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Moon shaped anomaly in the sky tonight

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Tanaka Daisuke accessories S/S 2024

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effectively killing two of your protagonists who are actually the same protagonist by forcing them to develop into a kind of mutual twin-absorbed-in-the-womb type chimeric synthesis of each other thereby introducing a third new protagonist who is actually both and neither of them. and at the end of season two episode three no less.

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‘this is the nonsense of love’ mindy nettifee

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enemies to lovers but it's me and myself

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Silhouettes

21 x 29,7cm, ink on paper, Kevin Lucbert, 2024

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enemies to lovers but it's me and myself

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I died and came back the same but I let ppl think I came back wrong so they'll cut me some slack

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one of the trippiest things about unmasking ones autism/neurodiversity/insanity is that all selves are a mask, albeit to varying extents. the second you think you know who you are, it becomes a story you are telling yourself, and you will pressure yourself to align with it and ignore details to help make it fit. that is not to say the project of finding your self is pointless, simply that it never ends and it is the searching itself, the desire for the expression rather than the expression itself, that is you. and there are and will be many of those yous, and they will never stop changing. certain fictional selves we make (or that society foists upon us) certainly fit worse than others, but the ones that fit well are more like roles it's fun to sometimes play than they are anything static and certain. we are found in the becoming not in the being. in the search not the finding. you understand what im saying

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“I don’t miss him anymore. Most of the time, anyway. I want to. I wish I could but unfortunately, it’s true: time does heal. It will do so whether you like it or not, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it. If you’re not careful, time will take away everything that ever hurt you, everything you have ever lost, and replace it with knowledge. Time is a machine: it will convert your pain into experience. Raw data will be compiled, will be translated into a more comprehensible language. The individual events of your life will be transmuted into another substance called memory and in the mechanism something will be lost and you will never be able to reverse it, you will never again have the original moment back in its uncategorized, preprocessed state. It will force you to move on and you will not have a choice in the matter.”

— Charles Yu, How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe

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the suicidal ideation man who lives in my brain and i kind of have a weird sex thing going on im ngl

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do you still remember? 

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how to become commander of friend group

how to establish political control of friendgroup

friend group organisational structure google

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change isnt even that scary. i am literally inhabited by a different soul every time i wake up like the last renter dies during the night and the landlord silently moves in the next spirit desperate to be whole again. and im fine

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i need to stop assuming people are lying