @en-diaries

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sun-dried linens park sunghoon

fluff word count: 657 works

as warmth started welcoming the beginning of a new season and the pressure of finals got away with the start of school break; the lively sounds of music and carefreeness were starting to appear in the apartment.

with all this free time, it was only natural to seize the day. your morning started pretty early on, waking up sunghoon, who slept soundly next to you, to help you wash the sheets after you saw the harsh sun creeping through the window. and after the second load of laundry of the day and a simple breakfast, you started a summer deep clean of your whole apartment with the help of sunghoon who reluctantly accepted after you refused to lay with him into late morning.

the sound of the vacuum was accompanying you while you finished washing the dishes, and even when that noise was strong you could still hear sunghoon complain; about how ´weekends are meant to be relaxing´ and ´I just finished with work why are we doing this right now?´ making you laugh because even though he was doing his part he still found time to complain.

it wasn't until you came back with the last load of clean laundry ready to hang it to dry, did you realized that the only noise you heard was the white noise of the fan and sunghoon being out of your line of sight.

"hoon?" you said looking around for him. "I´m so tired," he groaned while raising his hand, and there he was, lying on the floor in front of the couch. as you walked near him you laughed over his dramatic act. "we are almost done, after we hang these clothes to dry and organize the living room we are done. and we´ll have all the evening to ourselves," you said while looking down into his eyes.

He sighed, "Let´s take a break," he said while throwing a tantrum. You held the clothes basket in one arm while you handed out your hand to him to help him up. "We can rest later," you said, and when you thought he would finally finish helping, he grabbed your hand and dragged you down with him.

"let's just stay here for a little bit," he said holding you down, a gust of wind ran throughout the apartment, he patted your hair trying to distract you and convince you to stay, there, in the silence and calm of his arms on a sunny weekend morning. you looked at him with a small smile as you tried getting up. while he did look cozy in his white shirt and black shorts you were almost done with the cleaning and the earlier you finished the more time you would have to do nothing with him.

But as you tried sitting up, he chased after you and kissed you softly, holding your waist from under the shirt of his you were wearing. He kissed you like he hadn't kissed you in a long time, which for him—it was, and who were you to refuse him after he had been so cute? You laughed softly in between his kisses as you ran your hands through his hair, and after you felt out of air, you tried getting back to what you were doing before.

"c´mon, we are almost done," you said quietly as you pulled away, "you can finish hanging the clothes up while I clean around here okay?" you said trying to get up.

he held you while he asked, "what is my compensation for all of this hard work?" as he chased your lips. "what do you want hoon?" you asked him entertaining his question.

"another kiss," he said simply while you nodded "and choosing the movie we´ll watch later" he answered firmly making you laugh again as he joined you. you leaned down and kissed his cheek lightly. "okay, we have a deal, you said finally handing him the laundry basket.

note: hi hi! im trying to get back to writing after a huge writers block, comments and reblogs are highly appreciated, I truly hope to get back to constant updates of new and ongoing works, lysm! <3

tagging: @k-nets @k-films @en-diaries

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falling for you (literally)

𓍯𓂃 fluff park jongseong x female reader. works word count: 1500 non-idol au, high-school au, new relationship.

where jay lies to his new girlfriend (and embarrasses himself) just because he doesn´t want to tell her he has never skated in his life.

apparently, the chilly winter air was not cold enough to stop park jongseong from lying through his teeth and getting himself in uncomfortable situations.

regret was filling his insides as he took another step closer to the ice rink, he had arrived earlier to wait for you and prepare mentally for the fact that he was going to be skating for the first time in his life after he assured your entire friendgroup he was pretty much an expert ice skating.

newsflash, he lied.

jay would not consider himself to be neither nosy or a liar, but after he saw you talking with your friends in the empty classroom about how much you loved the winter season and doing the typical cliche stuff in the breaks after school, the only words that registered his mind were love and ice skating.

so later in the day when both of you where in your usual study dates in the library. He heard you ask him if you could go on a date on the weekend he decided to be all cool and nonchalant acting like he got the original idea from the back of his mind of doing a winter-themed date he saw your eyes shine with excitement after thinking that both of you were sharing a brain.

seeing the enthusiasm on your face was one of the things that could make park jongseong melt and what was he if not a simple man who loved making the girl he liked happy?

have you been dating for less than 3 months? yes

but that didn't stop his heart from rushing even faster after he saw you smile with your eyes and his brain feeling like mush after seeing your warm flush. if he could he felt like he would give you the world after seeing you bat your eyelashes, so he did not register the moment he said you could go ice skating until later in the day when he actually remembered, he did not know how to skate.

he didn't know how he could forget that minuscule detail, and he was still not in his right mind when he called his friends to teach him how to skate over the phone in less than two days. needless to say, his friends had a good laugh.

so, here he was, sweating even though it was almost freezing. he swore he could not sleep last night after watching multiple ice-skating for dummies videos. waiting for you to arrive at the rink, hoping he thought of a better idea of a date before he embarrassed himself in front of you.

he could be honest and tell you that he didn´t know how to skate, or maybe say he hurt his foot after last football practice. but no, he kept digging himself deeper and truly believed he cool fool you. and he considered himself smart.

as he saw you being dropped off by your parents car running towards him he waved with a nervous smile in his face. this was going to be a hell of an experience. the small talk between you both was not entirely being registered by his brain, apart from his nervous breakdown he thought your outfit made you look even prettier, seeing your hair half up with a ribbon and it matching your jacket and gloves the blush in his cheeks was becoming more apparent and it was not for standing fifteen minutes outside.

while his hands shook after receiving the skates and he attributed it to the cold he took some good seconds of hyping himself up in silence hoping and praying he would not make a fool of himself so early in the relationship.

it became a blur in his mind whether he was doing a good job fooling you into thinking he was a good skater or if he was portraying baby bambi and after some dazy spins that ended with him smashing himself onto the floor and seeing your surprised face as you tried to help him get back on his feet to get out of the rink as quickly as you had entered he finally realized he made a mistake by lying.

now he was bleeding through his nose and his mind finished processing that he was not able to see you enjoy skating with him because he was more busy focusing on not making a fool of himself than enjoying his time with you.

and he was not successful in either of them.

with regret showing in his face, he sat alone at the bleachers a little thankful that you were the only people at the rink and no one else saw him falling. holding his face up to avoid covering himself in blood while you ran to get some tissues his emotions were all over the place without knowing if the feeling of embarrassment was bigger than the feeling of disappointment.

he heard you come back and while you held his face in place while dabbing the tissue on his nose to clean up the blood, the disappointment he felt for ruining one of your first dates was the thing he felt the most. your worried voice was the only thing he felt not caring of any pain left from his nose or the cold air in the rink. he truly felt bad for ruining it.

"I'm sorry," he said while holding your hand holding his jaw.

you looked at him curiously as you tried to understand where he was coming from "why? jay it's okay it was an accident the ice is way too smooth right now."

he sighed while finally removing your hand from his face and fully holding it in between both of his.

"I lied to you," he said "I don´t know how to skate I just heard you talk about how much you loved it and I just said it. I didn't expect it to be so hard and I was trying to make myself look cool"

he told you as he avoided looking into your eyes as he sighed "and I got so stressed that now I ruined our whole date" he signaled his nose stuffed with tissue paper that was starting to turn red as well "I'm sorry I wasted your evening"

"it's really okay jay," you said comforting him with a smile. “I didn’t waste my evening I really do enjoy spending my time with you even if it's doing nothing," you caressed his hands hoping to calm him down

"but you should´ve told me if you were nervous or if you don't know how to do something," you told him "just like how you help me study when I'm having trouble understanding the lecture you can rely on me more often, I could've taught you"

"I thought I would look lame," he said looking at you with regret

"and do you look cool right now?" you questioned him with a little mischief.

"well, no" he answered shyly making you laugh.

"see? you are not super cool for acting nonchalant, you can just tell me the things from the beginning and I can help you do them in the future" you told him trying to make him feel better "that way we can avoid future accidents right?" you said while brushing his hair out of his forehead.

"okay, I can do that" he said finally smiling, he felt comfort in you not judging him and actually finding him cute instead of dumb for avoiding telling you something as insignificant since the beginning.

he needed to learn to let his guard down with you since you kept encouraging him to be honest and to rely on you more often, he was not used to telling someone everything about him without the fear of being judged but he knew that now he had you in his life he could start opening up and understanding he didn't need to be perfect all of the time.

"now, how about I teach you how to skate?" you said while getting up and looking down at him with a smile "we still have all of the evening"

he looked at you in silence "if you don't want to we can go grab a hot chocolate or some cake" you said interrupting his thought process

"are you sure? what if I fall again?" he asked nervously not really listening to your last option as he saw you extending your hand to him

"don't worry, we'll take it slow," you said "and you can always hold my hand, I'm not letting you go okay?"

he held your hand while getting up and throwing the dried and bloody tissue to the bin "okay, let's do it"

you smile while reaching up to kiss his cheek while excitingly going to the rink again but now jay no longer felt as anxious of falling knowing you were there to help him get up.

and maybe jay fell even deeper in love with you after that day.

tagging: @k-nets @k-films @en-diaries

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falling for you (literally)

𓍯𓂃 fluff park jongseong x female reader. works word count: 1500 non-idol au, high-school au, new relationship.

where jay lies to his new girlfriend (and embarrasses himself) just because he doesn´t want to tell her he has never skated in his life.

apparently, the chilly winter air was not cold enough to stop park jongseong from lying through his teeth and getting himself in uncomfortable situations.

regret was filling his insides as he took another step closer to the ice rink, he had arrived earlier to wait for you and prepare mentally for the fact that he was going to be skating for the first time in his life after he assured your entire friendgroup he was pretty much an expert ice skating.

newsflash, he lied.

jay would not consider himself to be neither nosy or a liar, but after he saw you talking with your friends in the empty classroom about how much you loved the winter season and doing the typical cliche stuff in the breaks after school, the only words that registered his mind were love and ice skating.

so later in the day when both of you where in your usual study dates in the library. He heard you ask him if you could go on a date on the weekend he decided to be all cool and nonchalant acting like he got the original idea from the back of his mind of doing a winter-themed date he saw your eyes shine with excitement after thinking that both of you were sharing a brain.

seeing the enthusiasm on your face was one of the things that could make park jongseong melt and what was he if not a simple man who loved making the girl he liked happy?

have you been dating for less than 3 months? yes

but that didn't stop his heart from rushing even faster after he saw you smile with your eyes and his brain feeling like mush after seeing your warm flush. if he could he felt like he would give you the world after seeing you bat your eyelashes, so he did not register the moment he said you could go ice skating until later in the day when he actually remembered, he did not know how to skate.

he didn't know how he could forget that minuscule detail, and he was still not in his right mind when he called his friends to teach him how to skate over the phone in less than two days. needless to say, his friends had a good laugh.

so, here he was, sweating even though it was almost freezing. he swore he could not sleep last night after watching multiple ice-skating for dummies videos. waiting for you to arrive at the rink, hoping he thought of a better idea of a date before he embarrassed himself in front of you.

he could be honest and tell you that he didn´t know how to skate, or maybe say he hurt his foot after last football practice. but no, he kept digging himself deeper and truly believed he cool fool you. and he considered himself smart.

as he saw you being dropped off by your parents car running towards him he waved with a nervous smile in his face. this was going to be a hell of an experience. the small talk between you both was not entirely being registered by his brain, apart from his nervous breakdown he thought your outfit made you look even prettier, seeing your hair half up with a ribbon and it matching your jacket and gloves the blush in his cheeks was becoming more apparent and it was not for standing fifteen minutes outside.

while his hands shook after receiving the skates and he attributed it to the cold he took some good seconds of hyping himself up in silence hoping and praying he would not make a fool of himself so early in the relationship.

it became a blur in his mind whether he was doing a good job fooling you into thinking he was a good skater or if he was portraying baby bambi and after some dazy spins that ended with him smashing himself onto the floor and seeing your surprised face as you tried to help him get back on his feet to get out of the rink as quickly as you had entered he finally realized he made a mistake by lying.

now he was bleeding through his nose and his mind finished processing that he was not able to see you enjoy skating with him because he was more busy focusing on not making a fool of himself than enjoying his time with you.

and he was not successful in either of them.

with regret showing in his face, he sat alone at the bleachers a little thankful that you were the only people at the rink and no one else saw him falling. holding his face up to avoid covering himself in blood while you ran to get some tissues his emotions were all over the place without knowing if the feeling of embarrassment was bigger than the feeling of disappointment.

he heard you come back and while you held his face in place while dabbing the tissue on his nose to clean up the blood, the disappointment he felt for ruining one of your first dates was the thing he felt the most. your worried voice was the only thing he felt not caring of any pain left from his nose or the cold air in the rink. he truly felt bad for ruining it.

"I'm sorry," he said while holding your hand holding his jaw.

you looked at him curiously as you tried to understand where he was coming from "why? jay it's okay it was an accident the ice is way too smooth right now."

he sighed while finally removing your hand from his face and fully holding it in between both of his.

"I lied to you," he said "I don´t know how to skate I just heard you talk about how much you loved it and I just said it. I didn't expect it to be so hard and I was trying to make myself look cool"

he told you as he avoided looking into your eyes as he sighed "and I got so stressed that now I ruined our whole date" he signaled his nose stuffed with tissue paper that was starting to turn red as well "I'm sorry I wasted your evening"

"it's really okay jay," you said comforting him with a smile. “I didn’t waste my evening I really do enjoy spending my time with you even if it's doing nothing," you caressed his hands hoping to calm him down

"but you should´ve told me if you were nervous or if you don't know how to do something," you told him "just like how you help me study when I'm having trouble understanding the lecture you can rely on me more often, I could've taught you"

"I thought I would look lame," he said looking at you with regret

"and do you look cool right now?" you questioned him with a little mischief.

"well, no" he answered shyly making you laugh.

"see? you are not super cool for acting nonchalant, you can just tell me the things from the beginning and I can help you do them in the future" you told him trying to make him feel better "that way we can avoid future accidents right?" you said while brushing his hair out of his forehead.

"okay, I can do that" he said finally smiling, he felt comfort in you not judging him and actually finding him cute instead of dumb for avoiding telling you something as insignificant since the beginning.

he needed to learn to let his guard down with you since you kept encouraging him to be honest and to rely on you more often, he was not used to telling someone everything about him without the fear of being judged but he knew that now he had you in his life he could start opening up and understanding he didn't need to be perfect all of the time.

"now, how about I teach you how to skate?" you said while getting up and looking down at him with a smile "we still have all of the evening"

he looked at you in silence "if you don't want to we can go grab a hot chocolate or some cake" you said interrupting his thought process

"are you sure? what if I fall again?" he asked nervously not really listening to your last option as he saw you extending your hand to him

"don't worry, we'll take it slow," you said "and you can always hold my hand, I'm not letting you go okay?"

he held your hand while getting up and throwing the dried and bloody tissue to the bin "okay, let's do it"

you smile while reaching up to kiss his cheek while excitingly going to the rink again but now jay no longer felt as anxious of falling knowing you were there to help him get up.

and maybe jay fell even deeper in love with you after that day.

tagging: @k-nets @k-films @en-diaries

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I’m back im back!! officially finished my finals and I’m no longer sick (yep I got sick again)

hopefully there’s a new update in some project by the end of the week ;)

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sharing birthday with enhypen !!

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booo I’m feeling sick and I have stuff to do 🫠🫠

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[16:59] stop laughing lee heeseung

word count: 557 fluff, established relationship, non idol au, college setting. halloween memories. heeseung creates his last minute halloween costume works note: this is a re uploaded work (in case you felt deja vu lol)

you gasped for air as you arrived on a flash after receiving a text from your boyfriend ‘sos, need your help asap’ you read after getting out of your class making you run back to his place.

"I´m here hee! what's the emergency? you said out loud looking for him, silence. the center area of the apartment was dark and no noise was heard worrying you. "love?" you said while looking for him "where are you?"

a muffled angry sigh came out of the lit-up walk-in closet in heeseungs room

"is everything okay hee? I got worried you were not answering when I called you”. you said opening the door and seeing clothes all over the floor and heeseung with your makeup bag on the counter, rubbing his face with a makeup brush.

you looked at him in pure silence shocked to see his face smeared in red, the white towels covered with the same paint with blue strokes, and your red lipstick open and broken on top of it.

"what's going on?" was the only thing that came out of your mouth.

heeseung sighed again, "the guys want to go to a halloween party and they told me last minute, I'm trying to plan my costume"

you looked at his face, then you observed the pile of clothes and you looked back at him bursting out laughing.

"baby, don´t laugh" he whined at you looking helpless.

"sorry, sorry," you said still observing him curiously "and what are you supposed to be?" you asked hearing his gasp as you finished your question.

"is it not obvious?" he asked while you stayed silent "baby! of course I'm david bowie," he said while opening his arms to further his explanation.

you could see the vision but between his messy hair, the strokes on his face, and the outfit separated on the side. the image of seeing heeseung stressed over a costume, made you start laughing again.

"babyy, stop laughing, I tried my best" he groaned closing the distance and holding your waist. "I can see," you said caressing his cheek full of lipstick. "can you fix it?" he asked with pleading eyes.

you held his face looking at his mess "I can't do miracles love" you said jokingly as he gave you a deadpan look.

"okay okay, I think I can help you," you said moving his face around and realizing he had lipstick up his hairline "let's try to fix it okay?"

he kissed your cheek smearing all the makeup now on your face. as you turned around still in his arms you saw all the makeup on both of your faces in the mirror breaking into a fit of laughter again.

"stop laughing at me babe," he repeated squeezing your waist.

"sorry, it just looks…" you started again trying to start a game plan to fix it in a short amount of time. you let go of him before going to your designated drawer in his room with your stuff "I'll grab some makeup remover, don't move" you said kissing his cheek not caring anymore about the mess.

as you left to grab that you turned back to see him "you know it would´ve been easier to be a vampire right?" you said before making your way back to his room in between laughs.

tagging: @k-nets @k-films @en-diaries

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NGL THIS RECENT CHAPTER AND HEESEUNG'S BEHAVIOUR SOUNDS LIKE THE EXCUSES MEN GIVE FOR THEIR HORRIBLE BEHAVIOUR - LIKE THE " I HAD A TERRIBLE CHILDHOOD " WHEN THEY ARE ABUSIVE TO THEIR GFS, or the " i didn't recieve any love from my mother " when confronted with cheating.

KANG YN BETTER MAKE HIM GROVEL

Once again, love you a latte heeseung would NEVER

He is still a little pos and deserve a good kick in the ass, I think everyone can agree that there’s a long road for him to be redeemable so he still needs to fix a looot of his issues

secret proposals heeseung should learn a thing or two about lyalatte heeseung and it starts with going to therapy

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[16:59] stop laughing lee heeseung

word count: 557 fluff, established relationship, non idol au, college setting. halloween memories. heeseung creates his last minute halloween costume works note: this is a re uploaded work (in case you felt deja vu lol)

you gasped for air as you arrived on a flash after receiving a text from your boyfriend ‘sos, need your help asap’ you read after getting out of your class making you run back to his place.

"I´m here hee! what's the emergency? you said out loud looking for him, silence. the center area of the apartment was dark and no noise was heard worrying you. "love?" you said while looking for him "where are you?"

a muffled angry sigh came out of the lit-up walk-in closet in heeseungs room

"is everything okay hee? I got worried you were not answering when I called you”. you said opening the door and seeing clothes all over the floor and heeseung with your makeup bag on the counter, rubbing his face with a makeup brush.

you looked at him in pure silence shocked to see his face smeared in red, the white towels covered with the same paint with blue strokes, and your red lipstick open and broken on top of it.

"what's going on?" was the only thing that came out of your mouth.

heeseung sighed again, "the guys want to go to a halloween party and they told me last minute, I'm trying to plan my costume"

you looked at his face, then you observed the pile of clothes and you looked back at him bursting out laughing.

"baby, don´t laugh" he whined at you looking helpless.

"sorry, sorry," you said still observing him curiously "and what are you supposed to be?" you asked hearing his gasp as you finished your question.

"is it not obvious?" he asked while you stayed silent "baby! of course I'm david bowie," he said while opening his arms to further his explanation.

you could see the vision but between his messy hair, the strokes on his face, and the outfit separated on the side. the image of seeing heeseung stressed over a costume, made you start laughing again.

"babyy, stop laughing, I tried my best" he groaned closing the distance and holding your waist. "I can see," you said caressing his cheek full of lipstick. "can you fix it?" he asked with pleading eyes.

you held his face looking at his mess "I can't do miracles love" you said jokingly as he gave you a deadpan look.

"okay okay, I think I can help you," you said moving his face around and realizing he had lipstick up his hairline "let's try to fix it okay?"

he kissed your cheek smearing all the makeup now on your face. as you turned around still in his arms you saw all the makeup on both of your faces in the mirror breaking into a fit of laughter again.

"stop laughing at me babe," he repeated squeezing your waist.

"sorry, it just looks…" you started again trying to start a game plan to fix it in a short amount of time. you let go of him before going to your designated drawer in his room with your stuff "I'll grab some makeup remover, don't move" you said kissing his cheek not caring anymore about the mess.

as you left to grab that you turned back to see him "you know it would´ve been easier to be a vampire right?" you said before making your way back to his room in between laughs.

tagging: @k-nets @k-films @en-diaries

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well, it’s kind of back !!

secret proposals

smau series masterlist *slow updates*

lee heeseung x f!reader fluff fake dating, upperclass!heeseung, new money!reader, aged up characters, inspired in kdramas, vibes of rivals to lovers and grumpyxsunshine

warnings: strong language, mentions of xenophobia and misogyny, parental issues

featuring: jay(enhypen), sunghoon(enhypen), jake (enhypen), jiwoo (runext), yunjin (le sserafim)

in which while trying to avoid being sent to more blind dates and a future arranged marriage, lee heeseung decides to fake date the only person he knows his parents will not try to set him up with.

started: jan 8

PROFILES ONE PROFILES TWO

ONE a win in my books

TWO grateful I'm not a nepobaby

THREE soft launching on main

BONUS the chaotic dinner, the ban of a company and the start of a friendship written

FOUR I'm contacts

FIVE operation: find heeseung a girlfriend

SIX a not work-related proposal

SEVEN another day impersonating a pr manager

EIGHT the secret deal written

NINE (everyone knew)

TEN food=bestie

ELEVEN knowing you written

TWELVE (for now)

BONUS colliding worlds

THIRTEEN my boy only breaks his favorite toys written

FOURTEEN *gasps*

FIFTEEN part one you’re the worst of my crimes written

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lee heeseung x fem reader smau series

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FIFTEEN (PART ONE) you´re the worst of my crimes wc: 1550

contains: parental issues, issues in general that may make him still a bit unlikeable

the inner monologue of lee heeseung

saying people could not understand the struggles lee heeseung was facing would be the biggest way to remark on the insane privilege he had. he was a handsome young man, the son of the chairman of a successful company; he was smart, he grew up with the fanciest clothes and going to the nicest schools, he had made his own money and established himself in the industry while still having a trust fund bigger than what a normal person could imagine.

he could pretty much do nothing and make himself richer just by breathing.

except he didn’t, he learned at the young age of 14 that there were clear expectations in a family like his, and he understood that as much as his family claimed to be different in front of the cameras, the same basis was set into his life, he was always meant to be the spare of a company, a shadow if you will, even if he genuinely had a passion for something, he could never be better than lee seunghan.

the heir, the best, the older brother he wished he didn’t have, his brother was not brilliant; he was simply average, but being the oldest son meant everything, he could have failed an entire course but he would still be the golden child, heeseung never understood that.

how was he meant to compete with something he would never be able to change?

his parents kept pushing and pushing, trying to get him to try harder, but not hard enough, it was a push-and-pull game he never truly understood.

Why? Why bother?

the first eight years of his life were better, there was not a lot of competition, eight-year-old heeseung would probably claim that he got along well with his brother. It wasn't until lee seunghan was ten that he was introduced to what one day would be his, the leiras automotive company. leiras meant everything to the lee family, a small family that focused their every resource on turning a small company that manufactured car parts into designing and producing their own cars that were being used in almost all of asia, he heard stories of how his grandparents struggled economically to create the company, he remembered one of the only times he saw his father smile being the time the company secured the exportation deal that got the company out of south korea.

he was well aware leiras meant everything to his family and he worked his butt off to belong in it.

but listening to the talks of the relatives calling his brother the heir and the new ceo stung his heart, he remembered he would never be able to aspire to be more than a director in the company, his ladder stood lower than the one lee seunghan had.

still, he kept trying and holding on, hoping that maybe one day his parents would wake up and realize that capability and passion were more important than age and status, he wanted it to be a fair succession race.

but after every meeting, he realized he was still a child wishing for the unimaginable.

he was well aware that he could not trust anyone; when he was in his early twenties the media ate him alive, the bachelor who would never commit was born after multiple photos leaked when he was sent on the blind dates his parents organized, he learned those leaks came from inside, because who would people trust more in a company?

the popular and young heartbreaker? or the pristine older brother?

he didn’t want to hate his brother, he was also a pawn in the capitalistic views of his family but still deep inside he felt rancor, he resented him a lot, heeseung knew he wasn’t as passionate as himself, yet he never tried to step down or come to an arrangement, he was fully comfortable benefiting from that flawed system and deep inside him he understood that, if he had the chance of being born as the first son he would’ve been unstoppable.

the life he lived was pretty much decided by other people, he was not used to the idea of doing something because of his wants, his life was rigged by what people needed of him. even though he was a full-grown adult he was still speaking with the people his parents approved of. he was lucky enough that his friends were from wealthy families and that his parents didnt fully opposed it.

since he turned twenty-five the talks of marriage for succesion started being heard in the halls of his family home (and maybe his frontal lobe finished developing) he started "acting out" which was pretty much him being selfish for the first time in his life. he started making secret business with his father's blacklisted companies because he clearly was more bothered by his ego than by their capabilities; heeseung created in a year an amazing team making his department the most lucrative in the work division, he moved out and started living alone.

he was finally doing okay and he was finally proud of his work and convictions.

until everything got ruined by his parent's plans. and he underestimated the amount of pressure he could feel now that their eyes were on him.

he felt out of control and just like he felt at 18 right before going to business school or at 22 when he was sent to work at the company and he felt stressed from just thinking of what his coworkers thought of him from entering through the door just by being the boss son.

heeseung was falling, he was losing it. he hated not being in control of everything which was ironic since he was well aware that said control was limited by the people in higher power than him. he felt trapped and unable to think of a way to get away from it.

he could leave, quit the company, and risk being disowned, but he was scared, all his life working and preparing himself for having the same job and following the life his parents created way before he was able to talk.

but the feeling of the unknown was even more scary for him than the idea of following the steps that were drawn for him.

until he saw the girl who kept reaching for his hand coming back to him, even when he hurt her, and when he was embarrassing himself in front of her, he could not understand her, why was kang yn so nice to him? can people really not be interested in money? or connections? how can a relationship like that work?

Heeseung could not understand her even though he spent almost every afternoon with her for more than a month. they were raised differently and he understood how having a support system could mold the view of the world. and she was keen on sharing her lifestyle with him, even when they did not enjoy spending time alone together, she got along with the people near him, and sharing time with her started to get less and less annoying.

he started feeling comfortable with someone new for the first time in a while. but he was the best at self-sabotaging the little happiness he was able to feel. he felt unworthy of that, he finally started to know the feeling of wanting something and he was aware that those feelings were not aligned with his career and future path.

heeseung didnt even gave himself the chance of admitting he felt something when he first kissed her at the party; even less after knowing he fucked up the little chances he still allowed to feel he had of having something real with her. after many drinks he felt comfortable with himself admitting that he was a fool by not thinking of a way to protect her, she hid a lot of her relationships with the people he knew and he was aware that there was not enough trust with each other.

and still, he burned the bridge even before it was built just by staying silent while people gave backhanded comments he was not aware existed, after a while comments about him fell on deaf ears but he was selfish enough to forget that kang yn was still new to that atmosphere.

he was not that dumb, he knew he fucked up; but he was a proud man, he wouldn't admit it to anyone but himself, mainly because of the fact that he did not know how to fix it.

there was not a single part of him that did not regret how things went down, but he knew there was no way in hell she didn't hate him when she had every right to, and that made him scared of trying to fix it. he knew it was better for her to hate him when he didn't even know how to keep her in his life while not hurting her any longer.

even in his drunk mind, he was conscious enough he was not in the right place to be with her any time soon, at least until he found a way to fix himself and the issues around being with lee heeseung.

so why is she still reaching out to him?

note: and we’re back!!! well kinda, it’s still going to have slow updates but I’m not letting the story go

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and I would’ve married you, if you’d have stuck around

𓍯𓂃 angst lee heeseung x female reader works word count: 1148 non-idol au. the fall of a relationship and the period waiting for the end. contains: break ups, long distance relationship, flashbacks on italics

as people grow apart and new relationships start, sometimes old ones tend to die alone, with more questions than answers, without villains or heroes; relationships you expected to last long end up being the thing you now long. the moments spent together in rose color glasses become dull and full of hurt, and the wishes you made of never forgetting those moments of happiness come back remembering the promise; only this time, the person you shared them with is not with you anymore to reminiscence them.

growing out of relationships always tends to hurt, but the fact that this was a romantic relationship that had the build-up of your life meant that it was also going to ache for maybe as long as he was part of your life.

the worst part tends to be ending because of a fight and the feeling of regret for ever choosing to be with a person like that. Sadly, this was not the case; each other's personalities were the perfect match, you got along well, and you became friends with each other's friends. you always felt like your relationship was the closest thing to perfection.

until it wasn't.

trying to pinpoint the moment you knew this relationship was nearing its end was impossible for your mind. it was unknown to you if it was your subconscious trying to protect you or the fact that it really came out of the blue. as days went out and you went from crying all night to finally starting to go back to the routine you realized just how much was he a part of your life. the fact that you were living your life as if nothing happened was not the easiest thing when you remembered you could not call him at the end of the day.

saying his name hurt, thinking about him ached, and the fact that the place you still lived at was a graveyard of memories would not help you from thinking that maybe if you called his number, he would answer and come to you.

"what happened?" he asked while catching his breath after opening the door of your apartment.

"I just hurt my finger with the hammer," you said while running your hand through the cold water in the kitchen sink.

dried tears in your warm cheeks were apparent to him so while he ran for your first aid kit his voice echoed throughout the walls. "I told you to wait till I came to help, you were just so excited right?"  

and he told you about his day while bandaging up your finger and helping you finish assembling the new bookshelf  

and now that same bookshelf that holds some of your favorite framed photos with him seated empty in the living room. breakups are usual in people's lives, but maybe you would have more of a reason to be sad and depressed if he had been a shitty boyfriend, or if he had cheated, but instead, he had been the perfect boyfriend for all the two years you had been together.

he broke up with you. on a cold night in your daily facetime call, he was sad, and tired and it hurt you to see him hurting, the easiest way to make him hurt less was to accept his request between sighs.

"i think we should break up"  

the sinking feeling in your stomach was still there, you wanted to fix whatever there was to fix, but nothing would fix something that was not entirely broken, he was, and your relationship was suffering. even if you tried to reach out he was not trying to hold you any longer.

he was your everything. he was the only constant thing in your life for a long long time, he was your friend before he was your boyfriend. and now, as much as you hate to say it, he was gone and he continued his life miles away from you while you felt like everything around you was falling apart.

“It’s just going to be for a year okay? I’ll be back soon” heeseung said holding you closer while laying on his bed with you.

you were helping him pack, putting you feelings aside while he put his life away in suitcases.

“I’m going to miss you a lot” you whispered while holding back tears and hugging him harder.

“I’ll miss you too, but I’ll call you every night to tell you that I love you okay?” He reassured you with a kiss on you head and a warm pat on your back.

oh, how naive you were thinking thinking you’d be the exception to you friend group bad experiences with long distance.

what where you going to do now? where would you put all of his stuff that stayed at his place? where would you store all his gifts and photos? where would you hold all the love you felt for him?

what. comes. next?

your heart was broken, your tears were dry, you felt like everything was over and that felt out of character. he was yours for a while and you needed to move on since you were unable to turn back time, but why was it so hard?

is he hurting to? is he having a hard time falling asleep? did he threw away your gifts? you hoped you were not the only one feeling this way, but still, you were not brave enough to ask, scared of the sheer chance that he was better off.

you wanted to hold on a little longer to these selfish feelings you had, to hold onto the memories, to the kisses and the late night calls. to the hope that maybe this was a nightmare and you would wake up back in his arms, that this relationship was not over and that the issues could be fixed, you were dreaming that maybe you could save yourself from the doom of this heartbreak.

but every morning, as the morning came, doomsday came along reminding you of the fact that you were still miles away from him, with a numbness inside you and unable to move on from a love like his.

your life will go on, and so will his, there will come a time where lee heeseung will be a memory of your past, and maybe you’ll be okay with that; okay with not knowing what made him want to break up with you, okay with him finding someone new. one day that won’t be a big deal.

but for now you still have those questions, and they take away your sleep, you still love him and it will take a long time to unlearn how to do it, and you’ll watch him move on through pictures and post of his friends, and you’ll hope he’s happy. so much happier than how he was with you.

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