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spent an embarrassing amount of money on corazones cd

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hello, silly jlaudio from like 3 weeks ago

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the concept of jorge making an entire album insp by loreto yet having time to write a petty song about claudio…. sounds about right

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this made me giggle ngl

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Ok

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just read jorges anon dms to claudio IM ENDING IT ALL RIGHT NOW WHAT THE FUCK?????

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-> (biografía de una amistad spoilers?) um most of this post is my INITIAL thoughts on the ch/has been sitting in drafts, its my third time rereading it technically. this will be pretty long so i’ll just be using jorge’s and claudio’s initials for the sake of not being repetitive and include translated quotes of their convos/text from the book for some context. i just really need to write my thoughts on this or i’ll go insane

i was filled w so many thoughts and emotions reading their exchanges i actually teared up the first time im serious.... their relationship is so complex i’ve never seen anything else like it. its genuinely difficult to put into words, and thats ME saying it as a fan. not even they understand in its entirety how to define their friendship i think. its heartbreaking how jorges mental illness combined w his addiction got the best of him and his bond with claudio. i can’t help but feel for him as he reminisces about their youth and shared memories, wanting c to remind him of their past as often as possible, taking in consideration his lack of memory bc of health issues.

j repeatedly calls himself a coward in these texts and accepts he cannot speak face to face (not even on call) about the emotional damage hes caused c throughout the years and his true feelings towards him. hes deeply ashamed of everything hes done. it reminds me of when c sent a harsh message to j on myspace during the time of the karola jolie emails, j replied “nicely” wishing him well and said if it was really him messaging him as it was hard to believe, c told him to stop acting stupid as he had no reason to be messaging random ppl, and j didnt reply back bc of his avoidant personality. he does not want confrontation AT ALL. he was so used to c being passive and never standing up for himself that he was taken aback.

“unfortunately it’s difficult for me to talk about it up front even if it’s a call… you know me and you know i’ll never do it simply because i cannot.”

“i’m a coward and you know it. i’ll deny it and pretend this never happened, you know me.”

j has always presented himself as tough and rebellious to the public, so its no surprise he wants to maintain that image and not openly admit hes in contact with c or recognize his wrongdoings. in part he puts up this image to conceal his sensitive side, so people don’t take advantage of him as he states here:

“[…] but if i showed vulnerability people took advantage and i don’t like insolent people.”

he expresses desire in meeting with c but holds back bc the old him wouldn’t do that and they have a “feud.” highlighting the fact the media would be very annoying about a possible reconciliation.

“i would like you to come over and drink mate and talk about music or those walks although you’d have to help me. but it would cause a hot mess. and if you don’t feel secure come with one of your kids […].”

“it’d be nice to see you and talk like in the old days and laughing would do me good. but it makes me nervous or scared. i did ugly things and i’m ashamed […] i feel awkward talking to you and act as if i had done nothing. i’m also embarrassed.”

its understandable bc getting into drama at this point of his life is not ideal and would only make things worse for both of them. i just wish there was a way for j and c to properly make amends in person privately without j’s family or the media hovering over him. its known he no longer manages his social media himself due to his health issues but thats another topic. fuck his brother marco tho… won’t ever forgive him for extracting the vocals from amigo and being shady towards clau. stay out of their business PLEASE

in the early 2000s the media had painted j as an asshole when they were the ones who harassed him and pushed him to his limits constantly. its funny how hes now put on a pedestal and receives all sorts of acknowledgements, ig the media picked a side after all. however i find it extremely sad how j heavily dislikes the fame and the constant praise he gets, which in his own words, is very suffocating.

“i have felt drowned and loved, admired so much it suffocates…”

claudio: “it’s complicated, what he always sought is to be recognized, but everything indicates it overwhelms him.”

on a lighter note, i think its very sweet that on j’s anon insta acc he’d post personal pics (such as never b4 seen los presos pics) and upload stories only c could view. and would send cat reaction pics in their chat 🥹🥹😭😭 i love him sm you don’t understand. ++ how he jokingly told c he replaced him w lucho LMAO. felt jealous i see…

j claims hes softened after the stroke he suffered in 2015, which c believes but not totally bc of his contradictory actions. he says j’s introspection on his past actions is very surface level, as he expected him to reflect deeply w all the long questions he asked him during their convo. in their chats, c had the opportunity to confront j and write him harsh words about his past actions, but he realized hes not the same and did in fact change apparently due to his illness so his reproaches suddenly made no sense.

claudio: “i think he still can’t get to know himself completely, although he makes a self-criticism, it’s not very deep”

c: “it’s clear to me that he’s willing to recognize to me that he acted wrong, but not acknowledge it publicly.”

off topic but i HATE the ppl that downplay c’s contribution to the band and his experience as a member simply bc they run with j’s old statements about him, which he no longer upholds. calling c all sort of names and leaving hate comments when j himself doesn’t like seeing his own brother do that, much less his supposed “fans.” idolization is a disease.

i might just be biased but this is the best chapter and my favorite from the book. it leaves a lot of food for thought and gives the reader insight on a side of jorge we didn’t know about before. i thoroughly enjoyed reading this vulnerable side of him. its super interesting and i ofc love the convos between them (which understandably had to be ended </3), basically everything gets confirmed…. THE chapter for sure. theres so much more i want to say but let me end it here 😭 i dont play about jlaudio!!!! j telling c he was the first and the one he loved the most and referring to him as “my great best friend” and “dear friend” ouuuu give me a gun

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Ojitos de gato que dibujé para una amiga <3

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ofc jorge is interested in star signs 🙄

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también subo estos dibujos de los presos por acá

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WAWAWAWA FELIZ CUMPLE MI AMOR HERMOSOTEAMO

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feliz cumpleaños claudin

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anyways Happy birthday Claudio Narea 🎉🎉🎉🎉!!!!!

i hope you never see this

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AHHHHHH ES CUMPLE DE CLAUDIO

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alguien q tenga el libro ya viene la fuerza dime si vale la pena conseguirlo. la verdad me da un poco de ganas comprarlo solo para escanear las fotos ksksjjs

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this divaaaa

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Jugué imitación en gartic con amigos, dibujé el edit ese del beso y me lo destruyeron 💔💔

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No se dibujar a Miguel 💔💔 Coso rapido mientras estuve en Valpo (q rica q es La Dulcería...)