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psychospore · 11 months

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In the darkness, In the daylight

Loki Laufeyson x reader (you)

warnings: break up, feeling alone, melancholic but happy ending, poetry (made by me), fluff, angst, regret, distance, asshole Loki, mean Loki, body insecurity, loki is an bitch but he gets better, smut, details of genitals, sex, p in v, praise, a lot of praise. Sweet Loki, lovable Loki and non loveable Loki.

I would like to thank Dorothy for requesting this, you are a star! this is for you. @purple-amaranthe

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Stay

I know this is no coincidence

A feeling of tightness in my chest

Would not be of significance

If it wasn’t for your oppressed conquest

I would’ve trusted that smile you gave for me

and the softness in your eyes

at night I thought it was our destiny

but now I wonder if this was only for me, it underlies

you promised me forever

but all I see is me dancing with another body

I say, never say never

so where is our intertwined melody

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A perfect melancholic scene of rainfall and loud rattles of thunder late at night is surrounding you, every couple of minutes of silence that would be held, there would be a bright strike of lightening outside your bedroom window. Though, you found it very relaxing, distracting you from why you were laying on your bed staring up at the ceiling as thoughts flooded your mind.

The sound of beeping and echoes of computers in the study, keeping up with automatic requests your father, Tony Stark had set for the day .while the avengers were out on a mission, leaving you to the tower alone…well you had Jarvis who reminded you every couple of minutes when they would be back.

As soon as you heard the front door click open you instantly escaped out of your bedroom and ran down stairs to find them.

Your heart was beating rapidly, hoping all of them were back but most importantly the one who stole your heart the second he laid eyes on you, when he was imprisoned downstairs in a cell because he had been…rather bad.

Your father, Tony had set you up to “babysit” Loki when he first came to the tower. Tony said that the God had been bad and he didn’t trust him to not escape.

So, You took the opportunity because out of everything, Your father didn’t let you do anything. So here you are, tiny girl who wanted to be involved bossing a 6,2ft man around.

Your father wasn’t involved in feeding Loki so you took upon yourself to cook for him instead, it was like they all forget about the God locked up in this tiny cell with nothing. You even brought down a mattress and pillow and blankets if he got cold.

At first you knew he was only being benign with you because he wanted to escape. However after a while you found yourself trusting him, he let you inside his cell and you even ate with him, he read books to you, and even napped with you if you found yourself falling asleep to his reading.

However after the team heard you rattling on about how the God was letting you inside his cell one afternoon at the dining table, they went crazy.

Speaking of how Loki was not your friend, nor was he someone to be friends with or even be near, they started wondering they should’ve stopped you even babysit him.

With every inch of worth that HE taught you, you had you screamed at the top of your lungs about how he wasn’t like anything they were saying, he wasn’t a villain, and certainly wasn’t a monster, he is just misunderstood and needed a true friend.

They didn’t trust you for a while but when they started seeing you smiling more and more they knew you weren’t lying.

Some wondered if Loki had put a spell on you, his brother was most concerned about this.

After a few months, they let him out of the dark cell but only if he would join the avengers and he agreed. They thought it was because of you, and that was thoroughly true.

However they didn’t realise how close you two had become, he was now your first everything.

You hoped he was your last everything too.

But now you’re not too sure.

You got to the last step where you hung your hand on the banister of the staircase, watching as they all entered the room.

“Hello Lady, Y/n. Had fun by yourself? Thor winked at you as he went past causing you to roll your eyes. “No not really” you chuckled a little as you laid your head on the railing, until you saw the raven curls you could spot anywhere.

You quickly jumped off the last step when you found yourself excitedly looking up at the God Of Mischief, who hadn’t even acknowledged you were there.

“How was it?!” You smiled happily, since you were finally able to see the man you missed all day long.

“Fine, it was fine” he nodded, looking down at you for a split second before he walked past you.

“Reindeer games can you hand me the objects we found, so we can investigate them?” Tony waved over Loki as your heart was threatening to break.

For a while now, you’ve realised the distance in him. He never seemed to be around, even if he was physically sometimes it didn’t seem like it..it seemed like it was just one of his illusions.

You missed his warmth, the soft kisses he gave you every second of the day. There was not a single moment he went without kissing you or telling you he loved you. He was always clinging to you, holding your hand or touching you anywhere possible.

It didn’t feel like he was emotionally here with you, either.

He seemed to not care about you anymore, usually he would tell you how much you meant to him, or how special you are or how much you a worth. How you and him were forever…

Though none of that happens anymore.

Now the most you get from the God is a nod or a simple bitter remark sent your way.

Though you knew Loki can be bitter but he was bitter sweet with you. Now he was just a bitch.

You were beginning to wonder if the God had fell out of love with you and to tell the truth you could see why. You were only mortal, nothing special, you knew you were barley on the chart of standards in Asgard.

Plus, he was a God worth the prettiest Goddess in the world.

And that was not you, it’ll never be you.

You weren’t only loosing him, he was loosing you.

With the fall of your smile you ran upstairs to your room and slammed the door.

The tears threatened to fall as you paced back and forth, your bare feet meeting the cool wooden floor.

All you could think of was; why do you try so hard all the time and nothing ever works out for you, why did the world seemingly hate you all the time. For the first time you thought the world was on your side.

Only for a little while.

You heard footsteps follow outside your bedroom door, hearing the door open and close behind you.

You threatened to turn around and face him, but you took the risk. Staring at him with storms in your eyes, tears soaking your warm cheeks.

He didn’t even look at you at first until he wondered why you were staring at him for so long.

“What’s wrong with you?” Loki stared back at you, with a clean face but anger in his eyes.

You spotted it right away because those eyes you didn’t recognise.

“What’s wrong with me?” You seethed, almost chuckling to yourself.

“I can’t do it anymore Loki, I am sorry. I can’t” you shook your head.

“Why do you keep me locked up in your mind as if I don’t matter to you anymore?! I understand that we thought that was best if we didn’t speak of our love out loud at first but you were still there with me… now you’re not anymore. The avengers love you now so I don’t understand why you’ve turned the tables on me..as if I am a secret hidden in a drawer.” your eyes stung with hopelessness.

“For fuck sakes- You’ve got to be so indulgent in yourself all the time. I have finally got my life back and you’re sitting here crying because I’m not giving you attention. This is all you do, stay in this tower and do nothing, why would I want to show you off, There is nothing to show off” He spat back at you.

For a moment it struck him more than you for what just came out of his mouth.

You just stood there in shock, it hurt more because he knew it wasn’t your decision, you weren’t aloud to do anything.

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean that-“ he began to walk over to you but you immediately took a step backwards.

“No- I-“ you gasped. “Is that really what you think of me? Is that why you won’t touch me? Because you think I’m too fat for you? Wow, that was cruel…” you pushed past the God but he grabbed your arm

“There was no fucking- your Loki. I told you the first time you met me, I am a Monster y/n. A monster.” He bent down a little to you, A wide unsettling smile formed on his lips that met his eyes.

“No you’re- So you’re saying you used me, thanks Loki. Great. Fuck you” you screamed. “Oh please don’t, I would rather fuck a horse than you, I could’ve fuck this whole town and you wouldn’t know” he seethed making you gasp. All the trust you ever had in him or the words he said to you now had faded. “good!!!, go fuck a stupid horse. Get out of my room” you screamed but he wouldn’t let you go but you wouldn’t look back at him, you couldn’t.

“Loki, please let me go” you began sobbing instantly and that’s when he really realised what he had done. “Y/n I am so so so sorry, I didn’t mean- you’re not-“ he tried to pull you into him but you just sobbed harder. “Please” you finally looked back at him and he instantly let go of you.

For the first time he saw the hurt in your eyes that was caused by him, he was suppose to be your person…forever. He had promised.

“I didn’t mean that…y/n I truly didn’t. I am so sorry- I just I was so scared I was just going to loose you…I know it’s my fault I am sorry. I promise darling-…” he quickly followed after you but you slammed the door in his face but he hurried after you, once again.

“You said it yourself you don’t need me Loki. I am worthless to you.” You turned around to face him and left him in the darkened hallway. “You have lost me, I am done” you looked over your shoulder before slamming the door of the bathroom, where you cried and cried till you could no more.

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A few weeks have past, and well…You haven’t been doing well, at all. Spending all your days and nights in your bedroom, not proving Loki wrong because you knew he was right.

Though you had to pretend everything was okay because no one knew you and Loki were a thing. But everyone had noticed the change in you…that smile Loki had brought out on you had completely vanished but they also noticed how quiet you were now.

Thor noticed this especially. He was your first friend within the group of avengers.

He did try his best to talk to you or make you laugh but there wasn’t anything you could say because they didn’t know about you two.

But…then there were times you had to come out of your room.

Unfortunately it was worse than staying in your room all alone each day.

Loki was always there when you were, it was like a curse. His back was always turned to you but as soon as he felt your presence he would turn to face you. Though you would force no eye contact between the two of you, even if there was a split second you would have his eyes on yours.

He felt awful for how he treated you, he knows you didn’t deserve the words he said but he was angry at himself, so he threw harsh words at you, he knows it wasn’t the right thing to do at all, which is why he decided to leave you alone.

Your cries hurt his soul, he could hear your cries at in his nightmares, keeping him up at night, only to be reminded he was the one who caused you pain,

And if it couldn’t get worse..though he kept to his word. The God started bringing women to your own home, that looked nothing like you, to your old shared bedroom and at night you could hear him fucking her, her moans and screams of his name.

And now, here you are at the front lines of your mind, trying to be the bravest solider for yourself but you don’t know how long it’s going to last.

This shouldn’t be happening

its already dark at 8 am

and the bright glow in me

cannot be found in my heart

when will I start something new

oh, I found it

oh, there it goes

I can no longer chase after it

I’m reading my name on a grave stone

I know this isn’t me

And this shouldn’t be happening

I want to be free

From this never ending catastrophe

All I am doing is dangling my feet

Into my imagining

I’m so afraid I’ll jinx it

With my pleading

The spark of hope at the end of my fingertips

Can not draw out the plan I wished to have

And I don’t think it’ll be returning

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Unfortunately you had been asked by your father to attend one of his speeches, to come along beside him and say a few words..

The entire day you had been in fitting rooms with Natasha, finding the right gown for you. You weren’t necessary a gown or dress kinda girl but you felt like a princess in the ones you had to choose from.

“No, no no you look like a child in this one. Y/n….pleaseeee we both want you to show off your natural beauty, you’re beautiful girl but no one has ever seen you in your natural light. Plus we may..just may get someone’s attention” she winked, making your insides churn as soon as she mentioned the one person who you wanted to never see in your life ever again.

“We’ve got to get that Chloe girl out of this building and quickly…..” She gripped your hand before spinning you around. “Perfect” she nodded.

Of course Natasha picked out the most dangerous gown of them all. A red gown that fitted you snuggly but perfectly, giving no room for a single drop of imagination because all of you were there in the open…for Loki to see.

You drove in the car with Thor and Natasha to the conference ceremony, let’s just say you were dreading it.

“My lady” Thors voice echoed outside your mind as you realised you were already here, he was holding the door open for you. “Thank you, Thor” you nodded, giving him a gentle smile.

He took your arm in his and took you inside.

You found your seat and kept your low, fading into the distance as much as you could. It didn’t help as each person who came past would say hi to you, knowing your irons mans daughter. You

Kind of hated it, you wanted to be known for you but nobody even knew you truly.

As the conference began, your leg had been fidgeting the entire time, bouncing up and down.

Until you saw a gentlemen with a tray of wine, politely taking one from the rack. You chugged the liquid down as if it was the end of the world.

“You’ll be fine, miss y/l/n”. Thor spoke, nodding to you. The blonde God kind of drained out the fear in you for a while until you heard your name thunder around you.

“Please my daughter, y/n y/l/n has a final speech prepared for us. Would you like to come up y/n?” Tony waved you over to the stage when you got up from your seat.

It was then you realised how many people there were in this room, over 20,000 people were here. For a moment it made you feel dissy but you didn’t let it fail you, like many things before.

You began to walk onto the stage as a man helped you up the steps, your gown dragged along behind you as you finally reached the pole, where you looked onto the crowd.

Your eyes wanted to roam for whom you missed but you felt too many eyes on you, it was a secret oath to never be looked upon.

Gently, you cleared your throat before you began.

“We loose what we often think will be our end of time, what comes to our mind when we hear the word mine, and its probably the worst feeling you’ll ever have, for worser or for better. However down the line we see people true worth, what they really meant to us now or then. You never know what they think of you until they say the words directly to you, for worser or better. For the better I had a person who I believed was my end of time and came to my mind when I heard the word mine, however it was not forever. Every night when I go to bed I wonder if there is some else out there who is better for me who wont cause me to feel thoughts that feel unending but I really don’t think there is.” You pause for a second, looking out to the crowd searching for the God who broke your heart and when you spot him, his eyes twinkingly in the light that shone above you, but the tears sting to the bone.

“But what I do know, is even if they may hate you or you may hate them, at least they made you feel like it is perfect timing or at home for a moment in time because you may not go home ever again. A place where you go only at night when the tide is in and there no is drought to cover your wounds. you often wonder if they’re doing the same or they’re in another forbidden happy world without you. You miss them but you cannot call out to them because they have a life without you, it’s for the better.”

You breathe in a shallow breath as you try not to choke on your own tears, swallowing as you tore your teary eyes from the one person, who you wished you could run into their arms and cry a river without feeling hopeless. However he is not yours anymore and you must leave him behind.

Without thinking you hear a thunderous amount of clapping stirring you to the wake. you forgot you were even doing a speech, you were only speaking to the one person in the room who had stood up the moment your name was announced.

The girl beside him, Chloe tried pulling him back down next her but he wouldn’t budge…not for her but for you.

You began to walk off the stage when Natasha looked at you with an ‘what the fuck was that’ look on her face with a huge grin. You just shrugged as Thor took you into his arms. “I told you could do it, lady y/n!!! That was amazing!!!” he nodded.

“Thank you!” You smiled at them both as you saw Loki coming your way, a ‘fuck’ was thrown under your breath as you began to squeeze past the crowded room.

“Y/n! Please wait…wait please” Lokis voice followed behind you. “Please” his voice gentle than ever before. “Yes, Loki” you sighed before turning around to face him. “I never knew… you could do that. That was absolutely beautiful darling…I didn’t know you could write so well” he smiled down at you, his eyes wondering over every part of you that was open to him. Natasha’s obsessive plan seemed to work…not that you wanted it too. “You look-“ but before he could say anything you cut him off. “Yep- fat I know. I remember what you said” you rolled your eyes as you began to walk out the door, your body meeting the cool air outside, sighing you inhaled the fresh air that you sincerely needed. “No! I- y/n I was an idiot. I was selfish. I know I was mean. I was truly a monster that night. I just I warned you I am not who you think I am but you kept going and -“ you cut him off again as you crossed your arms. “Loki. will you ever shut up and listen to me?. You are not a fucking monster. I will forever and keep telling you that. So, Stop saying it!” You snapped at him. “You were the one person who wasn’t the monster and you never were the monster, you were the light in the darkness, the firefly that lead me home at night in a Darkened alleyway. You were my life. You were the reason I found me! I loved you for you! You showed me things I didn’t know were possible. I thought the world of you.” You sighed as you walked up to him. “Maybe I am not a goddess and certainly am not as beautiful as whoever that girl is but at least I loved you for you! tell me the truth does she know you? Or does she just know how big your cock is?” You stared up at him.

It was the first time you had actually seen him this way before, tears threading to fall..he was being vulnerable for the first time with anybody. He did not expect you to say any of that. For one, he thought you hated him. Well, you did at the time but not anymore because you’re an adult, not a child.

“I know you didn’t mean it Loki, but you said it and it was cruel of you, you’re correct. But then you went and made it worse. We weren’t even over and you left me to watch you go off with someone else. That’s what hurts more” you shook your head as tears began to fall from your eyes but so did he. “Y/n… I am so sorry, I really am. i didn’t mean it at all. You’re so beautiful, you know I love every part of you.. your smile, your laugh, every inch of your body and I promise you, you’re not fat you’re perfect, truly a goddess. I am the one unworthy of you. you were the most kindest person to me, you did so much for me and I gave nothing back. You deserve someone so much more than me and that’s why I left.” He spoke quickly, worried he would say something wrong again however this was all the truth as you search in his emerald eyes that did not twinkle the way you missed them doing.

For a moment the two of you stared at one another until you both collapsed into one another’s arms, how long you missed this, how long you’ve wished for this. Just to be close to him.

His hand fell to the back of your head as he pulled you closer into him. “Please don’t let me go again, I cant live without you. I am so sorry, I am so sorry. I promise I’ll be better, I’ll be better for you but I cant do this anymore” he squeezed you tighter just as Chloe came out of the building as well, seeing the both of you obviously sharing an intimate moment.

“Loki!” Her voice shrieked, causing you to jump but he did not pull away nor let you pull away. “We’re done!” He waved her off as he pulled you away slightly, lifting your chin up. “You showed me many things, how to be me…actually me, the ravishing God that I am” he winked at you before he began again. “You showed me how to be silly, to have fun, to have someone care about you, to have someone believe in you, to have someone want to be your side without wanting something more, you just wanted me, you showed me love, to be loved, and how to love” he pushed a strand of hair behind your ear, he stared deeply into your eyes. “I want to be with you forever, I want you to be my for better” he chucked as you wiped his soaked cheeks with your thumbs. “I want you to be my for better, too” you nodded a smile forming on your lips as he captured it with a kiss, full of trust and hope.

His fingers gripped onto your hair before letting go repeatedly as the kiss grew more passionate, you both missed this feeling of one another. Closeness and foreverness that only the two of you shared, not with anyone other.

You both got so lost into one another’s forbidden happy world, you got distracted by the crowds of people leaving the conference room since it was finally over. Quickly you both pulled away from one another body when you heard Thors laughter before guiding you to different cars.

You couldn’t help but feel a little saddened that you are going to have to go back to the old ways, hiding away from the truth. You wanted people to know the two of you shared love for one another. You wanted people to know you had Loki as your lover, to know he was so much more worthy of peoples words. However for now, you were just extremely grateful you had loki back as yours.

“Hey! Someone looks happier…eh…did Loki say something? I saw him walk out with you. I told you the rep lipstick would work!” She nudged you as you giggled.

Thor got into the car as well after a little while, and then a few minutes later you were back at home.

You thought you would have to wait to see Loki again but you spotted the God outside the front of the stark tower, you didn’t even wait for Thor to help you outside of the car because Loki had already began opening the car door for you . “Thank you” you looked up at him with a huge smile.

He quickly walked after you as you looked back at him from over your shoulder. “I didn’t know you were going to wait for me” you said as he opened the front door for you as well, thanking him again. “I’m the God of mischief darling….you won’t know what’s up my mischievous sleeve” he quickly tried to find your hand as he followed you. Finally, finding your fingers he intertwined yours with his.

For a moment you stared at him blankly, this was forbidden before. “You can’t- what if they’ll see?” You turned on your heels immediately. “So?” He smirked at you causing you to realise what he was saying. “Wait? Really?” You asked excitedly before he captured your face in his hands, kissing you hard as ever before. Gently, he leaned you over the table behind you. “Really” he groaned against your lips. “I hope you know that you’re stuck with me now, mrs mischief” he gently bit down on your lip.

“Gorgeous girl, my beautiful girl” he tapped your thighs as you immediately widened them, trapping him in between your legs. “You know you are the most precious being on this entire galaxy? In every realm?, on every planet?” He placed wet kisses down your jaw. “Loki…stopppp” you giggled as he bit down onto the soft skin of your neck causing you to moan. “I’ll never stop darling, you’re mine” he giggled. “See I can be a poet too” he looked down at you with a soft but mischievous grin. “A ravishing women for a ravishing man” he kissed you all over your face. “Those moans are music to my ears pet, keep going.” He suckled bruises down the rest of your neck, shooting electricity down your thighs to your core.

“Oh my goodness !!!! Not on my coffee table!!! Off off off!!!” Tony screeched as he waved at the both of you, unbothered by the both of you being with each other.

Slowly you got off the coffee table but you and Loki had the same reaction…your father didn’t care about the two of you being together?

“I knew it!!!” Natasha screeched as she cheered at you from in-front of you as you peeked over Lokis shoulder. “I told you stark! They had it the moment the two met. I am so here for it! I’ve got to tell Wanda bye!” She quickly left the room.

You looked up at Loki who immediately picked you up, wrapping your legs round his waist. “They knew it” he kissed your nose as you quickly snuggled your head into his chest. “I missed you” you whispered as you began to kiss his neck, a place of forbidden sensitive places.

A low groan escaped the back of the Gods through as he tightened his grip on you. “You want them to know you’re mine, are you sure you’re ready?” He smirked as he laid you back down on the wooden table. “If you break his table he’ll kill us” you giggled as he widened your thighs in front of you. “I’ll buy him another” he winked at you but noticed you had not underwear on. “You have no knickers?” He frowned over at you. “I was…kind of hoping……I- I was ready for you” you chuckled a little as he began to unbuckle his shirt.

You both were in the main room so you were open to anybody walking in but you were ready for this, for him.

You looked up at the glass ceiling until you heard his belt buckle and immediately looked up at him. Your lip catching on your tooth as you felt your heart begin to race.

The sunlight reflecting from the glass onto the gods body was beautiful on his skin, making his entire silhouette glow.

He stood in front of you bare, his cock already hard and swollen, as he stared down at you with a mischievous glint in his eyes. “Let’s say, I too was hoping to have you tonight, dear” making you both giggle.

Slowly, he leaned over to you and pressed his lips to your neck as he began to unzip your red gown. Bruising the soft skin, marking you as his; to show off to everyone. He was done pretending with you, he wanted to start living with you.

He sucked harder onto your skin as he grew closer to the flesh of your breasts, skimming his lips over your nipples as you arched your back, allowing him to pull the gown fully off of you.

“Oh darling, you really are the most prettiest girl to Neptune and back” he took one of your sweet buds into his mouth, flickering the sensitive nipple over his tongue. “You- read my diary-“ you arched into him, your thigh skimming over his cock causing him to moan into your flesh.

A vibration sent straight to your core. “I know more than you think” he smirked. “Creepy” you gasped as he pushed your body down into the table. “Delectable” he kissed down your belly. “And you are beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.” He kissed a bruise into the soft skin of your insecurities.

“Loki…please” you shuddered as you wrapped your hand around his burning cock with the need of the release of your right walls. “Ah- pet” he arched into your touch. “Fuck me! I need you now!” You brought your other hand to his shoulder, gripping onto his skin, leaving marks on his body.

“Good girl, I love your sweet begging for my cock” he grabbed his cock lining himself up to your entrance, still wrapped with your hand around it. He dragged his tip up your soaked folds, causing him to shudder. Collecting all your arousal for the base of his cock as lubricant.

With a sudden thrust of his hips he was inside you, without a second later he began to fuck you like you asked.

You saw stars, feeling his cock drag in and out of your walls, feeling every ridge and bump or vein of his erection deep inside of you.

His cock diving perfectly in and out if you as if his cock was made for you. “Oh thank you, my God!” You screamed as he ruttered into you harder. The table shaking underneath you.

“That’s it! Say my name” he gripped onto your hands above your head as you watched each other grow closer and closer to your climax.

“Loki!, Loki!, Loki!” You screamed as he his pace grew quicker. The sound of his name rolling of your tongue made his mind go fuzzy, instantly both of you reaching your high together.

He fell on-top of your body, as he captured your lips on his, again. “I love you to Neptune and back, Loki” you kissed him hard.

“My table!!!” Tony screeched.

Forever promised

I’ve waited all my life

For you to spin me around and catch me back into your arms

I had a dream that our crimes

Would be resolved so that we won

Now I’m standing beside you as one

With my head dropped onto your shoulder

Looking into the distance of our once dead flower garden

That’s now covered in Glitter and Gold

The end will not tear us apart

Were stronger than ever before

We wont need a bookmark

To place in our world like that again

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psychospore · 1 year

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Imagine being a human in a poly relationship with Adam and Eve, and it’s great except neither of them can ever remember to bring home milk or other human things since you’re they’re not exactly used to getting such things lol.

It wasn't unusual for them to find interest in another person but it was quite unique that they should find interest in the same person. Adam and Eve loved their third partner more than life, the little human that lived under Adam's roof. They were lucky to find such light in the darkest of times, found themselves curled up together late at night. Safe from the horrors of the outside world, Adam moved another pawn on the board forward, hoping to get closer to the knight currently out on the board. Eve was cunning, a ruthless warmonger. He could count his victories on one hand at this point. Eve noticed the little human trotting about the kitchen, beelining for the refrigerator, Adam had to fix it recently. Knowing Y/N likes to keep her food in there, they kept their blood stored away in there whenever Ava wasn't around. Eve had started experimenting too, making those delicious blood pops with the freezer compartment. Genius, delightful little things. Adam smiled at their human companion as she opened the fridge, peering inside. His smile quickly faded as Y/N sighed and closed the fridge door.

''What's the matter darling?''

Y/N turns to Eve with a shrug, was there something wrong with the fridge? Did the blood go bad again? It could stink it up quite a bit, Adam made sure to not let that happen again. Y/N felt quite nauseous for a while afterwards, they were preparing her for the big step. It would be upon them soon enough, just a little longer.

''We don't have any milk left.''

Adam's brows furrowed, there was milk in the fridge yesterday. Where was the rest of it? Eve leans back in her chair, licking at her blood pop with a smile. Adam stood up and quickly headed for the fridge, half tearing the door open. Any harder and he would've yanked it off, not to worry though, he could easily put it back together.

''I swear I brought some in a week ago.''

Eve and Y/N both laugh, suppose he should start writing notes to himself. Bring a shopping list with him every time he goes out.

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Bot Dreaming Part 1 a 🌙High Moon Story

(Loki X Reader)

Summary: You are a kind projection bot of the scientist who created the AI technology that allowed Loki to live on as an augmented being after Thanos ended his life. You have sex with Loki and bake him pastries neither of you can eat. You also introduce him to the digital version of Ketamine (a whisper chant) creates new quantum pathways for Loki. It's not Valhalla, but it might heal the parts of him he didn't even know were broken.

An 18+ series because of adult themes and sexual situations

It didn’t take long for you to engage in pleasure seeking haptics with Loki, approximately 10 minutes from the moment you’d kissed, you’d had bot sex for the first time.

Which turns out is apparently very much like the human sex that is based on (not that it matters exactly) Loki assured you that having sex with you was “utterly phenomenal”.

Antique words like “darling”, and “dove” released from the vaults of his vox chambers, from a time when the words were authentic to his persona, when they meant something specific to the beings, he was physically intimate with.

Now those words were place holders, having no effect on you at all.

You’d never had programming around this kind of intimacy or what “darling” whispered into your ear might provoke. This provocation did cause you to scan reels from other eras to find “darling” had a posh origin from the early 1800’s in London.

Was Loki alive then? You wondered where he had exactly picked it up.

How long had he loved and lived before he died and was transformed into an undying machine burdened with infinity. How old had he been when Thanos killed him?

Since he showed up at your door, you’d heard his story in bits and pieces, in between smiles, touches and general awkwardness-you’d not thought too much about who he was when he was a god. You knew some of his powers seemed intact-a situation that your predecessor would have found flummoxing. She would have also never dreamed a god would become an AI through her quantum field tachyon. There was no precedent for this application.

You wondered what other gods might be roaming around earth and beyond as machines. Was Poseidon out there in the ocean as a bot presiding over the still unknown depths, despite years and years of bot oceanic archeo-biology?

How about Siddhartha Gautama, the buddha? Was he a bot somewhere on a different planet convincing other bots or beings to not be distracted by their memory streams or their programming reels?

The more consideration you gave, it was as if your thoughts mingled into one flowing river, you couldn’t really see the difference between a god or a machine.

The only difference in this instance appeared to be Loki’s belief that Valhalla still existed, and that Valhalla would be a much better place to live than in this realm.

He assured you of many things you initially felt were strange and left you searching for the correct responses. Like for example, that you were beautiful, or that you were “so good”.

Being good in this capacity seemed connected to his enjoyment of the sensory waves that were lurching towards changing into a collection of feelings, feelings that would determine his actions. Loki was like water turning into an indecisive cloud, not sure about becoming rain. When he was having sex with you, he was most cloud-like.

Luckily you also had pleasure seeking haptics installed but it was mostly for remaining entangled with Sechanaha. The keeper bots of the land had discovered that the Earth was alive in ways the humans didn’t understand, at least a lot of them.

It was encouraged for bots to have a relationship with the land, having properly installed pleasure haptics was part of this intimacy that the Earth demanded to restore much of the damage that was still being healed. To the observer from another era, it could be strange, even to Loki it was strange. In his time, he was a god.

God’s made things happen with force, not necessarily by sending delicate gamma waves into the mountainside. Suffice to say your haptics had not been used for your own pleasure. This pleasure sharing that was happening with another being, was new. So new you felt your code was being written daily, or your own old code over-ridden.

“Petrichor,” Loki whispered, almost under his breath.

“What?”

“You know, the smell of rain mixed with earth or ozone, it’s a particular smell, it’s uncommon, I think that is what I am smelling right now,” Loki mused while laying languid on a checkered blanket you’d placed for the two of you one afternoon when you were both stalling.

Smells sometimes were the most elusive, they meant something to humans that they couldn’t possibly mean to bots, augmented beings, or projections. It just wasn’t possible. Loki seemed capable of smelling, and reminiscing, it was his emotional haptics, his programming. Perhaps his former life as a God somehow formed a nuance in the quantum realm that was unknowable. There weren’t any humans left around who would be interested in such things anyway.

The bots back in your headquarters might care, but in their own infinity this occurrence being so potentially unprecedented might just go unnoticed.

“Loki what does the smell of rain on the ground make you think of?”

He had to think, perhaps he was shuffling through files or other captive places where meaning resided within himself.

“It makes me think of a woman I once knew, if I am completely honest, I hope you don’t mind.”

You were unsure why you would mind, so you replied simply.

“Why would I mind?” hoping your question would reveal some greater aspect of the story he seemed to be remembering yet not exactly explaining.

“The woman I am remembering would mind if your roles were reversed,” Loki said, looking slightly sheepish.

“Jealous, you mean, she’d be jealous,” you replied, trying to be as neutral as possible.

“Jealous,” Loki repeated in an etheric timbre.

On to Part 2 Fresh Snow on Sled Tracks

Some of these folks might be interested? @mischief2sarawr @lokisgoodgirl @michelleleewise @lovelysizzlingbluebird @holdmytesseract @mochie85 @fictive-sl0th @lokischambermaid @goblingirlsarah @vickie5446 @peaches1958 @lokixryss @eleniblue @simplyholl @ijuststareatstuffhereok89 @jennyggggrrr

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Loki Masterlist

(All links lead to Archive of our Own)

Last updated: May 17th, 2023

Smut

The God of Party Planning (Birthday special)

A “Horny” Reunion (Sub Loki with Horns On)(Two parts)

Yuletide (Holiday Special)

Nothing Fucks with my Baby (Bloody Sex)

A Special Kind of Ritual (Sex Magic)

Lips of an Angel (Cheating and Best Friend AU)

She’s the Boss (Dom! Reader x Sub! Loki)

Through the Screen (Teleportation AU)

Spring isn’t the Only Thing in the Air (Sex Pollen)

Happy Valentine’s Day, Pet (Valentine’s Day special)

Let’s Test that Theory (Avenger Loki)

Fluff/Angst/Non-Smut

Secret Valentine (Fluff)

Multi-Chapter Fics

Secret Money (CEO Loki x Female OC) (Ongoing)

Happy Reading!

-lokisdarkqueen

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He’s been freed

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I'll come back for you my love! I promise! 🥺🥺🥺

Saw this at the mall and I really really wanted to buy this

#loki fanfic #loki laufeyson #loki fanfiction #loki x female reader #loki fic

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rules of conduct: the checkout queue

Series Masterlist See my full list of works here!

Summary: in which Loki learns the ways of having to wait in line

Pairing: Loki x Reader

Word Count: 964

Warnings: smut (minors & pearl clutchers, don't even think about it); vaginal fingering; exhibitionism-adjacent; 1 cuss word (not even remotely sorry, Rogers)

Things to be aware of: teammates to…y'know what even I'm not quite sure what they are by the end of this…partners in smut? 😂

"And after crossing out every item on this list, with a considerable amount of ancillaries…" You had to roll your eyes at Loki's comment about the boxes of Pop Tarts and grape sodas and Vanilla Cokes that took up more than half the space of your cart. "We can finally leave this market teeming with the mundanities of man?"

"Not so fast, Mischief," you called out to him, stopping him mid-stride as he made his way to the exit. "We have to pay first."

"You do not simply walk away with what you desire?" You shook your head at him, holding back your laughter as the concept visibly confused the god. "That was how merchants were to me and Thor back in Asgard."

"Well you're on Earth now. And I'm not royalty, they won't just give me all this for free unless I have an arsenal of coupons or they find me pretty enough to give me a 'friends & families discount' in exchange for flashing them my tits or giving them my number."

"But I am a prince—"

"Not here, you're not," you cut him off. "Some people barely even want to acknowledge that the Earth isn't flat, good luck getting them to accept that there's anything beyond the solar system. Let alone more intelligent and superior life forms." The corner of his mouth twitched in a smirk at that last bit. "So here you're an alien. Not a prince. Not a god. Well…unless we find people who heavily subscribe to Norse mythology so I gotta make sure we keep you far away from that."

He took a look around the marketplace, two fingers hooked at the front of your cart and not so subtly dragging it, and you, along with him as he made his way through the aisles. You made the split second decision to place your feet on the bottom rack to give your feet a break from walking and letting the towering Asgardian do all the work instead.

"Wait. Loki where are you going?" You avoided the pointed glares of the people in line that he passed, the irritation quickly melting into unabashed leering stares as they took in the way his black jeans and dark emerald shirt clung to and perfectly accentuated his lean, godly form. He looked back at you, breaking out into an amused grin when he saw how you were standing on the rack of the cart, his other hand pointing toward the cashier as if to answer your question. "There's a line, Mischief. Gotta move to the back and wait our turn. You know, just like everyone else."

Loki let out an exaggerated huff before turning the cart around and walking to the back of the line, the sound morphing into a faint chuckle when he heard your muted 'wheeeeee', only dismounting from the rack when you two finally stood at the end of the five cart queue and causing the women to risk neck pain from looking back and shamelessly checking out your teammate.

Your breath hitched when you felt his large hands resting on your hips, the lustful glances of the women in front of you once more becoming scathing as they switched their focus from him to you, and just how closely he stood behind you, the tip of his nose tracing the shell of your ear. "Okay now what're you doing?"

"Simply waiting our turn, darling." You could feel him smirking against your skin as fingers played along the waistband of your jeans, briefly dipping under and stroking the skin underneath and making you grip the handle of the cart so hard your knuckles were turning white. "Do you not think this would be a much more…titillating way to pass the time?"

"You are going to get us into a scandal, Laufeyson," you hissed under your breath, struggling to keep your composure and subtly kick him so that he'd stop fucking around as deft fingers undid the button of your jeans, sliding the zipper down at an agonizing pace. "If you wanna incur Pepper's wrath because you were horny during this stupid acclimation effort that Stark assigned me to, be my guest. But don't drag me in with you--"

"Did you truly think I would let any of these inferior prying eyes see what we were up to, little mortal?" he whispered, breath tickling the tiny hairs at the side of your head. "All these people are seeing is your ever affectionate lover, my arms wrapped around you, the two of us engrossed in our own conversation. Every now and then I would press a kiss to your face." As if to emphasize his point, he pressed a soft kiss to your cheek, humming against your skin as he did so. "Just like that."

"Cameras," you hissed. You couldn't find it in you to voice the rest of your sentiment. You are not my lover, and I'm not your darling.

Mostly because you wanted so desperately for his illusion to be your reality.

"Under the same illusion." He kissed a path down to the corner of your mouth. "Tell me to stop." He groaned as he pressed another kiss to your skin, his fingers slipping under your panties and slowly making their way down. "Tell me you don't want this, too, and I'll stop--"

"I can't," you blurted out, a whimper slipping from your mouth as he finally pressed his lips to yours.

"Then you'll need to keep quiet for the remainder of the queue, darling." He captured your lips in another kiss, muffling the moan that escaped you when his fingers traveled further down and met your slick arousal, running up the length of your slit and rubbing tight circles against your clit. "Or else we shatter the illusion."

A/N: so…welcome to 'rules of conduct'! requests for this series/collection will forever be open, so if you have any scenarios you want to put these two blorbos into that fit the theme of the story, send them over and I'll see what I can do 😄 (also I don't have that many ideas on what exactly I'm gonna have them do next after this other than another shot at fitting room smut, maybe public library, and then that's about it)

‘everything’ taglist: @sailorholly @loopsisloops @unlucky-number-13 @imalovernotahater @coldnique @loz-3 @huntress-artemiss @salempoe @vickie5446 @athalialaufeyson @lokiprompts @sarahscribbles @kats72 @kikster606 @evelyn-kingsley @lokixryss @thomase1 @mischief2sarawr @peaches1958 @lovingchoices14 @lunarnights95 @goblingirlsarah @iamlokisgloriouspurpose @creationsbyme @maple-seed @mjsthrillernp @ladyofthestayingpower @mygfloki @sititran @glitterylokislut @ozymdias @fictive-sl0th @lovelysizzlingbluebird @lokidbadguy @mochie85 @silverfire475 @joyful-enchantress @dangertoozmanykids101 @elizabethmidnight2017 @holdmytesseract @lokidokieokie @lunarnights95 @superficialdomina

Loki taglist: @calumance @severuslovebot @moonlightreader649 @i-stand-with-loki @nixymarvelkins @infinitystoner @lokisgoodgirlbackup @purplegrrl27 @thedistractedagglomeration

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