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lifehack: when you see a Take One candy bowl in a restaurant, wait until noones looking and shovel candy into your pockets. god may judge you but his sins outnumber your own

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so...I haven’t posted anything here in ages. I think I’ve grown apart from the fandoms that kept me here, and I no longer make fanart for them as you probably have noticed.

Therefore, I am closing this account for good. I think this account will stay as an archive, but I won’t post anything new.

If you would still like to keep up with my art, follow me at @/ftaephoria on twitter and Instagram. Please note that these are my Kpop stan accounts, so if you’re not into that I suggest not following.

I’ll still be keeping up with my cats a day, if anyone was worried.

Thank you for liking my art. Until next time <3

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I keep using my girlfriend with unusual work hours to get out of coworker interactions and happy hours and hanging out.

But now the company holiday party is upon us.

And I’ve been lying about the girlfriend.

I suddenly really empathise with the characters in Hallmark Christmas movies.

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trying some different things

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today i have some kagehina from the best timeskip kagehina fanfic i have ever read! god just read it, it’s so funny

https://archiveofourown.org/works/24601522/chapters/59427604

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THIS IS A REAL FUCKING COFFEE AU AND THE GUY IS A SIDE CHARACTER

imagine your otp

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i crawl out from the dead to bring (sort of) haikyuu fanart

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Eeeyyy happy birthday! (My bdays in a couple days XD)

thank you!!! happy early birthday to you!

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Happy day of birth!!

thank you so much!!!

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inch resting

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thank you haikyuu.

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the rose bush

i have a lot of plants.

tall plants, short plants, flowering plants, rigid plants, fragrant plants, smelly plants, everything in between.

the plants are everywhere, lining the windowsills, hanging off pots dangling from the ceiling, haphazardly curling against the walls. they shade my windows when i look outside. they sway in every gust of wind. sometimes i step into a room and it smells like someone dumped twenty different perfumes on the floor, the sweetly floral smell permeating through the walls.

i love my plants.

one of these plants is a rose bush.

i got it when i was little and it was just a single flower, small and curling under a mass of leaves and thorns. i set it in a corner of my room and it grew slowly, spreading up the walls and around the room. It didn’t flower as much as my other plants, but when it did each petal shone brilliantly, a glowing ruby in a bed of thorns.

i started to grow fond of it, its thorns and prickles somehow worming its way into my heart. for a blissful time, the rose bush blossomed brilliantly and i loved it.

then for some reason, it stopped blooming. suddenly, every time i tried to peer around for a sign of life or buds, its thorns would prick me, each wound deeper than before. i tried watering it more, giving it more fertilizer, even sometimes just sitting there and talking to it. nothing worked, and i only got a few blossoms every few weeks, instead of weekly or even daily like before.

i kept trying so, so hard. i thought if i worked hard enough, i could get the bush to flower more often again. but i couldn’t. 

and then a friend pointed out that its thorns were jutting into my other plants, leeching their nutrients, hiding their flowers. i couldn’t see some of my other favorite plants anymore.

the rosebush needs to go, i thought with a heavy heart.

but despite its sharp thorns, despite its parasitical behavior over my other plants, i couldn’t bear to just cut its roots out and be done with it. call it sunk cost fallacy if you will, but i had spent too long cultivating it, and like it or not i still had some of its blossoms pressed flat into collections. its roots had long spread through the walls and were no longer distinguishable. no matter what i did, something would remain.

finally i decided to trim it at its roots, making sure not to kill it, and i transferred it outside. there it has the freedom to grow wherever it wants without disturbing my other plants.

without disturbing me.

do i regret having the rose bush? no.

do i wish i had moved it farther away from me sooner? yes.

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rose bush, this is what i’ve been thinking about. if you read this, i’m sorry. i think this is the decision i will make for myself.

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a warmup

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the past few days have been really stressful so i think i’m getting a bit sick ‘_’

here’s a little doodle because i can’t motivate myself to do anything rn

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I’m cackling because this implies that kpoppies weren’t already pretty left-wing in 2018.

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this was meant for one very specific person and you know exactly who you are :)

“acting gay” isn’t a phase. changing and evolving my personality to accommodate the acceptance of my sexuality is not a phase. and there’s no way i’d ever think of going back.

sorry, hun~

wait, people get pissed when I act too gay?

...

That’s my cue to act gayer. Fuck them.

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wait, people get pissed when I act too gay?

...

That’s my cue to act gayer. Fuck them.