radiancediaries

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sometimes i just feel like love wasn’t meant for me in this lifetime. it’s been a lot of years. i haven’t found one person? not one? after 25 years?

i can’t force something with someone i’m not feeling. i’m not picky. at least i don’t think i am. i just want to be treated like im worth something? most of the time it just feels disposable. i don’t like that

but yeah maybe i’m just not meant for it in this life. everyone already had their loves and can’t get over their exes. something i haven’t experienced and can’t relate to. i don’t want to be someone’s second choice. somebody you’re settling for because you can’t have what you actually want.

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Are there any regular people left who aren’t mentally ill

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it’s an epidemic of guys not being over their exes but from like 5 years ago… are yall good? tf

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Mr Fox Pt.2

yeah me and mr fox not gone be longterm im seeing... he just want somebody at his apartment and ummm i wanted to go on dates and have princess treatment idk.

he asked me this dumbahh childish ahh question, whats my body count. im a virgin and ofc he start freaking out lmfaooo bruh thats why ion tell ppl cuz now he's acting like im a nun and shi... dawg nothing is changing. u wasn't finna crush fast either way so idk why u panicking... then he told me his big juicy secret lmaooo

he cant cum...?

im like... huh

then he makes all these voicenotes telling me about it but he's embarrassed and doesn't really wanna talk about it. but yeah i guess he never done it in his life like he physically cant...?

anyway he told me that so then i wouldnt be scared to go to his apartment i guess...because he doesnt care about sex like that...because he cant even orgasm..... little did he know, i still dont wanna go to your apartment. nigga i wanted a bf to GO OUT. not sit around yo musty apartment nigga ion know u lmaooooo

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Mr Fox Pt. 1

4th white boy, and 1st date of the year.

We’re going out tonight, he picked seeing nosferatu and typically i don’t really like movie dates but whatever, ima let him do him. 💀 idk

i don’t know what to expect because i barely even know what he looks like lmao his profile has not very good pictures… they not giving me enough information but i think he might be cute 😅 he’s 6’1, an accountant, and i think he’s funny so far. we’ve talked on the phone and the banter is quite good.

def has a few red flags i’ll tell you that lol he started talkin about he loves me lmaooo ofc it’s a joke but he dragging it lowkey telling me to say it back 💀 it’s funny but red flaggy and this ngga keep talking about his ex 😐🤨 yeah ur skating on thin ice buddy

i’ll update u guys later

update #1

yeah this ngga don’t listen 😒 i told him i don’t like movie dates cuz we can’t talk so maybe dinner and a movie…. he said okay he gonna find something.

ngga not sending the food plans im like.. are we gonna eat or… then he talking about im tryna bankrupt him …. umm… with a meal? crybaby ass get off of dating websites then. after that he talking about he so sleepy, he needa take a nap he stayed up late last night oooohhhh brotherrrr why u do that knowing u had a date the next day 🙄 already gomn ong

this late ahh movie he picked omg 10 pm u pmo i said yes to that bc i thought we were getting food before hand just leave me alone

update #2

movie was boring af omg yawn fest wth lmaooo long asl for no reason

i was lowkey being mean earlier when i said why he stay up late knowing he had a date

he has insomnia idk why tf the emoji so big it’s finna pmo but anyway he was ight id go out with him again ig im not jumping up and down abt it but yea he coo idk

his head is small lmaooo, he’s a little panicker, he was running around trying figure out how to get his tickets then panicking the find the room bro chill 😭😭😭😭

he was tall and smelled nice and reminded me a little bit of the man in the yellow hat

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revenge

i’m plotting revenge on this lady who hit my car dawg i’m still mad about that bc wtffffff howwwww the freak you get away with ts 💀💀💀 AND THE POLICEEEEE TALKING ABOUT WE NOT GON GO AFTER HERRRRR dawg.

im having dreams bout ts lmaoooo and i was thinking you know, be the bigger person, her life probably already miserable idgafffff im looking up how to send bed bugs to ppl thru the mail chile

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Hiiiii

here's my first post omg im nervous im just using this as a personal blog, an online diary of sorts you know. hopefully i dont get too scared to post on here