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what happened to old zealand

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It really be like that tho

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If you can’t remember the last time you forgot something, your memory is either excellent or terrible.

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But maybe that’s what growing up is. I mean, first they take away Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. Then they shatter the idealized vision you have of your parents. And finally they come looking for you! ‘Hey, little Asian girl: You know this life you were leading? The one you always thought was so special? Well, actually it’s not special at all. Actually you’re just a lonely, flawed person like everybody else. You’ll have some good times and you’ll have some bad times, but mostly you’ll just have a lot of boring times. Mostly your days will just be painfully uneventful.’ Hey, maybe if you boil it all down, Miguel, that’s what life is. Uneventful.

Mei-li, We Were Here, Matt de la Pena

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@teens and kids that are being bullied for speaking out:

each one of you is my hero.

i see you. i hear you. i’m standing with you.

don’t be discouraged. don’t let them silence you.

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fan art of “ Miraculous Ladybug “

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No money or time needed to help this Black girl find her missing mother. Please share this, it could save a life.

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How do you make people fall in love with you

challenge them to a duel 

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i hope the rest of july treats you well, august leaves you happy, september fills you with warmth, october gives you closure, november gives you new beginnings, december gives you A love of your life, and 2018 is fruitful and you love and are loved

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this is la vie en rose

@re-unknown and I finally got around to doing a collab; he linearted (very beautifully) chat and i did mari, he coloured (very nicely) mari and i coloured chat and finally i did background and lighting (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ 

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Please don’t get tired of me.

it happens every time. People lose interest in me. They get tired of me. Suddenly, they don’t bother hitting me up anymore. The conversations become shorter. They forget about me and I just become a distant memory. I wonder if it’s my fault sometimes. But then I realize that people never stay in my life. And there’s nothing I can do about it.

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Me on January 20, 2017

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Rage of the Nocturnal/Insomiac (1/13/17)

Did you know that young people adjust to time changes in schedule more quickly than those in their mid-50s? That in Editing, as long as work is done when the boss/client needs it & you show up for meetings, you don't necessarily always HAVE to work 9-5? That SOMEBODY has to work night shifts in places? That it's more important to have a good sleep schedule during daytime (though not ideal) than any insomniac one? That I've been criticized for not being on the same sleep schedule as my family, even though they don't need me for anything when they're up? That if they plan me to do something or get me while I'm sleeping, I do get up without hassle? That I just spent the last 2 weeks being ready to babysit at 9am, went to bed at 3AM because of insomnia, was exhausted, and still did fine? So I can in fact get up early, and I do make it to daytime plans on schedule. So if I'm not needed, is it necessary to be diurnal? Did you know that maybe, I already realize this somehow bugs people & I'm trying to fix it? Did you know that maybe I DO think about things and thought I would use this BREAK to RESPONSIBLY catch up on sleep before school resumed? That I sacrificed my own gradual but effective plan for physical recuperation so I wouldn't lie to my parents about my obvious degenerated physical health, thus hurting their feelings? That I've still been lying anyway so I can get psychological/emotional counseling because I don't want to hurt them with the truth that I don't think my mental problems can be "cured" and that school is a big stress, but not actually my main stress? That I'm not allowed to argue, that screaming into a pillow to vent will lead to an "argument", and that leaving the house so I can avoid creating an "argument" situation will in fact be its own cause of an argument situation? That my mom thinks my mental issues are her fault, caused by raising me wrong, yet also thinks whenever I mention either that I'm feeling depressed, or getting help for them, that in moments of admission I'm just faking it and using issues as an excuse/to guilt her? Did you know that's I already deleted this rant from Twitter because if help leaves evidence or my family or IRL friends see this, it'll get worse than it already is if I don't just take it?