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[rambles-of-a-dragon]

It was pretty easy for me to figure out that I'm a dragon. I occasionally have doubts, but that's likely just because of how easily and quickly things clicked for me when I found out about alterhumanity, otherkin, therians, etc.

It took a little longer for me to figure out the shapeshifter aspects, which was also a bit of why I was uncertain for a while and still occasionally question myself on this. But I'm pretty certain that I'm a dragon

As far as I remember I've always known about dragons and have always loved dragons. To the point that pretty much anyone who has met me almost immediately knows that I like dragons.

When I was little, and even now, I'd take any opportunity to play as a dragon whether it be in a video game or a roleplay.

In elementary school when I was around five years old I remember one of my best friends telling me that they're a werewolf, and that my immediate response had just been to accept that and then tell them that I'm a dragon. I've also always done things that would be considered odd by most people around me, and that the people closer to me just accept as just being how I am.

So when I learned about alterhumanity and such things just immediately clicked and made sense to me.

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Journaling

Gender identity:

Something that's interesting to me is how gender identity can be affected by alterhumanity, likely because gender is a social construct to an extent. I'm pretty sure I'm Genderfluid and Genderflux, or at least some other kind of gender identity that isn't cis. My gender sort of stays consistent in some ways for long periods of time. One of those ways is if I'm more masculine feeling or more feminine feeling, or something that is a mix of both or neither.

But since I'm a dragon who feels like I also have some amount of human to me, I've noticed how immediately that trait can change depending on what part of me I'm focusing more on. The part of me that feels human or at least more human like at this point of time tends to feel more masculine if I focus on just that part of me. While if I focus more on the more dragon part of me I feel more feminine or like there's not any lean to either side at all.

But what's also interesting is that the human masculine feeling is different from what a dragon masculine feeling is like, and a dragon feminine feeling is different from a human feminine feeling. Which from what I can tell is likely because of the difference between the two species and how they interact with others of the same species.

Most of the time I'm not in one extreme (though I am almost always more dragon than human mentally, it's just that there's usually some bit of human there too. Not sure if that is from being in a human body and living in a human society that I was also raised in. Or if I am just an odd mix of human and dragon hybrid to some extent. Could also be both or neither). But because I'm a bit more of a mix most of the time, at least from what I think I've figured out, that may be why my gender identity tends to lean more neutral or at least more ambiguous.