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So... a week of being good.

  I stepped on the scale this morning. And the little needle was like... HOVERING... between 194 and 195. And yes, I know, its a teensy slot of space but I was wearing my glasses and I could SEE it!

  And then my period started and I was happy and like... unhappy at the same time and I was like “Fuck it!” And then I ate a cupcake... and had a mouthgasm. And was like fuck... that was the best mouthgasm ever. 

So one week... I havent been perfect but I been damn good. And then I was like “Oh my god is that a soft pretzel?” And then I started yelling at my stomach, “NO! You just had a fucking cupcake you needy little shit, you’re good for a month bitch!”

  .... So... yeah. Mouthgasm. So good. 

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WHEN IM TRYING TO BE CONSCIOUS OF WHAT I EAT

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Day 6 for me... the stuggle is real, ya’ll!

Day three of my carb free diet

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Low carb and gluten free salad!

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Also can I just say...

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So it’s been a week

  Of being Carb-free. I’m not a fan of the carb-free diet but, it has proven effective in the past. So I’m trying it again.

  Been sick for a week, Sinus Infection turned Bronchitis and while I couldn’t work out, I did maintain a healthy diet of veggies, eggs and tears. >.> And turkey! I had some turkey. And fish. And more tears. It’s been a weird week.

  But I have to admit something to you guys...

  I. FUCKING. MISS. CARBOHYDRATES! 

It’s just so hard to be good! Especially when my sister is sitting across from me eating a huge bowl of cheesey pasta and I’m like... “Fuck... these Almonds are good....”

  I just... I want... 

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When I find myself in times of trouble Gordon Ramsay comes to me Speaking words of wisdom

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  I havent posted on here for over a year... It’s been a weird year. I even looked back to see where I left off in my personal life story, and I decided that... a lot has happened.

  I got the job. lol

  I jumped through many hoops to become a Pharmacy technician. For instance, did you know, that in the state of Arizona, you cannot work in a pharmacy until you become certified by the state board. And that can take up to three months. Or six, if you count in all the time that the company you’re trying to hire on with will make you wait to get to the state board step.

  And so... after waiting three months for my job, I started working in the deli in my store. I worked there for three months, and then I got into the pharmacy- Officially in January- And I worked there for ten months as a Pharmacy Tech In Training. 

  In October, under so much stress I was having anxiety attacks, I went and took my PTCB exam (big Pharmacy test)- which I had studied and agonized over because it was a $150 dollar test that I had to go to Las Vegas to take- and I passed. And I cried. It was all very emotional. But I passed!

And then came to arduous process of being re-certified in the state of Arizona as a Certified Pharmacy Technician. Took another three months

And... well... yeah. 

  In between all that was a lot of madness with my family debating moving to Las Vegas, Reno, etc, and then deciding to stay here.    There was some interesting drama in the form of a guy. And then... my best friend and I having a stupid fight, and him... acting ridiculously pig headed. And so thus more drama. And then now there’s another guy... I never thought I had a “love life” before... but I guess in the last year at some point, I started getting one. And it’s just getting out of hand at this point. 

  And so now there is me.

  Still 200 pounds... well... 197. I’m... trying to watch what I eat and pay attention to my health and such. 

  Frankly... I work in a Pharmacy. A retail pharmacy. So I deal with the public a lot... and I deal with medications and health issues and people who don’t take care of themselves and essentially... I see what happens if you don’t. Not that I didn’t before, but... it’s like really scary obvious now.

  And I’m gonna be 30 this year, and thats freaking terrifying. So... 

  I’m not turning thirty and feeling... unsure about my body or scared about my future health. No. I’m going to take proactive steps now, and start dealing with it. 

  So hi Fitblr... 

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