quill-and-sunlight

[quill-and-sunlight]

the bag didn’t match her outfit.

That was always the first thing people noticed.

It wasn’t high fashion, or minimalist, or expensive. It was canvas and cotton, faded from years of sun and rain. The handles were fraying, and some keychains had fallen off more times than Yong could count. But still, every morning, she slung it over her shoulder like armor.

Inside, it jangled and rustled—soft toys, keyrings, tiny fan-made plushies, stickers, lanyards. Some were shaped like strawberries or suns. Others were mini versions of her on-stage costumes, stitched with surprising accuracy. A few were the original ones. The ones that mattered most.

But there was one that never left the inside pocket: a plush tiger with a crooked smile and orange felt ears that always flopped forward.

She’d had it since she was eight.

A gift from a boy she hadn’t seen in over a decade.

And lately, she couldn’t stop wondering where he was.

Back then, in the park behind the school, Yongsun sat alone on the swings.

She didn’t talk much. Not because she didn’t want to—but because people rarely gave her a reason to. They’d teased her for being quiet. For liking dolls. For drawing magical girls in the margins of her notebook. For bringing a plush unicorn to class.

She had only done it once. And that day, someone tore off the horn and tossed it into the muddy puddle near the sandbox.

She’d wiped her tears away before anyone could see.

But he had seen.

“Wanna trade stories?” the boy beside her said.

He was lanky, with messy hair and a gap between his front teeth. He offered her a juice box with stickers on it. He had an anime shirt on—some creature with glowing blue eyes.

She looked up. “What kind of stories?”

“Anime,” he said proudly. “You know Digimon Adventure? I cried when Wizardmon died.”

Yong blinked. “You cried?”

He nodded seriously. “I still cry when I rewatch it.”

She gave him the tiniest of smiles.

They talked about Pokémon next, about Monster Rancher, about how hard it was to evolve a Gatomon without cheat codes. They shared snacks and scraped up coins for the claw machine in the convenience store down the road, where they took turns trying to win a plush dragon. Neither of them ever got it. But it became a thing. After school. Every week.

They laughed. They drew fan art. They even made their own trading cards on cut-up cardboard.

That boy’s name was Jess.

And the day after her unicorn was ruined, he came to school with a paper bag filled with three toys—a sleepy penguin, a red dino, and a plush tiger that looked like it was part carrot, part chaos.

He handed them over without a word.

But his eyes were soft. And that was enough.

Years passed.

Yong became a singer. Then a trainee. Then an idol.

The bag stayed.

At first, it was just the plush tiger, tucked into her suitcase. Then the sleepy penguin. Then a few keychains. A reminder of warmth. Of someone who saw her when others didn’t.

And then—her fans started noticing.

They’d hand her plushies at fan signs. Tiny mascots they made themselves. Some designed after her songs, some after her smile. Keyrings with her name, or phrases like you’re my sun and never stop shining. She started collecting them all. Adding them to the bag.

It grew fuller. Louder. Quirkier.

People said it was unidol-like.

She carried it anyway.

“Because someone once gave me a toy,” she told a fan once, “and it made me believe I mattered.”

Jess, meanwhile, had become something of a legend.

A mangaka who made toy-based anime for kids.

The kind where monsters evolve, characters compete in card games, and the world is saved by friendships and plushies with powers. His artwork was vibrant, full of energy and softness all at once. Critics called it “kiddy.” He didn’t care.

He gave away toys to kids who won in-store tournaments. He’d sit on the floor with them and show them how to draw their favorite characters, sometimes sketching on the back of trading cards and signing them just for fun.

He never forgot the girl who cried silently on the swing.

And he never stopped making things for people like her.

The day they met again was ordinary.

Yong was supposed to rest. She had one free day in weeks, and her manager begged her to sleep in. Instead, she walked around Hongdae in a hoodie, mask, sunglasses. Her only goal: claw machines and hot coffee.

She wandered into a toy shop tucked behind a side alley.

Her breath caught.

The walls were lined with toys that looked like they belonged in anime. There were sketches on the walls—drawings of dragons and cats and creatures with too many eyes. A display case held card decks and rare figures, all beautifully illustrated.

Behind the counter, a boy was sketching.

Lanky. Slightly hunched. A little older now, with sharp eyes and ink-stained fingers.

“Jess?” she whispered.

He looked up.

“…Yong?”

Silence.

Then a slow, stunned grin.

“I thought that was you,” he said. “You still carry that thing?”

She looked down at her bag and laughed. “You made me carry it.”

They sat on the floor of his studio, plushies and keyrings all around them.

Yong opened her bag and poured its contents between them—hundreds of little gifts. Tiny suns. Cartoon versions of herself. Chibi plush animals.

Jess’s eyes widened.

“You’ve… kept all of them?”

She nodded. “They remind me I’m loved. I never felt like I belonged until people gave me things like this.”

Jess touched a plush of a yellow raccoon. “This one’s mine. Limited-run. Only available at a claw machine in Busan.”

She blinked. “You made this?”

He smiled shyly. “I may or may not have been sending some to your agency under fake fan names.”

She stared at him. “Wait. You’re SunnySideUp003?!”

Jess’s ears turned red.

“I thought that was a fan,” she said breathlessly. “They kept mailing me plushies of things I loved. Like my favorite creatures. The dragon from Digimon. A mini-version of the carrot tiger. You even made one based on my debut stage outfit—how did you know?!”

Jess laughed, scratching his head. “I just… remembered. What you loved. What you used to draw. What we used to talk about.”

Her heart felt too full for her chest.

She leaned forward. “You were there. All this time.”

He nodded. “You carried a bag. I carried the memories.”

She kissed him.

It wasn’t planned. It wasn’t careful.

It was everything—clumsy, warm, real.

He blinked when she pulled away, lips parted.

“I… I wanted to say thank you,” she said softly. “You reminded me that soft things are strong. That toys aren’t weakness—they’re bridges. Between who we were, and who we still are.”

Jess looked down, cheeks pink.

“I never really stopped loving you,” he said, voice cracking slightly. “I just didn’t think I belonged in your world anymore.”

She held up her bag.

“You are my world,” she whispered.

Months later, her fans noticed something.

In every backstage photo, every airport sighting, every impromptu livestream—there was a new plush clipped to the corner of her bag.

A small, handmade tiger.

With orange felt ears.

And a tiny heart stitched to its chest.

She never explained where it came from.

But the boy who made it kept drawing, and the girl who carried it kept shining.

Together, they built a world where love didn’t have to grow up to be real.

It just had to be carried.

[quill-and-sunlight]

Swinging to the beat of your smile

Dancing has never been my song, my hands once clumsy, unsure — Yet in your arms, the living room blooms, a ballroom fit for kings. Even when silence falls, my heart sways to your every breath.

The music stirs, soft and low, the floor forgets its creaking bones. You laugh — light as summer’s rain — guiding my stubborn feet with grace. I, awkward knight, stumble, yet your touch makes the world a prayer.

Heaven, I'm in heaven — not above, not beyond — but here, within — Here where your hand folds into mine, and time ripples into gold. I no longer care for skill; I care only for the light you give.

Sway with me, love, though the melody falters, though records crackle — For it is not the song that moves us, but the devotion we breathe. Your smile turns my missteps into a perfect, unbroken rhythm.

We have no audience but the chairs, the sleepy clock, the falling dusk. And yet, before your gaze, I dance finer than any stage-born star. Cheek to cheek, the world falls away — only your soul and mine remain.

I once climbed mountains for lesser reasons, fished dreams from empty streams. Yet no peak thrills me, no river soothes, as you in my arms tonight. Your kiss, your touch — the living music written only for us.

Even when the needle lifts, even when the speakers lose their hum, Even when the house sighs into silence, still we sway in spirit. Your laugh, your breath — these are the songs that no ending dares to hush.

O my beloved, Kim Yongsun, who taught these clumsy feet to pray — How strange that love writes waltzes even for hands born to tremble! Each heartbeat, a drum; each glance, a note; each smile, a soaring chord.

Sway slower now, love — let the night stretch like a soft, endless scarf. Let the stars peek through windows, envious of the glow in your eyes. In this tiny room, the universe folds and sighs into your hair.

If I had the whole world's songs, if I had orchestras in my pocket, Still I would choose the hush between us — the simple grace of your hand. This, this — your breath near mine — is sweeter than any gilded refrain.

The cares of the week vanish, like a gambler’s fleeting lucky streak. Burdens are but feathers when your palm fits into the hollow of mine. You teach me heaven without wings, paradise without a promised land.

And when the music truly fades, when even our breaths slow and soften, Know this: I will love you just as fiercely, just as madly, still. The dance of hearts, once begun, knows no ending but eternity.

Dancing was never my gift, but you — you are the miracle I sought. One sway with you, and the skies open, and the angels forget their song. I love you, my Kim Yongsun, even as the last note sighs away.

And oh — when the world falls away and there is nothing left but this, Your forehead resting on mine, your breath a melody of dreams, I know the stars themselves hush their songs to hear our heartbeats.

We are not dancers, love — we are dreamers made of waltzes and wishes, Twirling in the breath between moments, defying the heavy hands of time. Each sway with you is a vow inked not in music, but in soul and fire.

Let the night end, let the music die, let the world fall into slumber — For even then, my arms will find you, my lips will name you mine. In a universe without sound, I would still be swaying with you, my heaven.

I love you, my Kim Yongsun, even as the last note sighs away.

[quill-and-sunlight]

In the stillness between worlds, where mist curled like spun glass over emerald boughs, a young fairy named Yongsun gazed at her own reflection in the river. She smoothed her dark hair, marveling at how it caught the half-light, wondering if it would be enough — enough to look human, enough to walk among them, enough to find the sound that would finally make Prince Jihoon, the fairest and brightest of their court, notice her.

She had trained harder than any sprite or muse. Days and nights spent in the endless groves, her small feet bleeding from dances too perfect, her voice losing its natural lilt as she chased immaculate notes. She spun melodies of rain, laughter, and the sighs of ancient trees — all polished to gleaming perfection.

But no matter how tirelessly she sculpted her songs, when she stood before Jihoon, when the ethereal court gathered in crystal pavilions under painted skies, he barely glanced her way. His praise went to others — older, grander, more dazzling.

She was not enough.

"I must find a new sound," Yongsun whispered to the river. "A sound not even Jihoon can ignore."

They spoke, in secret corners of the Seelie Court, of mortal music — wild, reckless, imperfect. A thing that bled and soared all at once. A thing that could wake even dreaming kings. So Yongsun made her choice.

She hid her wings beneath a shimmer of illusion and stepped into the mortal world.

The city hit her like a crashing tide — so different from her realm. Neon instead of stars. Smoke instead of blossoms. Dreams that did not float but fought to survive.

Her feet ached after only an hour. The air buzzed and groaned. But Yongsun pressed on, drawn by something deeper — a low, pulsing beat, raw and alive. It tugged at her like a half-remembered song.

Down a forgotten alley, she found it: an open-air concert, strung between tired brick walls. Paper lanterns bobbed in the breeze, and a crowd — mortals, broken and beautiful — swayed together under the lazy pulse of jazz and R&B.

And there, under the only working spotlight, was a man.

His jacket was frayed. His saxophone was battered. His shoes were scuffed like an old pilgrim’s.

His name, she would learn later, was Jess.

Jess, the failed composer who once dreamed of symphonies but now lived paycheck to paycheck, ghostwriting jingles, tuning broken pianos, selling poems no one read. Jess, who wrote love songs by candlelight to lovers who had never existed. Jess, whose only audience had become street corners and empty cafés.

Yet when he played — oh, when he played — it was with a joy that no perfection could ever cage. There were missed notes. Cracks in the rhythm. A faltering breath here, a wild improvisation there. But it was alive. It was him.

The fairies of the Seelie Court, had they been there, would have winced at every technical flaw. But Yongsun's heart, so long starved of feeling, soared.

Jess, for his part, never noticed the girl with stars in her hair. He was too lost in the music, chasing a sound he thought he might never catch — but still, still trying.

Yongsun watched until the last note faded into the heavy night. Then, heart pounding, she stepped forward.

"You," she said, voice trembling with laughter, "you play like a fairy who forgot how to fly."

Jess, wiping sweat from his brow, blinked at her. Then he chuckled — low, hoarse, beautiful. "Is that good or bad?"

"It's the highest praise," she said solemnly. "And… I would know. I'm a fairy."

He laughed again, assuming it a flirtatious joke. "Sure. And I'm a lost prince."

"Maybe you are," Yongsun murmured, her eyes shining. And then, leaning close, she whispered, "Come play for queens and kings who dream."

Something about her — the glint in her gaze, the music woven into her every movement — made Jess follow without question. The night thickened around them. The alley faded, and the trees leaned in. The mortal world blurred into the timeless woods.

They stepped into the Seelie Court.

It unfurled like a dream: thrones carved from ancient living wood, pools that mirrored forgotten constellations, fairies spun from mist and starlight. The court buzzed with restless, haughty beauty. Here, perfection was law.

Yongsun shed her mortal guise, her wings blooming behind her like a tapestry of summer dawns. The fairies gasped at the human she had brought — ragged, flawed, mortal.

Jess stood trembling. He thought of running — thought of how easily he could disappear back into the alleys of his old life. But then Yongsun smiled at him — and suddenly, running seemed impossible.

She led him to the center of the clearing. She whispered, "Play for us." And he did.

The first note cracked. The second note soared.

Jess played not as a master, but as a man in love with sound itself. He did not strive for perfection. He reached for wonder, for ache, for laughter after grief.

The fairies — beings of precision and artifice — first winced, then paused, then leaned forward in fascination. Here was something their flawless songs had never captured: the trembling, breakable, glorious joy of being alive.

Jess saw none of this. He saw only her — Yongsun, dancing barefoot through the clearing, her hair streaming like dark rivers in the starlight.

He was supposed to be proving himself to them. Yongsun was supposed to be impressing Jihoon.

But as Jess's music poured out, as he lost himself in smoky melodies and broken rhythms, Yongsun’s heart chose — quietly, surely.

It was not Jihoon she wanted. It never had been. It was Jess — his stubborn soul, his imperfect hands, his music that dared to feel.

When the final note faded, a profound silence fell. Then — soft applause, laughter like bells. The fairies crowned Jess an honorary "Starborne Musician," weaving laurels of ivy and starlight around his battered saxophone.

Jess, overwhelmed, turned to Yongsun. "I don't understand," he whispered. "I’m… nobody."

She took his hand, her voice bright as morning rain: "You are the only dream I ever truly wanted to catch."

In the weeks that followed, love did not come like a blinding storm or a single victorious note. It came like music Jess had once forgotten how to hear — tentative, imperfect, unfinished. And it was all the sweeter for it.

Yongsun and Jess lived halfway between worlds now — a modest little house spun from woven wood and mortal brick, tucked at the edge where fairy fields melted into misty city streets.

Some days were honey-bright: Mornings spent tangled in sheets and sunlight, Jess humming lazy saxophone tunes as Yongsun braided tiny blooms into her hair. Evenings lost to clumsy duets — Jess teaching her old mortal songs, Yongsun weaving starlight into the air until even the fireflies forgot their own dance.

But not every day was a fairytale.

They fought, sometimes. Over foolish things: Jess’s stubbornness, Yongsun’s impulsiveness, how easily two hearts, so full of their own music, could fall out of rhythm.

"You never listen!" Yongsun would cry, wings flashing silver when anger crested. "And you never slow down!" Jess would shoot back, hands thrown into the air, words sharp as broken strings.

Yet somehow, even in the clatter of arguments, there was laughter waiting underneath — like a second song neither of them could unlearn.

Yongsun’s parents, ancient and regal as the drifting clouds, watched all this with eyes that had seen centuries pass. There were frowns at first, quiet worries whispered between sighing branches. But when Yongsun laughed — really laughed, deep and full as the earth itself — they exchanged a glance across the clearing and smiled.

Perhaps perfection was overrated, after all.

It was Yongsun’s father who first called Jess son. It was her mother who, in a rare moment of solemn grace, tucked a sprig of moonflower into his saxophone case for luck.

And luck, it seemed, had heard their blessing.

Jess’s music, raw and imperfect, bloomed like wildfire. Word of the "human who played for queens and kings who dream" spread like whispered fire. Mortals and fairies alike traveled from distant lands to hear him.

He no longer played for empty rooms. He no longer wrote poems no one read.

He played in theaters of living vines and rooftops kissed by thunderclouds. He played until the city’s stone heart softened. He played until starlight itself seemed to hum in time with him.

And every night, no matter how grand the crowd, no matter how golden the applause, Jess would look to the edge of the stage — and find her.

Yongsun, barefoot, wild-haired, eyes full of every dream he had dared to believe in.

In the end, he had not found his music in the roar of crowds or the silence of lonely rooms. He had found it in her — in the way she danced even when the song broke. In the way she stayed even when he faltered.

It was not a perfect love. It was better. It was theirs.

Hand in hand, they slipped into the woods — past thrones and pools, past judgment and fear. Into the new life they would build together: messy, mortal, magical.

Years later, in a home stitched between the roots of the old world and the dreams of the new, Yongsun would gather Jess and their children close beneath quilts woven of moonlight and mortal thread.

On nights when the stars hummed softly in the rafters, she would sing them a lullaby — a song made not of perfection, but of hope and belonging:

Where the Dreamers Sleep (A lullaby by Yongsun)

Beneath a silver-dusted sky, Where cloudboats sail and laughter sighs, The dreams we lost, the hopes we kept, Will find their way where dreamers slept.

Beyond the far and chimneyed seas, Where lemon drops fall from the breeze, There, love builds bridges out of mist— There, every wish is softly kissed.

If ever wings forget their flight, If ever hearts fall out of sight, Then close your eyes, my wandering one, And float along the thread of sun.

Where bluebirds rise on cotton air, And broken songs are mended there, The tears we wept, the stars we caught, Bloom gardens born of every thought.

So hush, my love, my heart, my sky, The dreams you dared will never die. Beyond the arc of rainbow’s gleam, Awaits the hearthlight of a dream.

Each step you take, each song you weave, Is written where the angels grieve, Yet laugh through storms and dance through fall— You are the bravest dream of all.

So fly, my heart, and if you fall, The clouds will rise and catch it all. Sleep sweetly now, for while you dream, I’ll guard your skies, your song, your stream.

And somewhere, far beyond mortal hearing, the fairies themselves would pause in their endless perfection to listen — and remember what it meant to feel.

Because sometimes, even perfect hearts must be taught to dream by broken ones. And sometimes, the bravest music is the song only two souls can hear.

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[quill-and-sunlight]

O sea of all time, first cradle of breath and bone, your voice sings through us— a song from when we were scales, gilled and glittering, dancing in your moonlit depths, our bodies silver threads of foam and memory woven with seaweed.

We once called you home, our mother and secret bride, salt still on our tongues, our hearts pulled by your rhythm, like tide and moon drawn in that old sacred duet too deep to forget.

The tales call us land— but what is earth but a pause from your lullabies? You who swallow ancient wrecks and sing to ruins like a widow who still waits with hair full of pearls, we grieve with you every night as you breathe in waves.

Perhaps we all hear your voice when the gulls cry out, or when stars reflect— perhaps our urge to return is your whispered name calling in our blood again from some lost coral palace where we once belonged with tails and sea-song.

You mourn, we believe— not just for Atlantis sunk, but the footed ones who once shed their fins for love and never came back. The mermaid who walked away left you with silence and a tide that won't forget the cost of her tears.

That is why you storm. That is why you rage and crash, hurling broken shells— because love left and betrayed, and never returned. That is why you kiss the shore, with such aching force, hoping it remembers you each time it dries you.

Yet, you calm again, blue mirror of lost desire, as if you forgive just long enough to reflect the lovers who walk hand in hand, barefoot and warm, their shadows merging as if love was made for waves and skin was just foam.

You loved and lost us— and now you call with soft songs, seducing the shore, longing for feet to return to scaled purity. But we, traitors to our gills, have learned to walk far— so we visit now and then, but we do not stay.

Still, I know your heart. I too am like your heartbreak— loving what I lost, carving a shell with her name, listening for her in the echo of the conch, where her voice might live, and the sea might hold her breath the way I once did.

I love Yongsun so— her name rings in every wave, in each crest of blue, she’s the salt that seasons me, preserving my soul. The great black pearl of the deep, shard of Atlantis, no tide could ever contain her boundless bright light.

She is Poseidon's jealous hymn to what he loves, a siren with wings, and I am but a sea-song, humming to her feet— hoping she returns again and walks by my side, where sea meets the mortal earth, where hearts taste of brine.

Let the sea weep, love. Let it cry for all we lost, for all that we are— but know this: when I see you, I see ocean fire. I see the endless abyss, and I do not fear— for my love runs deep as tides, and you are my sea.

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[quill-and-sunlight]

I. Oh love, your name is every song That lingers where the echoes play, A melody both sweet and strong, A hymn the winds of evening say.

II. The moonlight weeps upon the sea, Yet none so bright as your embrace, For in your gaze, I long to be, The only world, the only place.

III. I've danced alone in hollow dreams, Yet none could hold the song I weave, Till you appeared, as fate redeems, A love too pure to be believed.

IV. Your hands upon the ivory keys, Compose a tune the stars have known, A lullaby that rides the breeze, A whispered vow in notes alone.

V. You feel like summer on my skin, A golden warmth that lulls my fears, Like autumn’s wind so soft and thin, Yet strong enough to bear my tears.

VI. Your voice, a river, deep and wide, That sings of love in boundless streams, I let it pull me like the tide, And wake to life beyond my dreams.

VII. Through silent nights when longing grew, My heart would hum your melody, As though the stars already knew, That you alone were meant for me.

VIII. The past was cold, an empty tune, A song half-sung, a prayer undone, Yet now the sky is filled with moon, And all my nights are lit by one.

IX. I can’t believe my eyes, you’re here, Like light that breaks the darkest blue, So radiant, so bright, my dear, Too good, too perfect to be true.

X. Oh love, my love, how can it be, That fate has led my heart to you? The dream I dreamt now lives in me, A love so rare, yet pure and true.

XI. No ocean wide, no mountain tall, Could steal my song or keep me far, For love that’s true will never fall, It shines like you—my guiding star.

XII. Oh love, let time unravel slow, And grant us days that never end, For every note, for every woe, I’d play again, and love again.

XIII. If fate allows, when light is dim, Let heaven hear this last refrain— A song of love that will not dim, A vow that sings through joy and pain.

[quill-and-sunlight]

Yong never believed in growing up.

She believed in stars, though. And notebooks with glitter pens. And the way her laughter could bend the rules of the world just enough to make it hers. She was always moving, always dreaming, always flitting like her thoughts couldn’t catch up with her. Her room was a constellation of mess—books on mythology, stickers of K-pop idols, and posters of nebulae and skies she hadn’t yet touched.

And then there was Jess.

He was quiet—like the hum of a distant lighthouse. Always there. Always steady. He did her homework when she forgot. Brought her coffee when she crammed. Covered for her when she skipped class to lie on the rooftop and watch clouds drift like lost ships.

But then one day, Jess snapped.

“You can’t keep running away,” he said, her calculus homework in his hand, his voice brittle.

“I didn’t ask you to do it,” she said, defensively.

“You didn’t have to. You just expect the world to bend for you.”

Yong rolled her eyes. “Why are you being such a grandpa?”

“Because I care!” His voice broke. “Because you’re better than this, Yong. You’re smart, and bold, and kind when you let yourself be. But you can’t keep living in dreams.”

They fought again at dinner. Yonghee told her she was being selfish, that she was unfair to Jess, that someday Jess would leave and she wouldn’t know what she lost. Their parents agreed. For once, everyone was on the same page—except Yong.

She locked herself in her room and stared at the stars through her window. “If Peter Pan is real,” she whispered into the dark, “then take me with you. I want out.”

And someone was listening.

He came like a breeze through the curtains, as if he’d never truly been gone. Peter Pan. With a grin like a dare and wild in his eyes.

“You wished?” he said, offering a hand.

Yong grinned. “Took you long enough.”

“I’m her friend,” Jess said from behind the door, out of breath and still angry—but never too angry to protect her.

Peter cocked his head. “You’re not really the type.”

“I’m coming anyway.”

Peter shrugged. “Don’t slow us down.”

Neverland shimmered like memory and moonlight. It was everything Yong dreamed of—forests that sang lullabies, rivers of light, stars that twinkled mid-breath.

She bloomed there.

Jess, too, found himself strangely at home. The Lost Boys liked him—especially Wendy’s brothers, who declared him “the only adult worth trusting.” He built treehouses, told scary stories, and joined in sword duels with wooden spoons. The tribes welcomed him with open arms. Even Hook, theatrical and tired of fighting, offered him tea in the captain’s quarters.

“You’ve got a brain,” Hook said, swirling rum in a glass. “Ever considered piracy?”

Jess chuckled. “I like books and stable schedules.”

Hook sighed. “So boring. You’d make a great quartermaster, though.”

They talked philosophy and storytelling while the world outside buzzed with chaos.

But not everything sparkled in Neverland.

Yong was beautiful here. Radiant. Peter was smitten with her wildness, her daring. He promised her constellations, adventures, eternal youth.

“Stay,” he whispered in her ear. “Be my queen. No more expectations. No more growing up.”

Tinkerbell bristled. Wendy looked away. Tiger Lily, fierce and loyal, stood by Yong’s side, offering only quiet warnings.

“There’s a boy who loves you already,” she said, braiding shells into Yong’s hair.

“I know,” Yong replied. “But I don’t know if I’m ready to love him back.”

“You already do,” Tiger Lily smiled. “That’s why it hurts.”

Everything changed when Wendy was kidnapped.

Hook had grown restless again—tempted by the old game. He took Wendy from her cove, leaving behind only a blue ribbon and a mocking laugh.

Peter, enraged, summoned the Lost Boys and rallied the tribes. Even Brave Lion, the soft-spoken warrior who’d long loved Tiger Lily, took up his spear.

“We’ll rescue her,” Peter vowed, eyes aflame. “We’ll make Hook regret this.”

And Yong—fierce Yong—drew a blade for the first time and stood beside them.

But Jess didn’t fight.

He walked.

Into the ship.

Into Hook’s quarters.

And sat.

“You didn’t take Wendy for revenge,” he said.

Hook blinked. “Oh?”

“You’re lonely. And tired of being the villain in everyone else’s story.”

Hook sighed. “It’s exhausting.”

“Let her go. Come to the treehouse tonight. I’ll teach you chess.”

And Hook did.

Peter never understood it. But Jess always did—the way quiet could move mountains when chaos only cracked them.

That night, as the stars shimmered above a truce, Yong found Jess sitting under the tree with the Lost Boys curled around him like sleepy cats.

She sat beside him. Silent for a long while.

“I think I was falling in love with Peter,” she admitted. “Or maybe the idea of him.”

Jess didn’t speak.

She turned to him. “But it was you. It’s always been you.”

He looked at her, eyes wide.

“You remind me of home,” she whispered. “Of responsibilities. Of everything I wanted to run from. But you also remind me why I came back.”

He smiled. “Does that mean you’re ready?”

“Not yet,” she said. “But I’m not running anymore.”

They held hands beneath the stars.

And then she remembered Yonghee.

“My sister,” she said, eyes welling up. “She must be losing her mind.”

Jess nodded. “Let’s go home.”

They said goodbye in silence.

Peter smiled sadly. “You’d have been a great queen.”

Tinkerbell hugged Yong with trembling wings.

Tiger Lily whispered, “Come visit me in your dreams.”

And with a last handful of pixie dust from a surprisingly generous Tinkerbell, Jess and Yong flew home.

Years passed.

Real time. Not Neverland time.

Yong and her sister made up. They cried and baked cookies and left love notes on each other’s desks again.

She graduated. Jess tutored. They dated in quiet parks and busy cafes.

Twenty years later, she wrote him a poem and slipped it into his suit pocket on their wedding day.

“You didn’t ask me to fly. You didn’t ask me to change. You only waited. So I found my way back. To the boy who stayed.”

Years later still…

Their son, Jinwoo, stood at his window, moonlight in his eyes.

“I think I saw someone,” he told his crush, Taeri. “A boy with a shadow that didn’t match.”

“Should we go?” Taeri asked, trembling with wonder.

Jinwoo smiled gently. “My dad says reality’s better than dreams. And sometimes… I think he’s right.”

Behind them, Tinkerbell peeked through the curtains and giggled.

“You’re all so boring now,” she sighed, and vanished in a trail of gold.

But Yong saw her.

And smiled.

Because even the wildest dreamers must one day land.

But that doesn't mean the stars ever stop shining.

They just learn to glow in different ways.

To My Forever Girl, Yongsun (after “Of Stars and Other Promises”)

My dearest Yongsun,

There are nights when I still look out the window and wonder if Neverland is real. If stars remember us. If that wild summer of dreams and laughter and firefly wishes really happened. But then I see you—eyes still curious, smile still brighter than anything Peter ever offered—and I know that I don’t need to fly to believe in magic.

You’ve always been it. The magic.

You’re the girl who wanted to escape, and the woman who chose love. You’re the voice that calls me back when I get lost in my own storms, the warmth in the coffee cup you forget you’ve made for both of us, the softness in the way you forgive, even when I don’t deserve it.

And I know you’ll always crave the stars. You’ll always have mischief in your bones and wonder in your breath. But I will never try to pull you down. I will simply walk beside you—through every cloud, across every shore, past every doubt.

Even in dreams, I’m yours.

Even when we’re old and gray and our son’s chasing his own taeri across rooftops—I’ll still be the boy who chose you. The one who never left.

You are my first wish. My last dream. And every story I’ll ever tell.

I love you, Kim Yongsun. I love you, Solar. I love you, Yonggie. And I always will.

A Gasa Poem for My Queen of Stars

In dreams where faeries sleep and starlight kisses moonlight’s face, Your name is etched on every wind, across time’s soft, unhurried grace. The girl who danced with Never’s prince, now sleeps within my folded chest, And every breath I take for you is homeward bound, is truly blessed.

Each dawn you rise, I’ll catch the dreams you leave upon your pillow’s edge, I’ll ink them into poetry, a vow beneath the sky’s bright pledge. Your heart, once stitched with wanderlust, now beats beside my own so true, And still I say, my dearest star, I’ll always chase the world with you.

The stars may fade, the rivers bend, the tales of youth grow far and wide, But you will be my only song, my fire through every changing tide. No thimble kiss or pirate’s call could pull me from your golden light, For you, my love, I’ll write the skies, and dream for you each sacred night.

So let this vow in pixie dust outlast my soul, my breath, my ink: I’ll love you more than Neverland, more than the stars that dare to sink. Each time you wake, I’ll write your dreams, immortal as the morning dew— And as long as I draw breath, I’ll live to dream and love you.

[quill-and-sunlight]

I believe in the magic of words, for they weave light and wonder. Because I love Yong, each syllable shimmers with tender warmth. Through whispers, through songs, through silence—I call her my own.

Belief is the only currency I have, yet it never fades. It rains enchantment in the endless ways I say I love you. The rhythm of my heart beats only for hers—forever.

Take me to your heart, my love, where the dawn spills golden light. Show me where to start, so I may carve my name in your soul. Let me play the part of your first and last—your only love.

All the stars align for us, threading wishes upon the wind. Every dream I offer is bound to your name—Yong, my sun. Tonight, and always, I breathe love in the space between us.

Pity those who wait too long, who trust love only to fate. They wake too late, reaching for hands that have already let go. Yet I hold you still, a vow sealed in the hush of the moon.

Never let me go, for I will never stray from your embrace. They will never know the way love bends time, makes fate bow down. For what is magic but two souls entwined, lost yet found?

You must believe in magic, for it led me straight to your arms. How else do two hearts collide in a world of endless strangers? How else could you love me so purely, without a doubt?

Something stronger than the pull of the tides moves between us. Something deeper than the hush of dawn lingers in your whisper. It is love—unseen yet certain, steadfast through every storm.

I may never know the reason the heavens gave me your love. All I need to know is the way your touch steadies my soul. Handle it with care, for I was born to cherish only you.

Tell me, love, do you believe in miracles wrapped in laughter? Do you believe in destiny written in your fingertips? For when I trace your palm, I find the story of forever.

There are over seven thousand ways to say 'I love you.' And I will learn them all, speak them sweetly in morning light. I know one thing true—each word belongs to you, and only you.

Through ages, through seasons, through lifetimes untold, I am yours. As the golden sun spills warmth, I will love you, endlessly. Steadfast into the morrow, I will love you, endlessly.

[quill-and-sunlight]

There was once a kingdom where spring never slept.

In Lysandria, flowers bowed to every breeze and the sun whispered gold onto the skin of the hills. Among all its wonders lived a girl who would grow into a queen with thorns behind her smile and regret coiled deep in the corners of her quiet heart.

Her name was Yong. A name like a song caught between syllables. She had eyes that could still a room, and a crown of blossoms braided not only into her hair but into the memory of her people. She was born radiant. Raised regal. But once, she had been only a girl—with a scraped knee, a bright laugh, and a boy who loved her far too much for his own good.

His name was Jess.

Just Jess.

A common name for an uncommon heart.

He was no prince. No courtier. Only a boy with dirt-streaked hands and sun-warmed cheeks, the son of a rose-grafter and a garland-weaver, whose smile always came with the scent of earth and early summer.

And oh, how he loved her.

He loved her with the kind of ache that made him forget how far above him she stood. He loved her with eyes wide open, hands full of hope. On her ninth birthday, he brought her a bundle of roses—deep, defiant red, petals still damp with morning dew.

“For you,” he whispered, cheeks blooming. “They reminded me of your lips.”

But she, wrapped in her silks and the need to be admired, wrinkled her nose.

“Red is so common,” she said. “I like lilies now. White lilies. Everyone knows that.”

The hurt didn’t show in his voice. It showed in how he placed the flowers down—not dropped, but gently, like laying a dream to rest—and turned away before the tears could reach him.

And Yong, too proud to call him back, let him go.

She never saw him again.

But time has a cruel fondness for echoing things left unsaid.

Yong grew tall and wise and wondrous, a ruler both feared and adored. Yet there were nights when even the stars seemed too quiet, and she would sit alone beneath the moon-drenched arbor in her royal garden—where roses, now crimson and full, bloomed with the weight of old sins.

And in those quiet hours, she would whisper to no one, “I wish I hadn’t thrown them away.”

Then came the decree.

“Find Jess,” she told the realm. “Tell them: Jess, whom Yong wronged, is to be found and forgiven. If he lives, let him come. If he is gone, bring me his story.”

And so they came.

Jesses of every shape and sorrow. Old men who had once loved girls named Yong—some buried, some married, some lost to memory. They wept softly when they saw her. “Not my Yong,” they murmured. “But she looks just like her.”

Then came the young ones. Princes and lords with gleaming eyes and papers inked with alliances. They brought gifts and ambition, believing her call was for power.

“There is a Yong in every tale,” they said, “and a Jess in every court. Let us become legend.”

But they did not know her squirrel’s name. They did not know about the three stirs of honey in her tea. They did not know she once feared snails more than death itself.

One by one, they failed to be him.

And still, she waited.

Until dusk brushed the sky with rose and bruise, and he came.

No fanfare. No trumpets. Just a man with windburnt cheeks and a heart that still beat like it did all those years ago.

He came with red roses cradled in his arms—the very color she once called common, and now saw as sacred.

“I came,” he said, “because you called.”

She looked at him—and her soul remembered what her eyes had forgotten.

“I’ve seen so many Jesses,” she said, voice trembling. “And I can’t remember which one you are.”

But he smiled, softly. Kindly. Wounded.

“You once wore cherry blossoms in your hair. You named a squirrel Biscuit and cried when it ran away. You told me I could never marry you if I wore mismatched socks—and I spent a summer hiding mine.”

She gasped.

“You… cried that day, didn’t you?”

“I did,” he said. “But I never forgot you. I just… let you go, and hoped the wind would bring me back to you someday.”

He held out the roses.

“They bloom from the graft my father taught me. Every spring, I grew them. I don’t know why. Maybe because hope is stubborn.”

Her fingers touched the petals, and the scent hit her like a memory she’d buried too deep to name.

She wept.

And he caught her—like he always would have, had she ever fallen back then.

“I was a fool,” she sobbed. “I threw away someone who loved me for something so petty. A flower. A color.”

“You were a child,” he whispered, brushing a tear from her cheek. “And I never needed perfection. I only ever wanted to matter.”

“You did,” she said. “You still do.”

They married not with grand procession, but with quiet joy. Under arches of red roses and white lilies. Love and forgiveness, blooming side by side.

And years later, when the skies of Lysandria echoed with lullabies, Yong whispered names into newborn ears:

“To my son, I give your name—Jess. To my daughter, I give a promise—Byong. Love like I failed to, and forgive like he did. If ever you find someone who gives you flowers, take them. Take them, and hold on tight.”

And so it was.

A queen who once threw away a rose, found a man who never stopped growing them.

[quill-and-sunlight]

I believe in the magic of words, for they weave light and wonder. Because I love Yong, each syllable shimmers with tender warmth. Through whispers, through songs, through silence—I call her my own.

Belief is the only currency I have, yet it never fades. It rains enchantment in the endless ways I say I love you. The rhythm of my heart beats only for hers—forever.

Take me to your heart, my love, where the dawn spills golden light. Show me where to start, so I may carve my name in your soul. Let me play the part of your first and last—your only love.

All the stars align for us, threading wishes upon the wind. Every dream I offer is bound to your name—Yong, my sun. Tonight, and always, I breathe love in the space between us.

Pity those who wait too long, who trust love only to fate. They wake too late, reaching for hands that have already let go. Yet I hold you still, a vow sealed in the hush of the moon.

Never let me go, for I will never stray from your embrace. They will never know the way love bends time, makes fate bow down. For what is magic but two souls entwined, lost yet found?

You must believe in magic, for it led me straight to your arms. How else do two hearts collide in a world of endless strangers? How else could you love me so purely, without a doubt?

Something stronger than the pull of the tides moves between us. Something deeper than the hush of dawn lingers in your whisper. It is love—unseen yet certain, steadfast through every storm.

I may never know the reason the heavens gave me your love. All I need to know is the way your touch steadies my soul. Handle it with care, for I was born to cherish only you.

Tell me, love, do you believe in miracles wrapped in laughter? Do you believe in destiny written in your fingertips? For when I trace your palm, I find the story of forever.

There are over seven thousand ways to say 'I love you.' And I will learn them all, speak them sweetly in morning light. I know one thing true—each word belongs to you, and only you.

Through ages, through seasons, through lifetimes untold, I am yours. As the golden sun spills warmth, I will love you, endlessly. Steadfast into the morrow, I will love you, endlessly.

[quill-and-sunlight]

In a shop lit soft with charm, she spins the wheels of fortune— Each pull a mystery, but her laughter makes it all feel known. She won the five-star prize that day—my heart, my soul, my home.

Three lucky sevens lined up clear: her smile, her grace, her light. Each grin she gives, each joy she finds, becomes the world’s delight. If I’m a gacha roll, love, I’ll give you the prize every time.

No mere toy inside this box—each wish brings something warmer still: A gaze that knows my every scar, a voice that calms, a will to heal. No reroll needed—Yong’s the pull that makes my whole world real.

She taps the screen with gentle hands; fate sways beneath her fingers. One summon cast, the stars align—how lucky that my heart lingers. “Limited-time love,” they warned—but ours, it never disappears.

Like a royal flush of hearts, her touch brings joy I can't contain. She plays the game with laughing eyes; I fold my pride, and she reigns. She drew my name with every card—I’d lose just to love again.

A full house—queens and diamonds—but none more rare than her grace. She doesn't gamble for mere gold; she yearns for soul and embrace. She calls, I raise; she stays, I bloom—my lucky charm in all ways.

Each draw could bring the world to life, but none compare to her smile. When Yong’s beside me, even pain turns sweet and worth the trial. If life’s a game of odds and ends, she makes the losing worthwhile.

I asked the stars to grant her dreams—they answered with her laughter. Not a pull I earned or bought, but fate's soft hand that chased after. She spends no coin to win my love—it’s hers, now and forever.

She kissed me once, the banner dropped: “New Eternal Bond Begins.” No reruns here, no rerolls left—I’m hers, through all loss and wins. If love had patch notes, hers would read: Guaranteed kiss when he grins.

The RNG of life is cruel, but Yong rewrote my story. From background noise to front-page news, she gave this tale its glory. Now each day’s spin brings gifts anew, just sharing breath and morning.

"You're my lucky 21," I say, her cheeks a shade of rose. Not blackjack, but the perfect score where every heartbeat shows. She smiles and nods—"Then don’t you fold." My heart bets all it knows.

[quill-and-sunlight]

I. Yongsun, my love, do you know I want to love you Like a croissant wants butter, through and through. Like socks in a dryer that always find two— Not one left behind, not blue missing blue. I want to write you in napkins and songs, In notes stuck to fridges, in karaoke gongs, In the hum of my charger that sings when it’s near, In each noodle I slurp, you somehow appear. I want to love you with nacho cheese fire, With popcorn confetti and fondue desire. Like a koala in cling-mode, bold and uncouth, I will love you on rooftops, in poems, in truth. With heart-shaped balloons stuck to my hairdo— Like a croissant wants butter, through and through.

II. Like a croissant wants butter, through and through, I want to spread my love across your day. Like jam on toast—chaotic, sweet, and new— My love gets messy, but tastes fine anyway. Let me love you like squirrels love parkour, Like autocorrect that insists “duck” is pure. In typos and tangents, in pixels and print, Even my memes are sprinkled with your hint. My life is a sitcom with laugh tracks on cue, You're the jingle I hum when I'm stuck in a queue. I’ll love you like pizza loves extra cheese, With garlic, bad breath, and infinite ease. Like jam on toast—chaotic, sweet, and new— My love gets messy, but tastes fine anyway.

III. My love gets messy, but tastes fine anyway, Even in traffic with horns full of spite. Even when Netflix forgets what I play, Even when socks escape into the night. I love you like charging cords love to twist, Like dreams that star us in a foggy mist. You're my favorite bug in a clumsy app, My lullaby in a sleepy time trap. You're there when I trip on invisible air, When my fridge hums secrets to kitchenware. You’re my compass when GPS goes rogue, My muse when I blog while petting a toad. Even in traffic with horns full of spite, You’re the jingle I hum when I'm stuck in a queue.

IV. You’re the jingle I hum when I'm stuck in a queue, The smiley emoji I can’t overuse. You’re the skip in my step, the boop to my “boo,” The one I would choose in each game of “choose.” You’re the zing in my soup, the soul of my rice, The ping in my phone that makes plain things nice. You're the muse of my spam folder’s sweet dreams, Appearing mid-snack in my wild whipped cream schemes. In broken WiFi, your signal still shines, You’re the reason I stare at traffic signs. The hope in each Google Doc I forget, The reason I keep 3 alarms all set. The smiley emoji I can’t overuse— You're the skip in my step, the boop to my “boo.”

V. You're the skip in my step, the boop to my “boo,” The glitter that tickles my sleepy haze. The sunbeam that photo-bombs every view, My cake-topper joy, my year-long birthday phase. I love you more than cats fear cucumbers, More than group chats dread unsent numbers. I want to love you in dance and freeze-tag, With stickers, and post-its, and dramatic drag. Let me love you in puns and parfaits, In bubble tea bursts and dad-joke clichés. Let my love be loud, like kettle drums cheer, Echoing “YONGSUN” from far and near. The glitter that tickles my sleepy haze— The sunbeam that photo-bombs every view.

VI. The sunbeam that photo-bombs every view, You flash in my soup spoon, in skies so blue. You're the guest star in all of my daydreams, Wearing shades and lip balm in moonbeams. You’re in traffic lights that blink “kiss her now,” In all subway ads, somehow in a brow. You are my wish, tossed in vending machine, The “free snack” moment, unseen but serene. In my playlist, you’re that surprise delight, That B-side track that gives dull days flight. You're the glove I find when one hand is cold, My toast’s missing half that turns to gold. You flash in my soup spoon, in skies so blue— You're the guest star in all of my daydreams.

VII. You're the guest star in all of my daydreams, The one who moonwalks through mundane scenes. You’re the reason spoons become tambourines, And I talk to plants with musical themes. I see you in clouds shaped like giant toast, And love you most when I spill the most. I write your name in foam on my latte, Mouth it in malls and during ballet. Let me love you like WiFi loves rebooting, Like socks love mystery and sudden looting. You’re the bookmark in all my half-read books, The cozy in every ‘I’ll learn to cook!’ The one who moonwalks through mundane scenes— And I talk to plants with musical themes.

VIII. And I talk to plants with musical themes, Because missing you makes me weird and bold. I hum “Be My Baby” in day-old jeans, While holding cabbages like purest gold. You’re the reason I danced in aisle nine, Clutching pickles and cheap boxed wine. My kisses get shipped like cargo at sea, Labeled “FRAGILE – LOVE – RETURN TO YONGSUN, KIM.” And though the ocean plays tricks with its tide, I send you hugs with moonbeams as my guide. The pines whisper your name through electric leaves, The night tickles me with dream-thieving thieves. Because missing you makes me weird and bold— While holding cabbages like purest gold.

IX. While holding cabbages like purest gold, I write odes to your nose, proud and cute. To your sleepy pout, both brazen and bold, And the way you sip tea like it’s a flute. I send kisses via awkward delivery, Wrapped in haikus and late-night revelry. Sometimes they miss and land on mail trucks, Or cling to old shoes with broken lace lucks. Even forgotten, like ancient anchors, My love floats by like sea-borne pranksters. The piers sigh when I wait and wait some more, Longing like malls before they open doors. I write odes to your nose, proud and cute— And the way you sip tea like it’s a flute.

X. And the way you sip tea like it’s a flute, Should be framed in the Louvre, next to a lute. You play my heartstrings like a moody song, Even off-key, you're where I belong. Let me love you like ducks love puddle stomps, Like sweaters love fall and Halloween romps. You are the moon’s tick-tock in my chest, The reason why stars never seem to rest. Even when life makes no toast pop up, You’re my jam, my butter, my teacup. Let the world glitch and loop and rewind, You’re the joy my broken codes always find. Should be framed in the Louvre, next to a lute— You play my heartstrings like a moody song.

XI. You play my heartstrings like a moody song, With jazz hands, glitter, and coffee that’s strong. You're every season’s weirdest, brightest dress, A cosmic toaster with zero distress. Even shadows look brighter when you pass, Even clumsy feels elegant en masse. You’re the artist that made rain taste like light, The one who taught socks how to love the night. Your name is the password to every joy, The bug in my code I won’t uninstall, boy. Let the pine trees sing your name in Morse code, I’ll write it in fog on my grandma’s Ford. With jazz hands, glitter, and coffee that’s strong— You're every season’s weirdest, brightest dress.

XII. You're every season’s weirdest, brightest dress, My favorite glitch in love’s GPS. You waltz through my life in polka-dot shoes, Flinging confetti on Monday blues. You turn WiFi drops into poetry, And cold leftovers into destiny. You are my signal in subway tunnels, My heart’s pop song with infinite funnels. You’re the pun that outlives the clever meme, The marshmallow queen in my cocoa dream. When batteries die, your voice recharges— You build me a house with rainbow garages. Even in silence, your love rings true, Yongsun, my love, do you know I want to love you?

Epilogue: The Quiet Where You Are In the silence, where all bright music hides, I find you lingering—where soft love abides. You’re in the hush between piano keys, In moonlit murmurs and rain-tossed seas. You are the wish that lanterns dream to be, The prayer stitched in each breath quietly. You're in the day's rain, gentle and wise, In summer's wind and winter’s low-slung skies. You are my strength when I begin to fold, My whispered courage when the nights feel cold. You are my hope, my pulse, my starlit thread, The thought that tucks me in when light has fled. If love is a world, then you are its core— The silence, the music, and everything more

[quill-and-sunlight]

Just to kiss your lips again, Just to lay in your lap, Just to feel the warmth of your touch, Just to cherish your every smile.

Just to walk with you hand in hand, Just to share the quiet moments, Just to listen to your heart's secrets, Just to find comfort in your embrace.

Just to sit in stillness with you, Just to hear the stories in your laughter, Just to glimpse the world through your eyes, Just to understand the depth of your soul.

Just to watch the sunrise with you, Just to trace the lines of your face, Just to hold your hand as we grow old, Just to find peace in your presence.

Just to be the one you call first, Just to share each day's dreams, Just to be your rock when you need me, Just to offer you my everything.

Just to build a life together, Just to weave our stories as one, Just to be your steady companion, Just to know that you're the only one.

Just to lay with you under the stars, Just to make wishes that are ours, Just to find comfort in your voice, Just to believe in a love that's true.

Just to keep you safe from harm, Just to be your shield and sword, Just to cherish each moment with you, Just to hold on, never letting go.

Just to know that you're my home, Just to see you every morning, Just to hear your whispered promises, Just to find joy in our journey.

For you, for the rest of my life, For you, all the best of my life, For you alone, only for you.

Just to celebrate our victories, Just to face our fears together, Just to share the weight of burdens, Just to understand what love really means.

Just to be the reason for your smile, Just to be the light in your darkness, Just to be the one who lifts you up, Just to walk this road beside you.

Just to kiss you one last time, Just to remember why we started, Just to hold you close and never let go, Just to love you with all my heart.

For you, for the rest of my life, For you, all the best of my life, For you alone, only for you.

[quill-and-sunlight]

From my first heartbeat, softly calling out your name, whispering through time, like the wind upon the hills, or a river’s endless flow.

In the past we roamed, golden banners touched the sky, swords that shone with light, through the storm of fate I stood, shielding you with all my might.

If the stars should fall, and the heavens break apart, I will stand with you, forged in love’s unyielding fire, never bending, never lost.

Through the silver dawn, on the cliffs where echoes fade, I will call your name, where the Andes touch the sky, where the jaguar finds its song.

If the past returns, binding time in tangled threads, let me find you there, in a world of old and new, where the sun still warms our skin.

If the gods decreed that our love was never meant, I would steal their light, fashion time’s unbroken path, walk with you through endless days.

Should the sands forget all the dreams we left behind, carved upon the waves, let the moon reflect my love, shining only upon you.

If tomorrow fades, torn away by endless night, let my voice remain, woven in the songs of birds, drifting on the autumn breeze.

Through the years to come, when the oceans rise and wane, I will hold you close, for in every breath I take, you are life within my soul.

Through a thousand lives, be it warrior, king, or thief, I will find you there, braving fire, sky, and storm, just to hold you once again.

Should my soul depart, let it sound a mighty gong, calling out your name, for even in death, my love, I will never fade away.

When you touch my lips, feel the echo of my love, timeless and untamed— even if the stars should burn, I will stand by you, always.

[quill-and-sunlight]

A Love Longer Than Noodles It began with a commercial.

Yongsun had been absentmindedly flipping through channels when the screen lit up with flames and drama—a slow-motion shot of a young woman taking a bite of fiery red Buldak noodles, her expression a perfect mix of agony and euphoria. The camera zoomed in on the steam rising, the glistening sauce clinging to the noodles like a promise of pain and pleasure. A jingle played in the background, something triumphant, almost heroic.

Without hesitation, she turned to Jess and announced, as if it were fate itself, “We have to eat that.”

Jess, reading on the couch beside her, didn’t even look up. “You ate six different Buldak flavors a month ago.”

She frowned, blinking at him. That couldn't be right. She would remember something like that. Wouldn't she?

He flipped a page, completely unbothered. “Original, cheese, carbonara, mala, jjajang, and 2X spicy. You swore off them for a year.”

There was a pause. Slowly, recognition dawned, followed by quiet horror. She tried to argue, but snippets of memory came rushing back—sweat beading on her forehead, gulping down milk, cursing in a breathless whisper about how she had “seen the gates of hell” and how “humans weren’t meant to eat this.”

Jess finally looked up, smirking. “You cried.”

It was, indeed, something she would do.

And yet, the commercial had planted a craving she couldn’t ignore. She needed noodles. Immediately.

The Instant Ramen Obsession Begins At first, it was simple curiosity. A cup of spicy seafood ramen here, a bowl of miso-flavored noodles there. But soon, it became an all-consuming obsession. Every time Jess walked into the kitchen, there she was, hunched over the counter, watching the kettle like it held the secrets of the universe.

He’d come home to see stacks of ramen cups filling their pantry, the variety slowly growing. Spicy, cheesy, black garlic oil, curry-infused, bone broth-based. Imported packs from Japan. Limited-edition flavors from Thailand. A mystery flavor that came in a plain black wrapper with only a single ominous character printed on it.

She tried them all, treating each bite like a grand discovery. Some flavors were met with enthusiastic nods, others with dramatic coughing fits that required Jess to fetch her a glass of water.

“I think I’ve hit a wall,” she confessed one evening, slumped over the dining table, an empty ramen cup beside her.

Jess, washing dishes, glanced over. “Already?”

She sighed. “I’m craving something more.”

The shift was inevitable. Instant ramen was thrilling, an adventure, but the soul wanted something deeper, something richer.

“I need real ramyun,” she declared.

The Kitchen Takeover Jess tried to talk her out of it. He told her that instant ramen was engineered for maximum flavor efficiency, that homemade ramyun required patience, and that what she was experiencing was simply an illusion of desire created by the drama in K-dramas.

Yongsun was unmoved.

So, with great reluctance, he found himself standing over the stove, boiling a rich broth from scratch, stirring in gochugaru and garlic, letting the scent fill the kitchen. He used fresh noodles instead of the instant ones, cracked an egg into the pot at the perfect moment, and plated it carefully, setting it before her with the kind of reverence one reserved for special occasions.

She took one bite, then another, her expression shifting into something resembling enlightenment.

This was love, she decided.

But with love came deeper hunger.

“Okay,” she said between bites. “Now I want japchae.”

Jess sighed. He should’ve known.

From there, the kitchen became a battlefield. Japchae was made, glass noodles stir-fried with sesame oil, vegetables, and beef, the soy sauce glistening under the light. Then came jjajangmyeon, the thick black bean sauce coating each strand of chewy noodles.

The more she ate, the more she craved. But then came a crisis—Jess’s ingredients began to dwindle.

The Kitchen Crisis The moment he realized it, his hands froze over the refrigerator handle. There were no more eggs, no meat, no green onions. The pantry had been raided, the reserves depleted.

For the first time, Yongsun seemed genuinely alarmed. She checked the cabinets herself, as if Jess had simply overlooked something. When she turned back to him, her expression was filled with something tragic.

She had no choice.

She would cook.

Jess tried to stop her. He knew where this would go. But she was determined, rolling up her sleeves, her movements filled with confidence.

She filled a pot with water and turned on the heat. So far, so good. Then she opened a pack of fresh noodles, inspecting them like a scientist. Jess watched in mild horror as she threw them in the water without checking the instructions, stirring aggressively.

A few minutes later, an unfamiliar burning smell filled the air.

His eyes widened. “Wait. How—how did you—”

She frowned at the pot. “Weird. I didn’t know water could burn.”

He stepped forward, peering into the pot, and saw… nothing. The water had somehow evaporated completely, leaving behind an unholy mess of scorched noodles.

Jess took a deep breath. “Yong, what did you do?”

She turned to him, solemn. “I don’t know. But I think I angered the noodles.”

It was clear that if this continued, disaster would strike again. With a resigned sigh, Jess nudged her away from the stove and took over before anything else could be ruined.

She didn’t argue, simply stepping aside with a casual, “Shhh. It’s my first time. Everyone makes mistakes.”

The Noodle Marathon and The Food Coma As if to make up for the failed experiment, she decided to try every noodle dish she could get her hands on.

Thai boat noodles, rich and spicy, earned an impressed nod. “9/10,” she said. “Needs a little more kick.”

Vietnamese pho was met with a sigh of satisfaction. “This broth is hugging my soul. 10/10.”

Palabok, the creamy Filipino noodle dish, was devoured in seconds. “Cheesy, umami, seafood goodness. 8/10, but could use more shrimp.”

Laksa made her pause, wiping sweat from her forehead. “It’s like a warm hug… but also a punch to the face. 9.5/10.”

Jess watched this all unfold, too exhausted to stop her. She had been eating for five straight hours. At some point, it stopped being impressive and became terrifying.

Eventually, she collapsed onto the couch, groaning.

"This is it,” she murmured. “I have become one with the noodles.”

Jess, sipping tea beside her, didn’t look up. “Told you not to overdo it.”

She closed her eyes dramatically. “Tell my story. Tell people I was a brave woman who followed her heart… and her stomach.”

The Inevitable Round Two For a brief moment, Jess thought she had finally reached her limit. That she had been satisfied.

But the next morning, she stretched, yawned, and said in the most casual voice—

“I think I’m ready for round two.”

Jess groaned.

Yongsun, however, had a different idea this time. Instead of demanding more, she turned to him with a bright smile.

“I ordered something for you too,” she announced.

A knock on the door.

Jess’s stomach twisted with dread.

The delivery man handed over a bag.

She clapped her hands excitedly. “Our spaghetti is here!”

Jess sighed, but as she pulled him into a hug, he knew the truth.

If love had a taste, Yongsun’s love was an endless bowl of noodles.

And no matter how much he protested, he would always, always eat with her.

[quill-and-sunlight]

On the lilac lake, we walk hand in hand, Your touch so gentle, like waves on the sand. Why do you love me so, my heart wants to know? I am but a simple man, yet you let your love flow.

(2) I am not a rich man, nor a dream come true, But my heart beats only, my love, for you. If fate has written that we are not meant to be, Then I will find a way to weave our destiny.

(3) You are the color in my moonlit skies, A melody soft in the hush of sighs. Like flowers that bloom when the springtime calls, You bring me back when my spirit falls.

(4) No wealth nor gold can match my vow, To love you then, to love you now. Beyond today, beyond all time, Your name will rest in this heart of mine.

(5) Why wish for love like a fleeting dream? When here I stand, love bright and gleamed. No magic lamp, no whispered plea, Just me who loves you endlessly.

(6) Our laughter dances in the wind so free, Each word, each glance, is poetry. Even the stars in their cosmic flight, Pause and shimmer in love’s own light.

(7) No need to chase a distant fate, For here you are, my heart’s own mate. Why search for joy in lands unknown, When your smile is all my heart has known?

(8) Enough—you here, just holding me tight, Enough—your eyes like the softest light. Enough—your voice in the hush of night, Enough—your love that feels so right.

(9) Like rivers bound for endless seas, Like songs that drift upon the breeze, We are threads in a woven tale, A love that time will never pale.

(10) When the years have passed, and our hair turns gray, When the sunset calls at the end of the day, I will still hold you, as I do right now, And whisper again my sacred vow.

(11) You deserve the stars, the sun, and more, Yet still, you stay at my humble door. Oh, how you bless my fleeting days, With laughter, warmth, and love’s embrace.

(12) If all the heavens should call you away, I’d cross all realms, come what may. Not even time, nor fate’s cruel thread, Could sever the love that our hearts have bred.

(13) You are the dawn in my endless night, The steady flame in uncertain light. No storm nor shadow can pull me apart, For you are the keeper of all my heart.

(14) So take my hand, let’s carve our way, Through sunlit fields and skies so gray. For even if fate would tear us in two, I’d stitch the world just to be with you.

(15) On the lilac lake, where love is true, I’ll stand forever, just loving you. For now, for tomorrow, for all of time, You are my always—my heart, my rhyme.

[quill-and-sunlight]

Moonlit Ballet of Blossoms and Devotion A Sonnet Crown for my Yong I. The Prelude of Our Love I shall love you past the lilac dawn, Where waltzing orchids bless the summer air. Your steps are echoes on the dewdrop lawn, A melody spun soft and light as prayer.

The dance of petals sways within your sighs, Like jasmine twined in moonlit lullabies. Your silhouette—a whisper ‘neath the skies, A vision dreamt through love’s unfading eyes.

And even when the roses fade to gold, The waltz of time shall never make you old.

II. A Moonlit Tango in the Garden I shall gaze at the evening moon for you, And paint the stars upon your lissome hands. The roses bloom in pirouettes anew, As lilacs weave their scent in golden strands.

The nightingale croons softly by the vine, A tango slow in tender violet hues. Within your eyes, where gleaming fireflies shine, I drown in dreams where love shall never lose.

For every step we take, the garden sways, And love ignites the moon’s enraptured blaze.

III. The Waltz of Sunflowers and Serenades Our love shall twirl like sunflowers in May, With candle flames that hum a sacred tune. A thousand sighs shall bloom in grand ballet, As soft carnations dance beneath the moon.

The scent of jazz still lingers on your skin, A sweet refrain of petals, warm and bright. The violins of autumn call within, Yet spring still cradles us in gold and white.

And though the seasons weave and drift apart, Their rhythm never alters in my heart.

IV. A Ballet in the Midnight Breeze The mystique of your voice, a soft ballet, Lingers like lilies swaying in repose. With every touch, the night melts into day, A dream unfurling where the jasmine grows.

The honey breeze suspends us in midair, As lotus petals trace a fleeting sigh. Our shadows twine like vines without a care, Beneath the silver hush of midnight sky.

For love shall twirl in every floral mist, A dance of sighs in passion’s endless twist.

V. A Rhapsody of Roses and Irises Let’s love like roses brushed in twilight’s glow, Or irises in Vincent’s trembling hand. Our fingers twine where garden echoes grow, In pastel strokes where longing dares to stand.

No art nor time can steal our love away, For every brushstroke carves a whispered vow. Within the lilacs, shall we waltz and stay, As moonlight drapes its kiss upon your brow.

For flowers bloom where midnight candles burn, And hearts still twirl where melodies return.

VI. A Serenade of Infinite Bloom She tousles bouquets woven in her hair, A soft cascade of petals on the floor. Our love, a symphony so bright and rare, A harmony of lilies evermore.

The garden hums a nocturne sweet and true, Where every vine is laced with love’s embrace. The jasmine, daisy, orchid, bathed in dew, All weave their fragrance round your sacred grace.

For love shall dance beyond this fleeting breath, And bloom anew within the arms of death.

VII. The Eternal Dance of Love’s Last Sigh Like roses swaying to a whispered tune, Our souls embrace within love’s gilded flight. For even when the stars shall lose their moon, Our hearts will waltz beyond the edge of night.

The dance of flowers, bold yet soft and true, Forever laced in petals, scent, and rhyme. The golden rose moon sighs in silver hue, A vow unbroken, undisturbed by time.

So twirl with me beyond this life’s embrace, For love’s last sigh still blooms in time and space.

VIII. The Fire and Passion of Crimson Orchids In crimson orchids, kissed by ember’s light, We dance through winds that call the fire’s embrace. Your touch ignites my soul in endless flight, Each step a spark, each glance a breathless chase. The twilight bleeds in streaks of molten hue, A waltz of flames within the dying day. Yet even dusk can never steal from view, The love that burns, unbowed, beyond decay. For passion’s fire may flicker, fierce and bright, But in our hearts, it dances through the night.

IX. The Whirlwind of Petals and Devotion The wind is wild, yet still we turn as one, A storm of petals swirls in golden flight. Like autumn’s breath and springtime’s fleeting sun, Love spins us skyward, boundless, infinite. You rise in light where cherry blossoms weave, Their whispers soft in rustling, endless tune. No force of time could ever bid us leave, For love still waltzes ‘neath the silver moon. In fate’s embrace, no moment fades away, Our love, a tempest, never led astray.

X. Love’s Final Bow, Eternal in Bloom 

The river hums in whispers soft and bright, Its silver waves reflect the golden glow. Upon this bridge, beneath the endless night, I vow to love you past what time can show. No falling star, nor dusk that fades to grey, Can steal the bloom of love’s unbroken thread. For even when the roses drift away, Their fragrance lingers where our hearts have bled. So dance with me beyond this world’s embrace, Where love still blossoms, endless in its grace.

[quill-and-sunlight]

(Jess to Yongsun) You try to tell me, but English bends and falters— it does not matter. Your heart speaks in soft whispers, I hear you in every glance.

(Yongsun to Jess) Yet still, I stutter, shy before your patient gaze. My tongue trips and twists, but in your eyes, I see love, a language I understand.

(Jess to Yongsun) Even broken words paint the love you feel for me. I, too, stumble forth, with my Korean fractured, but you catch me all the same.

(Yongsun to Jess) Each time you struggle, it makes my heart beat faster. Your words are clumsy, but wrapped in warmth, they shine bright— brighter than any sentence.

(Jess to Yongsun) No need for phrases, when your anger, joy, and tears all say what you mean. Even silence is enough, I read love in every look.

(Yongsun to Jess) I feed you again, but you push the greens aside. Still, you smile at me, as if to say, “I love you,” though I scold you with a pout.

(Jess to Yongsun) Even in winter, when the heater hums to sleep, you are the warmest— your hands, your breath, your laughter, the fire that melts the cold.

(Yongsun to Jess) Even in silence, you make sense of all I feel. No need for grammar, when just one look between us tells a story words cannot.

(Jess to Yongsun) You don’t need to know every synonym for love— you already shine, as the word that fills my heart, the one I long to whisper.

(Yongsun to Jess) Then say it again, let me hear the way it sounds, the way you call me, like the sun that wakes your heart, like the light that warms your world.

(Jess to Yongsun) Yongsun, my dearest, your name is my favorite word in all the world. With every breath, every day, I will always call your name.

(Yongsun to Jess) Jess, my beloved, even if words slip away, even if we fail, our love speaks without a sound— a language just meant for us.