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Sam was so lonely and othered as a kid a supernatural being in rainbow suspenders had to be his friend and tell him it's ok to live on his own terms and dean is still the gay one. I hate this fandom

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criminal that sammy never got to laugh and smile like jared

supernatural, sincere espresso

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I know a few people who stopped watching completely because they were done with the lack of sam moments. I personally resolve this in my own mind as sam keeping himself closed and distant from people purposefully, but yes the reliance on jared to show us sam's inner world because the script often doesn't in the later episodes is definitely a thing

i also think they wanted moments of relief from trauma and they aimed to do that by buddying dean up with someone else, but they could've given sam those moments too and given sam himself some relief from trauma...

question: does the sam treatment get any better?

i'm on season 8 of my first spn watch and while this season is better, i was so frustrated with the way the writers seem to favor dean when it came to the boys forming any sort of connection / meaningful dialogues with the side characters outside of each other last season. it just seems so unbalanced as compared to S1-6. i miss seeing sam actually interacting and having moments with other people in these episodes. hell, they could've even worked on his dynamic with castiel?? the one who took on his hallucinations? but they just...don't. i treasure sam's moments and honestly loved his scenes with amelia after all that he's been through. sam is the most compelling character of this show for me and i don't know if i can keep watching if there'll be less and less sam moments for the next seasons. for people who have watched the show, does it get worse and is it worth it?? :(( anyone pls helpp

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Sam Winchester in 8x16: "Remember the Titans"

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I filter the keywords for my main fandom here on tumblr and boy do I regret it every time I choose to peek behind the filter. These "fans" are so negative about everything, and I'm just so tired. This is supposed to be my happy place. It's just some silly blorbos doing silly things. If I want doom and gloom, I'll watch the news.

I don't know where people get the energy to be so upset about some movie or show not being perfectly tailored to their tastes. Like that was ever possible to begin with.

I get the appeal of dissecting the flaws of some piece of media that you still like, I really do. But most of what I'm seeing is just totally disporportionate outrage and people making themselves miserable and it just seems so stupid.

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you're not quite an emergency, is the thing. you're just having a bad spell. so what if you can't ever really catch your breath. can't ever really feel at ease. a buzzing, terrible feeling.

but emergencies are loud, and passionate, and hit the floor. you are not a lion or a hurricane, you just live in a pretty okay apartment and your back hurts. you wake up and drag yourself out of bed and banish what if i was dead thoughts like cobwebs. you pick out your clothes and try to stay active. you apply for jobs on the internet.

the anxiety is a wave, and the depression is a spiral. the other stuff keeps things "colorful." you mitigate your symptoms and take your meds when you have them and you try to hang out with friends. you go home and your head is full of riverwater. no matter how much you sleep, you still stay tired. you journal and practice gratitude and build from the bottom upwards. and still, the haunting.

you're not a 911 call or a shriek. you're just staring up at the ceiling and feeling the house settle into your bones. you feel you are playacting as a wolf when you're only a sheep. not quite dry and not quite drowning.

over and over, you slog through the creek.

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wincesties continue to have some of thee Most disingenuous framings of sam's characteristics within their interpretations of the winchester familial dynamic that automatically discredits whatever they're trying to convey within their dean & john interpretations to me. like i'm pretty sure this post is attempting to critique interpretations of sam and dean's masculine roles proxy each other within the familial dynamic that which the typical sam fan would interpret it wrt the heteronormativity of supernatural a show, but 'man who takes the '''domestic labour''' of the older sibling for granted', ' '''gets to''' escape home to become his own person and attempt a cisnormative life', 'dominant partner script in sexual encounters', 'inherits dark force', 'inherits fundamental character traits from father' to describe sam is genuinely a next level instance of the disingenuous flattening and omission about the actual in-canon portrayal of sam's respective relationships with those things i genuinely don't even know what to say. not to mention talking about dean as being someone 'constantly mocked for perceived weakness by strangers and by [sam]' is so canonically inconsistent i'm in awe. there's also another section of the post that describes dean as encountering sexually compromising circumstances often; where's that thing i'm always saying about how they Love to give dean sam's interpersonal conflicts and frame sam's instances of victimhood as perpetrations.

the first episode includes sam being sexually compromised and him spending 70% of the time he's with dean + the rest of the season talking about how much their childhood mutually sucked. 1.18 literally includes sam acknowledging that the responsibility dean had wasn't fair. 2.03 sam vs dean's relationship with gordon? the framing sam's pursuing education and the relationship he developed while doing so as 'cisnormative life' as if hunting is something on the contrary says everything i need to know about one's perception of the righteousness of hunting and the way its utilised within your interpretation of supernatural; this particularly gets me because there is a lot to critique about sam's ideals of normalcy but it works conjunction with one's critique of hunting. same goes for describing what azazel did to sam as an 'inheritance'—because it IS, it's a damn good descriptor of their relationship in conjunction with mary and azazel's + mary amd samuel's and of how hunting literally and/or metaphorically represents the abusive atmosphere of The Familial Dynamic and the csa metaphor between mary and sam, but this is the most sucky framing i've ever encountered. so close but yet so far

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one of the most horrifying scenes in the entire horror show

5x03, free to be you and me

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“The character Sam is played by Jared who’s 6'5" so he looks down upon everything. Rarely does he look up, and to look up is to be vulnerable.“

Richard Speight Jr. in the audio commentary for 11x08 Just My Imagination

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OH MY GOD.????

I don’t know what I would’ve done, if I didn’t have you.

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i get such second hand embarrassment from those voices from the crowd like every time they interrupt or try to "help" jared, going "noooo" when he's being silly or teasing as if he isn't the hugest remembering brain of the fucking millennium about this show he's been a part of for 20 years, wtf are they yapping about miracle for, good lord let the man speak. i would have loved to hear more about sam's affinity with dogs </3

yikes the audience heckled jared out of saying he thinks sam is a dogguy and he got all self conscious or whatever about his spn knowledge when he was literally right lmfao. poor bonesy

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SAM WINCHESTER 14x12, "Prophet and Loss"

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“What!? No, you didn’t! 💅🏻✨🧚🏻

Supernatural 2x15 “Tall Tales”

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Mom. For me... just, um... having you here... fills in the biggest blank.

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Hey, I was a bored kid, and Dean actually played along.

…. For the first twenty pies, anyway.