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Looking back on some posts i made here... wow im embarrassed.... its so exhausting being like that. I like to hope ive mellowed out a bit since then. Found a bit of peace and whatnot. Started talking to more people who GENERALLY care for me. Started taking my own health into consideration and just. It feels... okay...

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I made this blog when i was at my lowest and i think im finally ready to move on and post here more. But more about positivity and less just bitter ugly shit just because i can. I dont have many followers here so its kinda a safe space to rant. But im going to rant mindfully

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o shit

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Hello

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When you don’t eat for a day, and when you get out of bed the world is like

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How to heal when you've been angry for your whole life??

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I don’t really know what to say

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I have depression, anxiety, avoidant personality disorder and an eating disorder and hhhhhshhssbjjshs Im going med free anf hshh im slowly dying the closer Christmas approaches Lmao Immmmm Honestly doing so bad scoobert

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i dont want to be jealous or angry because good things are happening to people and im stuck here with literally nothing, but its s͇͎͍̓͐͛o̙̺̹̊̃̆ f̧̰̳̲͎͉̫̪̫̄̿͑̈̾̅̿̒̋̚ͅụ̪̯͚̜̟̮̪̓̏͋̾̃̔̽͗͌̓͜ͅC̢̢͇̠̗͈̞̦̩̲̈̏́̽̊́͑̄̕̚K̨̘̗̬̙̺̞̰̞̘̽̓̆̒́̚͘͘͝͠Ḭ̫͓͖̖͙̫͎̠̫͑̇̽͛̾̀̊̂̈́̓N̨̡̥͖̦̘̫͉̣̈́̈́̎͋͂͗̀̄͛͘ͅG̛̦͖͓̲̬̤̤̦̖̟̓̅́̔́͋̾͂͘ ͚̣̮͕̩̹͇̞̓̇͑̎̏̎͂́͜͠͠��L̡̹̰̝̺̰̻̜̼̫̺͎͇̤̥͍͉̗̞̭̖̖̼͙̏́͂̏̈́͌͐̌̅̌͗́̄͊̃̍̈́͗́̈̈͂̌̕̕͘̚͝͝͝͠͠ͅ ̡̨̢̡̡̩̣̰͍̰͈̖͕̗͈̙̠̼͚̠̭͕̺͇̩̩̎̆̐̋͒̈́́͑͂͌̇̒͒͗̉̊̏̄̏̀̎̇͐̐̔͑̈́̽̄̓̽̚͝͠ͅƠ̡̨̨͎͈̺͚̞̤̗̝̼̻̬̪̬̟̭͍͔̩͔͍͙͇͌̓̓̓̓͌̎̏̅̎͛̉̐̇̐̑̏̈͛͒͌̽̀̔̓́̎̒̂́̈̃̕͝ͅ ̡̢̳̜̟̟̥͚̪͇̹̻̞͙͚͎̣̻͚̮̜̭͙̞̤̹̫̀̄̓̇͊͒̒̍̀̈́̿̌̏͛̑̽̓͛͂̊̓͌́͋͌͋̚̕̕͝͠͠͝͝Ư̧̧̧͎̝̫̱̜̝͙̥̥̰͖͈̲̤͈̹͈̘̘͙̮̘̣̭͓͚̿̅̍̓̀̈́̔͗̌̂͛͂̐̈́̽̿͑͊̀̌́͗̈͌͐̃̎̓͐͐̔͝ ̡̡̧̛̳͎̭͔̝̬͎̜̞̜̤̠̱̥͉̙͉͓͙̻̜͈̍̈́̀̌͗̊́̔͋̏̈́͊̔͋̽̅̓́̋̊͆̌̇̿́̔̂͒͂̂͐̕͘͜ͅͅD̡̨̢̗̺͎̭͖͚̻̥̱͙̥̩̩̳̹̳̪̰͕̼̺̳́̄́͊̂̔̍͗́͋̄̇͑̉͂͗͊̈̇̀͛͂͒͑̂̎͋̃̀̓̄͘͜͝͠

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I just KNOW i would be so much more happier and healthier if i lived on my own I could have friends over whenever i wanted and make my place my own and just LIVE i cant do that here and its wearing me down so much.... I just want to say goodbye to my parents and break away from them and move forward. I want to be independent and see them only a few times a month. I need SPACE! I need QUIET! And i need a chance to HEAL!

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I just need to kick myself im the ass and get a job and move out Im sick of living like this