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Two years ago today, 10 people in my town were killed and 13 more injured while at school. Among them my neighbor and my friend's child.

One year ago today, five people in our neighborhood were hacked and two armed men stormed up and down the block claiming they new "the truth about our scam."

Today, we have to remember and mourn in private; waiting to see if we'll be threatened. People gather in public more armed than a soldier in order because. . .they don't like science? Our town should be supporting each other, but we are more divided than ever.

I teach at the college in the neighboring town; I have had survivors in my classes. They are still not ok. They are still suffering. The concealed campus carry laws are more than they can cope with; it's not a question of if there are guns, but how many on campus. I had a student drop my class because the glass walls offer no hiding spot. Another dropped out of college completely after getting a peak of someone's concealed gun in another class.

Their pain is real. Their pain matters. Their lives matter. The live that were lost matter. The lives we could save in the future matter.

What doesn't matter is your selfishness. What doesn't matter is your party affiliation or wierd need to own an arsenal (just because you can).

Gun violence, the pandemic, preventable deaths, these are not political issues, they are human issues.

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I'm an adult. I understand that it's stupid and petty. I don't even like my birthday.

But I still have this heaviness in my chest watching everyone wish my brother a happy birthday bright and early in the morning. They all forgot mine this year until my uncle sent a text that night. They forgot last year too.

I don't even understand why it bothers me.

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Has anyone time stamped the strobes behind the warning for Star Wars?

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And what do we say to self care?

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WTF Amazon?! 3 separate drivers just pulled up, each with one item. . .all from the same order.

This can't be the most practical or earth friendly way to do things. Also, it was supposed to be delivered in the fewest shipments.

My neighbors are not even being subtle about the judgment. Thanks for that.

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And honestly I wouldn't have said anything now, even with anonymity, but it's affecting my dogs and they don't deserve that.

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OCD

Nobody warns you how hard things get when you actually start making progress. How clarity is a double edged sword. How you start feeling better, just to realize the depressing reality that you've surrounded yourself with narcissists to keep the attention off yourself. How if you start to mention the bad things to them (after all they reach out to you for every little problem), you have to immediately pull the facade back up to comfort them. That you took up acting in elementary school to learn how to hide and just made a career out of it. That your parents are no more capable of handling your problems now than they were when they first started popping up. You're their self cleaning oven. Your the roommate that handled and fixed things for as long as you remember and they're now dependent on you. That you've never had a healthy relationship, people just saw your mental illness and thought you were a "manic-pixie dream girl" they could save (by which they mean control). That the start of your relationship with your husband is sketchy. He just came over one day and decided he was moving in, and you went with it because you owed him for saving for you from someone worse. That just because he was the first person you wanted to be sexual with, instead of feeling obligated, that doesn't mean it's love. That his jokes about "mind over matter" are not jokes; he doesn't believe in mental illness, and has been back handedly calling you weak. That after 8 years together, I'm not sure if we are, or ever were, in love. It's more of a complacency thing, but maybe that's what love is. That for more than 10 years, your brain has been your only friend, but it is also the thing that hates you most in this world. They don't warn you that when they finally find a medicine that's working , you get a few days of calm, of wanting to live your life. Then clarity hits and drags you back down. This time the low is lower because you've had a taste of feeling something different.

So what is better? Does better exist, or is it an urban legend and all that exists are varying degrees of bad? How do you keep taking medication when it was almost easier to be drowning in anxiety 24/7 than it is to face how you've fucked up your life. What do you do when you realize you are 100% alone, and it's your own doing?

How do take a valium to help, when you no longer feel you deserve that help?

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I’m way too new to this. How do you chat on a post, both in general and with yourself? Am I chatting now?

ITEM #10!!! 

TEXT.  In a “chat” post, reveal a true, fervently held opinion on a topic you feel strongly about..  Great!  Now, in the same post, use the chat feature of Tumblr to argue with yourself to advocate the opposite position. You must kick your self’s ass all over the place with your argument. Your comments against yourself must elicit subsequent comments from other users imploring you to “stop hating.”  Tag your submission #gishwhestakestumblr and #gtt10

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Me: The fine arts should be considered part of the core curriculum in k-12 education.

Higher Ups: But that could cost money, and not everyone is good at "arty stuff"

Me:But the benefits. . .and not everybody is good at math but it's standard.

Higher Ups: But today's curriculum need to focus on measurable result. Testing, you might say; the arts can't be tested in a school situation. Till that changes you're S.O.L.

Me: Funny you should say that. Go Hawaii educators: https://legiscan.com/HI/text/SCR52/2016

Higher Ups: . . .

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https://www.linkedin.com/in/chivo-garcia-52aa06122

I need two more!

ITEM #8!!!!

Permission to come aboard? (Well, nobody said we couldn’t…) GISHWHES Takes Tumblr has taken control of space… the final frontier!  We’ve posted an item on the Captain’s Tumblr. Find & complete it by the deadline and tag it #gishwhestakestumblr & #gtt8 to win!

DEADLINE 6/11 7:30 PM PDT

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If anyone can help, I’ll return the favor!

ITEM #8!!!!

Permission to come aboard? (Well, nobody said we couldn’t…) GISHWHES Takes Tumblr has taken control of space… the final frontier!  We’ve posted an item on the Captain’s Tumblr. Find & complete it by the deadline and tag it #gishwhestakestumblr & #gtt8 to win!

DEADLINE 6/11 7:30 PM PDT

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"Let's remove the extra letters and become 'us'." #gishwestakestumblr #gtt4