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[quinni-gallagher21]

My bf is literally Edward Cullen and I'm Bella. And that's why I like the series

I've just realized the real reason I love Twilight. It’s because I find it so incredibly relatable. My boyfriend is basically Edward Cullen, and I’m Bella. He definitely has avoidant attachment issues. After dating for about six months, he suddenly told me that he didn’t have feelings for me anymore and didn’t like me (just like Edward pushing Bella away out of nowhere). Of course, I was shocked and decided to leave (just like Bella did), but then he started crying, saying he "couldn’t live without me" (just like Edward after trying to push Bella away, only to confess he couldn’t live without her).

I was honestly so foolish and couldn’t bear seeing him cry, so I told him I wasn’t going to leave (yep, again, just like Bella). Luckily, I distanced myself for a while, but we eventually got back together. And honestly, I’m happier now than before. I know this might sound strange, but we both benefit from this relationship, as long as he doesn’t push me away again. It’s fulfilling to be with him. I had never seriously considered marrying anyone before, but now, I’m starting to feel like I could with him, and he’s said he feels the same. We both have our issues (I’m just not mentioning my own problems here, so I probably come off as some kind of saint, which I’m definitely not), but I accept him for who he is. Even if he occasionally pushes me away or lashes out, I can handle it because I know he won’t leave me for good anymore.

On top of that, I’m totally Bella. I’m introverted and mostly hang out with quirky guys. It’s not that I’m always seeking out men, but I just don’t feel comfortable around women because of past trauma and how difficult I find high-context conversations with them. Plus, I’m only attracted to “weird” people. Unfortunately, I can’t seem to be interested in “normal” people (like humans in Twilight)—the ones who socialize easily and have tons of friends. The only people I feel drawn to are usually the quirky, unconventional types (kind of like the werewolves and vampires in the series). If you're sharp, you’ve probably noticed some autistic traits, and yes, I am autistic. I’ve seen a lot of posts suggesting that “Edward must be autistic,” and I think they’re onto something. Edward and Bella are just two birds of a feather. From the outside, they might seem cringey because they’re "inhuman," and most people watching the movie are "human" (i.e., normal). As proof, I never found them cringey at all.

Also, my boyfriend gets insanely jealous of other guys around me, which is another reason I think he's so much like Edward. His jealousy isn’t normal at all (which is clearly a red flag). He once got paranoid enough to believe that my best guy friend had hacked his account for no reason and immediately said he hated him, even though he had never even talked to him face-to-face. How do you hate someone you’ve never even met? It reminded me of how Edward constantly hated Jacob. My boyfriend gives off the same vibe. To top it off, I knew my best guy friend kind of liked me but ignored it, which just makes the story feel even more relatable.