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self rant to the void of the internet.

I've been strugleing for the past few weeks. I know I've been letting my mental health slip a lil more each day. my birthday is coming up, and it's *a big one*. tbh, I can't tell anyone the last time I looked forward to my birthday, maybe 22, 23? bad shit ALWAYS happens around my birthday. like with out fail, so I've just grown to dread the weeks leading up to it. the current situation around a woman's right to choose seems to be this year's "super shitty shit". and man, I fucking hate how every year or so woman have to dig up our past choice (that most of us don't really wanna talk about) and put it out there for the world to judge just to be treated like actual humans. it sucks to have to do, and is emotionally draining. so I Havent been eating well, sleeping like shit, drinking too much, and letting my emotions get the better of me. my attempts to "keep my shit together" has only made things worse. so I decided today, "fuck it, I'm gonna let myself be weak". I'm gonna allow myself to not pretend to be strong. I'm gonna give myself my weekend to just, feel it all, to be a mess, to be upset and scared and worried and feel like no matter how hard I try I'm never going to get ahead (under capitalism). I'm gonna be frustrated that "I don't look good enough on paper to get a grant to buy a house". I'm gonna be scared about the future of my reproductive rights. I'm gonna be angry at the gentrification of my home. I'm gonna feel helpless about my future.

and then, come Tuesday, I'm gonna wake up, put on my best warpaint and be strong again. I'm gonna leave all my pain in this weekend and hopefully it will stay there. mental health is a war, and sometimes you gotta admit when you are losing a battle and just feel that loss so you can re-group and fight the actual war.

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My one hope for the Detective Pikachu movie is that the Squirtle Squad appears as a local gang at some point

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Scored today with this masterpiece of the last supper velvet painting!

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Use the fucking coasters!!

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Use the fucking coasters!!

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What a madlad

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Fantasy RPG Races as Dogs

Human:

Elf:

Dwarf:

Halfling:

Half Orc:

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Halloween goals.

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Italy negotiating its switch to the Allied Powers (1943) (colorized)

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Normal sleeping position.

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Me irl watching haunting of hill house.

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Bonus. It moves! So you can see the haunting in real time!

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Reason number 62 never to get a perm.

“It was when Mrs. Higgleby grabbed my ass did understand what was really going on.”

Good Housekeeping   February 1947