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Dowoon i miss you so much. So much. I keep thinking of you everynight, everymorning. Thats make my heart feel so hurt. Please don't go. Dont leave me -24th

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Are you from Japan? Because Udon know how much I adore you. Are you a camera? Because everytime i look at you, i smile. Ciaaaaaa Are you smash's member? Because you know me so weeell. Boy i love you~ boy i miss you~ :( Are you a helicopter? Because you make my heart dugdugdugdugdug 😕 Are you jackie chan? Because i always wanna say to you ciaaattttu ciatu aku sayang kamu, dua dua juga sayang kamu. Ha. Apa bedanya kipas sama kamu? Kalau kipas bikin angin, kamu bikin kangen. Ga nyambung ya foto sama captionnya? Iyalah bukan sabang sama merauke. Soalnya dr sabang smpe merauke berjajar pulau2 sambung menyambung menjadi 1. God..why so jayus :( maap

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Bo aku pengen cerita sama kamu. Pengeeeeennn bgt ngomong sm kamu. Tp kamu kayaknya msh marah sm aku. Aku takut banget. Jadi aku cerita disini aja. Terserah dibaca atau ga. Jadi gini, ayah aku kan diajak ibadah di luar negeri sm orang. Harusnya udh pulang dr hari senin. Tapi gabisa pulang, paspornya ditahan sama pihak hotel krna blm dibayar. Pihak travelnya gamau tanggung jawab udah ga ada uang katanya. Sampe sekarang msh ditelantarin disana. Ga ada uang buat pulang. Gatau tinggal dimana makan apa. Aku sedih. Aku nangis. Tapi dikamar, aku gabisa nangis di dpn orang lain. Selalu aku butuh menyendiri di kamar. Tiap aku keluar aku mau nanya sm mama aku tp dia seems like she doesn't care with me. Kayak ga peduli aku ada. Aku bingung hrs ngapain ya aku diem aja drpd aku salah ngomong ato salah ngapa2in. Tapi tadi tiba2 dia marah2. Bilang aku ga peduli. Aku gapunya hati gatau apa2. Padahal aku tau, aku tanya adek aku, aku chat ayah aku. Aku tau. Aku sedih tp aku gabisa sedih didepan orang. Sekali aja aku lupa kalau marah ke orang tua tuh dosa aku pengen ngebantah sekali knp aku lagi yang dimarahin kenapa aku lg yg salah. Udah kerja engga, peduli ga. Lagi2 dibahas kerja juga. Aku bingung mesti gmn jadi anak. Udah gitu aja deh ga penting ya ha.ha. aku cuman mau cerita siapa tau mood aku lbh baik abis ini. Too much happening in last week. Udah aku jg makin sedih banget kamu gamau ngomong lg sm aku. Pdhl liat kamu chat aku aja mood aku udah langsung mendingan. Yaudah itu aja. Makasih ya kalo kamu mau baca. Maafin aku ya. Aku jg mohon doanya buat ayah aku biar bisa pulang. Makasih ya sekali lagi.

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Let's go to school with dowoonie~ Wait how can i eating ice cream with a dot in my mouth T_T 😭

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I missed you soooooooooo much. I really want to talking with you again and promise i don't want to make you angry again.

Because i always find one more thing i like about you, one more reason to care about you, and more reason to love you. Every single day.

- dw

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"Yooooo watsup gengs! Dowoon in da house yow yow. Peace love and gawl~"

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Dowoon is diving but...wait.... "WAAAAA I'M SINK HELPPPPP MEEEE ada hiuuuu"

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And you are still in my mind every night when i want to sleep. Every morning when i just woke up. Everytime when i remember im still waiting your message but its never come. Aku cmn khawatir sm kamu. I missed you so much. I hope you can give me a time for talking with you again.

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My feeling always mixed seeing you like this. First i'm happy then i really really sad. But i hope you always happy

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Kalau rindu adalah musim kemarau Kamu adalah hujan yang aku tunggu-tunggu Kalau rindu adalah padang gersang Kamu adalah mata air yang ingin aku temukan Kalau rindu adalah malam Kamu adalah bintang yang akan selalu aku rindukan Kalau rindu terpenjara bersamaku Kamu adalah angin yang aku inginkan untuk menghempaskan rindu ketempat lain Menghembuskan penawar dan mengantarku kembali pulang ke kamu

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Hey Now at 12.05 a.m(?) Oh it's midnight Idk what i should to write in here but i miss you a lot Really I always re-read our conversation before i sleep then my feeling become...idk i can smile, laughing then crying after reading it. But i often crying because i miss you so much. I still don't know why being so emotional to me i really don't know. You were like my home before. Always. I always can smiling talking with you and my day become easier. Until now. Until now i still seeing my home in you. But maybe you are too tired to have me on your shoulder. Or too tired to hold my hands again. Im sorry. Really really sorry. I put so much pressure in your shoulder. Im so sorry. I feel i'm a homeless girl without you. Now i have found you. Can you please just stay here, because i don't wanna be homeless anymore. You can also borrow my shoulder too for you. Im so happy if you want to do that. You still have me in here. I want to be your home too sometimes. I still really sorry to you. I miss you so much. Aku beneran khawatir sm kamu. Aku jg gatau tumblr ini bakal kamu baca apa ga tp aku cmn mau tau aku serius khawatir sm kamu. Aku serius msh sayang sm kamu. Aku bener2 minta maaf bgt buat semuanya. Im really feel bad to you. Aku cmn minta 1, please don't go. Im begging you. I don't want to talk too much so i just feel sorry to you.

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Hey It's just 2 days we haven't talking But i already missed you, im not lying. Today is our date too but it's already over right? I always trying to be okay, but if i did nothing i will miss you again and again. I don't know what should i do but writing anything in everywhere, except writing thesis ㅋ then i choose to writing in here too. Writing everything. Good if writing can make me feel better. Im sorry for all my mistakes really really sorry. I always make you mad at me again and again. I will give you anything i can if you can forgive me. I really sorry from my deeply heart. It's just 2 days but it's hard for me. I used to run to you whatever my condition is, did you remember? You're always be the part of my system. Now i should told myself "it'd be better if you just try to hang on there without holding his hands. He needs his time too." Seeing my bo look so happy in his timeline made me smile. But in the same time i feel sad too. Am i like toxic in your life? Seems like i just ruined your mood and made you always mad at me. I always blame my self if i remember you. Idk my feeling was so mess. I was thinking "i don't even know will you searching me if i suddenly disappear? But i think no". This problem made me become really sensitive in this 2 days. Watching show, i cried. Watching someone performance, i cried. Reading a story, i cried. Then my stomach always hurt because my period and i really cried all day. I missed you and my stomach won't be friend with me too. It's so sad and not cool I missed when you were told me anything. I'll forgot my problems then smiling when reading anything for you. Why? I dont even know why. I just feel you are believe me, walaupun aku not the best one at giving advices. Aku cuman mau bilang jangan capek sama yg kamu lakuin hari ini, besok dan seterusnya. Jangan patah semangat. Seberat apapun yang kamu hadapin, you have to keep a faith on yourself. There are many people who always be by yourside even at your worst time. You’re not alone because im here with you. (( i told this to myself too but dunno if it's works ㅋㅋ)) /BGM: Michael Jackson - You’re Not Alone/

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Orang di timur berkata melati itu indah Orang di barat berkata "hei mawar itu indah" Orang di selatan berkata tidak ada yang lebih indah dibanding melihat aurora Orang di utara berkata tamannya sendirilah yang indah Dan saat mereka diam, aku berkata bahwa kamulah yang lebih indah Lebih putih dari melati di timur Lebih memikat dari mawar di barat Lebih mempesona dari aurora di selatan Dan lebih menyenangkan dari sekedar taman di utara

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I already made a something for you. I have a plan to give you this next month. But idk it seems like you really hate me now T_T  I really dont know what can i say. I'm so sorry if i still and always make so many mistakes, i really didn't want to do that. Im trying my best to do anything for you, idk if my mistake always this big to you, but i din't mean to be. I really sorry with all my heart, i know if before i made a mistake too and i know im wrong. But now i really don't know if my words really hurting you so much T.T i really want you still here with me but im so struggle and that make me said another words, such a bad words. 

 My heart is so hurt you leave me again like this. Im so sorry. Im not even sleep until now since yesterday. I can't even sleep idk. Once i just close my eyes for 2 minutes suddenly i dream about you again and thats scarry again im so scarred, im afraid, thats make me woke up and can't sleep again until now... I really miss you soooo much. I won't you leave me again. Really i still want you in here with me, i dont want you leave me now. Please 

 You can open this now it's ok im afraid i really can't meet you again so i give you this now T.T I miss you so much. I hope you like this :(

https://steller.co/s/72VBMEDnHzU

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Happy 8

Selamat tgl 8 yang ke 9. Kalau ibu hamil udah lahiran kali ya. Kalau anak bayi udh belajar diri. Hahahah Aku punya sesuatu buat kamu di cek aja deh hahaha Tapi kali ini jangan ngarepin ada lily disitu because fotonya dikit 😭 jadi ya pake somi aja lah mau somi atau lily yang penting i love you~ https://youtu.be/ukGNyNAIOTc

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HAPPY 7 MONTHS ! Hello mine, Happy 8 for the 7th! Wow ncel 7 bulanan!! i bet both of us ga ada yg nyangka udah sampe sejauh ini dan waktu cpt bnr lalunya. But we made it! yes we made it hahaha seriously, im thankful for having you still i dont know when you said that you feel you gotta hurt me by your act tapi kenyataannya kalo aku tetap yang sayang dan care ke kamu sampe detik ini dan ga ada rasa2 kesal yg gimana apalagi benci. Ini jujur. Jadi seperti setiap2 bulannya aku pengen bilang terimakasih ke kamu yg udah mau sayang dan care ke aku jg selama 7 bulan ini. Makasih buat waktunya ke aku, candaannya, ceritanya, supportnya dan rasa2 sebelnya hahaha ya ga apa2 aku mau kalo kita ceritanya yg senang dan yg sedih juga. Seimbang dong ya kan? Ya pokoknya argumen2 kecil yg mungkin suka kita buat juga aku ambil hikmahnya (halah) buat koreksi ke diri sendiri karna aku bukan yg perfect dan emg ga ada manusia yg perfect jg sebenarnya. Dan i feel sorry kalo kamu ngerasa aku terlalu bawel, tapi percayalah ncel itu karna aku sayang ke kamu he he actually i dont mind too kalo kamu bawel juga ke aku, im glad. Wah panjang juga, oke ini bukan pidato kepala sekolah. So! 7 bulan sudah and i still want to be yours, then lets continue our story here. I love you. - DW, Desember 2016

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Happy Half A Year

Happy 6 months, love. Selamat setengah tahunan, boncelku sayang. I dont know if i really worth to be loved by you, but thank you for everything you did to me. Ga cukup sekali dua kali kayaknya bilang kalo aku bener2 senang punya kamu. Kalo bisa pamer ke yang lain, aku mau pamer kalo aku punya orang yg aku sayang, yg selalu ada buat aku setiap harinya. Tapi ga boleh, pamer itu ga baik kan? hehe cukup aku aja yang tau. Semoga kamu selalu bahagia sama aku. Even when the hard times and good times kita hadapinnya bareng2. Let me love you more, ncel. ---------------------------------------------------- L : Lily morrow is her name. I : I fall for her more and more each day. L : Loving her is such a happiness for me. Y : You know what? she always make me smile when i almost forgot how to. M : My one and only. O : Others cant make me feel so special like she did. R : Really, how to unlove her? i cant and wont. R : Reply the time, i want to know her first and make her to be mine till now. O : Oh im so glad for having her. W : Words cant explain it. I love her, really do. - Dowoon, Nov 2016